Life is such a confusing process. It's so hard to understand what I want
most of the time these days. Some days anything is overwhelming, and
other days I feel like I'm on top of the world. I often wonder,
privately, how happy I am with the state of my life and the decisions
I've made. Within the past couple of years I moved across the country,
changed jobs a few times, lost friends, made new ones, started seeing a
terapist, gotten engaged, changed my name, and fallen in and out of
various kinds of relationships. I was more or less a shut-in for a
number of years, and I wonder if I was happier then. At least, things
were much simpler. I mostly just wish for a clear path to deal with the
ambient level of distress I've been dealing with more and more. Anyway,
that's about where I am with my life or my assessment of my "self" right
now, and it feels nice to put it down somewhere.
