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Title: Looking forward to being alone.
Date: 2022-04-19
Device: Laptop
Mood: Lazy
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Honestly, the last few weeks have really taken a
toll on me. Inventory:
1) Body. I've not been doing a good job of looking
after myself. I've not been walking, and mainly
been sedentary at home. I don't have a particular
excuse; I guess I told myself it was 'fine' to
have a few weeks off after a week of skiing but in
truth this didn't do me any favours. I'm just so
weak at the moment. On Sunday, I went for a walk;
about 3 miles. My back ached after. I worry that
my twenty-five-ish years of sitting down to work
have damaged me.
2) Mind. I've been in a particularly bad set of
habits. Too much phone time, especially when I
wake up, and at night. Scrolling feeds, news, shit
memes. I took a couple of recovery measures this
morning; blocked reddit.com and discord.com and
avclub.com again. I don't need that noise.
3) Environment. I've been at home a LOT recently.
I'm only going out infrequently (not that I have
any real reason to go out). When I am at home, I'm
mainly lying in bed or sat at the computer. Also,
H and A have been around a lot, given that it's
the easter break from school. To be clear, I don't
resent their presence, but it does disrupt a lot
of the routines which I set for myself. I'm
typically alone at home between 0700 and 1700, and
I'm used to that. These weeks when they are home
mean that I don't stick to my usual rhythm. I
don't know why.
4) Hobbies. This is actually kind of okay. I've
been gaming a little more, but not a lot. H and I
are watching some interesting stuff together in
the evenings, and I'm cooking a lot more. I'm
actually looking forward to H and A going back to
normal schedule because it'll mean I can cook
every night. Sometimes I know that H likes to plan
and cook in the afternoon but when it's back to my
responsibility I'll be happy with that. Things
feel in balance here. I just need to get back to
working out more.
