Sometimes the past is
begging to be forgotten.
Just for a moment, the
perfect blend of events
align themselves, and it's
as if a particular memory,
a certain habit, or addiction
can be let go of,
completely and without
traces.
My mind incredulously
wants to hold on,
attached to what has
been mine, or has been
me for so long. But
the release is to clear
and simple, my past
doesn't need to haunt
me anymore. I can
fully let go without
looking back.
I am not sure why
this happens, and
I've lived through
a few of these moments,
where my whole life is
reprogrammed in an instant,
and out of a sudden,
I am not the same anymore.
The change is so profound
that it affect me for
the rest of my life.
When they studied the
development of language
in infants, they realized
that it wasn't a constant
evolution, but there were
leaps and plateau. I
relate to this in my
evolution.
One of my meditation
teacher was explaining
the sensation of letting
go, without attachment
or desire to let go.
Sitting in silence,
without intention,
but being able to sense
the moment these layers
of the self peals away
naturally. He would describe
the sensation, as if a
jelly fish would flow out
of the body, freeing some
space.
This is how it feels
when my past is simply
ejected from my reality.
I'm going through a lot
of transition at this
moment, and it's all
making so much more sens.
