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Date: Thu, 30 Jan 1997 15:44:15 -0800
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********************Black and Blue*********************
Issue 17
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So, this is the first issue of 1997. Last year was a good year, and
hopefully this
year gets better. I'm going to try to start a print version, but I don't
know if I'll have the
funds. We'll see what happens and I'll keep you updated.
1997 has started out weird. I made a resolution to be straight edge,
and so far I
haven't had any cigarettes of alcohol. I never really did drugs. I'm
kinda proud of myself
and I like being sober a lot better. However, this zine is not going to
turn into a straight
edge zine and I'm not going to rant about straight edge. I do not think
that just because I
choose to be substance free that I'm better than those who aren't. I
could never base my
reason for disliking someone on the fact that they do drugs, drink, or
smoke.
It's friday morning, as I write this. I didn't have school today cos it
snowed last
night and I guess the road conditions are bad. It's still snowing. I
guess the skiers and
snowboarders are happy. It's kinda depressing to me, I hate the cold.
Plus, my parents are
freaks and they won't let me drive in the snow. Which means I'm stuck in
the house all day
unless I can find a ride. Oh well. Here's issue 17, enjoy.
love,
Heather
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Someone e-mailed me and asked me who I was. I thought that was
interesting and also
thought that a lot of other people were wondering the same thing.
Considering I've been
doing this for a little over a year and no one really knows much about
me, except through my
writing. So, for anyone who's wondering, I'll do my best to tell you a
little bit about myself.
My name is Heather, but most people probably already know that. I live
in
Richmond, Vt. Which is way out in the middle of nowhere. I'm surrounded
by rednecks who
can't and won't accept me for who I am. But, not all is bad cos I have a
car and I frequently
travel into the city of Burlington (it's still really small) to see my
friends and go to shows. I'm
17 and a junior in high school. I like to write a lot, I want to be a
writer. I hope to go to
college in NYC, because I love the city and don't want to waste my life
in VT. I'm currently
unemployed and loving it (I guess I just don't want to grow up). I love
going to shows and
listening to punk, hardcore, and ska. I guess that's about all anyone
would really want to
know. But, you can e-mail me if you've got anymore questions or you want
to talk.
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==========REVIEWS==========
/zines/
Outpatient #1
This is a very good zine, done by my friend Todd and two of his
friends. It's
extremely well written and the layout is fantastic. It even has a full
color cover. But, don't
think your gonna get scamed for money cos it's only two bucks. And it's
well worth your
money. It keeps your attention the whole time and never gets boring.
Send e-mail to
[email protected] for more information. Or visit the web page at:
http://www.unix.oit.umass.edu/~tkennedy
Heartstar #10
This is a kool e-zine, written by Barbra. I think I like it so
much, because she
reminds me a lot of myself. One of the pieces in this issue, is about a
girl talking about
how Rancid is sold out and about who is punk and who isn't. Also, she
seems to like to go
to a lot of shows. So, e-mail Barbra and get on the mailing list:
[email protected]
Sin 7 #1
This isn't really a zine, it's a comic book. Anyway, all the art is
done by Shaun
Varney of 5 Seconds Expired and the story is by Derek Pearson. It's
about a girl, who
broke into some soft of factory to steal information. Along the way, she
meets some other
people who are looking for the same stuff. The art is great, however,
the story could use a
little work. It's dull in some places and leaves the reader questioning
what's going on. But,
I think this is Derek's first time doing a comic book, so we have to
give him some slack.
I'm sure he'll get the hang of things. Send $1 to: Pazuzu, POB 5763,
Burlington, VT,
05402.
/music/
Tree- Downsizing the American Dream
This album sounds unlike any other album Tree has put out. Lyrically,
they've
gotten more political than they were. Musically, they've slown down and
gotten more
intricate. I sure can't say I don't like it, cos I love it. They even
threw in a cover of "This
Land," done thrash style. If you like Tree, chances are you'll like this
album. (Write:
CherryDisc Records, Inc., POB 990424, Boston, MA, 02199, webpage:
http://www.cherrydisc.com, e-mail:
[email protected])
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===Heather Ponders===
Why is it that people get pissed when someone tries to "save their own
ass?" Is
that what life is about - trying to save yourself cos you know no one
else will?
Think about it - you get in trouble with a bunch of friends. Let's say
you pulled a
fire alarm. There are rumors flying. Some people suspect it was you, but
no one is sure.
The prinicpal calls all of you down to the office and talks to each of
you separately. Would
you confess? Or would you say that it mush have been someone else? Would
you even go
so far as to say it was one of your friends who did it?
What if one of your friends decided to confess? Maybe he/she felt
guilty. Or maybe
the principal somehow sweated it out of him. Would you confess too? Or
would you let
your friend take all the blame? Even though you know you deserve to get
in as much
trouble. Would you let your friend take all the blame for something you
know should be
punished for, too.
Or say your friend says that you were involved. Would you call your
friend a liar,
thus making you the real liar? Or would you confess?
Why do we care about saving our own asses and no one else's? We will do
anything to keep our nose's clean, even if it mean the other person will
get in trouble for
something they didn't do. What ever happened to loyalty? Whatever
happened to friends
being important? We should spend less time thinking about how to get out
of a situation
and more time thinking about the outcomes of our actions. We should take
the
consequences head on and stop trying to dump them in the laps of others.
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=========ADS==========
Shiny Black Rainbows, an e-mail zine by Laura. It's got poetry, reviews,
and rants.
Webpage=
http://members.aol.com/junkmagnet/files/junk/rainbows/sbr.html
Email=
[email protected]
242 Main Online=
http://www.uvm.edu/~mgatti. 242 Main is an all ages
club in
Burlington, Vt. If you live in the area, please come out and support the
local music scene.
The Little Dark Cloud= An e-mail zine written by Mandi. E-mail her at
[email protected] to get it.
"Big Heavy World at
http://www.bigheavyworld.com has weekly club
listings,
gallery listings, events calendars, music news, and photos of live shows
in
downtown Burlington, and a Burlington Band Guide. Anyone interested in
the
downtown scene might like to check out the Big Heavy World website."
Jeffrey Dahmer's Living Sex-Zombie= An e-mail and web zine written by
Brian. It's not
your normal e-zine, with record reviews and all that, so check it out.
E-mail him at
[email protected], or visit his web page at
http://homepages.together.net/~hal9000/jdlszombie
A to Z= An e-mail zine about everything. It's really funny. to get on
the list, send e-mail to
[email protected]
Alternametal= An e-mail zine. To get on the mailing list, send e-mail
to:
[email protected]
(don't forget, if you wanna place an add, just e-mail me at:
[email protected])
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=====HOW MY CAR GOT TRASHED=====
So, I went to a show the other night, thinking all was going to be
good. And, I had
a really good night. Until I went out to get into my car. I started
walking over to it, until I
was one of the mirrors hanging from just a cable. My walk then turned
into a run. Further
inspection showed that someone had tried to pull the other mirror off,
but it wouldn't give
so they dented the door. Also, my whole car was keyed. Who would have
done this to
me? I thought about this for only a second until I came up with a name.
The car that had
been parked next to me was the one of a girl who had once been my best
friend. We hadn't
been friends for over a year and she had been playing pranks on me for a
while. She took
my timecard from work. I know it was her cos she had it on her keychain
and it had my
name on it. Strange that her car wasn't parked next to mine anymore.
Stranger still that her
best friend was asking people for a ride home because her ride "had to
leave in a hurry."
Even stranger that her best friend admitted to my friend that this girl
had done it.
I brought my car to a body shop and had an estimate done, hoping I had
enough
money in the bank to repair atleast the doors and mirrors. Well, it was
$800 to repair the
doors and mirrors, and $1500 to repair the whole thing. They gave me a
list of over 20
things that had to either be replaced or repaired. Lastnight, a friend
called with some great
news. The girl who I thought trashed my car had confessed to him that
she had done the
damage and he is willing to help me in any way he can. Which means I'm
going to have a
fresh paint job on my car and I won't have to take all my money from
working this
summer to pay for the car. All I have to say is this girl must be pretty
sick to do something
like that to someone's car for no real reason. I mean, I don't talk to
her, I don't look at her,
and for a while I didn't think about her. She must be really stupid to
think she can get
away with this and to think that I'm not going to make her pay. I hope
she has fun coming
up with the $1500.
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===MMU (Or the Nazi Prison camp as we like to call it)===
I go back to school tomorrow. I'm completely unexcited about it. Some
would say that it's the usual kids-don't-like-school thing. But, I think
it's so
much more that. Being at school brings me down. I'm so unhappy when I'm
at school. The whole atmosphere is just awful. Besides seeing the few
friends
I do have, the day sucks. I could see those friends any time I want, and
to tell
you the truth, I'd rather see them outside of school. I'd rather create
memories
of them in nice places, where they're enjoying life. Have you ever heard
the
phrase "live life to it's fullest?" Well, being at school you surely
don't do that.
You sit around in hard chairs and listen to some teacher drone on about
some
dumb thing. If the teachers would only make things interesting. If they
could
think of a more creative way of teaching than just standing in front of
the
class room, lecturing, and handing out worksheets. I think that I've
learned
more outside of school, experiencing things first hand. I think being
with my
friends and going places and doing things teaches me more than sitting
in a
class room for 6 hours five days a week. But, society says that I need a
diploma to get into college and that I need to go to college to make a
living.
So, here I am stuck in a place I'd rather not be. you can ask my friends
and
my parents. they will tell you that I am much happier when I am not in
school.
I don't think it should be this way. I think that school should be an
environment where students have fun learning. I think the teachers and
the
administration should be creative when thinking of new cirriculum.
instead of
giving a lecture and the Civil War, why not let the students act it out?
It's
proven that if someone experiences something firsthand, they will get
more
out of it. Personally, I love to learn. I love to fill my head with new
information. I just think that the way it is administered in most school
is in a
way that will make it seem boring.
Many schools provide an environment where individuality is
discouraged. They want everyone to be the same. those who are different
than
the "norm" and criticized by both students and faculty. In my school
when
you go to the office, the first thing the principal asks you is what
group you
belong to. Almost as if what you did is determined by the group you hang
out
with. Basically, he's got the school divided into two groups: the
hippies and
the alternatives. I do not consider myself to be part of either of these
groups. I
don't consider myself to be part of any group. When I told the principal
this,
he got mad. I think in schools, individuality should be encouraged.
Students
should be encouraged to be themselves. It is the only way that they will
truly
be happy. They shouldn't be made to feel that they have to belong to a
social
group to be somebody.
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====Thanks=====
Annie, charlie, Dave, Jared, Dan, Chris, Todd, Jesse D., James, Crap
Nuts,
Seth, A to Z zine, Outpatient Magazine (make sure to check it out, I
even
wrote something for it!!!!!), Brian, and everyone that continues to read
my
zine and sends me submissions.
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(c) Black and Blue. If you want to use something in here, have the
decency to contact the
author. If you do something stupid and get in trouble and try to blame
it on me, your on
your own. I'm not responsible for your actions
--
"I missed the chance that will never come. Better to regret what I have
done.
I'd give anything to just to forget. a smile so worthwhile. But you can
only
rent it. My hands are open." - Fall on Proverb-Unbroken
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