** Fri Feb 17 07:42 EST; goldblum
I'm meeting with the co-op people at 8, quite excited. I have no
idea where the conversation will go, or indeed what it is I need to
know or ask about. All I have is the question: how do I make this
happen such that I can bring in friends and with as little friction
as possible, get them payrolled and working.
I want to note another thing though, a pathology which shows up
every time I have a scheduled commitment. No matter how
enthusiastic I am about it when I set it up, I spend the time
immediately prior to it, sometimes even extending to the previous
night, increasingly dreading it. This often makes it impossible for
me to do anything useful during that lead-up period.
It's never awful when it finally comes arould, though sometimes I
feel like I wasted my time and the initial impulse was a false one.
But it's always debilitating. Even going to see a band, or going on
vacation, there's always a growing sense of resistance and
loathing.
I bet this has an entry in the DSM. Time to download the DSM and go
full hypochondriac.
