With more order comes more chaos. In terms of my "goals" I have done a
fairly good job thus far of exercising more and cutting the junk food; I
already feel much healthier now than I did. I'm going to work on an
outline of the projects I want to complete, and a better outline of how
to accomplish them, which is all very good, I think.
Unfortunately, I've also run into some walls. Things have come to a
point where push is coming to shove, and I'm going to have to learn to
speak up or totally lose my mind. I've read that it's fairly common for
women to have issues with being assertive, and that definitely rings
true for me. I've had problems asserting myself essentially my whole
life, and I was absolutely discouraged from doing so as a child. Not to
delve too deep, but my father was very... let's say "old fashioned" in
the worst possible ways. He definitely wanted a son, and he was woefully
unprepared for what he got. Either way, I really need to learn to break
out of that kind of conditioning and be my own person. It's my life
after all, and I should be able to live it in a way that makes me happy
while doing the least harm to others that I can.
Some other good news, is that I've got some more concrete focus on what
I want to do; I would really like to become a Sysadmin or a NOC
Engineer, and to that end I've decided that I'm going to focus hard on
getting the A+ and Network+ certifications before the end of the year,
and start really studying Python, because that seems to be a very
popular skill listed on job applications, and writing simple scripts
shouldn't be much harder than learning simple shell scripting (I hope).
I do wish I had someone to study with who was in a similar position as
me, but I've rarely been averse to going it alone, and this is no
different.
Thank you, dear reader, for taking another peek into my life. I hope the
weather where you are is as pleasant as the weather where I am. It feels
like a rebirth.
