Day 4 of family vacation. Spent the first 3 days driving up from San
Diego... I'm already totally exhausted. My family is mostly
extroverts, so it takes a lot of energy out of me when I'm around
them, even though I enjoy it. Plus, I'm still recovering from a cold.
It's a good feeling kind of exhaustion though. It's hard to be too
negative while you're on vacation.
Being around my family makes me think about how I've started to grow
as a person since leaving home. It's interesting to be reminded of
patterns and habits that I used to be a part of, and comparing that
to how I really feel when I have the chance to process the same
pattern without their influence.
One problem I always face when trying to write is that the things I
want to capture are not easy to express in words. This is most true
of intuitive experiences. I don't know how to translate these into
the technological world at all, except rarely through code. Maybe
it's not a world they belong in, but something keeps compelling me to
try. The closest match I've seen is in retrocomputing... something
about interfacing with a piece of decontextualized history makes a
really deep connection in my brain somewhere, and I want to expand
that connection and find out what possibilities it can contain.
There has to be new creation within it though. Re-living the past is
not enough to trigger the N-thoughts.
