F U C K E D  U P  C O L L E G E  K I D S
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               - t h e  p o e t r y  v e n t u r e -
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       in a word, poetry is celebration.  of your thoughts,
       of your emotions, of your life.  or of nothing.  sometimes
       it is pure unmoderated venting while at times it is a
       very efficient means for outburst. one piece can mean
       everything to one, and nothing to the rest. odd, that
       sometimes in those cases, it isn't the author that it
       means something to.

       to keep writing in a field that will never be explained.

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       fuck poetry

       poetry
       defines who and what you feel
       its content should be interpreted
       by the reader and what
       they
       get
       out
       of
       it.
       not because of someone
       else's say so.

       poetry is never
       done
       just right.
       it
       just
       is.

       simunye         11-14-97



       chosen paths

       I glance to the side.
       There walks a man,
       His smile tentative, unsure.
       He trudges alongside me,
       On this path we've shared
       For what seems like
       Forever.
       The embodiment of stability,
       Of steadfastness,
       I meet his eyes,
       Where I glimpse occasional
       Understanding.
       I grasp his hand,
       So as to keep him in step with me.
       I know this man,
       The nurturing, the dependability,
       The weaknesses, the doubts.
       Comfort is his name.
       I glance to the side.
       There walks a boy,
       A sensual smile, that come hither look
       Of seduction gleaming.
       He dances alongside me,
       On a path all his own,
       Hands reaching to entice,
       Eyes daring, mocking, beckoning
       Me to share his path but offering
       No guarantees.
       I reach for his hand,
       So as not to lose sight
       Of something so potentially precious.
       I know this boy,
       The sensuality, the desire.
       Lust is his name.
       I glance behind me,
       Three sets of footsteps angling
       Ever closer,
       Sure, in time, to meet.
       I glance ahead of me.
       My vision blurs.

       krystalia



       when you look upon your rose bush and take a deep sigh
       when you look across the mountains and rivers in your back yard
       when you look through the face of the valley                 you say
               my god
                       why is the world so beautiful
       and

       when i wake up in an alley with trash cans piled on top of me
       when i wake up with the view of my druggie friends   one dead
       when i wake up and look out onto the street                  i say
               my god
                       why is the world so beautiful

       rage



       Delusions

       Looking around, and reaching upward,
       I finally have found that I have been contained,
       captured in a delusion.

       A delusion that you actually cared,
       and that I mattered to you.
       Delusions that I would be missed,
       or wondered about at all.

       Looking around, and reaching upward,
       I pull myself out and look about.
       The sun is shining bright.
       Funny, how I got used to such darkness.

       Now reaching out, I begin to realize,
       that the days that are now a daze,
       no longer matter, because,
       The delusional walls, are coming down.

       A delusion that you actually wanted me,
       or cared that I lived or died.
       Friendship supposedly stronger,
       that was a delusion that I believed, too.

       Pulling myself up, I am leaving you behind,
       wishing things could have turned out non-delusional,
       but, before I drown in a room of illusions,
       I now walk out the door, knowing you never cared at all, or no more.

       Delusions now known,
       the game is over,
       and I am no longer a pawn to be tossed astray.
       You have written me off, but now I write you out.

       Kamira          September 7th, 1997



       as i am

       quite simply
       take me
       as i am
       make me not a
       burgeoning butterfly
       dressed up in mother's
       theater gown
       touch me not with
       fingertips velvet
       too shyly to meet
       with fleshly notice
       speak to me not with
       words too light to
       crush a sparrow wing
       instead,merely
       allow me to be me
       loving you



       where there's a WILL...

       crime

       once, and you are lucky
                       twice - talented
       the third time is charm
       four times - a legend
               five times?
               fucking invulnerable.
       or not. you're just a gambler's dream

       dis.            (dedication to sensai voyager)


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       F O U N D E D:                         October 30, 1997