Yesterday I went on a walk
The acid was quite strong,
yet comfortable.
I needed to connect with
nature, so I stepped out
for a moment. I was still
tripping so I had a hard
time walking in the forest.
The light from the house
created too many shadows
in a very dark night, I
couldn't find my footing.
I extended my arm to touch
the bark of the tree in
front of me that I couldn't
really see, and I recognize
the bark right away,
my friend the cedar.
A few months ago, I had a
sitting with a cedar. He
told me my relationship
with my wife was over. I
didn't want to listen,
which made for a more dramatic
ending.
This time I wanted to listen
more to the wisdom of the cedar.
I turned my back toward the
tree. I felt the energy pulling
up, a few deep seated shiver
shook my spine and body.
I looked at the stars. It was
a lovely discussion. A lot around
beauty, each time an intrusive
though about sometime I was doing
wrong would come in, I would
reapeat it's all human, it's
beautiful.
I was told I wouldn't go
to Mexico next month, I
will stay home. My mom is
coming to visit and I'll
take the time to be with
her and heal what needs to
heal. My foot and my leg
needed more rest and runing
around the world is not
a good idea at this moment.
I experienced shift in my
perspective on my loneliness,
my companionship and how to
move forward. I saw the need
to care more for my daughter,
her archetype of mother and
father now separated, she
needs the space and time
to heal and re-define who
she is, in this new broken
trinity.
It was good and gentle. I
cried a bit realizing I wouldn't
see my friends. Friends whit whom
I shared many moment of healing
through Huachuma and psylocibin.
But it was a good closure for
a lot of stressful elements
that were floating in my life.
I came inside, took a bit of
that cedar, boiled some tea.
The healing effect of the tea
was felt throughout my body.
The surge of vitamin C and
the anti-inflamatory sensation
were really present.
Cedar are so common that
I didn't see them as healing
plants. As I slowly open
to that realization I feel
blessed to see so many
healing trees all around
where I live.
