I just experienced
liberation
I am shaking
I want to cry
reality shifted
I'm excited
I was afraid
a path was being created
and then dissolved
I didn't do
anything really
I kept calm
I kept quiet
and then...
it happened
it felt
through the cracks
it just disappeared
I somewhat didn't
have anything
to do with it.
but I lived it
I am now free.
It'll probably
not last for long
for the moment
it's magical
this void
this emptiness
there was fear
there was worry
there was psychosis
and in an instant
it all disappeared.
I could go on
chasing reality
but now I know
it's unreal
I would need to
put the effort
to re-create
to force it in
into my life
in someone else
personal life
but it's not real
it was so clear
was so direct
I don't get it
I'm following
other people
reality
I get sucked in
other's world
I can't escape it
by myself.
I get taunted
I get aroused
I get sucked in
I get locked in
right now there is
nothing to do
just this void
I feels at home
I knew it clearly
from the start
that it was wrong.
That it's not
the path
I want to go on.
But I still walk
right in the trap,
but I still get
my life in shamble.
Is it for me?
is it for her?
Why am I on
this strange mission?
healing others
before myself.
I walk the path
stepping into
the fire ring
of other's life.
She's not ready
getting into
the healing path
that brings us two
I'm am grateful
the path is done
I can walk home
without harm done
I was afraid
life would end up
in some drama
I couldn't plan.
Why can't I choose
the path I'm on
is it dharma
or just my life?
