She texted me, and of course
that calmed my mind. I'm afraid
of the end, she seems to want
to sustain something...
I don't really know, but
one thing I know is that
I have to calm down,
enjoy the ride.
I've practiced some
meditation about
visualizing the light,
filling my body. It
was quite powerful and
I realize that my
abstinence has
modified my energy
levels. I forgot
about this, but it's
also quite exciting
to see that change.
It reminded me of
another event where
I realize today that
it might have been
a kundalini experience.
Sexuality mix strangely
with spirituality at
some point and the
culture I live it would
make fun of talking about
how sexuality can be
an essential part of
of the generation of
chi or prana. But I
realized yesterday
the intricate connection
between both, and what
it means in my personal
development.
I feel my life is going
to get weirder by the minute,
and reading Bukowski tend
to calm my own personal
judgment...
