Yesterday I had the impulse, for 3 times at least, to delete my
federated wiki and start all over, I don't know, with IkiWiki or
TiddlyWiki again. But I stopped myself each time. I knew I was not in a
good mood/state to make the decision (too tired, grumpy). Also,
federated wiki is among the most promising takes on hypertext in years,
even decades.
Anyway, I am in a better state this morning to reflect on this. The
onboarding process of the federated wiki includes a step where you
designate a page that represents your work, which would also be the main
entrance to the wiki.
The reason I feel so uneasy working on the wiki is not that I don't have
time or energy to write, but that I don't have something that interest
myself enough to say.
For a moment I considered writing about my work at my job. Then the idea
startled me. Like many others, I have let my work define me so much that
I am practically living to work (for my boss) instead of working so I
can have a life.
Work has already taken a large proportion of my time every day. It is
ridiculous that I let it continue to dominate what I need and want to do
for my personal growing. For the longest time I mistake growing for
doing better at my job, whatever that is, instead of thinking it as
becoming a better person with more to share.
