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Thursday, July 21st 2022 - Appetite for Self-Destruction
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I warned you that sometimes this blog may get personal.
Well, days like today is why. You might have noticed (all
2 of you who read my stuff) that I didn't have a phlog entry
yesterday. The reason? I decided to have beer the night
before.
Thats not a big deal, you're thinking to yourself. How many
beers? Just a few, which still isn't a big deal. The
issue is the next day, when I wake up and still have beer
left over. I am incapable, because of my addictive nature,
of allowing alcohol to exist in the house passively. Meaning,
I drink whatever is available. And when I wake up and there's
still beer left over, it becomes breakfast. Now you begin
to see the problem.
It derails my entire day. And I know it's going to, and yet
I still indulge myself anyway.
This lack of self-control is evident throughout almost every
aspect of my life. It's the #1 reason I haven't accomplished
my goals in life. I'm trying to change a lot of behaviors
and blaze a new path for myself, and if I'm going to maintain
motivation, this needs to be one of the first things on my
list.
On a lighter note, I have a shiny new Arch Linux install on
my laptop. Spent my "lazy" day yesterday configuring the
desktop and getting everything to my liking. Today I'm
going to add the black arch repos and install my InfoSec
toolchain, and then it's back to class.
