The physical descriptions of St Cedds College in this book, in so
far as they are specific at all, owe a little to my memories of St
Johns College, Cambridge, although Ive also borrowed indiscriminately
from other colleges as well. Sir Isaac Newton was at Trinity College in
real life, and Samuel Taylor Coleridge was at Jesus.
The point is that St Cedds College is a completely fictitious
assemblage, and no correspondence is intended between any institutions
or characters in this book and any real institutions or people, living,
dead, or wandering the night in ghostly torment.
This book was written and typeset on an Apple Macintosh Plus
computer and LaserWriter Plus printer using MacAuthor word-processing
software.
The completed document was then printed using a Linotron 100 at The
Graphics Factory, London SW3, to produce a final high-resolution image
of the text. My thanks to Mike Glover of Icon Technology for his help
with this process.
Finally, my very special thanks are due to Sue Freestone for all her
help in nursing this book into existence.
This time there would be no witnesses.
This time there was just the dead earth, a rumble of thunder, and
the onset of that interminable light drizzle from the north-east by
which so many of the worlds most momentous events seem to be
accompanied.
The storms of the day before, and of the day before that, and the
floods of the previous week, had now abated. The skies still bulged
with rain, but all that actually fell in the gathering evening gloom
was a dreary kind of prickle.
Some wind whipped across the darkening plain, blundered through the
low hills and gusted across a shallow valley where stood a structure, a
kind of tower, alone in a nightmare of mud, and leaning.
It was a blackened stump of a tower. It stood like an extrusion of
magma from one of the more pestilential pits of hell, and it leaned at
a peculiar angle, as if oppressed by something altogether more terrible
than its own considerable weight. It seemed a dead thing, long ages
dead.
The only movement was that of a river of mud that moved sluggishly
along the bottom of the valley past the tower. A mile or so further on,
the river ran down a ravine and disappeared underground.
But as the evening darkened it became apparent that the tower was
not entirely without life. There was a single dim red light guttering
deep within it.
The light was only just visible -- except of course that there was
no one to see, no witnesses, not this time, but it was nevertheless a
light. Every few minutes it grew a little stronger and a little
brighter and then faded slowly away almost to nothing. At the same time
a low keening noise drifted out on the wind, built up to a kind of
wailing climax, and then it too faded, abjectly, away.
Time passed, and then another light appeared, a smaller, mobile
light. It emerged at ground level and moved in a single bobbing circuit
of the tower, pausing occasionally on its way around. Then it, and the
shadowy figure that could just be discerned carrying it, disappeared
inside once more.
An hour passed, and by the end of it the darkness was total. The
world seemed dead, the night a blankness.
And then the glow appeared again near the towers peak, this time
growing in power more purposefully. It quickly reached the peak of
brightness it had previously attained, and then kept going, increasing,
increasing. The keening sound that accompanied it rose in pitch and
stridency until it became a wailing scream. The scream screamed on and
on till it became a blinding noise and the light a deafening redness.
And then, abruptly, both ceased.
There was a millisecond of silent darkness.
An astonishing pale new light billowed and bulged from deep within
the mud beneath the tower. The sky clenched, a mountain of mud
convulsed, earth and sky bellowed at each other, there was a horrible
pinkness, a sudden greenness, a lingering orangeness that stained the
clouds, and then the light sank and the night at last was deeply,
hideously dark. There was no further sound other than the soft tinkle
of water.
But in the morning the sun rose with an unaccustomed sparkle on a
day that was, or seemed to be, or at least would have seemed to be if
there had been anybody there to whom it could seem to be anything at
all, warmer, clearer and brighter -- an altogether livelier day than
any yet known. A clear river ran through the shattered remains of the
valley.
And time began seriously to pass.
High on a rocky promontory sat an Electric Monk on a bored horse.
From under its rough woven cowl the Monk gazed unblinkingly down into
another valley, with which it was having a problem.
The day was hot, the sun stood in an empty hazy sky and beat down
upon the grey rocks and the scrubby, parched grass. Nothing moved, not
even the Monk. The horses tail moved a little, swishing slightly to
try and move a little air, but that was all. Otherwise, nothing moved.
The Electric Monk was a labour-saving device, like a dishwasher or a
video recorder. Dishwashers washed tedious dishes for you, thus saving
you the bother of washing them yourself, video recorders watched
tedious television for you, thus saving you the bother of looking at it
yourself; Electric Monks believed things for you, thus saving you what
was becoming an increasingly onerous task, that of believing all the
things the world expected you to believe.
Unfortunately this Electric Monk had developed a fault, and had
started to believe all kinds of things, more or less at random. It was
even beginning to believe things theyd have difficulty believing in
Salt Lake City. It had never heard of Salt Lake City, of course. Nor
had it ever heard of a quingigillion, which was roughly the number of
miles between this valley and the Great Salt Lake of Utah.
The problem with the valley was this. The Monk currently believed
that the valley and everything in the valley and around it, including
the Monk itself and the Monks horse, was a uniform shade of pale pink.
This made for a certain difficulty in distinguishing any one thing from
any other thing, and therefore made doing anything or going anywhere
impossible, or at least difficult and dangerous. Hence the immobility
of the Monk and the boredom of the horse, which had had to put up with
a lot of silly things in its time but was secretly of the opinion that
this was one of the silliest.
How long did the Monk believe these things?
Well, as far as the Monk was concerned, forever. The faith which
moves mountains, or at least believes them against all the available
evidence to be pink, was a solid and abiding faith, a great rock
against which the world could hurl whatever it would, yet it would not
be shaken. In practice, the horse knew, twenty-four hours was usually
about its lot.
So what of this horse, then, that actually held opinions, and was
sceptical about things? Unusual behaviour for a horse, wasnt it? An
unusual horse perhaps?
No. Although it was certainly a handsome and well-built example of
its species, it was none the less a perfectly ordinary horse, such as
convergent evolution has produced in many of the places that life is to
be found. They have always understood a great deal more than they let
on. It is difficult to be sat on all day, every day, by some other
creature, without forming an opinion about them.
On the other hand, it is perfectly possible to sit all day, every
day, on top of another creature and not have the slightest thought
about them whatsoever.
When the early models of these Monks were built, it was felt to be
important that they be instantly recognisable as artificial objects.
There must be no danger of their looking at all like real people. You
wouldnt want your video recorder lounging around on the sofa all day
while it was watching TV. You wouldnt want it picking its nose,
drinking beer and sending out for pizzas.
So the Monks were built with an eye for originality of design and
also for practical horse-riding ability. This was important. People,
and indeed things, looked more sincere on a horse. So two legs were
held to be both more suitable and cheaper than the more normal primes
of seventeen, nineteen or twenty-three; the skin the Monks were given
was pinkish-looking instead of purple, soft and smooth instead of
crenellated. They were also restricted to just one mouth and nose, but
were given instead an additional eye, making for a grand total of two.
A strange-looking creature indeed. But truly excellent at believing the
most preposterous things.
This Monk had first gone wrong when it was simply given too much to
believe in one day. It was, by mistake, cross-connected to a video
recorder that was watching eleven TV channels simultaneously, and this
caused it to blow a bank of illogic circuits. The video recorder only
had to watch them, of course. It didnt have to believe them all as
well. This is why instruction manuals are so important.
So after a hectic week of believing that war was peace, that good
was bad, that the moon was made of blue cheese, and that God needed a
lot of money sent to a certain box number, the Monk started to believe
that thirty-five percent of all tables were hermaphrodites, and then
broke down. The man from the Monk shop said that it needed a whole new
motherboard, but then pointed out that the new improved Monk Plus
models were twice as powerful, had an entirely new multi-tasking
Negative Capability feature that allowed them to hold up to sixteen
entirely different and contradictory ideas in memory simultaneously
without generating any irritating system errors, were twice as fast and
at least three times as glib, and you could have a whole new one for
less than the cost of replacing the motherboard of the old model.
That was it. Done.
The faulty Monk was turned out into the desert where it could
believe what it liked, including the idea that it had been hard done
by. It was allowed to keep its horse, since horses were so cheap to
make.
For a number of days and nights, which it variously believed to be
three, forty-three, and five hundred and ninety-eight thousand seven
hundred and three, it roamed the desert, putting its simple Electric
trust in rocks, birds, clouds and a form of non-existent elephant-
asparagus, until at last it fetched up here, on this high rock,
overlooking a valley that was not, despite the deep fervour of the
Monks belief, pink. Not even a little bit.
Time passed.
Time passed.
Susan waited.
The more Susan waited, the more the doorbell didnt ring. Or the
phone. She looked at her watch. She felt that now was about the time
that she could legitimately begin to feel cross. She was cross already,
of course, but that had been in her own time, so to speak. They were
well and truly into his time now, and even allowing for traffic,
mishaps, and general vagueness and dilatoriness, it was now well over
half an hour past the time that he had insisted was the latest time
they could possibly afford to leave, so shed better be ready.
She tried to worry that something terrible had happened to him, but
didnt believe it for a moment. Nothing terrible ever happened to him,
though she was beginning to think that it was time it damn well did. If
nothing terrible happened to him soon maybe shed do it herself. Now
there was an idea.
She threw herself crossly into the armchair and watched the news on
television. The news made her cross. She flipped the remote control and
watched something on another channel for a bit. She didnt know what it
was, but it also made her cross. Perhaps she should phone. She was
damned if she was going to phone. Perhaps if she phoned he would phone
her at the same moment and not be able to get through.
She refused to admit that she had even thought that.
Damn him, where was he? Who cared where he was anyway? She didnt,
that was for sure.
Three times in a row hed done this. Three times in a row was
enough. She angrily flipped channels one more time. There was a
programme about computers and some interesting new developments in the
field of things you could do with computers and music.
That was it. That was really it. She knew that she had told herself
that that was it only seconds earlier, but this was now the final real
ultimate it.
She jumped to her feet and went to the phone, gripping an angry
Filofax. She flipped briskly through it and dialed a number.
Hello, Michael? Yes, its Susan. Susan Way. You said I should call
you if I was free this evening and I said Id rather be dead in a
ditch, remember? Well, I suddenly discover that I am free, absolutely,
completely and utterly free, and there isnt a decent ditch for miles
around. Make your move while youve got your chance is my advice to
you. Ill be at the Tangiers Club in half an hour.
She pulled on her shoes and coat, paused when she remembered that it
was Thursday and that she should put a fresh, extra-long tape on the
answering machine, and two minutes later was out of the front door.
When at last the phone did ring the answering machine said sweetly that
Susan Way could not come to the phone just at the moment, but that if
the caller would like to leave a message, she would get back to them as
soon as possible. Maybe.
It was a chill November evening of the old-fashioned type.
The moon looked pale and wan, as if it shouldnt be up on a night
like this. It rose unwillingly and hung like an ill spectre.
Silhouetted against it, dim and hazy through the dampness which rose
from the unwholesome fens, stood the assorted towers and turrets of St
Cedds, Cambridge, a ghostly profusion of buildings thrown up over
centuries, medieval next to Victorian, Odeon next to Tudor. Only rising
through the mist did they seem remotely to belong to one another.
Between them scurried figures, hurrying from one dim pool of light
to another, shivering, leaving wraiths of breath which folded
themselves into the cold night behind them.
It was seven oclock. Many of the figures were heading for the
college dining hall which divided First Court from Second Court, and
from which warm light, reluctantly, streamed. Two figures in particular
seemed ill-matched. One, a young man, was tall, thin and angular; even
muffled inside a heavy dark coat he walked a little like an affronted
heron.
The other was small, roundish, and moved with an ungainly
restlessness, like a number of elderly squirrels trying to escape from
a sack. His own age was on the older side of completely indeterminate.
If you picked a number at random, he was probably a little older than
that, but -- well, it was impossible to tell. Certainly his face was
heavily lined, and the small amount of hair that escaped from under his
red woollen skiing hat was thin, white, and had very much its own ideas
about how it wished to arrange itself. He too was muffled inside a
heavy coat, but over it he wore a billowing gown with very faded purple
trim, the badge of his unique and peculiar academic office.
As they walked the older man was doing all the talking. He was
pointing at items of interest along the way, despite the fact that it
was too dark to see any of them. The younger man was saying Ah yes,
and Really? How interesting... and Well, well, well, and Good
heavens. His head bobbed seriously.
They entered, not through the main entrance to the hall, but through
a small doorway on the east side of the court. This led to the Senior
Combination Room and a dark-panelled anteroom where the Fellows of the
college assembled to slap their hands and make brrrrrr noises before
making their way through their own entrance to the High Table.
They were late and shook off their coats hurriedly. This was
complicated for the older man by the necessity first of taking off his
professorial gown, and then of putting it back on again once his coat
was off, then of stuffing his hat in his coat pocket, then of wondering
where hed put his scarf, and then of realising that he hadnt brought
it, then of fishing in his coat pocket for his handkerchief, then of
fishing in his other coat pocket for his spectacles, and finally of
finding them quite unexpectedly wrapped in his scarf, which it turned
out he had brought after all but hadnt been wearing despite the damp
and bitter wind blowing in like a witchs breath from across the fens.
He bustled the younger man into the hall ahead of him and they took
the last two vacant seats at the High Table, braving a flurry of frowns
and raised eyebrows for interrupting the Latin grace to do so.
Hall was full tonight. It was always more popular with the
undergraduates in the colder months. More unusually, the hall was
candlelit, as it was now only on very few special occasions. Two long,
crowded tables stretched off into the glimmering darkness. By
candlelight, peoples faces were more alive, the hushed sounds of their
voices, the clink of cutlery and glasses, seemed more exciting, and in
the dark recesses of the great hall, all the centuries for which it had
existed seemed present at once. High Table itself formed a crosspiece
at the top, and was raised about a foot above the rest. Since it was a
guest night, the table was set on both sides to accommodate the extra
numbers, and many diners therefore sat with their backs to the rest of
the hall.
So, young MacDuff, said the Professor once he was seated and
flapping his napkin open, pleasure to see you again, my dear fellow.
Glad you could come. No idea what all this is about, he added, peering
round the hall in consternation. All the candles and silver and
business. Generally means a special dinner in honour of someone or
something no one can remember anything about except that it means
better food for a night.
He paused and thought for a moment, and then said, It seems odd,
dont you think, that the quality of the food should vary inversely
with the brightness of the lighting. Makes you wonder what culinary
heights the kitchen staff could rise to if you confined them to
perpetual darkness. Could be worth a try, I think. Got some good vaults
in the college that could be turned over to the purpose. I think I
showed you round them once, hmmm? Nice brickwork.
All this came as something of a relief to his guest. It was the
first indication his host had given that he had the faintest
recollection who he was. Professor Urban Chronotis, the Regius
Professor of Chronology, or Reg as he insisted on being called had a
memory that he himself had once compared to the Queen Alexandra
Birdwing Butterfly, in that it was colourful, flitted prettily hither
and thither, and was now, alas, almost completely extinct.
When he had telephoned with the invitation a few days previously, he
had seemed extremely keen to see his former pupil, and yet when Richard
had arrived this evening, a little on the late side, admittedly, the
Professor had thrown open the door apparently in anger, had started in
surprise on seeing Richard, demanded to know if he was having emotional
problems, reacted in annoyance to being reminded gently that it was now
ten years since he had been Richards college tutor, and finally agreed
that Richard had indeed come for dinner, whereupon he, the Professor,
had started talking rapidly and at length about the history of the
college architecture, a sure sign that his mind was elsewhere entirely.
Reg had never actually taught Richard, he had only been his
college tutor, which meant in short that he had had charge of his
general welfare, told him when the exams were and not to take drugs,
and so on. Indeed, it was not entirely clear if Reg had ever taught
anybody at all and what, if anything, he would have taught them. His
professorship was an obscure one, to say the least, and since he
dispensed with his lecturing duties by the simple and time-honoured
technique of presenting all his potential students with an exhaustive
list of books that he knew for a fact had been out of print for thirty
years, then flying into a tantrum if they failed to find them, no one
had ever discovered the precise nature of his academic discipline. He
had, of course, long ago taken the precaution of removing the only
extant copies of the books on his reading list from the university and
college libraries, as a result of which he had plenty of time to, well,
to do whatever it was he did.
Since Richard had always managed to get on reasonably well with the
old fruitcake, he had one day plucked up courage to ask him what,
exactly, the Regius Professorship of Chronology was. It had been one of
those light summery days when the world seems about to burst with
pleasure at simply being itself, and Reg had been in an
uncharacteristically forthcoming mood as they had walked over the
bridge where the River Cam divided the older parts of the college from
the newer.
Sinecure, my dear fellow, an absolute sinecure, he had beamed. A
small amount of money for a very small, or shall we say non-existent,
amount of work. That puts me permanently just ahead of the game, which
is a comfortable if frugal place to spend your life. I recommend it.
He leaned over the edge of the bridge and started to point out a
particular brick that he found interesting. But what sort of study is
it supposed to be? Richard had pursued. Is it history? Physics?
Philosophy? What?
Well, said Reg, slowly, since youre interested, the chair was
originally instituted by King George III, who, as you know, entertained
a number of amusing notions, including the belief that one of the trees
in Windsor Great Park was in fact Frederick the Great.
It was his own appointment, hence Regius. His own idea as well,
which is somewhat more unusual.
Sunlight played along the River Cam. People in punts happily shouted
at each other to fuck off. Thin natural scientists who had spent months
locked away in their rooms growing white and fishlike, emerged blinking
into the light. Couples walking along the bank got so excited about the
general wonderfulness of it all that they had to pop inside for an
hour.
The poor beleaguered fellow, Reg continued, George III, I mean,
was, as you may know, obsessed with time. Filled the palace with
clocks. Wound them incessantly. Sometimes would get up in the middle of
the night and prowl round the palace in his nightshirt winding clocks.
He was very concerned that time continued to go forward, you see. So
many terrible things had occurred in his life that he was terrified
that any of them might happen again if time were ever allowed to slip
backwards even for a moment. A very understandable fear, especially if
youre barking mad, as Im afraid to say, with the very greatest
sympathy for the poor fellow, he undoubtedly was. He appointed me, or
rather I should say, my office, this professorship, you understand, the
post that I am now privileged to hold to -- where was I? Oh yes. He
instituted this, er, Chair of Chronology to see if there was any
particular reason why one thing happened after another and if there was
any way of stopping it. Since the answers to the three questions were,
I knew immediately, yes, no, and maybe, I realised I could then take
the rest of my career off.
And your predecessors?
Er, were much of the same mind.
But who were they?
Who were they? Well, splendid fellows of course, splendid to a man.
Remind me to tell you about them some day. See that brick? Wordsworth
was once sick on that brick. Great man.
All that had been about ten years ago.
Richard glanced around the great dining hall to see what had changed
in the time, and the answer was, of course, absolutely nothing. In the
dark heights, dimly seen by the flickering candlelight, were the
ghostly portraits of prime ministers, archbishops, political reformers
and poets, any of whom might, in their day, have been sick on that same
brick.
Well, said Reg, in a loudly confidential whisper, as if
introducing the subject of nipple-piercing in a nunnery, I hear youve
suddenly done very well for yourself, at last, hmmm?
Er, well, yes, in fact, said Richard, who was as surprised at the
fact as anybody else, yes, I have.
Around the table several gazes stiffened on him.
Computers, he heard somebody whisper dismissively to a neighbour
further down the table. The stiff gazes relaxed again, and turned
away.
Excellent, said Reg. Im so pleased for you, so pleased.
Tell me, he went on, and it was a moment before Richard realised
that the Professor wasnt talking to him any more, but had turned to
the right to address his other neighbour, whats all this about,
this, he flourished a vague hand over the candles and college silver,
...stuff?
His neighbour, an elderly wizened figure, turned very slowly and
looked at him as if he was rather annoyed at being raised from the dead
like this.
Coleridge, he said in a thin rasp, its the Coleridge Dinner you
old fool. He turned very slowly back until he was facing the front
again. His name was Cawley, he was a Professor of Archaeology and
Anthropology, and it was frequently said of him, behind his back, that
he regarded it not so much as a serious academic study, more as a
chance to relive his childhood.
Ah, is it, murmured Reg, is it? and turned back to Richard.
Its the Coleridge Dinner, he said knowledgeably. Coleridge was a
member of the college, you know, he added after a moment. Coleridge.
Samuel Taylor. Poet. I expect youve heard of him. This is his Dinner.
Well, not literally, of course. It would be cold by now. Silence.
Here, have some salt.
Er, thank you, I think Ill wait, said Richard, surprised. There
was no food on the table yet.
Go on, take it, insisted the Professor, proffering him the heavy
silver salt cellar.
Richard blinked in bemusement but with an interior shrug he reached
to take it. In the moment that he blinked, however, the salt cellar had
completely vanished.
He started back in surprise.
Good one, eh? said Reg as he retrieved the missing cruet from
behind the ear of his deathly right-hand neighbour, provoking a
surprisingly girlish giggle from somewhere else at the table. Reg
smiled impishly. Very irritating habit, I know. Its next on my list
for giving up after smoking and leeches.
Well, that was another thing that hadnt changed. Some people pick
their noses, others habitually beat up old ladies on the streets. Regs
vice was a harmless if peculiar one -- an addiction to childish
conjuring tricks. Richard remembered the first time he had been to see
Reg with a problem -- it was only the normal /Angst/ that periodically
takes undergraduates into its grip, particularly when they have essays
to write, but it had seemed a dark and savage weight at the time. Reg
had sat and listened to his outpourings with a deep frown of
concentration, and when at last Richard had finished, he pondered
seriously, stroked his chin a lot, and at last leaned forward and
looked him in the eye.
I suspect that your problem, he said, is that you have too many
paper clips up your nose.
Richard stared at him.
Allow me to demonstrate, said Reg, and leaning across the desk he
pulled from Richards nose a chain of eleven paper clips and a small
rubber swan.
Ah, the real culprit, he said, holding up the swan. They come in
cereal packets, you know, and cause no end of trouble. Well, Im glad
weve had this little chat, my dear fellow. Please feel free to disturb
me again if you have any more such problems.
Needless to say, Richard didnt.
Richard glanced around the table to see if there was anybody else he
recognised from his time at the college.
Two places away to the left was the don who had been Richards
Director of Studies in English, who showed no signs of recognising him
at all. This was hardly surprising since Richard had spent his three
years here assiduously avoiding him, often to the extent of growing a
beard and pretending to be someone else.
Next to him was a man whom Richard had never managed to identify.
Neither, in fact, had anyone else. He was thin and vole-like and had
the most extraordinarily long bony nose -- it really was very, very
long and bony indeed. In fact it looked a lot like the controversial
keel which had helped the Australians win the Americas Cup in 1983,
and this resemblance had been much remarked upon at the time, though
not of course to his face. No one had said anything to his face at all.
No one.
Ever.
Anyone meeting him for the first time was too startled and
embarrassed by his nose to speak, and the second time was worse because
of the first time, and so on. Years had gone by now, seventeen in all.
In all that time he had been cocooned in silence. In hall it had long
been the habit of the college servants to position a separate set of
salt, pepper and mustard on either side of him, since no one could ask
him to pass them, and to ask someone sitting on the other side of him
was not only rude but completely impossible because of his nose being
in the way.
The other odd thing about him was a series of gestures he made and
repeated regularly throughout every evening. They consisted of tapping
each of the fingers of his left hand in order, and then one of the
fingers of his right hand. He would then occasionally tap some other
part of his body, a knuckle, an elbow or a knee. Whenever he was forced
to stop this by the requirements of eating he would start blinking each
of his eyes instead, and occasionally nodding. No one, of course, had
ever dared to ask him why he did this, though all were consumed with
curiosity.
Richard couldnt see who was sitting beyond him.
In the other direction, beyond Regs deathly neighbour, was Watkin,
the Classics Professor, a man of terrifying dryness and oddity. His
heavy rimless glasses were almost solid cubes of glass within which his
eyes appeared to lead independent existences like goldfish. His nose
was straight enough and ordinary, but beneath it he wore the same beard
as Clint Eastwood. His eyes gazed swimmingly around the table as he
selected who was going to be spoken at tonight. He had thought that his
prey might be one of the guests, the newly appointed Head of Radio
Three, who was sitting opposite -- but unfortunately he had already
been ensnared by the Music Director of the college and a Professor of
Philosophy. These two were busy explaining to the harassed man that the
phrase too much Mozart was, given any reasonable definition of those
three words, an inherently self-contradictory expression, and that any
sentence which contained such a phrase would be thereby rendered
meaningless and could not, consequently, be advanced as part of an
argument in favour of any given programme-scheduling strategy. The poor
man was already beginning to grip his cutlery too tightly. His eyes
darted about desperately looking for rescue, and made the mistake of
lighting on those of Watkin.
Good evening, said Watkin with smiling charm, nodding in the most
friendly way, and then letting his gaze settle glassily on to his bowl
of newly arrived soup, from which position it would not allow itself to
be moved. Yet. Let the bugger suffer a little. He wanted the rescue to
be worth at least a good half dozen radio talk fees.
Beyond Watkin, Richard suddenly discovered the source of the little
girlish giggle that had greeted Regs conjuring trick. Astonishingly
enough it was a little girl. She was about eight years old with blonde
hair and a glum look. She was sitting occasionally kicking pettishly at
the table leg.
Whos that? Richard asked Reg in surprise.
Whos what? Reg asked Richard in surprise.
Richard inclined a finger surreptitiously in her direction. The
girl, he whispered, the very, very little girl. Is it some new maths
professor?
Reg peered round at her. Do you know, he said in astonishment, I
havent the faintest idea. Never known anything like it. How
extraordinary.
At that moment the problem was solved by the man from the BBC, who
suddenly wrenched himself out of the logical half-nelson into which his
neighbours had got him, and told the girl off for kicking the table.
She stopped kicking the table, and instead kicked the air with
redoubled vigour. He told her to try and enjoy herself, so she kicked
him. This did something to bring a brief glimmer of pleasure into her
glum evening, but it didnt last. Her father briefly shared with the
table at large his feelings about baby-sitters who let people down, but
nobody felt able to run with the topic.
A major season of Buxtehude, resumed the Director of Music, is of
course clearly long overdue. Im sure youll be looking forward to
remedying this situation at the first opportunity.
Oh, er, yes, replied the girls father, spilling his soup, er,
that is... hes not the same one as Gluck, is he?
The little girl kicked the table leg again. When her father looked
sternly at her, she put her head on one side and mouthed a question at
him.
Not now, he insisted at her as quietly as he could.
When, then?
Later. Maybe. Later, well see.
She hunched grumpily back in her seat. You always say later, she
mouthed at him.
Poor child, murmured Reg. There isnt a don at this table who
doesnt behave exactly like that inside. Ah, thank you. Their soup
arrived, distracting his attention, and Richards.
So tell me, said Reg, after they had both had a couple of
spoonsful and arrived independently at the same conclusion, that it was
not a taste explosion, what youve been up to, my dear chap. Something
to do with computers, I understand, and also to do with music. I
thought you read English when you were here -- though only, I realise,
in your spare time. He looked at Richard significantly over the rim of
his soup spoon. Now wait, he interrupted before Richard even had a
chance to start, dont I vaguely remember that you had some sort of
computer when you were here? When was it? 1977?
Well, what we called a computer in 1977 was really a kind of
electric abacus, but...
Oh, now, dont underestimate the abacus, said Reg. In skilled
hands its a very sophisticated calculating device. Furthermore it
requires no power, can be made with any materials you have to hand, and
never goes bing in the middle of an important piece of work.
So an electric one would be particularly pointless, said Richard.
True enough, conceded Reg.
There really wasnt a lot this machine could do that you couldnt
do yourself in half the time with a lot less trouble, said Richard,
but it was, on the other hand, very good at being a slow and dim-
witted pupil.
Reg looked at him quizzically.
I had no idea they were supposed to be in short supply, he said.
I could hit a dozen with a bread roll from where Im sitting.
Im sure. But look at it this way. What really is the point of
trying to teach anything to anybody?
This question seemed to provoke a murmur of sympathetic approval
from up and down the table.
Richard continued, What I mean is that if you really want to
understand something, the best way is to try and explain it to someone
else. That forces you to sort it out in your own mind. And the more
slow and dim-witted your pupil, the more you have to break things down
into more and more simple ideas. And thats really the essence of
programming. By the time youve sorted out a complicated idea into
little steps that even a stupid machine can deal with, youve certainly
learned something about it yourself. The teacher usually learns more
than the pupil. Isnt that true?
It would be hard to learn much less than my pupils, came a low
growl from somewhere on the table, without undergoing a pre-frontal
lobotomy.
So I used to spend days struggling to write essays on this 16K
machine that would have taken a couple of hours on a typewriter, but
what was fascinating to me was the process of trying to explain to the
machine what it was I wanted it to do. I virtually wrote my own word
processor in BASIC. A simple search and replace routine would take
about three hours.
I forget, did you ever get any essays done at all?
Well, not as such. No actual essays, but the reasons why not were
absolutely fascinating. For instance, I discovered that...
He broke off, laughing at himself.
I was also playing keyboards in a rock group, of course, he added.
That didnt help.
Now, that I didnt know, said Reg. Your past has murkier things
in it than I dreamed possible. A quality, I might add, that it shares
with this soup. He wiped his mouth with his napkin very carefully. I
must go and have a word with the kitchen staff one day. I would like to
be sure that they are keeping the right bits and throwing the proper
bits away. So. A rock group, you say. Well, well, well. Good heavens.
Yes, said Richard. We called ourselves The Reasonably Good Band,
but in fact we werent. Our intention was to be the Beatles of the
early eighties, but we got much better financial and legal advice than
the Beatles ever did, which was basically Dont bother, so we didnt.
I left Cambridge and starved for three years.
But didnt I bump into you during that period, said Reg, and you
said you were doing very well?
As a road sweeper, yes. There was an awful lot of mess on the
roads. More than enough, I felt, to support an entire career. However,
I got the sack for sweeping the mess on to another sweepers patch.
Reg shook his head. The wrong career for you, Im sure. There are
plenty of vocations where such behaviour would ensure rapid
preferment.
I tried a few -- none of them much grander, though. And I kept none
of them very long, because I was always too tired to do them properly.
Id be found asleep slumped over the chicken sheds or filing cabinets -
- depending on what the job was. Been up all night with the computer
you see, teaching it to play Three Blind Mice. It was an important
goal for me.
Im sure, agreed Reg. Thank you, he said to the college servant
who took his half-finished plate of soup from him, thank you very
much. Three Blind Mice, eh? Good. Good. So no doubt you succeeded
eventually, and this accounts for your present celebrated status. Yes?
Well, theres a bit more to it than that.
I feared there might be. Pity you didnt bring it with you though.
It might have cheered up the poor young lady who is currently having
our dull and crusty company forced upon her. A swift burst of Three
Blind Mice would probably do much to revive her spirits. He leaned
forward to look past his two right-hand neighbours at the girl, who was
still sitting sagging in her chair.
Hello, he said.
She looked up in surprise, and then dropped her eyes shyly, swinging
her legs again.
Which do you think is worse, enquired Reg, the soup or the
company?
She gave a tiny, reluctant laugh and shrugged, still looking down.
I think youre wise not to commit yourself at this stage,
continued Reg. Myself, Im waiting to see the carrots before I make
any judgements. Theyve been boiling them since the weekend, but I fear
it may not be enough. The only thing that could possibly be worse than
the carrots is Watkin. Hes the man with the silly glasses sitting
between us. My names Reg, by the way. Come over and kick me when you
have a moment. The girl giggled and glanced up at Watkin, who
stiffened and made an appallingly unsuccessful attempt to smile good-
naturedly.
/Well/, little girl, he said to her awkwardly, and she had
desperately to suppress a hoot of laughter at his glasses. Little
conversation therefore ensued, but the girl had an ally, and began to
enjoy herself a tiny little bit. Her father gave her a relieved smile.
Reg turned back to Richard, who said, suddenly, Do you have any
family?
Er... no, said Reg, quietly. But tell me. After Three Blind
Mice, what then?
Well, to cut a long story short, Reg, I ended up working for
WayForward Technologies...
Ah, yes, the famous Mr Way. Tell me, whats he like?
Richard was always faintly annoyed by this question, probably
because he was asked it so often.
Both better and worse than hes represented in the press. I like
him a lot, actually. Like any driven man he can be a bit trying at
times, but Ive known him since the very early days of the company when
neither he nor I had a bean to our names. Hes fine. Its just that
its a good idea not to let him have your phone number unless you
possess an industrial-grade answering machine.
What? Whys that?
Well, hes one of those people who can only think when hes
talking. When he has ideas, he has to talk them out to whoever will
listen. Or, if the people themselves are not available, which is
increasingly the case, their answering machines will do just as well.
He just phones them up and talks at them. He has one secretary whose
sole job is to collect tapes from people he might have phoned,
transcribe them, sort them and give him the edited text the next day in
a blue folder.
A blue one, eh?
Ask me why he doesnt simply use a tape recorder, said Richard
with a shrug.
Reg considered this. I expect he doesnt use a tape recorder
because he doesnt like talking to himself, he said. There is a logic
there. Of a kind.
He took a mouthful of his newly arrived /porc au poivre/ and
ruminated on it for a while before gently laying his knife and fork
aside again for the moment.
So what, he said at last, is the role of young MacDuff in all
this?
Well, Gordon assigned me to write a major piece of software for the
Apple Macintosh. Financial spreadsheet, accounting, that sort of thing,
powerful, easy to use, lots of graphics. I asked him exactly what he
wanted in it, and he just said, Everything. I want the top piece of
all-singing, all-dancing business software for that machine. And being
of a slightly whimsical turn of mind I took him literally.
You see, a pattern of numbers can represent anything you like, can
be used to map any surface, or modulate any dynamic process -- and so
on. And any set of company accounts are, in the end, just a pattern of
numbers. So I sat down and wrote a program thatll take those numbers
and do what you like with them. If you just want a bar graph itll do
them as a bar graph, if you want them as a pie chart or scatter graph
itll do them as a pie chart or scatter graph. If you want dancing
girls jumping out of the pie chart in order to distract attention from
the figures the pie chart actually represents, then the program will do
that as well. Or you can turn your figures into, for instance, a flock
of seagulls, and the formation they fly in and the way in which the
wings of each gull beat will be determined by the performance of each
division of your company. Great for producing animated corporate logos
that actually /mean/ something.
But the silliest feature of all was that if you wanted your company
accounts represented as a piece of music, it could do that as well.
Well, I thought it was silly. The corporate world went bananas over
it.
Reg regarded him solemnly from over a piece of carrot poised
delicately on his fork in front of him, but did not interrupt.
You see, any aspect of a piece of music can be expressed as a
sequence or pattern of numbers, enthused Richard. Numbers can express
the pitch of notes, the length of notes, patterns of pitches and
lengths.
You mean tunes, said Reg. The carrot had not moved yet.
Richard grinned.
Tunes would be a very good word for it. I must remember that.
It would help you speak more easily. Reg returned the carrot to
his plate, untasted. And this software did well, then? he asked.
Not so much here. The yearly accounts of most British companies
emerged sounding like the Dead March from /Saul/, but in Japan they
went for it like a pack of rats. It produced lots of cheery company
anthems that started well, but if you were going to criticise youd
probably say that they tended to get a bit loud and squeaky at the end.
Did spectacular business in the States, which was the main thing,
commercially. Though the thing thats interesting me most now is what
happens if you leave the accounts out of it. Turn the numbers that
represent the way a swallows wings beat directly into music. What
would you hear? Not the sound of cash registers, according to Gordon.
Fascinating, said Reg, quite fascinating, and popped the carrot
at last into his mouth. He turned and leaned forward to speak to his
new girlfriend.
Watkin loses, he pronounced. The carrots have achieved a new all-
time low. Sorry, Watkin, but awful as you are, the carrots, Im afraid,
are world-beaters.
The girl giggled more easily than last time and she smiled at him.
Watkin was trying to take all this good-naturedly, but it was clear as
his eyes swam at Reg that he was more used to discomfiting than being
discomfited.
Please, Daddy, can I now? With her new-found, if slight,
confidence, the girl had also found a voice.
Later, insisted her father.
This is already later. Ive been timing it.
Well... He hesitated, and was lost.
Weve been to Greece, announced the girl in a small but awed
voice.
Ah, have you indeed, said Watkin, with a little nod. Well, well.
Anywhere in particular, or just Greece generally?
Patmos, she said decisively. It was beautiful. I think Patmos is
the most beautiful place in the whole world. Except the ferry never
came when it said it would. Never, ever. I timed it. We missed our
flight but I didnt mind.
Ah, Patmos, I see, said Watkin, who was clearly roused by the
news. Well, what you have to understand, young lady, is that the
Greeks, not content with dominating the culture of the Classical world,
are also responsible for the greatest, some would say the only, work of
true creative imagination produced this century as well. I refer of
course to the Greek ferry timetables. A work of the sublimest fiction.
Anyone who has travelled in the Aegean will confirm this. Hmm, yes. I
think so.
She frowned at him.
I found a pot, she said.
Probably nothing, interrupted her father hastily. You know the
way it is. Everyone who goes to Greece for the first time thinks
theyve found a pot, dont they? Ha, ha.
There were general nods. This was true. Irritating, but true.
I found it in the harbour, she said, in the water. While we were
waiting for the damn ferry.
Sarah! Ive told you...
Its just what you called it. And worse. You called it words I
didnt think you knew. Anyway, I thought that if everyone here was
meant to be so clever, then someone would be able to tell me if it was
a proper ancient Greek thing or not. I think its /very/ old. Will you
please let them see it, Daddy?
Her father shrugged hopelessly and started to fish about under his
chair.
Did you know, young lady, said Watkin to her, that the Book of
Revelation was written on Patmos? It was indeed. By Saint John the
Divine, as you know. To me it shows very clear signs of having been
written while waiting for a ferry. Oh, yes, I think so. It starts off,
doesnt it, with that kind of dreaminess you get when youre killing
time, getting bored, you know, just making things up, and then
gradually grows to a sort of climax of hallucinatory despair. I find
that very suggestive. Perhaps you should write a paper on it. He
nodded at her.
She looked at him as if he were mad.
Well, here it is, said her father, plonking the thing down on the
table. Just a pot, as you see. Shes only six, he added with a grim
smile, arent you, dear?
Seven, said Sarah.
The pot was quite small, about five inches high and four inches
across at its widest point. The body was almost spherical, with a very
narrow neck extending about an inch above the body. The neck and about
half of the surface area were encrusted with hard-caked earth, but the
parts of the pot that could be seen were of a rough, ruddy texture.
Sarah took it and thrust it into the hands of the don sitting on her
right.
You look clever, she said. Tell me what you think.
The don took it, and turned it over with a slightly supercilious
air. Im sure if you scraped away the mud from the bottom, he
remarked wittily, it would probably say Made in Birmingham.
That old, eh? said Sarahs father with a forced laugh. Long time
since anything was made there.
Anyway, said the don, not my field, Im a molecular biologist.
Anyone else want to have a look?
This question was not greeted with wild yelps of enthusiasm, but
nevertheless the pot was passed from hand to hand around the far end of
the table in a desultory fashion. It was goggled at through pebble
glasses, peered at through horn-rims, gazed at over half-moons, and
squinted at by someone who had left his glasses in his other suit,
which he very much feared had now gone to the cleaners. No one seemed
to know how old it was, or to care very much. The young girls face
began to grow downhearted again.
Sour lot, said Reg to Richard. He picked up a silver salt cellar
again and held it up.
Young lady, he said, leaning forward to address her.
Oh, not again, you old fool, muttered the aged archaeologist
Cawley, sitting back and putting his hands over his ears.
Young lady, repeated Reg, regard this simple silver salt cellar.
Regard this simple hat.
You havent got a hat, said the girl sulkily.
Oh, said Reg, a moment please, and he went and fetched his
woolly red one.
Regard, he said again, this simple silver salt cellar. Regard
this simple woolly hat. I put the salt cellar in the hat, thus, and I
pass the hat to you. The next part of the trick, dear lady... is up to
you.
He handed the hat to her, past their two intervening neighbours,
Cawley and Watkin. She took the hat and looked inside it.
Wheres it gone? she asked, staring into the hat.
Its wherever you put it, said Reg.
Oh, said Sarah, I see. Well... that wasnt very good.
Reg shrugged. A humble trick, but it gives me pleasure, he said,
and turned back to Richard. Now, what were we talking about?
Richard looked at him with a slight sense of shock. He knew that the
Professor had always been prone to sudden and erratic mood swings, but
it was as if all the warmth had drained out of him in an instant. He
now wore the same distracted expression Richard had seen on his face
when first he had arrived at his door that evening, apparently
completely unexpected. Reg seemed then to sense that Richard was taken
aback and quickly reassembled a smile.
My dear chap! he said. My dear chap! My dear, dear chap! What was
I saying?
Er, you were saying My dear chap.
Yes, but I feel sure it was a prelude to something. A sort of short
toccata on the theme of what a splendid fellow you are prior to
introducing the main subject of my discourse, the nature of which I
currently forget. You have no idea what I was about to say?
No.
Oh. Well, I suppose I should be pleased. If everyone knew exactly
what I was going to say, then there would be no point in my saying it,
would there? Now, hows our young guests pot doing?
In fact it had reached Watkin, who pronounced himself no expert on
what the ancients had made for themselves to drink out of, only on what
they had written as a result. He said that Cawley was the one to whose
knowledge and experience they should all bow, and attempted to give the
pot to him.
I said, he repeated, yours was the knowledge and experience to
which we should bow. Oh, for heavens sake, take your hands off your
ears and have a look at the thing.
Gently, but firmly, he drew Cawleys right hand from his ear,
explained the situation to him once again, and handed him the pot.
Cawley gave it a cursory but clearly expert examination.
Yes, he said, about two hundred years old, I would think. Very
rough. Very crude example of its type. Utterly without value, of
course.
He put it down peremptorily and gazed off into the old minstrel
gallery, which appeared to anger him for some reason.
The effect on Sarah was immediate. Already discouraged, she was
thoroughly downcast by this. She bit her lip and threw herself back
against her chair, feeling once again thoroughly out of place and
childish. Her father gave her a warning look about misbehaving, and
then apologised for her again.
Well, Buxtehude, he hurried on to say, yes, good old Buxtehude.
Well have to see what we can do. Tell me...
Young lady, interrupted a voice, hoarse with astonishment, you
are clearly a magician and enchantress of prodigious powers!
All eyes turned to Reg, the old show-off. He was gripping the pot
and staring at it with manic fascination. He turned his eyes slowly to
the little girl, as if for the first time assessing the power of a
feared adversary.
I bow to you, he whispered. I, unworthy though I am to speak in
the presence of such a power as yours, beg leave to congratulate you on
one of the finest feats of the conjurers art it has been my privilege
to witness!
Sarah stared at him with widening eyes.
May I show these people what you have wrought? he asked earnestly.
Very faintly she nodded, and he fetched her formerly precious, but
now sadly discredited, pot a sharp rap on the table.
It split into two irregular parts, the caked clay with which it was
surrounded falling in jagged shards on the table. One side of the pot
fell away, leaving the rest standing.
Sarahs eyes goggled at the stained and tarnished but clearly
recognisable silver college salt cellar, standing jammed in the remains
of the pot.
Stupid old fool, muttered Cawley.
After the general disparagement and condemnation of this cheap
parlour trick had died down -- none of which could dim the awe in
Sarahs eyes -- Reg turned to Richard and said, idly:
Who was that friend of yours when you were here, do you ever see
him? Chap with an odd East European name. Svlad something. Svlad
Cjelli. Remember the fellow?
Richard looked at him blankly for a moment.
Svlad? he said. Oh, you mean Dirk. Dirk Cjelli. No. I never
stayed in touch. Ive bumped into him a couple of times in the street
but thats all. I think he changes his name from time to time. Why do
you ask?
High on his rocky promontory the Electric Monk continued to sit on a
horse which was going quietly and uncomplainingly spare. From under its
rough woven cowl the Monk gazed unblinkingly down into the valley, with
which it was having a problem, but the problem was a new and hideous
one to the Monk, for it was this -- Doubt.
He never suffered it for long, but when he did, it gnawed at the
very root of his being.
The day was hot; the sun stood in an empty hazy sky and beat down
upon the grey rocks and the scrubby, parched grass. Nothing moved, not
even the Monk. But strange things were beginning to fizz in its brain,
as they did from time to time when a piece of data became misaddressed
as it passed through its input buffer.
But then the Monk began to believe, fitfully and nervously at first,
but then with a great searing white flame of belief which overturned
all previous beliefs, including the stupid one about the valley being
pink, that somewhere down in the valley, about a mile from where he was
sitting, there would shortly open up a mysterious doorway into a
strange and distant world, a doorway through which he might enter. An
astounding idea.
Astoundingly enough, however, on this one occasion he was perfectly
right.
The horse sensed that something was up.
It pricked up its ears and gently shook its head. It had gone into a
sort of trance looking at the same clump of rocks for so long, and was
on the verge of imagining them to be pink itself. It shook its head a
little harder.
A slight twitch on the reins, and a prod from the Monks heels and
they were off, picking their way carefully down the rocky incline. The
way was difficult. Much of it was loose shale -- loose brown and grey
shale, with the occasional brown and green plant clinging to a
precarious existence on it. The Monk noticed this without
embarrassment. It was an older, wiser Monk now, and had put childish
things behind it. Pink valleys, hermaphrodite tables, these were all
natural stages through which one had to pass on the path to true
enlightenment.
The sun beat hard on them. The Monk wiped the sweat and dust off its
face and paused, leaning forward on the horses neck. It peered down
through the shimmering heat haze at a large outcrop of rock which stood
out on to the floor of the valley. There, behind that outcrop, was
where the Monk thought, or rather passionately believed to the core of
its being, the door would appear. It tried to focus more closely, but
the details of the view swam confusingly in the hot rising air.
As it sat back in its saddle, and was about to prod the horse
onward, it suddenly noticed a rather odd thing.
On a flattish wall of rock nearby, in fact so nearby that the Monk
was surprised not to have noticed it before, was a large painting. The
painting was crudely drawn, though not without a certain stylish sweep
of line, and seemed very old, possibly very, very old indeed. The paint
was faded, chipped and patchy, and it was difficult to discern with any
clarity what the picture was. The Monk approached the picture more
closely. It looked like a primitive hunting scene.
The group of purple, multi-limbed creatures were clearly early
hunters. They carried rough spears, and were in hot pursuit of a large
horned and armoured creature, which appeared to have been wounded in
the hunt already. The colours were now so dim as to be almost non-
existent. In fact, all that could be clearly seen was the white of the
hunters teeth, which seemed to shine with a whiteness whose lustre was
undimmed by the passage of what must have been many thousands of years.
In fact they even put the Monks own teeth to shame, and he had cleaned
them only that morning.
The Monk had seen paintings like this before, but only in pictures
or on the TV, never in real life. They were usually to be found in
caves where they were protected from the elements, otherwise they would
not have survived.
The Monk looked more carefully at the immediate environs of the rock
wall and noticed that, though not exactly in a cave, it was
nevertheless protected by a large overhang and was well sheltered from
the wind and rain. Odd, though, that it should have managed to last so
long. Odder still that it should appear not to have been discovered.
Such cave paintings as there were were all famous and familiar images,
but this was not one that he had ever seen before.
Perhaps this was a dramatic and historic find he had made. Perhaps
if he were to return to the city and announce this discovery he would
be welcomed back, given a new motherboard after all and allowed to
believe -- to believe -- believe what? He paused, blinked, and shook
his head to clear a momentary system error.
He pulled himself up short.
He believed in a door. He must find that door. The door was the way
to... to...
The Door was The Way.
Good.
Capital letters were always the best way of dealing with things you
didnt have a good answer to.
Brusquely he tugged the horses head round and urged it onward and
downward. Within a few minutes more of tricky manoeuvring they had
reached the valley floor, and he was momentarily disconcerted to
discover that the fine top layer of dust that had settled on the brown
parched earth was indeed a very pale brownish pink, particularly on the
banks of the sluggish trickle of mud which was all that remained, in
the hot season, of the river that flowed through the valley when the
rains came. He dismounted and bent down to feel the pink dust and run
it through his fingers. It was very fine and soft and felt pleasant as
he rubbed it on his skin. It was about the same colour, perhaps a
little paler.
The horse was looking at him. He realised, a little belatedly
perhaps, that the horse must be extremely thirsty. He was extremely
thirsty himself, but had tried to keep his mind off it. He unbuckled
the water flask from the saddle. It was pathetically light. He
unscrewed the top and took one single swig. Then he poured a little
into his cupped hand and offered it to the horse, who slurped at it
greedily and briefly.
The horse looked at him again.
The Monk shook his head sadly, resealed the bottle and replaced it.
He knew, in that small part of his mind where he kept factual and
logical information, that it would not last much longer, and that,
without it, neither would they. It was only his Belief that kept him
going, currently his Belief in The Door.
He brushed the pink dust from his rough habit, and then stood
looking at the rocky outcrop, a mere hundred yards distant. He looked
at it not without a slight, tiny trepidation. Although the major part
of his mind was firm in its eternal and unshakeable Belief that there
would be a Door behind the outcrop, and that the Door would be The Way,
yet the tiny part of his brain that understood about the water bottle
could not help but recall past disappointments and sounded a very tiny
but jarring note of caution.
If he elected not to go and see The Door for himself, then he could
continue to believe in it forever. It would be the lodestone of his
life (what little was left of it, said the part of his brain that knew
about the water bottle).
If on the other hand he went to pay his respects to the Door and it
wasnt there... what then?
The horse whinnied impatiently.
The answer, of course, was very simple. He had a whole board of
circuits for dealing with exactly this problem, in fact this was the
very heart of his function. He would continue to believe in it whatever
the facts turned out to be, what else was the meaning of Belief?
The Door would still be there, even if the door was not.
He pulled himself together. The Door would be there, and he must now
go to it, because The Door was The Way.
Instead of remounting his horse, he led it. The Way was but a short
way, and he should enter the presence of the Door in humility.
He walked, brave and erect, with solemn slowness. He approached the
rocky outcrop. He reached it. He turned the corner. He looked.
The Door was there.
The horse, it must be said, was quite surprised.
The Monk fell to his knees in awe and bewilderment. So braced was he
for dealing with the disappointment that was habitually his lot that,
though he would never know to admit it, he was completely unprepared
for this. He stared at The Door in sheer, blank system error.
It was a door such as he had never seen before. All the doors he
knew were great steel-reinforced things, because of all the video
recorders and dishwashers that were kept behind them, plus of course
all the expensive Electric Monks that were needed to believe in it all.
This one was simple, wooden and small, about his own size. A Monk-size
door, painted white, with a single, slightly dented brass knob slightly
less than halfway up one side. It was set simply in the rock face, with
no explanation as to its origin or purpose.
Hardly knowing how he dared, the poor startled Monk staggered to his
feet and, leading his horse, walked nervously forward towards it. He
reached out and touched it. He was so startled when no alarms went off
that he jumped back. He touched it again, more firmly this time.
He let his hand drop slowly to the handle -- again, no alarms. He
waited to be sure, and then he turned it, very, very gently. He felt a
mechanism release. He held his breath. Nothing. He drew the door
towards him, and it came easily. He looked inside, but the interior was
so dim in contrast with the desert sun outside that he could see
nothing. At last, almost dead with wonder, he entered, pulling the
horse in after him.
A few minutes later, a figure that had been sitting out of sight
around the next outcrop of rock finished rubbing dust on his face,
stood up, stretched his limbs and made his way back towards the door,
patting his clothes as he did so.
In Xanadu did Kubla Khan
A stately pleasure-dome decree:
The reader clearly belonged to the school of thought which holds
that a sense of the seriousness or greatness of a poem is best imparted
by reading it in a silly voice. He soared and swooped at the words
until they seemed to duck and run for cover.
Where Alph, the sacred river ran
Through caverns measureless to man
Down to a sunless sea.
Richard relaxed back into his seat. The words were very, very
familiar to him, as they could not help but be to any English graduate
of St Cedds College, and they settled easily into his mind.
The association of the college with Coleridge was taken very
seriously indeed, despite the mans well-known predilection for certain
recreational pharmaceuticals under the influence of which this, his
greatest work, was composed, in a dream.
The entire manuscript was lodged in the safe-keeping of the college
library, and it was from this itself, on the regular occasion of the
Coleridge Dinner, that the poem was read.
So twice five miles of fertile ground
With walls and towers were girdled round:
And there were gardens bright with sinuous rills,
Where blossomed many an incense-bearing tree;
And here were forests ancient as the hills,
Enfolding sunny spots of greenery.
Richard wondered how long it took. He glanced sideways at his former
Director of Studies and was disturbed by the sturdy purposefulness of
his reading posture. The singsong voice irritated him at first, but
after a while it began to lull him instead, and he watched a rivulet of
wax seeping over the edge of a candle that was burning low now and
throwing a guttering light over the carnage of dinner.
But oh! that deep romantic chasm which slanted
Down the green hill athwart a cedarn cover!
A savage place! as holy and enchanted
As eer beneath a waning moon was haunted
By woman wailing for her demon-lover!
The small quantities of claret that he had allowed himself during
the course of the meal seeped warmly through his veins, and soon his
own mind began to wander, and provoked by Regs question earlier in the
meal, he wondered what had lately become of his former... was friend
the word? He seemed more like a succession of extraordinary events than
a person. The idea of him actually having friends as such seemed not so
much unlikely, more a sort of mismatching of concepts, like the idea of
the Suez crisis popping out for a bun.
Svlad Cjelli. Popularly known as Dirk, though, again, popular was
hardly right. Notorious, certainly; sought after, endlessly speculated
about, those too were true. But popular? Only in the sense that a
serious accident on the motorway might be popular -- everyone slows
down to have a good look, but no one will get too close to the flames.
Infamous was more like it. Svlad Cjelli, infamously known as Dirk.
He was rounder than the average undergraduate and wore more hats.
That is to say, there was just the one hat which he habitually wore,
but he wore it with a passion that was rare in one so young. The hat
was dark red and round, with a very flat brim, and it appeared to move
as if balanced on gimbals, which ensured its perfect horizontality at
all times, however its owner moved his head. As a hat it was a
remarkable rather than entirely successful piece of persona!
decoration. It would make an elegant adornment, stylish, shapely and
flattering, if the wearer were a small bedside lamp, but not otherwise.
People gravitated around him, drawn in by the stories he denied
about himself, but what the source of these stories might be, if not
his own denials, was never entirely clear.
The tales had to do with the psychic powers that hed supposedly
inherited from his mothers side of the family who he claimed, had
lived at the smarter end of Transylvania. That is to say, he didnt
make any such claim at all, and said it was the most absurd nonsense.
He strenuously denied that there were bats of any kind at all in his
family and threatened to sue anybody who put about such malicious
fabrications, but he affected nevertheless to wear a large and flappy
leather coat, and had one of those machines in his room which are
supposed to help cure bad backs if you hang upside down from them. He
would allow people to discover him hanging from this machine at all
kinds of odd hours of the day, and more particularly of the night,
expressly so that he could vigorously deny that it had any significance
whatsoever.
By means of an ingenious series of strategically deployed denials of
the most exciting and exotic things, he was able to create the myth
that he was a psychic, mystic, telepathic, fey, clairvoyant,
psychosassic vampire bat.
What did psychosassic mean?
It was his own word and he vigorously denied that it meant anything
at all.
And from this chasm, with ceaseless turmoil seething,
As if this earth in fast thick pants were breathing,
A mighty fountain momently was forced:
Amid whose swift half-intermitted burst
Huge fragments vaulted...
Dirk had also been perpetually broke. This would change.
It was his room-mate who started it, a credulous fellow called
Mander, who, if the truth were known, had probably been specially
selected by Dirk for his credulity.
Steve Mander noticed that if ever Dirk went to bed drunk he would
talk in his sleep. Not only that, but the sort of things he would say
in his sleep would be things like, The opening up of trade routes to
the mumble mumble burble was the turning point for the growth of empire
in the snore footle mumble. Discuss.
...like rebounding hail,
Or chaffy grain beneath the threshers flail:
The first time this happened Steve Mander sat bolt upright in bed.
This was shortly before prelim exams in the second year, and what Dirk
had just said, or judiciously mumbled, sounded remarkably like a very
likely question in the Economic History paper.
Mander quietly got up, crossed over to Dirks bed and listened very
hard, but other than a few completely disconnected mumblings about
Schleswig-Holstein and the Franco-Prussian war, the latter being
largely directed by Dirk into his pillow, he learned nothing more.
News, however, spread -- quietly, discreetly, and like wildfire.
And mid these dancing rocks at once and ever
It flung up momently the sacred river.
For the next month Dirk found himself being constantly wined and
dined in the hope that he would sleep very soundly that night and
dream-speak a few more exam questions. Remarkably, it seemed that the
better he was fed, and the finer the vintage of the wine he was given
to drink, the less he would tend to sleep facing directly into his
pillow.
His scheme, therefore, was to exploit his alleged gifts without ever
actually claiming to have them. In fact he would react to stories about
his supposed powers with open incredulity, even hostility.
Five miles meandering with a mazy motion
Through wood and dale the sacred river ran,
Then reached the caverns measureless to man,
And sank in tumult to a lifeless ocean:
And mid this tumult Kubla heard from far
Ancestral voices prophesying war!
Dirk was also, he denied, a clairaudient. He would sometimes hum
tunes in his sleep that two weeks later would turn out to be a hit for
someone. Not too difficult to organise, really.
In fact, he had always done the bare minimum of research necessary
to support these myths. He was lazy, and essentially what he did was
allow peoples enthusiastic credulity to do the work for him. The
laziness was essential -- if his supposed feats of the paranormal had
been detailed and accurate, then people might have been suspicious and
looked for other explanations. On the other hand, the more vague and
ambiguous his predictions the more other peoples own wishful
thinking would close the credibility gap.
Dirk never made much out of it -- at least, he appeared not to. In
fact, the benefit to himself, as a student, of being continually wined
and dined at other peoples expense was more considerable than anyone
would expect unless they sat down and worked out the figures.
And, of course, he never claimed -- in fact, he actively denied --
that any of it was even remotely true.
He was therefore well placed to execute a very nice and tasty little
scam come the time of finals.
The shadow of the dome of pleasure
Floated midway on the waves;
Where was heard the mingled measure
From the fountain and the caves.
It was a miracle of rare device,
A sunny pleasure-dome with caves of ice!
Good heavens...! Reg suddenly seemed to awake with a start from
the light doze into which he had gently slipped under the influence of
the wine and the reading, and glanced about himself with blank
surprise, but nothing had changed. Coleridges words sang through a
warm and contented silence that had settled on the great hall. After
another quick frown, Reg settled back into another doze, but this time
a slightly more attentive one.
A damsel with a dulcimer
In a vision once I saw:
It was an Abyssinian maid,
And on her dulcimer she played,
Singing of Mount Abora.
Dirk allowed himself to be persuaded to make, under hypnosis, a firm
prediction about what questions would be set for examination that
summer.
He himself first planted the idea by explaining exactly the sort of
thing that he would never, under any circumstances, be prepared to do,
though in many ways he would like to, just to have the chance to
disprove his alleged and strongly disavowed abilities.
And it was on these grounds, carefully prepared, that he eventually
agreed -- only because it would once and for all scotch the whole silly
-- immensely, tediously silly -- business. He would make his
predictions by means of automatic writing under proper supervision, and
they would then be sealed in an envelope and deposited at the bank
until after the exams.
Then they would be opened to see how accurate they had been /after/
the exams.
He was, not surprisingly, offered some pretty hefty bribes from a
pretty hefty number of people to let them see the predictions he had
written down, but he was absolutely shocked by the idea. That, he said,
would be /dishonest/...
Could I revive within me
Her symphony and song,
To such a deep delight twould win me,
That with music loud and long,
I would build that dome in air,
That sunny dome! Those caves of ice!
Then, a short time later, Dirk allowed himself to be seen around
town wearing something of a vexed and solemn expression. At first he
waved aside enquiries as to what it was that was bothering him, but
eventually he let slip that his mother was going to have to undergo
some extremely expensive dental work which, for reasons that he refused
to discuss, would have to be done privately, only there wasnt the
money.
From here, the path downward to accepting donations for his mothers
supposed medical expenses in return for quick glances at his written
exam predictions proved to be sufficiently steep and well-oiled for him
to be able to slip down it with a minimum of fuss.
Then it further transpired that the only dentist who could perform
this mysterious dental operation was an East European surgeon now
living in Malibu, and it was in consequence necessary to increase the
level of donations rather sharply.
He still denied, of course, that his abilities were all that they
were cracked up to be, in fact he denied that they existed at all, and
insisted that he would never have embarked on the exercise at all if it
wasnt to disprove the whole thing -- and also, since other people
seemed, at their own risk, to have a faith in his abilities that he
himself did not, he was happy to indulge them to the extent of letting
them pay for his sainted mothers operation.
He could only emerge well from this situation.
Or so he thought.
And all who heard should see them there,
And all should cry, Beware! Beware!
His flashing eyes, his floating hair!
The exam papers Dirk produced under hypnosis, by means of automatic
writing, he had, in fact, pieced together simply by doing the same
minimum research that any student taking exams would do, studying
previous exam papers, and seeing what, if any, patterns emerged, and
making intelligent guesses about what might come up. He was pretty sure
of getting (as anyone would be) a strike rate that was sufficiently
high to satisfy the credulous, and sufficiently low for the whole
exercise to look perfectly innocent.
As indeed it was.
What completely blew him out of the water, and caused a furore which
ended with him being driven out of Cambridge in the back of a Black
Maria, was the fact that all the exam papers he sold turned out to be
the same as the papers that were actually set.
Exactly. Word for word. To the very comma.
Wave a circle round him thrice,
And close your eyes with holy dread,
For he on honey-dew hath fed,
And drunk the milk of Paradise...
And that, apart from a flurry of sensational newspaper reports which
exposed him as a fraud, then trumpeted him as the real thing so that
they could have another round of exposing him as a fraud again and then
trumpeting him as the real thing again, until they got bored and found
a nice juicy snooker player to harass instead, was that.
In the years since then, Richard had run into Dirk from time to time
and had usually been greeted with that kind of guarded half smile that
wants to know if you think it owes you money before it blossoms into
one that hopes you will lend it some. Dirks regular name changes
suggested to Richard that he wasnt alone in being treated like this.
He felt a tug of sadness that someone who had seemed so shiningly
alive within the small confines of a university community should have
seemed to fade so much in the light of common day. And he wondered at
Regs asking after him like that, suddenly and out of the blue, in what
seemed altogether too airy and casual a manner.
He glanced around him again, at his lightly snoring neighbour, Reg;
at little Sarah rapt in silent attention; at the deep hall swathed in
darkly glimmering light; at the portraits of old prime ministers and
poets hung high in the darkness with just the odd glint of candlelight
gleaming off their teeth; at the Director of English Studies standing
reading in his poetry-reading voice; at the book of Kubla Khan that
the Director of English Studies held in his hand; and finally,
surreptitiously, at his watch. He settled back again.
The voice continued, reading the second, and altogether stranger
part of the poem...
This was the evening of the last day of Gordon Ways life, and he
was wondering if the rain would hold off for the weekend. The forecast
had said changeable -- a misty night tonight followed by bright but
chilly days on Friday and Saturday with maybe a few scattered showers
towards the end of Sunday when everyone would be heading back into
town.
Everyone, that is, other than Gordon Way.
The weather forecast hadnt mentioned that, of course, that wasnt
the job of the weather forecast, but then his horoscope had been pretty
misleading as well. It had mentioned an unusual amount of planetary
activity in his sign and had urged him to differentiate between what he
thought he wanted and what he actually needed, and suggested that he
should tackle emotional or work problems with determination and
complete honesty, but had inexplicably failed to mention that he would
be dead before the day was out.
He turned off the motorway near Cambridge and stopped at a small
filling station for some petrol, where he sat for a moment, finishing
off a call on his car phone.
OK, look, Ill call you tomorrow, he said, or maybe later
tonight. Or call me. I should be at the cottage in half an hour. Yes, I
know how important the project is to you. All right, I know how
important it is, full stop. You want it, I want it. Of course I do. And
Im not saying that we wont continue to support it. Im just saying
its expensive and we should look at the whole thing with determination
and complete honesty. Look, why dont you come out to the cottage, and
we can talk it through. OK, yeah, yes, I know. I understand. Well,
think about it, Kate. Talk to you later. Bye.
He hung up and continued to sit in his car for a moment.
It was a large car. It was a large silver-grey Mercedes of the sort
that they use in advertisements, and not just advertisements for
Mercedes. Gordon Way, brother of Susan, employer of Richard MacDuff,
was a rich man, the founder and owner of WayForward Technologies II.
WayForward Technologies itself had of course gone bust, for the usual
reason, taking his entire first fortune with it.
Luckily, he had managed to make another one.
The usual reason was that he had been in the business of computer
hardware when every twelve-year-old in the country had suddenly got
bored with boxes that went bing. His second fortune had been made in
software instead. As a result of two major pieces of software, one of
which was /Anthem/ (the other, more profitable one had never seen the
light of day), WFT-II was the only British software company that could
be mentioned in the same sentence as such major U.S. companies as
Microsoft or Lotus. The sentence would probably run along the lines of
WayForward Technologies, unlike such major U.S. companies as Microsoft
or Lotus... but it was a start. WayForward was in there. And he owned
it.
He pushed a tape into the slot on the stereo console. It accepted it
with a soft and decorous click, and a moment or two later Ravels
/Boléro/ floated out of eight perfectly matched speakers with fine-
meshed matte-black grilles. The stereo was so smooth and spacious you
could almost sense the whole ice-rink. He tapped his fingers lightly on
the padded rim of the steering wheel. He gazed at the dashboard.
Tasteful illuminated figures and tiny, immaculate lights gazed dimly
back at him. After a while he suddenly realised this was a self service
station and got out to fill the tank.
This took a minute or two. He stood gripping the filler nozzle,
stamping his feet in the cold night air, then walked over to the small
grubby kiosk, paid for the petrol, remembered to buy a couple of local
maps, and then stood chatting enthusiastically to the cashier for a few
minutes about the directions the computer industry was likely to take
in the following year, suggesting that parallel processing was going to
be the key to really intuitive productivity software, but also strongly
doubting whether artificial intelligence research /per se/,
particularly artificial intelligence research based on the ProLog
language, was really going to produce any serious commercially viable
products in the foreseeable future, at least as far as the office desk
top environment was concerned, a topic that fascinated the cashier not
at all.
The man just liked to talk, he would later tell the police. Man,
I could have walked away to the toilet for ten minutes and he wouldve
told it all to the till. If Id been fifteen minutes the till would
have walked away too. Yeah, Im sure thats him, he would add when
shown a picture of Gordon Way. I only wasnt sure at first because in
the picture hes got his mouth closed.
And youre absolutely certain you didnt see anything else
suspicious? the policeman insisted. Nothing that struck you as odd in
any way at all?
No, like I said, it was just an ordinary customer on an ordinary
night, just like any other night.
The policeman stared at him blankly. Just for the sake of
argument, he went on to say, if I were suddenly to do this... -- he
made himself go cross-eyed, stuck his tongue out of the corner of his
mouth and danced up and down twisting his fingers in his ears -- would
anything strike you about that?
Well, er, yeah, said the cashier, backing away nervously. Id
think youd gone stark raving mad.
Good, said the policeman, putting his notebook away. Its just
that different people sometimes have a different idea of what odd
means, you see, sir. If last night was an ordinary night just like any
other night, then I am a pimple on the bottom of the Marquess of
Queensburys aunt. We shall be requiring a statement later, sir. Thank
you for your time.
That was all yet to come.
Tonight, Gordon pushed the maps in his pocket and strolled back
towards his car. Standing under the lights in the mist it had gathered
a finely beaded coat of matte moisture on it, and looked like -- well,
it looked like an extremely expensive Mercedes-Benz. Gordon caught
himself, just for a millisecond, wishing that he had something like
that, but he was now quite adept at fending off that particular line of
thought, which only led off in circles and left him feeling depressed
and confused.
He patted it in a proprietorial manner, then, walking around it,
noticed that the boot wasnt closed properly and pushed it shut. It
closed with a good healthy clunk. Well, that made it all worth it,
didnt it? Good healthy clunk like that. Old-fashioned values of
quality and workmanship. He thought of a dozen things he had to talk to
Susan about and climbed back into the car, pushing the auto-dial code
on his phone as soon as the car was prowling back on to the road.
...so if youd like to leave a message, Ill get back to you as
soon as possible. Maybe.
/Beep./
Oh, Susan, hi, its Gordon, he said, cradling the phone awkwardly
on his shoulder. Just on my way to the cottage. Its er, Thursday
night, and its, er... 8.47. Bit misty on the roads. Listen, I have
those people from the States coming over this weekend to thrash out the
distribution on /Anthem/ Version 2.00, handling the promotion, all that
stuff, and look you know I dont like to ask you this sort of thing,
but you know I always do anyway, so here it is.
I just need to know that Richard is on the case. I mean /really/ on
the case. I can ask him, and he says, Oh sure, its fine, but half the
time -- shit, that lorry had bright lights, none of these bastard lorry
drivers ever dips them properly, its a wonder I dont end up dead in
the ditch, that would be something, wouldnt it, leaving your famous
last words on somebodys answering machine, theres no reason why these
lorries shouldnt have automatic light-activated dipper switches. Look,
can you make a note for me to tell Susan -- not you, of course,
secretary Susan at the office -- to tell her to send a letter from me
to that fellow at the Department of the Environment saying we can
provide the technology if he can provide the legislation? Its for the
public good, and anyway he owes me a favour plus whats the point in
having a CBE if you cant kick a little ass? You can tell Ive been
talking to Americans all week.
That reminds me, God, I hope I remembered to pack the shotguns.
What is it with these Americans that theyre always so mad to shoot my
rabbits? I bought them some maps in the hope that I can persuade them
to go on long healthy walks and take their minds off shooting rabbits.
I really feel quite sorry for the creatures. I think I should put one
of those signs on my lawn when the Americans are coming, you know, like
they have in Beverly Hills, saying `Armed Response.
Make a note to Susan, would you please, to get an `Armed Response
sign made up with a sharp spike on the bottom at the right height for
rabbits to see. Thats secretary Susan at the office not you, of
course.
Where was I?
Oh yes. Richard and /Anthem/ 2.00. Susan, that thing has got to be
in beta testing in two weeks. He tells me its fine. But every time I
see him hes got a picture of a sofa spinning on his computer screen.
He says its an important concept, but all I see is furniture. People
who want their company accounts to sing to them do not want to buy a
revolving sofa. Nor do I think he should be turning the erosion
patterns of the Himalayas into a flute quintet at this time.
And as for what Kates up to, Susan, well, I cant hide the fact
that I get anxious at the salaries and computer time its eating up.
Important long-term research and development it might be, but there is
also the possibility, only a possibility, Im saying, but nevertheless
a possibility which I think we owe it to ourselves fully to evaluate
and explore, which is that its a lemon. Thats odd, theres a noise
coming from the boot, I thought Id just closed it properly.
Anyway, the main things Richard. And the point is that theres
only one person whos really in a position to know if hes getting the
important work done, or if hes just dreaming, and that one person is,
Im afraid, Susan.
Thats you, I mean, of course, not secretary Susan at the office.
So can you, I dont like to ask you this, I really dont, can you
really get on his case? Make him see how important it is? Just make
sure he realises that WayForward Technologies is meant to be an
expanding commercial business, not an adventure playground for crunch-
heads. Thats the problem with crunch-heads -- they have one great idea
that actually works and then they expect you to carry on funding them
for years while they sit and calculate the topographies of their
navels. Im sorry, Im going to have to stop and close the boot
properly. Wont be a moment.
He put the telephone down on the seat beside him, pulled over on to
the grass verge, and got out. As he went to the boot, it opened, a
figure rose out of it, shot him through the chest with both barrels of
a shotgun and then went about its business.
Gordon Ways astonishment at being suddenly shot dead was nothing to
his astonishment at what happened next.
Come in, dear fellow, come in.
The door to Regs set of rooms in college was up a winding set of
wooden stairs in the corner of Second Court, and was not well lit, or
rather it was perfectly well lit when the light was working, but the
light was not working, so the door was not well lit and was,
furthermore, locked. Reg was having difficulty in finding the key from
a collection which looked like something that a fit Ninja warrior could
hurl through the trunk of a tree.
Rooms in the older parts of the college have double doors, like
airlocks, and like airlocks they are fiddly to open. The outer door is
a sturdy slab of grey painted oak, with no features other than a very
narrow slit for letters, and a Yale lock, to which suddenly Reg at last
found the key.
He unlocked it and pulled it open. Behind it lay an ordinary white-
panelled door with an ordinary brass doorknob.
Come in, come in, repeated Reg, opening this and fumbling for the
light switch. For a moment only the dying embers of a fire in the stone
grate threw ghostly red shadows dancing around the room, but then
electric light flooded it and extinguished the magic. Reg hesitated on
the threshold for a moment, oddly tense, as if wishing to be sure of
something before he entered, then bustled in with at least the
appearance of cheeriness.
It was a large panelled room, which a collection of gently shabby
furniture contrived to fill quite comfortably. Against the far wall
stood a large and battered old mahogany table with fat ugly legs, which
was laden with books, files, folders and teetering piles of papers.
Standing in its own space on the desk, Richard was amused to note, was
actually a battered old abacus.
There was a small Regency writing desk standing nearby which might
have been quite valuable had it not been knocked about so much, also a
couple of elegant Georgian chairs, a portentous Victorian bookcase, and
so on. It was, in short, a dons room. It had a dons framed maps and
prints on the walls a threadbare and faded dons carpet on the floor,
and it looked as if little had changed in it for decades, which was
probably the case because a don lived in it.
Two doors led out from either end of the opposite wall, and Richard
knew from previous visits that one led to a study which looked much
like a smaller and more intense version of this room -- larger clumps
of books, taller piles of paper in more imminent danger of actually
falling, furniture which, however old and valuable, was heavily marked
with myriad rings of hot tea or coffee cups, on many of which the
original cups themselves were probably still standing.
The other door led to a small and rather basically equipped kitchen,
and a twisty internal staircase at the top of which lay the Professors
bedroom and bathroom.
Try and make yourself comfortable on the sofa, invited Reg,
fussing around hospitably. I dont know if youll manage it. It always
feels to me as if its been stuffed with cabbage leaves and cutlery.
He peered at Richard seriously. Do you have a good sofa? he enquired.
Well, yes. Richard laughed. He was cheered by the silliness of the
question.
Oh, said Reg solemnly. Well, I wish youd tell me where you got
it. I have endless trouble with them, quite endless. Never found a
comfortable one in all my life. How do you find yours? He encountered,
with a slight air of surprise, a small silver tray he had left out with
a decanter of port and three glasses.
Well, its odd you should ask that, said Richard. Ive never sat
on it.
Very wise, insisted Reg earnestly, very, very wise. He went
through a palaver similar to his previous one with his coat and hat.
Not that I wouldnt like to, said Richard. Its just that its
stuck halfway up a long flight of stairs which leads up into my flat.
As far as I can make it out, the delivery men got it part way up the
stairs, got it stuck, turned it around any way they could, couldnt get
it any further, and then found, curiously enough, that they couldnt
get it back down again. Now, that should be impossible.
Odd, agreed Reg. Ive certainly never come across any
irreversible mathematics involving sofas. Could be a new field. Have
you spoken to any spatial geometricians?
I did better than that. I called in a neighbours kid who used to
be able to solve Rubiks cube in seventeen seconds. He sat on a step
and stared at it for over an hour before pronouncing it irrevocably
stuck. Admittedly hes a few years older now and has found out about
girls, but its got me puzzled.
Carry on talking, my dear fellow, Im most interested, but let me
know first if theres anything I can get you. Port perhaps? Or brandy?
The port I think is the better bet, laid down by the college in 1934,
one of the finest vintages I think youll find, and on the other hand I
dont actually have any brandy. Or coffee? Some more wine perhaps?
Theres an excellent Margaux Ive been looking for an excuse to open,
though it should of course be allowed to stand open for an hour or two,
which is not to say that I couldnt... no, he said hurriedly,
probably best not to go for the Margaux tonight.
Tea is what I would really like, said Richard, if you have some.
Reg raised his eyebrows. Are you sure?
I have to drive home.
Indeed. Then I shall be a moment or two in the kitchen. Please
carry on, I shall still be able to hear you. Continue to tell me of
your sofa, and do feel free in the meantime to sit on mine. Has it been
stuck there for long?
Oh, only about three weeks, said Richard, sitting down. I could
just saw it up and throw it away, but I cant believe that there isnt
a logical answer. And it also made me think -- it would be really
useful to know before you buy a piece of furniture whether its
actually going to fit up the stairs or around the corner. So Ive
modelled the problem in three dimensions on my computer -- and so far
it just says no way.
It says what? called Reg, over the noise of filling the kettle.
That it cant be done. I told it to compute the moves necessary to
get the sofa out, and it said there arent any. I said What? and it
said there arent any. I then asked it, and this is the really
mysterious thing, to compute the moves necessary to get the sofa into
its present position in the first place, and it said that it couldnt
have got there. Not without fundamental restructuring of the walls. So,
either theres something wrong with the fundamental structure of the
matter in my walls or, he added with a sigh, theres something wrong
with the program. Which would you guess?
And are you married? called Reg.
What? Oh, I see what you mean. A sofa stuck on the stairs for a
month. Well, no, not married as such, but yes, there is a specific girl
that Im not married to.
Whats she like? What does she do?
Shes a professional cellist. I have to admit that the sofa has
been a bit of a talking point. In fact shes moved back to her own flat
until I get it sorted out. She, well...
He was suddenly sad, and he stood up and wandered around the room in
a desultory sort of way and ended up in front of the dying fire. He
gave it a bit of a poke and threw on a couple of extra logs to try and
ward off the chill of the room.
Shes Gordons sister, in fact, he added at last. But they are
very different. Im not sure she really approves of computers very
much. And she doesnt much like his attitude to money. I dont think I
entirely blame her, actually, and she doesnt know the half of it.
Which is the half she doesnt know?
Richard sighed.
Well, he said, its to do with the project which first made the
software incarnation of the company profitable. It was called /Reason/,
and in its own way it was sensational.
What was it?
Well, it was a kind of back-to-front program. Its funny how many
of the best ideas are just an old idea back-to-front. You see there
have already been several programs written that help you to arrive at
decisions by properly ordering and analysing all the relevant facts so
that they then point naturally towards the right decision. The drawback
with these is that the decision which all the properly ordered and
analysed facts point to is not necessarily the one you want.
Yeeeess... said Regs voice from the kitchen.
Well, Gordons great insight was to design a program which allowed
you to specify in advance what decision you wished it to reach, and
only then to give it all the facts. The programs task, which it was
able to accomplish with consummate ease, was simply to construct a
plausible series of logical-sounding steps to connect the premises with
the conclusion.
And I have to say that it worked brilliantly. Gordon was able to
buy himself a Porsche almost immediately despite being completely broke
and a hopeless driver. Even his bank manager was unable to find fault
with his reasoning. Even when Gordon wrote it off three weeks later.
Heavens. And did the program sell very well?
No. We never sold a single copy.
You astonish me. It sounds like a real winner to me.
It was, said Richard hesitantly. The entire project was bought
up, lock, stock and barrel, by the Pentagon. The deal put WayForward on
a very sound financial foundation. Its moral foundation, on the other
hand, is not something I would want to trust my weight to. Ive
recently been analysing a lot of the arguments put forward in favour of
the Star Wars project, and if you know what youre looking for, the
pattern of the algorithms is very clear.
So much so, in fact, that looking at Pentagon policies over the
last couple of years I think I can be fairly sure that the US Navy is
using version 2.00 of the program, while the Air Force for some reason
only has the beta-test version of 1.5. Odd, that.
Do you have a copy?
Certainly not, said Richard, I wouldnt have anything to do with
it. Anyway, when the Pentagon bought everything, they bought
everything. Every scrap of code, every disk, every notebook. I was glad
to see the back of it. If indeed we have. I just busy myself with my
own projects.
He poked at the fire again and wondered what he was doing here when
he had so much work on. Gordon was on at him continually about getting
the new, super version of /Anthem/ ready for taking advantage of the
Macintosh II, and he was well behind with it. And as for the proposed
module for converting incoming Dow Jones stock-market information into
MIDI data in real time, hed only meant that as a joke, but Gordon, of
course, had flipped over the idea and insisted on its being
implemented. That too was meant to be ready but wasnt. He suddenly
knew exactly why it was he was here.
Well, it had been a pleasant evening, even if he couldnt see why
Reg had been quite so keen to see him. He picked up a couple of books
from the table. The table obviously doubled as a dining table, because
although the piles looked as if they had been there for weeks, the
absence of dust immediately around them showed that they had been moved
recently.
Maybe, he thought, the need for amiable chit-chat with someone
different can become as urgent as any other need when you live in a
community as enclosed as a Cambridge college was, even nowadays. He was
a likeable old fellow, but it was clear from dinner that many of his
colleagues found his eccentricities formed rather a rich sustained diet
-- particularly when they had so many of their own to contend with. A
thought about Susan nagged him, but he was used to that. He flipped
through the two books hed picked up.
One of them, an elderly one, was an account of the hauntings of
Borley Rectory, the most haunted house in England. Its spine was
getting raggedy, and the photographic plates were so grey and blurry as
to be virtually indistinguishable. A picture he thought must be a very
lucky (or faked) shot of a ghostly apparition turned out, when he
examined the caption, to be a portrait of the author.
The other book was more recent, and by an odd coincidence was a
guide to the Greek islands. He thumbed through it idly and a piece of
paper fell out.
Earl Grey or Lapsang Souchong? called out Reg. Or Darjeeling? Or
PG Tips? Its all tea bags anyway, Im afraid. And none of them very
fresh.
Darjeeling will do fine, replied Richard, stooping to pick up the
piece of paper.
Milk? called Reg.
Er, please.
One lump or two?
One, please.
Richard slipped the paper back into the book, noticing as he did so
that it had a hurriedly scribbled note on it. The note said, oddly
enough, Regard this simple silver salt cellar. Regard this simple
hat.
Sugar?
Er, what? said Richard, startled. He put the book hurriedly back
on the pile.
Just a tiny joke of mine, said Reg cheerily, to see if people are
listening. He emerged beaming from the kitchen carrying a small tray
with two cups on it, which he hurled suddenly to the floor. The tea
splashed over the carpet. One of the cups shattered and the other
bounced under the table. Reg leaned against the door frame, white-faced
and staring.
A frozen instant of time slid silently by while Richard was too
startled to react, then he leaped awkwardly forward to help. But the
old man was already apologising and offering to make him another cup.
Richard helped him to the sofa.
Are you all right? asked Richard helplessly. Shall I get a
doctor?
Reg waved him down. Its all right, he insisted, Im perfectly
well. Thought I heard, well, a noise that startled me. But it was
nothing. Just overcome with the tea fumes, I expect. Let me just catch
my breath. I think a little, er, port will revive me excellently. So
sorry, I didnt mean to startle you. He waved in the general direction
of the port decanter. Richard hurriedly poured a small glass and gave
it to him.
What kind of noise? he asked, wondering what on earth could shock
him so much.
At that moment came the sound of movement upstairs and an
extraordinary kind of heavy breathing noise.
That... whispered Reg. The glass of port lay shattered at his
feet. Upstairs someone seemed to be stamping. Did you hear it?
Well, yes.
This seemed to relieve the old man.
Richard looked nervously up at the ceiling. Is there someone up
there? he asked, feeling this was a lame question, but one that had to
be asked.
No, said Reg in a low voice that shocked Richard with the fear it
carried, no one. Nobody that should be there.
Then...
Reg was struggling shakily to his feet, but there was suddenly a
fierce determination about him.
I must go up there, he said quietly. I must. Please wait for me
here.
Look, what is this? demanded Richard, standing between Reg and the
doorway. What is it, a burglar? Look, Ill go. Im sure its nothing,
its just the wind or something. Richard didnt know why he was saying
this. It clearly wasnt the wind, or even anything like the wind,
because though the wind might conceivably make heavy breathing noises,
it rarely stamped its feet in that way.
No, the old man said, politely but firmly moving him aside, it is
for me to do.
Richard followed him helplessly through the door into the small
hallway, beyond which lay the tiny kitchen. A dark wooden staircase led
up from here; the steps seemed damaged and scuffed.
Reg turned on a light. It was a dim one that hung naked at the top
of the stairwell, and he looked up it with grim apprehension.
Wait here, he said, and walked up two steps. He then turned and
faced Richard with a look of the most profound seriousness on his face.
I am sorry, he said, that you have become involved in what is...
the more difficult side of my life. But you are involved now,
regrettable though that may be, and there is something I must ask you.
I do not know what awaits me up there, do not know exactly. I do not
know if it is something which I have foolishly brought upon myself with
my... my hobbies, or if it is something to which I have fallen an
innocent victim. If it is the former, then I have only myself to blame,
for I am like a doctor who cannot give up smoking, or perhaps worse
still, like an ecologist who cannot give up his car -- if the latter,
then I hope it may not happen to you.
What I must ask you is this. When I come back down these stairs,
always supposing of course that I do, then if my behaviour strikes you
as being in any way odd, if I appear not to be myself, then you must
leap on me and wrestle me to the ground. Do you understand? You must
prevent me from doing anything I may try to do.
But how will I know? asked an incredulous Richard. Sorry I dont
mean it to sound like that, but I dont know what...?
You will know, said Reg. Now please wait for me in the main room.
And close the door.
Shaking his head in bewilderment, Richard stepped back and did as he
was asked. From inside the large untidy room he listened to the sound
of the Professors tread mounting the stairs one at a time.
He mounted them with a heavy deliberation, like the ticking of a
great, slow clock.
Richard heard him reach the top landing. There he paused in silence.
Seconds went by, five, maybe ten, maybe twenty. Then came again the
heavy movement and breath that had first so harrowed the Professor.
Richard moved quickly to the door but did not open it. The chill of
the room oppressed and disturbed him. He shook his head to try and
shake off the feeling, and then held his breath as the footsteps
started once again slowly to traverse the two yards of the landing and
to pause there again.
After only a few seconds, this time Richard heard the long slow
squeak of a door being opened inch by inch, inch by cautious inch,
until it must surely now at last be standing wide agape.
Nothing further seemed to happen for a long, long time.
Then at last the door closed once again, slowly.
The footsteps crossed the landing and paused again. Richard backed a
few slight paces from the door, staring fixedly at it. Once more the
footsteps started to descend the stairs, slowly, deliberately and
quietly, until at last they reached the bottom. Then after a few
seconds more the door handle began to rotate. The door opened and Reg
walked calmly in.
Its all right, its just a horse in the bathroom, he said
quietly.
Richard leaped on him and wrestled him to the ground.
No, gasped Reg, no, get off me, let me go, Im perfectly all
right, damn it. Its just a horse, a perfectly ordinary horse. He
shook Richard off with no great difficulty and sat up, puffing and
blowing and pushing his hands through his limited hair. Richard stood
over him warily, but with great and mounting embarrassment. He edged
back, and let Reg stand up and sit on a chair.
Just a horse, said Reg, but, er, thank you for taking me at my
word. He brushed himself down.
A horse, repeated Richard.
Yes, said Reg.
Richard went out and looked up the stairs and then came back in.
A /horse/? he said again.
Yes, it is, said the Professor. Wait -- he motioned to Richard,
who was about to go out again and investigate -- let it be. It wont
be long.
Richard stared in disbelief. You say theres a horse in your
bathroom, and all you can do is stand there naming Beatles songs?
The Professor looked blankly at him.
Listen, he said, Im sorry if I... alarmed you earlier, it was
just a slight turn. These things happen, my dear fellow, dont upset
yourself about it. Dear me, Ive known odder things in my time. Many of
them. Far odder. Shes only a horse, for heavens sake. Ill go and let
her out later. Please dont concern yourself. Let us revive our spirits
with some port.
But... how did it get in there?
Well, the bathroom windows open. I expect she came in through
that.
Richard looked at him, not for the first and certainly not for the
last time, through eyes that were narrowed with suspicion.
Youre doing it deliberately, arent you? he said.
Doing what, my dear fellow?
I dont believe theres a horse in your bathroom, said Richard
suddenly. I dont know what is there, I dont know what youre doing,
I dont know what any of this evening means, but I dont believe
theres a horse in your bathroom. And brushing aside Regs further
protestations he went up to look.
The bathroom was not large.
The walls were panelled in old oak linenfold which, given the age
and nature of the building, was quite probably priceless, but otherwise
the fittings were stark and institutional.
There was old, scuffed, black-and-white checked linoleum on the
floor, a small basic bath, well cleaned but with very elderly stains
and chips in the enamel, and also a small basic basin with a toothbrush
and toothpaste in a Duralex beaker standing next to the taps. Screwed
into the probably priceless panelling above the basin was a tin mirror-
fronted bathroom cabinet. It looked as if it had been repainted many
times, and the mirror was stained round the edges with condensation.
The lavatory had an old-fashioned cast-iron chain-pull cistern. There
was an old cream-painted wooden cupboard standing in the corner, with
an old brown bentwood chair next to it, on which lay some neatly folded
but threadbare small towels. There was also a large horse in the room,
taking up most of it.
Richard stared at it, and it stared at Richard in an appraising kind
of way. Richard swayed slightly. The horse stood quite still. After a
while it looked at the cupboard instead. It seemed, if not content,
then at least perfectly resigned to being where it was until it was put
somewhere else. It also seemed... what was it?
It was bathed in the glow of the moonlight that streamed in through
the window. The window was open but small and was, besides, on the
second floor, so the notion that the horse had entered by that route
was entirely fanciful.
There was something odd about the horse, but he couldnt say what.
Well, there was one thing that was clearly very odd about it indeed,
which was that it was standing in a college bathroom. Maybe that was
all.
He reached out, rather tentatively, to pat the creature on its neck.
It felt normal -- firm, glossy, it was in good condition. The effect of
the moonlight on its coat was a little mazy, but everything looks a
little odd by moonlight. The horse shook its mane a little when he
touched it, but didnt seem to mind too much.
After the success of patting it, Richard stroked it a few times and
scratched it gently under the jaw. Then he noticed that there was
another door into the bathroom, in the far corner. He moved cautiously
around the horse and approached the other door. He backed up against it
and pushed it open tentatively.
It just opened into the Professors bedroom, a small room cluttered
with books and shoes and a small single bed. This room, too, had
another door, which opened out on to the landing again.
Richard noticed that the floor of the landing was newly scuffed and
scratched as the stairs had been, and these marks were consistent with
the idea that the horse had somehow been pushed up the stairs. He
wouldnt have liked to have had to do it himself, and he would have
liked to have been the horse having it done to him even less, but it
was just about possible.
But why? He had one last look at the horse, which had one last look
back at him, and then he returned downstairs.
I agree, he said. You have a horse in your bathroom and I will,
after all, have a little port.
He poured some for himself, and then some for Reg, who was quietly
contemplating the fire and was in need of a refill.
Just as well I did put out three glasses after all, said Reg
chattily. I wondered why earlier, and now I remember.
You asked if you could bring a friend, but appear not to have done
so. On account of the sofa no doubt. Never mind, these things happen.
Whoa, not too much, youll spill it.
All horse-related questions left Richards mind abruptly.
I did? he said.
Oh yes. I remember now. You rang me back to ask me if it would be
all right, as I recall. I said I would be charmed, and fully intended
to be. Id saw the thing up if I were you. Dont want to sacrifice your
happiness to a sofa. Or maybe she decided that an evening with your old
tutor would be blisteringly dull and opted for the more exhilarating
course of washing her hair instead. Dear me, I know what I would have
done. Its only lack of hair that forces me to pursue such a hectic
social round these days.
It was Richards turn to be white-faced and staring.
Yes, he had assumed that Susan would not want to come.
Yes, he had said to her it would be terribly dull. But she had
insisted that she wanted to come because it would be the only way shed
get to see his face for a few minutes not bathed in the light of a
computer screen, so he had agreed and arranged that he would bring her
after all.
Only he had completely forgotten this. He had not picked her up.
He said, Can I use your phone, please?
Gordon Way lay on the ground, unclear about what to do.
He was dead. There seemed little doubt about that. There was a
horrific hole in his chest, but the blood that was gobbing out of it
had slowed to a trickle. Otherwise there was no movement from his chest
at all, or, indeed, from any other part of him.
He looked up, and from side to side, and it became clear to him that
whatever part of him it was that was moving, it wasnt any part of his
body.
The mist rolled slowly over him, and explained nothing. At a few
feet distant from him his shotgun lay smoking quietly in the grass.
He continued to lie there, like someone lying awake at four oclock
in the morning, unable to put their mind to rest, but unable to find
anything to do with it. He realised that he had just had something of a
shock, which might account for his inability to think clearly, but
didnt account for his ability actually to think at all.
In the great debate that has raged for centuries about what, if
anything, happens to you after death, be it heaven, hell, purgatory or
extinction, one thing has never been in doubt -- that you would at
least know the answer when you were dead.
Gordon Way was dead, but he simply hadnt the slightest idea what he
was meant to do about it. It wasnt a situation he had encountered
before.
He sat up. The body that sat up seemed as real to him as the body
that still lay slowly cooling on the ground, giving up its blood heat
in wraiths of steam that mingled with the mist of the chill night air.
Experimenting a bit further, he tried standing up, slowly,
wonderingly and wobblingly. The ground seemed to give him support, it
took his weight. But then of course he appeared to have no weight that
needed to be taken. When he bent to touch the ground he could feel
nothing save a kind of distant rubbery resistance like the sensation
you get if you try and pick something up when your arm has gone dead.
His arm had gone dead. His legs too, and his other arm, and all his
torso and his head.
His body was dead. He could not say why his mind was not.
He stood in a kind of frozen, sleepless horror while the mist curled
slowly through him.
He looked back down at the him, the ghastly, astonished-looking him-
thing lying still and mangled on the ground, and his flesh wanted to
creep. Or rather, he wanted flesh that could creep. He wanted flesh. He
wanted body. He had none.
A sudden cry of horror escaped from his mouth but was nothing and
went nowhere. He shook and felt nothing.
Music and a pool of light seeped from his car. He walked towards it.
He tried to walk sturdily, but it was a faint and feeble kind of
walking, uncertain and, well, insubstantial. The ground felt frail
beneath his feet.
The door of the car was still open on the drivers side, as he had
left it when he had leaped out to deal with the boot lid, thinking hed
only be two seconds.
That was all of two minutes ago now, when hed been alive. When hed
been a person. When hed thought he was going to be leaping straight
back in and driving off. Two minutes and a lifetime ago.
This was insane, wasnt it? he thought suddenly.
He walked around the door and bent down to peer into the external
rear-view mirror.
He looked exactly like himself, albeit like himself after hed had a
terrible fright, which was to be expected, but that was him, that was
normal. This must be something he was imagining, some horrible kind of
waking dream. He had a sudden thought and tried breathing on the rear-
view mirror.
Nothing. Not a single droplet formed. That would satisfy a doctor,
thats what they always did on television -- if no mist formed on the
mirror, there was no breath. Perhaps, he thought anxiously to himself,
perhaps it was something to do with having heated wing mirrors. Didnt
this car have heated wing mirrors? Hadnt the salesman gone on and on
about heated this, electric that, and servo-assisted the other? Maybe
they were digital wing mirrors. That was it. Digital, heated, servo-
assisted, computer-controlled, breath-resistant wing mirrors...
He was, he realised, thinking complete nonsense. He turned slowly
and gazed again in apprehension at the body lying on the ground behind
him with half its chest blown away. That would certainly satisfy a
doctor. The sight would be appalling enough if it was somebody elses
body, but his own...
He was dead. Dead... dead... He tried to make the word toll
dramatically in his mind, but it wouldnt. He was not a film sound
track, he was just dead.
Peering at his body in appalled fascination, he gradually became
distressed by the expression of asinine stupidity on its face.
It was perfectly understandable, of course. It was just such an
expression as somebody who is in the middle of being shot with his own
shotgun by somebody who had been hiding in the boot of his car might be
expected to wear, but he nevertheless disliked the idea that anyone
might find him looking like that.
He knelt down beside it in the hope of being able to rearrange his
features into some semblance of dignity, or at least basic
intelligence.
It proved to be almost impossibly difficult. He tried to knead the
skin, the sickeningly familiar skin, but somehow he couldnt seem to
get a proper grip on it, or on anything. It was like trying to model
plasticine when your arm has gone to sleep, except that instead of his
grip slipping off the model, it would slip through it. In this case,
his hand slipped through his face.
Nauseated horror and rage swept through him at his sheer bloody
blasted impotence, and he was suddenly startled to find himself
throttling and shaking his own dead body with a firm and furious grip.
He staggered back in amazed shock. All he had managed to do was to add
to the inanely stupefied look of the corpse a twisted-up mouth and a
squint. And bruises flowering on its neck.
He started to sob, and this time sound seemed to come, a strange
howling from deep within whatever this thing he had become was.
Clutching his hands to his face, he staggered backwards, retreated to
his car and flung himself into the seat. The seat received him in a
loose and distant kind of way, like an aunt who disapproves of the last
fifteen years of your life and will therefore furnish you with a basic
sherry, but refuses to catch your eye.
Could he get himself to a doctor?
To avoid facing the absurdity of the idea he grappled violently with
the steering wheel, but his hands slipped through it. He tried to
wrestle with the automatic transmission shift and ended up thumping it
in rage, but not being able properly to grasp or push it.
The stereo was still playing light orchestral music into the
telephone, which had been lying on the passenger seat listening
patiently all this time. He stared at it and realised with a growing
fever of excitement that he was still connected to Susans telephone-
answering machine. It was the type that would simply run and run until
he hung up. He was still in contact with the world.
He tried desperately to pick up the receiver, fumbled, let it slip,
and was in the end reduced to bending himself down over its mouthpiece.
Susan! he cried into it, his voice a hoarse and distant wail on the
wind. Susan, help me! Help me for Gods sake. Susan, Im dead... Im
dead... Im dead and... I dont know what to do... He broke down
again, sobbing in desperation, and tried to cling to the phone like a
baby clinging to its blanket for comfort.
Help me, Susan... he cried again.
/Beep/, said the phone.
He looked down at it again where he was cuddling it. He had managed
to push something after all. He had managed to push the button which
disconnected the call. Feverishly he attempted to grapple the thing
again, but it constantly slipped through his fingers and eventually lay
immobile on the seat. He could not touch it. He could not push the
buttons. In rage he flung it at the windscreen. It responded to that,
all right. It hit the windscreen, careered straight back though him,
bounced off the seat and then lay still on the transmission tunnel,
impervious to all his further attempts to touch it.
For several minutes still he sat there, his head nodding slowly as
terror began to recede into blank desolation.
A couple of cars passed by, but would have noticed nothing odd -- a
car stopped by the wayside. Passing swiftly in the night their
headlights would probably not have picked out the body lying in the
grass behind the car. They certainly would not have noticed a ghost
sitting inside it crying to himself.
He didnt know how long he sat there. He was hardly aware of time
passing, only that it didnt seem to pass quickly. There was little
external stimulus to mark its passage. He didnt feel cold. In fact he
could almost not remember what cold meant or felt like, he just knew
that it was something he would have expected to feel at this moment.
Eventually he stirred from his pathetic huddle. He would have to do
something, though he didnt know what. Perhaps he should try and reach
his cottage, though he didnt know what he would do when he got there.
He just needed something to try for. He needed to make it through the
night.
Pulling himself together he slipped out of the car, his foot and
knee grazing easily through part of the door frame. He went to look
again at his body, but it wasnt there.
As if the night hadnt produced enough shocks already. He started,
and stared at the damp depression in the grass.
His body was not there.
Richard made the hastiest departure that politeness would allow.
He said thank you very much and what a splendid evening it had been
and that any time Reg was coming up to London he must let him, Richard,
know and was there anything he could do to help about the horse. No?
Well, all right then, if youre sure, and thank you again, so much.
He stood there for a moment or two after the door finally closed,
pondering things.
He had noticed during the short time that the light from Regs room
flooded out on to the landing of the main staircase, that there were no
marks on the floorboards there at all. It seemed odd that the horse
should only have scuffed the floorboards inside Regs room.
Well, it all seemed very odd, full stop, but here was yet another
curious fact to add to the growing pile. This was supposed to have been
a relaxing evening away from work.
On an impulse he knocked on the door opposite to Regs. It took such
a long time to be answered that Richard had given up and was turning to
go when at last he heard the door creak open.
He had a slight shock when he saw that staring sharply up at him
like a small and suspicious bird was the don with the racing-yacht keel
for a nose.
Er, sorry, said Richard, abruptly, but, er, have you seen or
heard a horse coming up this staircase tonight?
The man stopped his obsessive twitching of his fingers. He cocked
his head slightly on one side and then seemed to need to go on a long
journey inside himself to find a voice, which when found turned out to
be a thin and soft little one.
He said, That is the first thing anybody has said to me for
seventeen years, three months and two days, five hours, nineteen
minutes and twenty seconds. Ive been counting.
He closed the door softly again.
Richard virtually ran through Second Court.
When he reached First Court he steadied himself and slowed down to a
walking pace.
The chill night air was rasping in his lungs and there was no point
in running. He hadnt managed to talk to Susan because Regs phone
wasnt working, and this was another thing that he had been
mysteriously coy about. That at least was susceptible of a rational
explanation. He probably hadnt paid his phone bill.
Richard was about to emerge out on to the street when instead he
decided to pay a quick visit to the porters lodge, which was tucked
away inside the great archway entrance into the college. It was a small
hutchlike place filled with keys, messages and a single electric bar
heater. A radio nattered to itself in the background.
Excuse me, he said to the large black-suited man standing behind
the counter with his arms folded. I...
Yes, Mr MacDuff, what can I do for you?
In his present state of mind Richard would have been hard-pressed
himself to remember his own name and was startled for a moment.
However, college porters are legendary for their ability to perform
such feats of memory, and for their tendency to show them off at the
slightest provocation.
Is there, said Richard, a horse anywhere in the college -- that
you know of? I mean, you would know if there was a horse in the
college, wouldnt you?
The porter didnt blink.
No, sir, and yes, sir. Anything else I can help you with, Mr
MacDuff, sir?
Er, no, said Richard and tapped his fingers a couple of times on
the counter. No. Thank you. Thank you very much for your help. Nice to
see you again, er... Bob, he hazarded. Good-night, then.
He left.
The porter remained perfectly still with his arms folded, but
shaking his head a very, very little bit.
Heres some coffee for you, Bill, said another porter, a short
wiry one, emerging from an inner sanctum with a steaming cup. Getting
a bit colder tonight?
I think it is, Fred, thanks, said Bill, taking the cup.
He took a sip. You can say what you like about people, they dont
get any less peculiar. Fellow in here just now asking if there was a
horse in the college.
Oh yes? Fred sipped at his own coffee, and let the steam smart his
eyes. I had a chap in here earlier. Sort of strange foreign priest.
Couldnt understand a word he said at first. But he seemed happy just
to stand by the fire and listen to the news on the radio.
Foreigners, eh.
In the end I told him to shoot off. Standing in front of my fire
like that. Suddenly he says is that really what he must do? Shoot off?
I said, in my best Bogart voice, You better believe it, buddy.
Really? Sounded more like Jimmy Cagney to me.
No, thats my Bogart voice. This is my Jimmy Cagney voice -- You
better believe it, buddy.
Bill frowned at him. Is that your Jimmy Cagney voice? I always
thought that was your Kenneth McKellar voice.
You dont listen properly, Bill, you havent got the ear. This is
Kenneth McKellar. Oh, you take the high road and Ill take the low
road...
Oh, I see. I was thinking of the Scottish Kenneth McKellar. So what
did this priest fellow say then, Fred?
Oh, he just looked me straight in the eyes, Bill, and said in this
strange sort of...
Skip the accent, Fred, just tell me what he said, if its worth
hearing.
He just said he did believe me.
So. Not a very interesting story then, Fred.
Well, maybe not. I only mention it because he also said that hed
left his horse in a washroom and would I see that it was all right.
Gordon Way drifted miserably along the dark road, or rather, tried
to drift.
He felt that as a ghost -- which is what he had to admit to himself
he had become -- he should be able to drift. He knew little enough
about ghosts, but he felt that if you were going to be one then there
ought to be certain compensations for not having a physical body to lug
around, and that among them ought to be the ability simply to drift.
But no, it seemed he was going to have to walk every step of the way.
His aim was to try and make it to his house. He didnt know what he
would do when he got there, but even ghosts have to spend the night
somewhere, and he felt that being in familiar surroundings might help.
Help what, he didnt know. At least the journey gave him an objective,
and he would just have to think of another one when he arrived.
He trudged despondently from lamppost to lamppost, stopping at each
one to look at bits of himself.
He was definitely getting a bit wraithlike.
At times he would fade almost to nothing, and would seem to be
little more than a shadow playing in the mist, a dream of himself that
could just evaporate and be gone. At other times he seemed to be almost
solid and real again. Once or twice he would try leaning against a
lamppost, and would fall straight through it if he wasnt careful.
At last, and with great reluctance, he actually began to turn his
mind to what it was that had happened. Odd, that reluctance. He really
didnt want to think about it. Psychologists say that the mind will
often try to suppress the memory of traumatic events, and this, he
thought, was probably the answer. After all, if having a strange figure
jump out of the boot of your own car and shoot you dead didnt count as
a traumatic experience, hed like to know what did.
He trudged on wearily.
He tried to recall the figure to his minds eye, but it was like
probing a hurting tooth, and he thought of other things.
Like, was his will up-to-date? He couldnt remember, and made a
mental note to call his lawyer tomorrow, and then made another mental
note that he would have to stop making mental notes like that.
How would his company survive without him? He didnt like either of
the possible answers to that very much.
What about his obituary? There was a thought that chilled him to his
bones, wherever theyd got to. Would he be able to get hold of a copy?
What would it say? Theyd better give him a good write-up, the
bastards. Look at what hed done. Single-handedly saved the British
software industry: huge exports, charitable contributions, research
scholarships, crossing the Atlantic in a solar-powered submarine
(failed, but a good try) -- all sorts of things. Theyd better not go
digging up that Pentagon stuff again or hed get his lawyer on to them.
He made a mental note to call him in the mor...
No.
Anyway, can a dead person sue for libel? Only his lawyer would know,
and he was not going to be able to call him in the morning. He knew
with a sense of creeping dread that of all the things he had left
behind in the land of the living it was the telephone that he was going
to miss the most, and then he turned his mind determinedly back to
where it didnt want to go.
The figure.
It seemed to him that the figure had been almost like a figure of
Death itself; or was that his imagination playing tricks with him? Was
he dreaming that it was a cowled figure? What would any figure, whether
cowled or just casually dressed, be doing in the boot of his car?
At that moment a car zipped past him on the road and disappeared off
into the night, taking its oasis of light with it. He thought with
longing of the warm, leather-upholstered, climate-controlled comfort of
his own car abandoned on the road behind him, and then a sudden
extraordinary thought struck him.
Was there any way he could hitch a lift? Could anyone actually see
him? How would anyone react if they could? Well, there was only one way
to find out.
He heard another car coming up in the distance behind him and turned
to face it. The twin pools of hazy lights approached through the mist
and Gordon gritted his phantom teeth and stuck his thumb out at them.
The car swept by regardless.
Nothing.
Angrily he made an indistinct V sign at the receding red rear
lights, and realised, looking straight through his own upraised arm,
that he wasnt at his most visible at the moment. Was there perhaps
some effort of will he could make to render himself more visible when
he wanted to? He screwed up his eyes in concentration, then realised
that he would need to have his eyes open in order to judge the results.
He tried again, forcing his mind as hard as he could, but the results
were unsatisfactory.
Though it did seem to make some kind of rudimentary, glowing
difference, he couldnt sustain it, and it faded almost immediately,
however much he piled on the mental pressure. He would have to judge
the timing very carefully if he was going to make his presence felt, or
at least seen.
Another car approached from behind, travelling fast. He turned
again, stuck his thumb out, waited till the moment was right and willed
himself visible.
The car swerved slightly, and then carried on its way, only a little
more slowly. Well, that was something. What else could he do? He would
go and stand under a lamppost for a start, and he would practise. The
next car he would get for sure.
...so if youd like to leave a message, Ill get back to you as
soon as possible. Maybe.
/Beep./
Shit. Damn. Hold on a minute. Blast. Look... er...
/Click./
Richard pushed the phone back into its cradle and slammed his car
into reverse for twenty yards to have another look at the sign-post by
the road junction hed just sped past in the mist. He had extracted
himself from the Cambridge one-way system by the usual method, which
involved going round and round it faster and faster until he achieved a
sort of escape velocity and flew off at a tangent in a random
direction, which he was now trying to identify and correct for.
Arriving back at the junction he tried to correlate the information
on the signpost with the information on the map. But it couldnt be
done. The road junction was quite deliberately sitting on a page divide
on the map, and the signpost was revolving maliciously in the wind.
Instinct told him that he was heading in the wrong direction, but he
didnt want to go back the way hed come for fear of getting sucked
back into the gravitational whirlpool of Cambridges traffic system.
He turned left, therefore, in the hope of finding better fortune in
that direction, but after a while lost his nerve and turned a
speculative right, and then chanced another exploratory left and after
a few more such manoeuvres was thoroughly lost.
He swore to himself and turned up the heating in the car. If he had
been concentrating on where he was going rather than trying to navigate
and telephone at the same time, he told himself, he would at least know
where he was now. He didnt actually like having a telephone in his
car, he found it a bother and an intrusion. But Gordon had insisted and
indeed had paid for it.
He sighed in exasperation, backed up the black Saab and turned
around again. As he did so he nearly ran into someone lugging a body
into a field. At least that was what it looked like for a second to his
overwrought brain, but in fact it was probably a local farmer with a
sackful of something nutritious, though what he was doing with it on a
night like this was anyones guess. As his headlights swung around
again, they caught for a moment a silhouette of the figure trudging off
across the field with the sack on his back.
Rather him than me, thought Richard grimly, and drove off again.
After a few minutes he reached a junction with what looked a little
more like a main road, nearly turned right down it, but then turned
left instead. There was no signpost.
He poked at the buttons on his phone again.
...get back to you as soon as possible. Maybe.
/Beep./
Susan, its Richard. Where do I start? What a mess. Look Im sorry,
sorry, sorry. I screwed up very badly, and its all my fault. And look,
whatever it takes to make up for it, Ill do it, solemn promise...
He had a slight feeling that this wasnt the right tone to adopt
with an answering machine, but he carried straight on.
Honestly, we can go away, take a holiday for a week, or even just
this weekend if you like. Really, this weekend. Well go somewhere
sunny. Doesnt matter how much pressure Gordon tries to put on me, and
you know the sort of pressure he can muster, he is your brother, after
all. Ill just... er, actually, it might have to be next weekend. Damn,
damn, damn. Its just that I really have promised to get, no, look, it
doesnt matter. Well just do it. I dont care about getting /Anthem/
finished for Comdex. Its not the end of the world. Well just go.
Gordon will just have to take a running jump -- Gaaarghhhh!
Richard swerved wildly to avoid the spectre of Gordon Way which
suddenly loomed in his headlights and took a running jump at him.
He slammed on the brakes, started to skid, tried to remember what it
was you were supposed to do when you found yourself skidding, he knew
hed seen it on some television programme about driving hed seen ages
ago, what was the programme? God, he couldnt even remember the title
of the programme, let alone -- oh yes, theyd said you mustnt slam on
the brakes. That was it. The world swung sickeningly around him with
slow and appalling force as the car slewed across the road, spun,
thudded against the grass verge, then slithered and rocked itself to a
halt, facing the wrong way. He collapsed, panting, against the steering
wheel.
He picked up the phone from where hed dropped it.
Susan, he gasped, Ill get back to you, and hung up.
He raised his eyes.
Standing full in the glare of his headlights was the spectral figure
of Gordon Way staring straight in through the windscreen with ghastly
horror in its eyes, slowly raising its hand and pointing at him.
He wasnt sure how long he just sat there. The apparition had melted
from view in a few seconds, but Richard simply sat, shaking, probably
for not more than a minute, until a sudden squeal of brakes and glare
of lights roused him.
He shook his head. He was, he realised, stopped in the road facing
the wrong way. The car that had just screeched to an abrupt halt almost
bumper to bumper with him was a police car. He took two or three deep
breaths and then, stiff and trembling, he climbed out and stood up to
face the officer who was walking slowly towards him, silhouetted in the
police cars headlights.
The officer looked him up and down.
Er, Im sorry, officer, said Richard, with as much calmness as he
could wrench into his voice. I, er, skidded. The roads are slippery
and I, er... skidded. I spun round. As you see, I, Im facing the wrong
way. He gestured at his car to indicate the way it was facing.
Like to tell me why it was you skidded then, exactly, sir? The
police officer was looking him straight in the eye while pulling out a
notebook.
Well, as I said, explained Richard, the roads are slippery
because of the mist, and, well, to be perfectly honest, he suddenly
found himself saying, in spite of all his attempts to stop himself, I
was just driving along and I suddenly imagined that I saw my employer
throwing himself in front of my car.
The officer gazed at him levelly.
Guilt complex, officer, added Richard with a twitch of a smile,
you know how it is. I was contemplating taking the weekend off.
The police officer seemed to hesitate, balanced on a knife edge
between sympathy and suspicion. His eyes narrowed a little but didnt
waver.
Been drinking, sir?
Yes, said Richard, with a quick sigh, but very little. Two
glasses of wine max. Er... and a small glass of port. Absolute max. It
was really just a lapse of concentration. Im fine now.
Name?
Richard gave him his name and address. The policeman wrote it all
down carefully and neatly in his book, then peered at the car
registration number and wrote that down too.
And who is your employer then, sir?
His name is Way. Gordon Way.
Oh, said the policeman raising his eyebrows, the computer
gentleman.
Er, yes, thats right. I design software for the company.
WayForward Technologies II.
Weve got one of your computers down the station, said the
policeman. Buggered if I can get it to work.
Oh, said Richard wearily, which model do you have?
I think its called a Quark II.
Oh, well thats simple, said Richard with relief. It doesnt
work. Never has done. The thing is a heap of shit.
Funny thing, sir, thats what Ive always said, said the
policeman. Some of the other lads dont agree.
Well, youre absolutely right, officer. The thing is hopeless. Its
the major reason the original company went bust. I suggest you use it
as a big paperweight.
Well, I wouldnt like to do that, sir, the policeman persisted.
The door would keep blowing open.
What do you mean, officer? asked Richard.
I use it to keep the door closed, sir. Nasty draughts down our
station this time of year. In the summer, of course, we beat suspects
round the head with it.
He flipped his book closed and prodded it into his pocket.
My advice to you, sir, is to go nice and easy on the way back. Lock
up the car and spend the weekend getting completely pissed. I find its
the only way. Mind how you go now.
He returned to his car, wound down the window, and watched Richard
manoeuvre his car around and drive off into the night before heading
off himself.
Richard took a deep breath, drove calmly back to London, let himself
calmly into his flat, clambered calmly over the sofa, sat down, poured
himself a stiff brandy and began seriously to shake.
There were three things he was shaking about.
There was the simple physical shock of his near-accident, which is
the sort of thing that always churns you up a lot more than you expect.
The body floods itself with adrenaline, which then hangs around your
system turning sour.
Then there was the cause of the skid -- the extraordinary apparition
of Gordon throwing himself in front of his car at that moment. Boy oh
boy. Richard took a mouthful of brandy and gargled with it. He put the
glass down.
It was well known that Gordon was one of the worlds richest natural
resources of guilt pressure, and that he could deliver a ton on your
doorstep fresh every morning, but Richard hadnt realised he had let it
get to him to such an unholy degree.
He took up his glass again, went upstairs and pushed open the door
to his workroom, which involved shifting a stack of BYTE magazines that
had toppled against it. He pushed them away with his foot and walked to
the end of the large room. A lot of glass at this end let in views over
a large part of north London, from which the mist was now clearing. St
Pauls glowed in the dark distance and he stared at it for a moment or
two but it didnt do anything special. After the events of the evening
he found this came as a pleasant surprise.
At the other end of the room were a couple of long tables smothered
in, at the last count, six Macintosh computers. In the middle was the
Mac II on which a red wire-frame model of his sofa was lazily revolving
within a blue wire-frame model of his narrow staircase, complete with
banister rail, radiator and fuse-box details, and of course the awkward
turn halfway up.
The sofa would start out spinning in one direction, hit an
obstruction, twist itself in another plane, hit another obstruction,
revolve round a third axis until it was stopped again, then cycle
through the moves again in a different order. You didnt have to watch
the sequence for very long before you saw it repeat itself.
The sofa was clearly stuck.
Three other Macs were connected up via long tangles of cable to an
untidy agglomeration of synthesisers -- an Emulator II+ HD sampler, a
rack of TX modules, a Prophet VS, a Roland JX 10, a Korg DW8000, an
Octapad, a left-handed Synth-Axe MIDI guitar controller, and even an
old drum machine stacked up and gathering dust in the corner -- pretty
much the works. There was also a small and rarely used cassette tape
recorder: all the music was stored in sequencer files on the computers
rather than on tape.
He dumped himself into a seat in front of one of the Macs to see
what, if anything, it was doing. It was displaying an Untitled
/Excel/ spreadsheet and he wondered why.
He saved it and looked to see if hed left himself any notes and
quickly discovered that the spreadsheet contained some of the data he
had previously downloaded after searching the /World Reporter/ and
/Knowledge/ on-line databases for facts about swallows.
He now had figures which detailed their migratory habits, their wing
shapes, their aerodynamic profile and turbulence characteristics, and
some sort of rudimentary figures concerning the patterns that a flock
would adopt in flight, but as yet he had only the faintest idea as to
how he was going to synthesise them all together.
Because he was too tired to think particularly constructively
tonight he savagely selected and copied a whole swathe of figures from
the spreadsheet at random, pasted them into his own conversion program,
which scaled and filtered and manipulated the figures according to his
own experimental algorithms, loaded the converted file into
/Performer/, a powerful sequencer program, and played the result
through random MIDI channels to whichever synthesisers happened to be
on at the moment.
The result was a short burst of the most hideous cacophony, and he
stopped it.
He ran the conversion program again, this time instructing it to
force-map the pitch values into G minor. This was a utility he was
determined in the end to get rid of because he regarded it as cheating.
If there was any basis to his firmly held belief that the rhythms and
harmonies of music which he found most satisfying could be found in, or
at least derived from, the rhythms and harmonies of naturally occurring
phenomena, then satisfying forms of modality and intonation should
emerge naturally as well, rather than being forced.
For the moment, though, he forced it.
The result was a short burst of the most hideous cacophony in G
minor.
So much for random shortcuts.
The first task was a relatively simple one, which would be simply to
plot the waveform described by the tip of a swallows wing as it flies,
then synthesise that waveform. That way he would end up with a single
note, which would be a good start, and it shouldnt take more than the
weekend to do.
Except, of course, that he didnt have a weekend available to do it
in because he had somehow to get Version 2 of /Anthem/ out of the door
sometime during the course of the next year, or month as Gordon
called it.
Which brought Richard inexorably to the third thing he was shaking
about.
There was absolutely no way that he could take the time off this
weekend or next to fulfil the promise he had made to Susans telephone-
answering machine. And that, if this evenings débacle had not already
done so, would surely spell the final end.
But that was it. The thing was done. There is nothing you can do
about a message on someone elses answering machine other than let
events take their course. It was done. It was irrevocable.
An odd thought suddenly struck him.
It took him by considerable surprise, but he couldnt really see
what was wrong with it.
A pair of binoculars scanning the London night skyline, idly,
curious, snooping. A little look here, a little look there, just seeing
whats going on, anything interesting, anything useful.
The binoculars settle on the back of one particular house, attracted
by a slight movement. One of those large late-Victorian villas,
probably flats now. Lots of black iron drainpipes. Green rubber
dustbins. But dark. No, nothing.
The binoculars are just moving onwards when another slight movement
catches in the moonlight. The binoculars refocus very slightly, trying
to find a detail, a hard edge, a slight contrast in the darkness. The
mist has lifted now, and the darkness glistens. They refocus a very,
very little more.
There it is. Something, definitely. Only this time a little higher
up, maybe a foot or so, maybe a yard. The binoculars settle and relax -
- steady, trying for the edge, trying for the detail. There. The
binoculars settle again -- they have found their mark, straddled
between a windowsill and a drainpipe.
It is a dark figure, splayed against the wall, looking down, looking
for a new foothold, looking upwards, looking for a ledge. The
binoculars peer intently.
The figure is that of a tall, thin man. His clothes are right for
the job, dark trousers, dark sweater, but his movements are awkward and
angular. Nervous. Interesting. The binoculars wait and consider,
consider and judge.
The man is clearly a rank amateur.
Look at his fumbling. Look at his ineptitude. His feet slip on the
drainpipe, his hands cant reach the ledge. He nearly falls. He waits
to catch his breath. For a moment he starts to climb back down again,
but seems to find that even tougher going.
He lunges again for the ledge and this time catches it. His foot
shoots out to steady himself and nearly misses the pipe. Could have
been very nasty, very nasty indeed.
But now the way is easier and progress is better. He crosses to
another pipe, reaches a third-floor window ledge, flirts briefly with
death as he crawls painfully on to it, and makes the cardinal error and
looks down. He sways briefly and sits back heavily. He shades his eyes
and peers inside to check that the room is dark, and sets about getting
the window open.
One of the things that distinguish the amateur from the professional
is that this is the point when the amateur thinks it would have been a
good idea to bring along something to prise the window open with.
Luckily for this amateur the householder is an amateur too, and the
sash window slides grudgingly up. The climber crawls, with some relief,
inside.
He should be locked up for his own protection, think the binoculars.
A hand starts to reach for the phone. At the window a face looks back
out and for a moment is caught in the moonlight, then it ducks back
inside to carry on with its business.
The hand stays hovering over the phone for a moment or two, while
the binoculars wait and consider, consider and judge. The hand reaches
instead for the A-Z street map of London.
There is a long studious pause, a little more intent binocular work,
and then the hand reaches for the phone again, lifts it and dials.
Susans flat was small but spacious, which was a trick, reflected
Richard tensely as he turned on the light, that only women seemed able
to pull off.
It wasnt that observation which made him tense, of course -- hed
thought it before, many times. Every time hed been in her flat, in
fact. It always struck him, usually because he had just come from his
own flat, which was four times the size and cramped. Hed just come
from his own flat this time, only via a rather eccentric route, and it
was this that made his usual observation unusually tense.
Despite the chill of the night he was sweating.
He looked back out of the window, turned and tiptoed across the room
towards where the telephone and the answering machine stood on their
own small table.
There was no point, he told himself, in tiptoeing. Susan wasnt in.
He would be extremely interested to know where she was, in fact -- just
as she, he told himself, had probably been extremely interested in
knowing where he had been at the beginning of the evening.
He realised he was still tiptoeing. He hit his leg to make himself
stop doing it, but carried on doing it none the less.
Climbing up the outside wall had been terrifying.
He wiped his forehead with the arm of his oldest and greasiest
sweater. There had been a nasty moment when his life had flashed before
his eyes but he had been too preoccupied with falling and had missed
all the good bits. Most of the good bits had involved Susan, he
realised. Susan or computers. Never Susan and computers -- those had
largely been the bad bits. Which was why he was here, he told himself.
He seemed to need convincing, and told himself again.
He looked at his watch. Eleven forty-five.
It occurred to him he had better go and wash his wet and dirty hands
before he touched anything. It wasnt the police he was worried about,
but Susans terrifying cleaner. She would know.
He went into the bathroom, turned on the light switch, wiped it, and
then stared at his own startled face in the bright neon-lit mirror as
he ran the water over his hands. For a moment he thought of the
dancing, warm candlelight of the Coleridge Dinner, and the images of it
welled up out of the dim and distant past of the earlier part of the
evening. Life had seemed easy then, and carefree. The wine, the
conversation, simple conjuring tricks. He pictured the round pale face
of Sarah, pop-eyed with wonder. He washed his own face.
He thought:
...Beware! Beware!
His flashing eyes, his floating hair!
He brushed his own hair. He thought, too, of the pictures hanging
high in the darkness above their heads. He cleaned his teeth. The low
buzz of the neon light snapped him back to the present and he suddenly
remembered with appalled shock that he was here in his capacity as
burglar.
Something made him look himself directly in the face in the mirror,
then he shook his head, trying to clear it.
When would Susan be back? That, of course, would depend on what she
was doing. He quickly wiped his hands and made his way back to the
answering machine. He prodded at the buttons and his conscience prodded
back at him. The tape wound back for what seemed to be an interminable
time, and he realised with a jolt that it was probably because Gordon
had been in full flood.
He had forgotten, of course, that there would be messages on the
tape other than his own, and listening to other peoples phone messages
was tantamount to opening their mail.
He explained to himself once again that all he was trying to do was
to undo a mistake he had made before it caused any irrevocable damage.
He would just play the tiniest snippets till he found his own voice.
That wouldnt be too bad, he wouldnt even be able to distinguish what
was being said.
He groaned inwardly, gritted his teeth and stabbed at the Play
button so roughly that he missed it and ejected the cassette by
mistake. He put it back in and pushed the Play button more carefully.
/Beep./
Oh, Susan, hi, its Gordon, said the answering machine. Im just
on my way to the cottage. Its, er... He wound on for a couple of
seconds. ...need to know that Richard is on the case. I mean /really/
on... Richard set his mouth grimly and stabbed at the Fast Forward
again. He really hated the fact that Gordon tried to put pressure on
him via Susan, which Gordon always stoutly denied he did. Richard
couldnt blame Susan for getting exasperated about his work sometimes
if this sort of thing was going on.
/Click./
...Response. Make a note to Susan would you please, to get an
Armed Response sign made up with a sharp spike on the bottom at the
right height for rabbits to see.
/What?/ muttered Richard to himself, and his finger hesitated for
a second over the Fast Forward button. He had a feeling that Gordon
desperately wanted to be like Howard Hughes, and if he could never hope
to be remotely as rich, he could at least try to be twice as eccentric.
An act. A palpable act.
Thats secretary Susan at the office, not you, of course,
continued Gordons voice on the answering machine. Where was I? Oh
yes. Richard and /Anthem/ 2.00. Susan, that thing has got to be in beta
testing in two... Richard stabbed at the Fast Forward, tight-lipped.
...point is that theres only one person whos really in a position
to know if hes getting the important work done, or if hes just
dreaming, and that one person... He stabbed angrily again. He had
promised himself he wouldnt listen to any of it and now here he was
getting angry at what he was hearing. He should really just stop this.
Well, just one more try.
When he listened again he just got music. Odd. He wound forward
again, and still got music. Why would someone be phoning to play music
to an answering machine? he wondered.
The phone rang. He stopped the tape and answered it, then almost
dropped the phone like an electric eel as he realised what he was
doing. Hardly daring to breathe, he held the telephone to his ear.
Rule One in housebreaking, said a voice. Never answer the
telephone when youre in the middle of a job. Who are you supposed to
be, for heavens sake?
Richard froze. It was a moment or two before he could find where he
had put his voice.
Who is this? he demanded at last in a whisper.
Rule Two, continued the voice. Preparation. Bring the right
tools. Bring gloves. Try to have the faintest glimmering of an idea of
what youre about before you start dangling from window ledges in the
middle of the night.
Rule Three. /Never/ forget Rule Two.
Who is this? exclaimed Richard again.
The voice was unperturbed. Neighbourhood Watch, it said. If you
just look out of the back window youll see...
Trailing the phone, Richard hurried over to the window and looked
out. A distant flash startled him.
Rule Four. Never stand where you can be photographed.
Rule Five... Are you listening to me, MacDuff?
What? Yes... said Richard in bewilderment. How do you know me?
Rule Five. /Never/ admit to your name.
Richard stood silent, breathing hard.
I run a little course, said the voice, if youre interested...
Richard said nothing.
Youre learning, continued the voice, slowly, but youre
learning. If you were learning fast you would have put the phone down
by now, of course. But youre curious -- and incompetent -- and so you
dont. I dont run a course for novice burglars as it happens, tempting
though the idea is. Im sure there would be grants available. If we
have to have them they may as well be trained.
However, if I did run such a course I would allow you to enrol for
free, because I too am curious. Curious to know why Mr Richard MacDuff
who, I am given to understand, is now a wealthy young man, something in
the computer industry, I believe, should suddenly be needing to resort
to house-breaking.
Who -- ?
So I do a little research, phone Directory Enquiries and discover
that the flat into which he is breaking is that of a Miss S. Way. I
know that Mr Richard MacDuffs employer is the famous Mr G. Way and I
wonder if they can by any chance be related.
Who -- ?
You are speaking with Svlad, commonly known as Dirk Cjelli,
currently trading under the name of Gently for reasons which it would
be otiose, at this moment, to rehearse. I bid you good evening. If you
wish to know more I will be at the Pizza Express in Upper Street in ten
minutes. Bring some money.
Dirk? exclaimed Richard. You... Are you trying to blackmail me?
No, you fool, for the pizzas. There was a click and Dirk Gently
rang off.
Richard stood transfixed for a moment or two, wiped his forehead
again, and gently replaced the phone as if it were an injured hamster.
His brain began to buzz gently and suck its thumb. Lots of little
synapses deep inside his cerebral cortex all joined hands and started
dancing around and singing nursery rhymes. He shook his head to try and
make them stop, and quickly sat down at the answering machine again.
He fought with himself over whether or not he was going to push the
Play button again, and then did so anyway before he had made up his
mind. Hardly four seconds of light orchestral music had oozed
soothingly past when there came the sound of a key scratching in the
lock out in the hallway.
In panic Richard thumped the Eject button, popped the cassette out,
rammed it into his jeans pocket and replaced it from the pile of fresh
cassettes that lay next to the machine. There was a similar pile next
to his own machine at home. Susan at the office provided them -- poor,
long-suffering Susan at the office. He must remember to feel sympathy
for her in the morning, when he had the time and concentration for it.
Suddenly, without even noticing himself doing it, he changed his
mind. In a flash he popped the substitute cassette out of the machine
again, replaced the one he had stolen, rammed down the rewind button
and made a lunge for the sofa where, with two seconds to go before the
door opened, he tried to arrange himself into a nonchalant and winning
posture. On an impulse he stuck his left hand up behind his back where
it might come in useful.
He was just trying to arrange his features into an expression
composed in equal parts of contrition, cheerfulness and sexual
allurement when the door opened and in walked Michael Wenton-Weakes.
Everything stopped.
Outside, the wind ceased. Owls halted in mid-flight. Well, maybe
they did, maybe they didnt, certainly the central heating chose that
moment to shut down, unable perhaps to cope with the supernatural chill
that suddenly whipped through the room.
What are you doing here, Wednesday? demanded Richard. He rose from
the sofa as if levitated with anger.
Michael Wenton-Weakes was a large sad-faced man known by some people
as Michael Wednesday-Week, because that was when he usually promised to
have things done by. He was dressed in a suit that had been superbly
well tailored when his father, the late Lord Magna, had bought it forty
years previously.
Michael Wenton-Weakes came very high on the small but select list of
people whom Richard thoroughly disliked.
He disliked him because he found the idea of someone who was not
only privileged, but was also sorry for himself because he thought the
world didnt really understand the problems of privileged people,
deeply obnoxious. Michael, on the other hand, disliked Richard for the
fairly simple reason that Richard disliked him and made no secret of
it.
Michael gave a slow and lugubrious look back out into the hallway as
Susan walked through. She stopped when she saw Richard. She put down
her handbag, unwound her scarf, unbuttoned her coat, slipped it off,
handed it to Michael, walked over to Richard and smacked him in the
face.
Ive been saving that up all evening, she said furiously. And
dont try and pretend thats a bunch of flowers youve forgotten to
bring which youre hiding behind your back. You tried that gag last
time. She turned and stalked off.
Its a box of chocolates I forgot this time, said Richard glumly
and held out his empty hand to her retreating back. I climbed up the
entire outside wall without them. Did I feel a fool when I got in.
Not very funny, said Susan. She swept into the kitchen and sounded
as if she was grinding coffee with her bare hands. For someone who
always looked so neat and sweet and delicate she packed a hell of a
temper.
Its true, said Richard, ignoring Michael completely. I nearly
killed myself.
Im not going to rise to that, said Susan from within the kitchen.
If you want something big and sharp thrown at you why dont you come
in here and be funny?
I suppose it would be pointless saying Im sorry at this point,
Richard called out.
You bet, said Susan, sweeping back out of the kitchen again. She
looked at him with her eyes flashing, and actually stamped her foot.
Honestly, Richard, she said, I suppose youre going to say you
forgot again. How can you have the gall to stand there with two arms,
two legs and a head as if youre a human being? This is behaviour that
a bout of amoebic dysentery would be ashamed of. I bet that even the
very lowest form of dysentery amoeba shows up to take its girlfriend
out for a quick trot around the stomach lining once in a while. Well, I
hope you had a lousy evening.
I did, said Richard. You wouldnt have liked it. There was a
horse in the bathroom, and you know how you hate that sort of thing.
Oh, Michael, said Susan brusquely, dont just stand there like a
sinking pudding. Thank you very much for dinner and the concert, you
were very sweet and I did enjoy listening to your troubles all evening
because they were such a nice change from mine. But I think it would be
best if I just found your book and pushed you out. Ive got some
serious jumping up and down and ranting to do, and I know how it upsets
your delicate sensibilities.
She retrieved her coat from him and hung it up. While he had been
holding it he had seemed entirely taken up with this task and oblivious
to anything else. Without it he seemed a little lost and naked and was
forced to stir himself back into life. He turned his big heavy eyes
back on Richard.
Richard, he said, I, er, read your piece in... in /Fathom/. On
Music and, er...
Fractal Landscapes, said Richard shortly. He didnt want to talk
to Michael, and he certainly didnt want to get drawn into a
conversation about Michaels wretched magazine. Or rather, the magazine
that used to be Michaels.
That was the precise aspect of the conversation that Richard didnt
want to get drawn into.
Er, yes. Very interesting, of course, said Michael in his silky,
over-rounded voice. Mountain shapes and tree shapes and all sorts of
things. Recycled algae.
Recursive algorithms.
Yes, of course. Very interesting. But so wrong, so terribly wrong.
For the magazine, I mean. It is, after all, an /arts/ review. I would
never have allowed such a thing, of course. Ross has utterly ruined it.
Utterly. Hell have to go. /Have/ to. He has no sensibilities and hes
a thief.
Hes not a thief, Wednesday, thats absolutely absurd, snapped
Richard, instantly getting drawn into it in spite of his resolution not
to. He had nothing to do with your getting the push whatsoever. That
was your own silly fault, and you...
There was a sharp intake of breath.
Richard, said Michael in his softest, quietest voice -- arguing
with him was like getting tangled in parachute silk -- I think you do
not understand how important...
Michael, said Susan gently but firmly, holding open the door.
Michael Wenton-Weakes nodded faintly and seemed to deflate.
Your book, Susan added, holding out to him a small and elderly
volume on the ecclesiastical architecture of Kent. He took it, murmured
some slight thanks, looked about him for a moment as if hed suddenly
realised something rather odd, then gathered himself together, nodded
farewell and left.
Richard didnt appreciate quite how tense he had become till Michael
left and he was suddenly able to relax. Hed always resented the
indulgent soft spot that Susan had for Michael even if she did try to
disguise it by being terribly rude to him all the time. Perhaps even
because of that.
Susan, what can I say...? he started lamely.
You could say Ouch for a start. You didnt even give me that
satisfaction when I hit you, and I thought I did it rather hard. God,
its freezing in here. Whats that window doing wide open?
She went over to shut it.
I told you. Thats how I got in, said Richard.
He sounded sufficiently as if he meant it to make her look round at
him in surprise.
Really, he said. Like in the chocolate ads, only I forgot the box
of chocolates... He shrugged sheepishly.
She stared at him in amazement.
What on earth possessed you to do that? she said. She stuck her
head out of the window and looked down. You could have got killed,
she said, turning back to him.
Well, er, yes... he said. It just seemed the only way to... I
dont know. He rallied himself. You took your key back remember?
Yes. I got fed up with you coming and raiding my larder when you
couldnt be bothered to do your own shopping. Richard, you really
climbed up this wall?
Well, I wanted to be here when you got in.
She shook her head in bewilderment. It would have been a great deal
better if youd been here when I went out. Is that why youre wearing
those filthy old clothes?
Yes. You dont think I went to dinner at St Cedds like this?
Well, I no longer know what you consider to be rational behaviour.
She sighed and fished about in a small drawer. Here, she said, if
its going to save your life, and handed him a couple of keys on a
ring. Im too tired to be angry anymore. An evening of being lobbied
by Michael has taken it out of me.
Well, Ill never understand why you put up with him, said Richard,
going to fetch the coffee.
I know you dont like him, but hes very sweet and can be charming
in his sad kind of way. Usually its very relaxing to be with someone
whos so self-absorbed, because it doesnt make any demands on you. But
hes obsessed with the idea that I can do something about his magazine.
I cant, of course. Life doesnt work like that. I do feel sorry for
him, though.
I dont. Hes had it very, very easy all his life. He still has it
very, very easy. Hes just had his toy taken away from him thats all.
Its hardly unjust, is it?
Its not a matter of whether its just or not. I feel sorry for him
because hes unhappy.
Well, of course hes unhappy. Al Ross has turned /Fathom/ into a
really sharp, intelligent magazine that everyone suddenly wants to
read. It was just a bumbling shambles before. Its only real function
was to let Michael have lunch and toady about with whoever he liked on
the pretext that maybe they might like to write a little something. He
hardly ever got an actual issue out. The whole thing was a sham. He
pampered himself with it. I really dont find that charming or
engaging. Im sorry, Im going on about it and I didnt mean to.
Susan shrugged uneasily.
I think you overreact, she said, though I think I will have to
steer clear of him if hes going to keep on at me to do something I
simply cant do. Its too exhausting. Anyway, listen, Im glad you had
a lousy evening. I want to talk about what we were going to do this
weekend.
Ah, said Richard, well...
Oh, Id better just check the messages first.
She walked past him to the telephone-answering machine, played the
first few seconds of Gordons message and then suddenly ejected the
cassette.
I cant be bothered, she said, giving it to him. Could you just
give this straight to Susan at the office tomorrow? Save her a trip. If
theres anything important on it she can tell me.
Richard blinked, said, Er, yes, and pocketed the tape, tingling
with the shock of the reprieve.
Anyway, the weekend -- said Susan, sitting down on the sofa.
Richard wiped his hand over his brow. Susan, I...
Im afraid Ive got to work. Nicolas sick and Im going to have to
dep for her at the Wigmore on Friday week. Theres some Vivaldi and
some Mozart I dont know too well, so that means a lot of extra
practice this weekend, Im afraid. Sorry.
Well, in fact, said Richard, I have to work as well. He sat down
by her.
I know. Gordon keeps on at me to nag you. I wish he wouldnt. Its
none of my business and it puts me in an invidious position. Im tired
of being pressurised by people, Richard. At least you dont do that.
She took a sip of her coffee.
But Im sure, she added, that theres some kind of grey area
between being pressurised and being completely forgotten about that Id
quite like to explore. Give me a hug.
He hugged her, feeling that he was monstrously and unworthily lucky.
An hour later he let himself out and discovered that the Pizza Express
was closed.
Meanwhile, Michael Wenton-Weakes made his way back to his home in
Chelsea. As he sat in the back of the taxi he watched the streets with
a blank stare and tapped his fingers lightly against the window in a
slow thoughtful rhythm.
/Rap tap tap a rap tap a rap a tap./
He was one of those dangerous people who are soft, squidgy and
cowlike provided they have what they want. And because he had always
had what he wanted, and had seemed easily pleased with it, it had never
occurred to anybody that he was anything other than soft, squidgy and
cowlike. You would have to push through a lot of soft squidgy bits in
order to find a bit that didnt give when you pushed it. That was the
bit that all the soft squidgy bits were there to protect.
Michael Wenton-Weakes was the younger son of Lord Magna, publisher,
newspaper owner and over-indulgent father, under whose protective
umbrella it had pleased Michael to run his own little magazine at a
magnificent loss. Lord Magna had presided over the gradual but
dignified and well-respected decline of the publishing empire
originally founded by his father, the first Lord Magna.
Michael continued to tap his knuckles lightly on the glass.
/A rap tap a rap a tap./
He remembered the appalling, terrible day when his father had
electrocuted himself changing a plug, and his mother, his /mother/,
took over the business. Not only took it over but started running it
with completely unexpected verve and determination. She examined the
company with a very sharp eye as to how it was being run, or walked, as
she put it, and eventually even got around to looking at the accounts
of Michaels magazine.
/Tap tap tap./
Now Michael knew just enough about the business side of things to
know what the figures ought to be, and he had simply assured his father
that that was indeed what they were.
Cant allow this job just to be a sinecure, you must see that, old
fellow, you have to pay your way or how would it look, how would it
be? his father used to say, and Michael would nod seriously, and start
thinking up the figures for next month, or whenever it was he would
next manage to get an issue out.
His mother, on the other hand, was not so indulgent. Not by a
lorryload.
Michael usually referred to his mother as an old battleaxe, but if
she was fairly to be compared to a battleaxe it would only be to an
exquisitely crafted, beautifully balanced battleaxe, with an elegant
minimum of fine engraving which stopped just short of its gleaming
razored edge. One swipe from such an instrument and you wouldnt even
know youd been hit until you tried to look at your watch a bit later
and discovered that your arm wasnt on.
She had been waiting patiently -- or at least with the appearance of
patience -- in the wings all this time, being the devoted wife, the
doting but strict mother. Now someone had taken her -- to switch
metaphors for a moment -- out of her scabbard and everyone was running
for cover.
Including Michael.
It was her firm belief that Michael, whom she quietly adored, had
been spoiled in the fullest and worst sense of the word, and she was
determined, at this late stage, to stop it.
It didnt take her more than a few minutes to see that he had been
simply making up the figures every month, and that the magazine was
haemorrhaging money as Michael toyed with it, all the time running up
huge lunch bills, taxi accounts and staff costs that he would playfully
set against fictitious taxes. The whole thing had simply got lost
somewhere in the gargantuan accounts of Magna House.
She had then summoned Michael to see her.
/Tap tap a rap a tappa./
How do you want me to treat you, she said, as my son or as the
editor of one of my magazines? Im happy to do either.
Your magazines? Well, I am your son, but I dont see...
Right. Michael, I want you to look at these figures, she said
briskly, handing over a sheet of computer printout. The ones on the
left show the actual incomings and outgoings of /Fathom/, the ones on
the right are your own figures. Does anything strike you about them?
Mother, I can explain, I --
Good, said Lady Magna sweetly, Im very glad of that.
She took the piece of paper back. Now. Do you have any views on how
the magazine should best be run in the future?
Yes, absolutely. Very strong ones. I --
Good, said Lady Magna, with a bright smile. Well, thats all
perfectly satisfactory, then.
Dont you want to hear -- ?
No, thats all right, dear. Im just happy to know that you do have
something to say on the matter to clear it all up. Im sure the new
owner of /Fathom/ will be glad to listen to whatever it is.
What? said a stunned Michael. You mean youre actually selling
/Fathom/?
No. I mean Ive already sold it. Didnt get much for it, Im
afraid. One pound plus a promise that you would be retained as editor
for the next three issues, and after that its at the new owners
discretion.
Michael stared, pop-eyed.
Well, come now, said his mother reasonably, we could hardly
continue under the present arrangement, could we? You always agreed
with your father that the job should not be a sinecure for you. And
since I would have a great deal of difficulty in either believing or
resisting your stories, I thought I would hand the problem on to
someone with whom you could have a more objective relationship. Now, I
have another appointment, Michael.
Well, but... who have you sold it to? spluttered Michael.
Gordon Way.
Gordon Way! But for heavens sake, Mother, hes --
Hes very anxious to be seen to patronise the arts. And I think I
do mean patronise. Im sure youll get on splendidly, dear. Now, if you
dont mind --
Michael stood his ground.
Ive never heard of anything so outrageous! I --
Do you know, thats exactly what Mr Way said when I showed him
these figures and then demanded that you be kept on as editor for three
issues.
Michael huffed and puffed and went red and wagged his finger, but
could think of nothing more to say. Except, What difference would it
have made to all this if Id said treat me as the editor of one of your
magazines?
Why, dear, said Lady Magna with her sweetest smile, I would have
called you Mr Wenton-Weakes, of course. And I wouldnt now be telling
you straighten your tie, she added, with a tiny little gesture under
her chin.
/Rap tap tap rap tap tap./
Number seventeen, was it, guv?
Er... what? said Michael, shaking his head.
It was seventeen you said, was it? said the cab driver, Cause
were ere.
Oh. Oh, yes, thank you, said Michael. He climbed out and fumbled
in his pocket for some money.
Tap tap tap, eh?
What? said Michael handing over the fare.
Tap tap tap, said the cab driver, all the bloody way here. Got
something on your mind, eh, mate?
Mind your own bloody business, snapped Michael savagely.
If you say so, mate. Just thought you might be going mad or
something, said the cabbie and drove off.
Michael let himself into his house and walked through the cold hall
to the dining room, turned on the overhead light and poured himself a
brandy from the decanter. He took off his coat, threw it across the
large mahogany dining table and pulled a chair over to the window where
he sat nursing his drink and his grievances.
/Tap tap tap/, he went on the window.
He had sullenly remained as editor for the stipulated three issues
and was then, with little ceremony, let go. A new editor was found, a
certain A. K. Ross, who was young, hungry and ambitious, and he quickly
turned the magazine into a resounding success. Michael, in the
meantime, had been lost and naked. There was nothing else for him.
He tapped on the window again and looked, as he frequently did, at
the small table lamp that stood on the sill. It was a rather ugly,
ordinary little lamp, and the only thing about it that regularly
transfixed his attention was that this was the lamp that had
electrocuted his father, and this was where he had been sitting.
The old boy was such a fool with anything technical. Michael could
just see him peering with profound concentration through his half moons
and sucking his moustache as he tried to unravel the arcane
complexities of a thirteen-amp plug. He had, it seemed, plugged it back
in the wall without first screwing the cover back on and then tried to
change the fuse /in situ/. From this he received the shock which had
stilled his already dicky heart.
Such a simple, simple error, thought Michael, such as anyone could
have made, anyone, but the consequences of it were catastrophic.
Utterly catastrophic. His fathers death, his own loss, the rise of the
appalling Ross and his disastrously successful magazine and...
/Tap tap tap./
He looked at the window, at his own reflection, and at the dark
shadows of the bushes on the other side of it. He looked again at the
lamp. This was the very object, this the very place, and the error was
such a simple one. Simple to make, simple to prevent.
The only thing that separated him from that simple moment was the
invisible barrier of the months that had passed in between.
A sudden, odd calm descended on him as if something inside him had
suddenly been resolved.
/Tap tap tap./
/Fathom/ was his. It wasnt meant to be a success, it was his life.
His life had been taken from him, and that demanded a response.
/Tap tap tap crack./
He surprised himself by suddenly punching his hand through the
window and cutting himself quite badly.
Some of the less pleasant aspects of being dead were beginning to
creep up on Gordon Way as he stood in front of his cottage.
It was in fact a rather large house by anybody elses standards but
he had always wanted to have a cottage in the country and so when the
time came for him finally to buy one and he discovered that he had
rather more money available than he had ever seriously believed he
might own, he bought a large old rectory and called it a cottage in
spite of its seven bedrooms and its four acres of dank Cambridgeshire
land. This did little to endear him to people who only had cottages,
but then if Gordon Way had allowed his actions to be governed by what
endeared him to people he wouldnt have been Gordon Way.
He wasnt, of course, Gordon Way any longer. He was the ghost of
Gordon Way.
In his pocket he had the ghosts of Gordon Ways keys.
It was this realisation that had stopped him for a moment in his
invisible tracks. The idea of walking through walls frankly revolted
him. It was something he had been trying strenuously to avoid all
night. He had instead been fighting to grip and grapple with every
object he touched in order to render it, and thereby himself,
substantial. To enter his house, his own house, by any means other than
that of opening the front door and striding in in a proprietorial
manner filled him with a hurtling sense of loss.
He wished, as he stared at it, that the house was not such an
extreme example of Victorian Gothic, and that the moonlight didnt play
so coldly on its narrow gabled windows and its forbidding turrets. He
had joked, stupidly, when he bought it that it looked as if it ought to
be haunted, not realising that one day it would be -- or by whom.
A chill of the spirit gripped him as he made his way silently up the
driveway, lined by the looming shapes of yew trees that were far older
than the rectory itself. It was a disturbing thought that anybody else
might be scared walking up such a driveway on such a night for fear of
meeting something such as him.
Behind a screen of yew trees off to his left stood the gloomy bulk
of the old church, decaying now, only used in rotation with others in
neighbouring villages and presided over by a vicar who was always
breathless from bicycling there and dispirited by the few who were
waiting for him when he arrived. Behind the steeple of the church hung
the cold eye of the moon.
A glimpse of movement seemed suddenly to catch his eye, as if a
figure had moved in the bushes near the house, but it was, he told
himself, only his imagination, overwrought by the strain of being dead.
What was there here that he could possibly be afraid of?
He continued onwards, around the angle of the wing of the rectory,
towards the front door set deep within its gloomy porch wreathed in
ivy. He was suddenly startled to realise that there was light coming
from within the house. Electric light and also the dim flicker of
firelight.
It was a moment or two before he realised that he was, of course,
expected that night, though hardly in his present form. Mrs Bennett,
the elderly housekeeper, would have been in to make the bed, light the
fire and leave out a light supper for him.
The television, too, would be on, especially so that he could turn
it off impatiently upon entering.
His footsteps failed to crunch on the gravel as he approached.
Though he knew that he must fail at the door, he nevertheless could not
but go there first, to try if he could open it, and only then, hidden
within the shadows of the porch, would he close his eyes and let
himself slip ashamedly through it. He stepped up to the door and
stopped.
It was open.
Just half an inch, but it was open. His spirit fluttered in fearful
surprise. How could it be open? Mrs Bennett was always so conscientious
about such things. He stood uncertainly for a moment and then with
difficulty exerted himself against the door. Under the little pressure
he could bring to bear on it, it swung slowly and unwillingly open, its
hinges groaning in protest. He stepped through and slipped along the
stone-flagged hallway. A wide staircase led up into the darkness, but
the doors that led off from the hallway all stood closed.
The nearest door led into the drawing room, in which the fire was
burning, and from which he could hear the muted car chases of the late
movie. He struggled futilely for a minute or two with its shiny brass
door knob, but was forced in the end to admit a humiliating defeat, and
with a sudden rage flung himself straight at the door -- and through
it.
The room inside was a picture of pleasant domestic warmth. He
staggered violently into it, and was unable to stop himself floating on
through a small occasional table set with thick sandwiches and a
Thermos flask of hot coffee, through a large overstuffed armchair, into
the fire, through the thick hot brickwork and into the cold dark dining
room beyond.
The connecting door back into the sitting room was also closed.
Gordon fingered it numbly and then, submitting himself to the
inevitable, braced himself, and slid back through it, calmly, gently,
noticing for the first time the rich internal grain of the wood.
The coziness of the room was almost too much for Gordon, and he
wandered distractedly around it, unable to settle, letting the warm
liveliness of the firelight play through him. Him it couldnt warm.
What, he wondered, were ghosts supposed to do all night?
He sat, uneasily, and watched the television. Soon, however, the car
chases drifted peacefully to a close and there was nothing left but
grey snow and white noise, which he was unable to turn off.
He found hed sunk too far into the chair and confused himself with
bits of it as he pushed and pulled himself up. He tried to amuse
himself by standing in the middle of a table, but it did little to
alleviate a mood that was sliding inexorably from despondency
downwards.
Perhaps he would sleep.
Perhaps.
He felt no tiredness or drowsiness, but just a deadly craving for
oblivion. He passed back through the closed door and into the dark
hallway, from which the wide heavy stairs led to the large gloomy
bedrooms above.
Up these, emptily, he trod.
It was for nothing, he knew. If you cannot open the door to a
bedroom you cannot sleep in its bed. He slid himself through the door
and lifted himself on to the bed which he knew to be cold though he
could not feel it. The moon seemed unable to leave him alone and shone
full on him as he lay there wide-eyed and empty, unable now to remember
what sleep was or how to do it.
The horror of hollowness lay on him, the horror of lying ceaselessly
and forever awake at four oclock in the morning.
He had nowhere to go, nothing to do when he got there, and no one he
could go and wake up who wouldnt be utterly horrified to see him.
The worst moment had been when he had seen Richard on the road,
Richards face frozen white in the windscreen. He saw again his face,
and that of the pale figure next to him.
That had been the thing which had shaken out of him the lingering
shred of warmth at the back of his mind which said that this was just a
temporary problem. It seemed terrible in the night hours, but would be
all right in the morning when he could see people and sort things out.
He fingered the memory of the moment in his mind and could not let it
go.
He had seen Richard and Richard, he knew, had seen him.
It was not going to be all right.
Usually when he felt this bad at night he popped downstairs to see
what was in the fridge, so he went now. It would be more cheerful than
this moonlit bedroom. He would hang around the kitchen going bump in
the night.
He slid down -- and partially through -- the banisters, wafted
through the kitchen door without a second thought and then devoted all
his concentration and energy for about five minutes to getting the
light switch on.
That gave him a real sense of achievement and he determined to
celebrate with a beer.
After a minute or two of repeatedly juggling and dropping a can of
Fosters he gave it up. He had not the slightest conception of how he
could manage to open a ring pull, and besides the stuff was all shaken
up by now -- and what was he going to do with the stuff even if he did
get it open?
He didnt have a body to keep it in. He hurled the can away from him
and it scuttled off under a cupboard.
He began to notice something about himself, which was the way in
which his ability to grasp things seemed to grow and fade in a slow
rhythm, as did his visibility.
There was an irregularity in the rhythm, though, or perhaps it was
just that sometimes the effects of it would be much more pronounced
than at others. That, too, seemed to vary according to a slower rhythm.
Just at that moment it seemed to him that his strength was on the
increase.
In a sudden fever of activity he tried to see how many things in the
kitchen he could move or use or somehow get to work.
He pulled open cupboards, he yanked out drawers, scattering cutlery
on the floor. He got a brief whirr out of the food processor, he
knocked over the electric coffee grinder without getting it to work, he
turned on the gas on the cooker hob but then couldnt light it, he
savaged a loaf of bread with a carving knife. He tried stuffing lumps
of bread into his mouth, but they simply fell through his mouth to the
floor. A mouse appeared, but scurried from the room, its coat electric
with fear.
Eventually he stopped and sat at the kitchen table, emotionally
exhausted but physically numb.
How, he wondered, would people react to his death?
Who would be most sorry to know that he had gone?
For a while there would be shock, then sadness, then they would
adjust, and he would be a fading memory as people got on with their own
lives without him, thinking that he had gone on to wherever people go.
That was a thought that filled him with the most icy dread.
He had not gone. He was still here.
He sat facing one cupboard that he hadnt managed to open yet
because its handle was too stiff, and that annoyed him. He grappled
awkwardly with a tin of tomatoes, then went over again to the large
cupboard and attacked the handle with the tin. The door flew open and
his own missing bloodstained body fell horribly forward out of it.
Gordon hadnt realised up till this point that it was possible for a
ghost to faint.
He realised it now and did it.
He was woken a couple of hours later by the sound of his gas cooker
exploding.
The following morning Richard woke up twice.
The first time he assumed he had made a mistake and turned over for
a fitful few minutes more. The second time he sat up with a jolt as the
events of the previous night insisted themselves upon him.
He went downstairs and had a moody and unsettled breakfast, during
which nothing went right. He burned the toast, spilled the coffee, and
realised that though hed meant to buy some more marmalade yesterday,
he hadnt. He surveyed his feeble attempt at feeding himself and
thought that maybe he could at least allow himself the time to take
Susan out for an amazing meal tonight, to make up for last night.
If he could persuade her to come.
There was a restaurant that Gordon had been enthusing about at great
length and recommending that they try. Gordon was pretty good on
restaurants -- he certainly seemed to spend enough time in them. He sat
and tapped his teeth with a pencil for a couple of minutes, and then
went up to his workroom and lugged a telephone directory out from under
a pile of computer magazines.
LEsprit dEscalier.
He phoned the restaurant and tried to book a table, but when he said
when he wanted it for this seemed to cause a little amusement.
Ah, non, msieur, said the maître d, I regret that it is
impossible. At this moment it is necessary to make reservations at
least three weeks in advance. Pardon, msieur.
Richard marvelled at the idea that there were people who actually
knew what they wanted to do three weeks in advance, thanked the maître
d and rang off. Well, maybe a pizza again instead. This thought
connected back to the appointment he had failed to keep last night, and
after a moment curiosity overcame him and he reached for the phone book
again.
Gentleman...
Gentles...
Gentry.
There was no Gently at all. Not a single one. He found the other
directories, except for the S-Z book which his cleaning lady
continually threw away for reasons he had never yet fathomed.
There was certainly no Cjelli, or anything like it. There was no
Jently, no Dgently, no Djently, no Dzently, nor anything remotely
similar. He wondered about Tjently, Tsentli or Tzentli and tried
Directory Enquiries, but they were out. He sat and tapped his teeth
with a pencil again and watched his sofa slowly revolving on the screen
of his computer.
How very peculiar it had been that it had only been hours earlier
that Reg had asked after Dirk with such urgency.
If you really wanted to find someone, how would you set about it,
what would you do?
He tried phoning the police, but they were out too. Well, that was
that. He had done all he could do for the moment short of hiring a
private detective, and he had better ways of wasting his time and
money. He would run into Dirk again, as he did every few years or so.
He found it hard to believe there were really such people, anyway,
as private detectives.
What sort of people were they? What did they look like, where did
they work?
What sort of tie would you wear if you were a private detective?
Presumably it would have to be exactly the sort of tie that people
wouldnt expect private detectives to wear. Imagine having to sort out
a problem like that when youd just got up.
Just out of curiosity as much as anything else, and because the only
alternative was settling down to Anthem coding, he found himself
leafing through the Yellow Pages.
Private Detectives -- see Detective Agencies.
The words looked almost odd in such a solid and businesslike
context. He flipped back through the book. Dry Cleaners, Dog Breeders,
Dental Technicians, Detective Agencies...
At that moment the phone rang and he answered it, a little curtly.
He didnt like being interrupted.
Something wrong, Richard?
Oh, hi, Kate, sorry, no. I was... my mind was elsewhere.
Kate Anselm was another star programmer at WayForward Technologies.
She was working on a long-term Artificial Intelligence project, the
sort of thing that sounded like an absurd pipe dream until you heard
her talking about it. Gordon needed to hear her talking about it quite
regularly, partly because he was nervous about the money it was costing
and partly because, well, there was little doubt that Gordon liked to
hear Kate talking anyway.
I didnt want to disturb you, she said. Its just I was trying to
contact Gordon and cant. Theres no reply from London or the cottage,
or his car or his bleeper. Its just that for someone as obsessively in
contact as Gordon its a bit odd. You heard hes had a phone put in his
isolation tank? True.
I havent spoken to him since yesterday, said Richard. He suddenly
remembered the tape he had taken from Susans answering machine, and
hoped to God there wasnt anything more important in Gordons message
than ravings about rabbits. He said, I know he was going to the
cottage. Er, I dont know where he is. Have you tried -- Richard
couldnt think of anywhere else to try -- ...er. Good God.
Richard?
How extraordinary...
Richard, whats the matter?
Nothing, Kate. Er, Ive just read the most astounding thing.
Really, what are you reading?
Well, the telephone directory, in fact...
Really? I must rush out and buy one. Have the film rights gone?
Look, sorry, Kate, can I get back to you? I dont know where Gordon
is at the moment and --
Dont worry. I know how it is when you cant wait to turn the next
page. They always keep you guessing till the end, dont they? It must
have been Zbigniew that did it. Have a good weekend. She hung up.
Richard hung up too, and sat staring at the box advertisement lying
open in front of him in the Yellow Pages.
DIRK GENTLYS
HOLISTIC DETECTIVE AGENCY
We solve the /whole/ crime
We find the /whole/ person
Phone today for the /whole/ solution to your problem
(Missing cats and messy divorces a speciality)
33a Peckender St., London N1 01-354 9112
Peckender Street was only a few minutes walk away. Richard
scribbled down the address, pulled on his coat and trotted downstairs,
stopping to make another quick inspection of the sofa. There must, he
thought, be something terribly obvious that he was overlooking. The
sofa was jammed on a slight turn in the long narrow stairway. At this
point the stairs were interrupted for a couple of yards of flat
landing, which corresponded with the position of the flat directly
beneath Richards. However, his inspection produced no new insights,
and he eventually clambered on over it and out of the front door.
In Islington you can hardly hurl a brick without hitting three
antique shops, an estate agent and a bookshop.
Even if you didnt actually hit them you would certainly set off
their burglar alarms, which wouldnt be turned off again till after the
weekend. A police car played its regular game of dodgems down Upper
Street and squealed to a halt just past him. Richard crossed the road
behind it.
The day was cold and bright, which he liked. He walked across the
top of Islington Green, where winos get beaten up, past the site of the
old Collins Music Hall which had got burnt down, and through Camden
Passage where American tourists get ripped off. He browsed among the
antiques for a while and looked at a pair of earrings that he thought
Susan would like, but he wasnt sure. Then he wasnt sure that he liked
them, got confused and gave up. He looked in at a bookshop, and on an
impulse bought an anthology of Coleridges poems since it was just
lying there.
From here he threaded his way through the winding back streets, over
the canal, past the council estates that lined the canal, through a
number of smaller and smaller squares, till finally he reached
Peckender Street, which had turned out to be a good deal farther than
hed thought.
It was the sort of street where property developers in large Jaguars
drive around at the weekend salivating. It was full of end-of-lease
shops, Victorian industrial architecture and a short, decaying late-
Georgian terrace, all just itching to be pulled down so that sturdy
young concrete boxes could sprout in their places. Estate agents roamed
the area in hungry packs, eyeing each other warily, their clipboards on
a hair trigger.
Number 33, when he eventually found it neatly sandwiched between 37
and 45, was in a poorish state of repair, but no worse than most of the
rest.
The ground floor was a dusty travel agents whose window was cracked
and whose faded BOAC posters were probably now quite valuable. The
doorway next to the shop had been painted bright red, not well, but at
least recently. A push button next to the door said, in neatly
pencilled lettering, Dominique, French lessons, 3me Floor.
The most striking feature of the door, however, was the bold and
shiny brass plaque fixed in the dead centre of it, on which was
engraved the legend Dirk Gentlys Holistic Detective Agency.
Nothing else. It looked brand new -- even the screws that held it in
place were still shiny.
The door opened to Richards push and he peered inside.
He saw a short and musty hallway which contained little but the
stairway that led up from it. A door at the back of the hall showed
little sign of having been opened in recent years, and had stacks of
old metal shelving, a fish tank and the carcass of a bike piled up
against it. Everything else, the walls, the floor, the stairs
themselves, and as much of the rear door as could be got at, had been
painted grey in an attempt to smarten it up cheaply, but it was all now
badly scuffed, and little cups of fungus were peeking from a damp stain
near the ceiling.
The sounds of angry voices reached him, and as he started up the
stairs he was able to disentangle the noises of two entirely separate
but heated arguments that were going on somewhere above him.
One ended abruptly -- or at least half of it did -- as an angry
overweight man came clattering down the stairs pulling his raincoat
collar straight. The other half of the argument continued in a torrent
of aggrieved French from high above them. The man pushed past Richard,
said, Save your money, mate, its a complete washout, and disappeared
out into the chilly morning.
The other argument was more muffled. As Richard reached the first
corridor a door slammed somewhere and brought that too to an end. He
looked into the nearest open doorway.
It led into a small ante-office. The other, inner door leading from
it was firmly closed. A youngish plump-faced girl in a cheap blue coat
was pulling sticks of make-up and boxes of Kleenex out of her desk
drawer and thrusting them into her bag.
Is this the detective agency? Richard asked her tentatively.
The girl nodded, biting her lip and keeping her head down.
And is Mr Gently in?
He may be, she said, throwing back her hair, which was too curly
for throwing back properly, and then again he may not be. I am not in
a position to tell. It is not my business to know of his whereabouts.
His whereabouts are, as of now, entirely his own business.
She retrieved her last pot of nail varnish and tried to slam the
drawer shut. A fat book sitting upright in the drawer prevented it from
closing. She tried to slam the drawer again, without success. She
picked up the book, ripped out a clump of pages and replaced it. This
time she was able to slam the drawer with ease.
Are you his secretary? asked Richard.
I am his ex-secretary and I intend to stay that way, she said,
firmly snapping her bag shut. If he intends to spend his money on
stupid expensive brass plaques rather than on paying me, then let him.
But I wont stay to stand for it, thank you very much. Good for
business, my foot. Answering the phones properly is good for business
and Id like to see his fancy brass plaque do that. If youll excuse me
Id like to storm out, please.
Richard stood aside, and out she stormed.
And good riddance! shouted a voice from the inner office. A phone
rang and was picked up immediately.
Yes? answered the voice from the inner office, testly. The girl
popped back for her scarf, but quietly, so her ex-employer wouldnt
hear. Then she was finally gone.
Yes, Dirk Gentlys Holistic Detective Agency. How can we be of help
to you?
The torrent of French from upstairs had ceased. A kind of tense calm
descended.
Inside, the voice said, Thats right, Mrs Sunderland, messy
divorces are our particular speciality.
There was a pause.
Yes, thank you, Mrs Sunderland, not quite that messy. Down went
the phone again, to be replaced instantly by the ringing of another
one.
Richard looked around the grim little office. There was very little
in it. A battered chipboard veneer desk, an old grey filing cabinet and
a dark green tin wastepaper bin. On the wall was a Duran Duran poster
on which someone had scrawled in fat red felt tip, Take this down
please.
Beneath that another hand had scrawled, No.
Beneath that again the first hand had written, I insist that you
take it down.
Beneath that the second hand had written, Wont!
Beneath that -- Youre fired.
Beneath that -- Good!
And there the matter appeared to have rested.
He knocked on the inner door, but was not answered. Instead the
voice continued, Im very glad you asked me that, Mrs Rawlinson. The
term holistic refers to my conviction that what we are concerned with
here is the fundamental interconnectedness of all things. I do not
concern myself with such petty things as fingerprint powder, telltale
pieces of pocket fluff and inane footprints. I see the solution to each
problem as being detectable in the pattern and web of the whole. The
connections between causes and effects are often much more subtle and
complex than we with our rough and ready understanding of the physical
world might naturally suppose, Mrs Rawlinson.
Let me give you an example. If you go to an acupuncturist with
toothache he sticks a needle instead into your thigh. Do you know why
he does that, Mrs Rawlinson?
No, neither do I, Mrs Rawlinson, but we intend to find out. A
pleasure talking to you, Mrs Rawlinson. Goodbye.
Another phone was ringing as he put this one down.
Richard eased the door open and looked in.
It was the same Svlad, or Dirk, Cjelli. Looking a little rounder
about the middle, a little looser and redder about the eyes and the
neck, but it was still essentially the same face that he remembered
most vividly smiling a grim smile as its owner climbed into the back of
one of the Black Marias of the Cambridgeshire constabulary, eight years
previously.
He wore a heavy old light brown suit which looked as if it has been
worn extensively for bramble hacking expeditions in some distant and
better past, a red checked shirt which failed entirely to harmonise
with the suit, and a green striped tie which refused to speak to either
of them. He also wore thick metal-rimmed spectacles, which probably
accounted at least in part for his dress sense.
Ah, Mrs Bluthall, how thoroughly uplifting to hear from you, he
was saying. I was so distressed to learn that Miss Tiddles has passed
over. This is desperate news indeed. And yet, and yet... Should we
allow black despair to hide from us the fairer light in which your
blessed moggy now forever dwells?
I think not. Hark. I think I hear Miss Tiddles miaowing even now.
She calls to you, Mrs Bluthall. She says she is content, she is at
peace. She says shell be even more at peace when youve paid some bill
or other. Does that ring a bell with you at all, Mrs Bluthall? Come to
think of it I think I sent you one myself not three months ago. I
wonder if it can be that which is disturbing her eternal rest.
Dirk beckoned Richard in with a brisk wave and then motioned him to
pass the crumpled pack of French cigarettes that was sitting just out
of his reach.
Sunday night, then, Mrs Bluthall, Sunday night at eight-thirty. You
know the address. Yes, Im sure Miss Tiddles will appear, as Im sure
will your cheque book. Till then, Mrs Bluthall, till then.
Another phone was already ringing as he got rid of Mrs Bluthall. He
grabbed at it, lighting his crumpled cigarette at the same time.
Ah, Mrs Sauskind, he said in answer to the caller, my oldest and
may I say most valued client. Good day to you, Mrs Sauskind, good day.
Sadly, no sign as yet of young Roderick, Im afraid, but the search is
intensifying as it moves into what I am confident are its closing
stages, and I am sanguine that within mere days from todays date we
will have the young rascal permanently restored to your arms and mewing
prettily, ah yes the bill, I was wondering if you had received it.
Dirks crumpled cigarette turned out to be too crumpled to smoke, so
he hooked the phone on his shoulder and poked around in the packet for
another, but it was empty.
He rummaged on his desk for a piece of paper and a stub of pencil
and wrote a note which he passed to Richard.
Yes, Mrs Sauskind, he assured the telephone, I am listening with
the utmost attention.
The note said Tell secretary get cigs.
Yes, continued Dirk into the phone, but as I have endeavoured to
explain to you, Mrs Sauskind, over the seven years of our acquaintance,
I incline to the quantum mechanical view in this matter. My theory is
that your cat is not lost, but that his waveform has temporarily
collapsed and must be restored. Schrödinger. Planck. And so on.
Richard wrote on the note You havent got secretary and pushed it
back.
Dirk considered this for a while, then wrote Damn and blast on the
paper and pushed it to Richard again.
I grant you, Mrs Sauskind, continued Dirk blithely, that nineteen
years is, shall we say, a distinguished age for a cat to reach, yet can
we allow ourselves to believe that a cat such as Roderick has not
reached it?
And should we now in the autumn of his years abandon him to his
fate? This surely is the time that he most needs the support of our
continuing investigations. This is the time that we should redouble our
efforts, and with your permission, Mrs Sauskind, that is what I intend
to do. Imagine, Mrs Sauskind, how you would face him if you had not
done this simple thing for him.
Richard fidgeted with the note, shrugged to himself, and wrote Ill
get them on it and passed it back once more.
Dirk shook his head in admonition, then wrote I couldnt possibly
that would be most kind. As soon as Richard had read this, Dirk took
the note back and added Get money from secretary to it.
Richard looked at the paper thoughtfully, took the pencil and put a
tick next to where he had previously written You havent got
secretary. He pushed the paper back across the table to Dirk, who
merely glanced at it and ticked I couldnt possibly that would be most
kind.
Well, perhaps, continued Dirk to Mrs Sauskind, you could just run
over any of the areas in the bill that cause you difficulty. Just the
broader areas.
Richard let himself out.
Running down the stairs, he passed a young hopeful in a denim jacket
and close-cropped hair peering anxiously up the stairwell.
Any good, mate? he said to Richard.
Amazing, murmured Richard, just amazing.
He found a nearby newsagents and picked up a couple of packets of
Disque Bleu for Dirk, and a copy of the new edition of /Personal
Computer World/, which had a picture of Gordon Way on the front.
Pity about him, isnt it? said the newsagent.
What? Oh, er... yes, said Richard. He often thought the same
himself, but was surprised to find his feelings so widely echoed. He
picked up a /Guardian/ as well, paid and left.
Dirk was still on the phone with his feet on the table when Richard
returned, and it was clear that he was relaxing into his negotiations.
Yes, expenses were, well, expensive in the Bahamas, Mrs Sauskind,
it is in the nature of expenses to be so. Hence the name. He took the
proffered packets of cigarettes, seemed disappointed there were only
two, but briefly raised his eyebrows to Richard in acknowledgement of
the favour he had done him, and then waved him to a chair.
The sounds of an argument conducted partly in French drifted down
from the floor above.
Of course I will explain to you again why the trip to the Bahamas
was so vitally necessary, said Dirk Gently soothingly. Nothing could
give me greater pleasure. I believe, as you know, Mrs Sauskind, in the
fundamental interconnectedness of all things. Furthermore I have
plotted and triangulated the vectors of the interconnectedness of all
things and traced them to a beach in Bermuda which it is therefore
necessary for me to visit from time to time in the course of my
investigations. I wish it were not the case, since, sadly, I am
allergic to both the sun and rum punches, but then we all have our
crosses to bear, do we not, Mrs Sauskind?
A babble seemed to break out from the telephone.
You sadden me, Mrs Sauskind. I wish I could find it in my heart to
tell you that I find your scepticism rewarding and invigorating, but
with the best will in the world I cannot. I am drained by it, Mrs
Sauskind, drained. I think you will find an item in the bill to that
effect. Let me see.
He picked up a flimsy carbon copy lying near him.
Detecting and triangulating the vectors of interconnectedness of
all things, one hundred and fifty pounds. Weve dealt with that.
Tracing same to beach on Bahamas, fare and accommodation. A mere
fifteen hundred. The accommodation was, of course, distressingly
modest.
Ah yes, here we are, Struggling on in the face of draining
scepticism from client, drinks -- three hundred and twenty-seven pounds
fifty.
Would that I did not have to make such charges, my dear Mrs
Sauskind, would that the occasion did not continually arise. Not
believing in my methods only makes my job more difficult, Mrs Sauskind,
and hence, regrettably, more expensive.
Upstairs, the sounds of argument were becoming more heated by the
moment. The French voice seemed to be verging on hysteria.
I do appreciate, Mrs Sauskind, continued Dirk, that the cost of
the investigation has strayed somewhat from the original estimate, but
I am sure that you will in your turn appreciate that a job which takes
seven years to do must clearly be more difficult than one that can be
pulled off in an afternoon and must therefore be charged at a higher
rate. I have continually to revise my estimate of how difficult the
task is in the light of how difficult it has so far proved to be.
The babble from the phone became more frantic.
My dear Mrs Sauskind -- or may I call you Joyce? Very well then. My
dear Mrs Sauskind, let me say this. Do not worry yourself about this
bill, do not let it alarm or discomfit you. Do not, I beg you, let it
become a source of anxiety to you. Just grit your teeth and pay it.
He pulled his feet down off the table and leaned forward over the
desk, inching the telephone receiver inexorably back towards its
cradle.
As always, the very greatest pleasure to speak with you, Mrs
Sauskind. For now, goodbye.
He at last put down the receiver, picked it up again, and dropped it
for the moment into the waste basket.
My dear Richard MacDuff, he said, producing a large flat box from
under his desk and pushing it across the table at him, your pizza.
Richard started back in astonishment.
Er, no thanks, he said, I had breakfast. Please. You have it.
Dirk shrugged. I told them youd pop in and settle up over the
weekend, he said. Welcome, by the way, to my offices.
He waved a vague hand around the tatty surroundings.
The light works, he said, indicating the window, the gravity
works, he said, dropping a pencil on the floor. Anything else we have
to take our chances with.
Richard cleared his throat. What, he said, is this?
What is what?
This, exclaimed Richard, all this. You appear to have a Holistic
Detective Agency and I dont even know what one is.
I provide a service that is unique in this world, said Dirk. The
term holistic refers to my conviction that what we are concerned with
here is the fundamental interconnectedness of all --
Yes, I got that bit earlier, said Richard. I have to say that it
sounded a bit like an excuse for exploiting gullible old ladies.
Exploiting? asked Dirk. Well, I suppose it would be if anybody
ever paid me, but I do assure you, my dear Richard, that there never
seems to be the remotest danger of that. I live in what are known as
hopes. I hope for fascinating and remunerative cases, my secretary
hopes that I will pay her, her landlord hopes that she will produce
some rent, the Electricity Board hopes that he will settle their bill,
and so on. I find it a wonderfully optimistic way of life.
Meanwhile I give a lot of charming and silly old ladies something
to be happily cross about and virtually guarantee the freedom of their
cats. Is there, you ask -- and I put the question for you because I
know you know I hate to be interrupted -- is there a single case that
exercises the tiniest part of my intellect, which, as you hardly need
me to tell you, is prodigious? No. But do I despair? Am I downcast?
Yes. Until, he added, today.
Oh, well, Im glad of that, said Richard, but what was all that
rubbish about cats and quantum mechanics?
With a sigh Dirk flipped up the lid of the pizza with a single flick
of practised fingers. He surveyed the cold round thing with a kind of
sadness and then tore off a hunk of it. Pieces of pepperoni and anchovy
scattered over his desk.
I am sure, Richard, he said, that you are familiar with the
notion of Schrödingers Cat, and he stuffed the larger part of the
hunk into his mouth.
Of course, said Richard. Well, reasonably familiar.
What is it? said Dirk through a mouthful.
Richard shifted irritably in his seat. Its an illustration, he
said, of the principle that at a quantum level all events are governed
by probabilities...
At a quantum level, and therefore at all levels, interrupted Dirk.
Though at any level higher than the subatomic the cumulative effect of
those probabilities is, in the normal course of events,
indistinguishable from the effect of hard and fast physical laws.
Continue.
He put some more cold pizza into his face.
Richard reflected that Dirks was a face into which too much had
already been put. What with that and the amount he talked, the traffic
through his mouth was almost incessant. His ears, on the other hand,
remained almost totally unused in normal conversation.
It occurred to Richard that if Lamarck had been right and you were
to take a line through this behaviour for several generations, the
chances were that some radical replumbing of the interior of the skull
would eventually take place.
Richard continued, Not only are quantum level events governed by
probabilities, but those probabilities arent even resolved into actual
events until they are measured. Or to use a phrase that I just heard
you use in a rather bizarre context, the act of measurement collapses
the probability waveform. Up until that point all the possible courses
of action open to, say, an electron, coexist as probability waveforms.
Nothing is decided. Until its measured.
Dirk nodded. More or less, he said, taking another mouthful. But
what of the cat?
Richard decided that there was only one way to avoid having to watch
Dirk eat his way through all the rest of the pizza, and that was to eat
the rest himself. He rolled it up and took a token nibble off the end.
It was rather good. He took another bite.
Dirk watched this with startled dismay.
So, said Richard, the idea behind Schrödingers Cat was to try
and imagine a way in which the effects of probabilistic behaviour at a
quantum level could be considered at a macroscopic level. Or lets say
an everyday level.
Yes, lets, said Dirk, regarding the rest of the pizza with a
stricken look. Richard took another bite and continued cheerfully.
So you imagine that you take a cat and put it in a box that you can
seal completely. Also in the box you put a small lump of radioactive
material, and a phial of poison gas. You arrange it so that within a
given period of time there is an exactly fifty-fifty chance that an
atom in the radioactive lump will decay and emit an electron. If it
does decay then it triggers the release of the gas and kills the cat.
If it doesnt, the cat lives. Fifty-fifty. Depending on the fifty-fifty
chance that a single atom does or does not decay.
The point as I understand it is this: since the decay of a single
atom is a quantum level event that wouldnt be resolved either way
until it was observed, and since you dont make the observation until
you open the box and see whether the cat is alive or dead, then theres
a rather extraordinary consequence.
Until you do open the box the cat itself exists in an indeterminate
state. The possibility that it is alive, and the possibility that it is
dead, are two different waveforms superimposed on each other inside the
box. Schrödinger put forward this idea to illustrate what he thought
was absurd about quantum theory.
Dirk got up and padded over to the window, probably not so much for
the meagre view it afforded over an old warehouse on which an
alternative comedian was lavishing his vast lager commercial fees
developing into luxury apartments, as for the lack of view it afforded
of the last piece of pizza disappearing.
Exactly, said Dirk, bravo!
But whats all that got to do with this -- this Detective Agency?
Oh, that. Well, some researchers were once conducting such an
experiment, but when they opened up the box, the cat was neither alive
nor dead but was in fact completely missing, and they called me in to
investigate. I was able to deduce that nothing very dramatic had
happened. The cat had merely got fed up with being repeatedly locked up
in a box and occasionally gassed and had taken the first opportunity to
hoof it through the window. It was for me the work of a moment to set a
saucer of milk by the window and call Bernice in an enticing voice --
the cats name was Bernice, you understand --
Now, wait a minute -- said Richard.
-- and the cat was soon restored. A simple enough matter, but it
seemed to create quite an impression in certain circles, and soon one
thing led to another as they do and it all culminated in the thriving
career you see before you.
Wait a minute, wait a minute, insisted Richard, slapping the
table.
Yes? enquired Dirk innocently.
Now, what are you talking about, Dirk?
You have a problem with what I have told you?
Well, I hardly know where to begin, protested Richard. All right.
You said that some people were performing the experiment. Thats
nonsense. Schrödingers Cat isnt a real experiment. Its just an
illustration for arguing about the idea. Its not something youd
actually do.
Dirk was watching him with odd attention.
Oh, really? he said at last. And why not?
Well, theres nothing you can test. The whole point of the idea is
to think about what happens before you make your observation. You cant
know whats going on inside the box without looking, and the very
instant you look the wave packet collapses and the probabilities
resolve. Its self-defeating. Its completely purposeless.
You are, of course, perfectly correct as far as you go, replied
Dirk, returning to his seat. He drew a cigarette out of the packet,
tapped it several times on the desk, and leant across the desk and
pointed the filter at Richard.
But think about this, he continued. Supposing you were to
introduce a psychic, someone with clairvoyant powers, into the
experiment -- someone who is able to divine what state of health the
cat is in without opening the box. Someone who has, perhaps, a certain
eerie sympathy with cats. What then? Might that furnish us with an
additional insight into the problem of quantum physics?
Is that what they wanted to do?
Its what they did.
Dirk, this is /complete nonsense/.
Dirk raised his eyebrows challengingly.
All right, all right, said Richard, holding up his palms, lets
just follow it through. Even if I accepted -- which I dont for one
second -- that there was any basis at all for clairvoyance, it wouldnt
alter the fundamental undoableness of the experiment. As I said, the
whole thing turns on what happens inside the box before its observed.
It doesnt matter how you observe it, whether you look into the box
with your eyes or -- well, with your mind, if you insist. If
clairvoyance works, then its just another way of looking into the box,
and if it doesnt then of course its irrelevant.
It might depend, of course, on the view you take of
clairvoyance...
Oh yes? And what view do you take of clairvoyance? I should be very
interested to know, given your history.
Dirk tapped the cigarette on the desk again and looked narrowly at
Richard.
There was a deep and prolonged silence, disturbed only by the sound
of distant crying in French.
I take the view I have always taken, said Dirk eventually.
Which is?
That I am not clairvoyant.
Really, said Richard. Then what about the exam papers?
The eyes of Dirk Gently darkened at the mention of this subject.
A coincidence, he said, in a low, savage voice, a strange and
chilling coincidence, but none the less a coincidence. One, I might
add, which caused me to spend a considerable time in prison.
Coincidences can be frightening and dangerous things.
Dirk gave Richard another of his long appraising looks.
I have been watching you carefully, he said. You seem to be
extremely relaxed for a man in your position.
This seemed to Richard to be an odd remark, and he tried to make
sense of it for a moment. Then the light dawned, and it was an
aggravating light.
Good heavens, he said, he hasnt got to you as well, has he?
This remark seemed to puzzle Dirk in return.
Who hasnt got to me? he said.
Gordon. No, obviously not. Gordon Way. He has this habit of trying
to get other people to bring pressure on me to get on with what he sees
as important work. I thought for a moment -- oh, never mind. What did
you mean, then?
Ah. Gordon Way /has/ this habit, has he?
Yes. I dont like it. Why?
Dirk looked long and hard at Richard, tapping a pencil lightly on
the desk.
Then he leaned back in his chair and said as follows: The body of
Gordon Way was discovered before dawn this morning. He had been shot,
strangled, and then his house was set on fire. Police are working on
the theory that he was not actually shot in the house because no
shotgun pellets were discovered there other than those in the body.
However, pellets were found near to Mr Ways Mercedes 500 SEC,
which was found abandoned about three miles from his house. This
suggests that the body was moved after the murder. Furthermore the
doctor who examined the body is of the opinion that Mr Way was in fact
strangled after he was shot, which seems to suggest a certain confusion
in the mind of the killer.
By a startling coincidence it appears that the police last night
had occasion to interview a very confused-seeming gentleman who said
that he was suffering from some kind of guilt complex about having just
run over his employer.
That man was a Mr Richard MacDuff, and his employer was the
deceased, Mr Gordon Way. It has further been suggested that Mr Richard
MacDuff is one of the two people most likely to benefit from Mr Ways
death, since WayForward Technologies would almost certainly pass at
least partly into his hands. The other person is his only living
relative, Miss Susan Way, into whose flat Mr Richard MacDuff was
observed to break last night. The police dont know that bit, of
course. Nor, if we can help it, will they. However, any relationship
between the two of them will naturally come under close scrutiny. The
news reports on the radio say that they are urgently seeking Mr
MacDuff, who they believe will be able to help them with their
enquiries, but the tone of voice says that hes clearly guilty as hell.
My scale of charges is as follows: two hundred pounds a day, plus
expenses. Expenses are not negotiable and will sometimes strike those
who do not understand these matters as somewhat tangential. They are
all necessary and are, as I say, not negotiable. Am I hired?
Sorry, said Richard, nodding slightly. Would you start that
again?
The Electric Monk hardly knew what to believe any more.
He had been through a bewildering number of belief systems in the
previous few hours, most of which had failed to provide him with the
long-term spiritual solace that it was his bounden programming
eternally to seek.
He was fed up. Frankly. And tired. And dispirited.
And furthermore, which caught him by surprise, he rather missed his
horse. A dull and menial creature, to be sure, and as such hardly
worthy of the preoccupation of one whose mind was destined forever to
concern itself with higher things beyond the understanding of a simple
horse, but nevertheless he missed it.
He wanted to sit on it. He wanted to pat it. He wanted to feel that
it didnt understand.
He wondered where it was.
He dangled his feet disconsolately from the branch of the tree in
which he had spent the night. He had climbed it in pursuit of some wild
fantastic dream and then had got stuck and had to stay there till the
morning.
Even now, by daylight, he wasnt certain how he was going to get
down. He came for a moment perilously close to believing that he could
fly, but a quick-thinking error-checking protocol cut in and told him
not to be so silly.
It was a problem though.
Whatever burning fire of faith had borne him, inspired on wings of
hope, upwards through the branches of the tree in the magic hours of
night, had not also provided him with instructions on how to get back
down again when, like altogether too many of these burning fiery night-
time faiths, it had deserted him in the morning.
And speaking -- or rather thinking -- of burning fiery things, there
had been a major burning fiery thing a little distance from here in the
early pre-dawn hours.
It lay, he thought, in the direction from which he himself had come
when he had been drawn by a deep spiritual compulsion towards this
inconveniently high but otherwise embarrassingly ordinary tree. He had
longed to go and worship at the fire, to pledge himself eternally to
its holy glare, but while he had been struggling hopelessly to find a
way downwards through the branches, fire engines had arrived and put
the divine radiance out, and that had been another creed out of the
window.
The sun had been up for some hours now, and though he had occupied
the time as best as he could, believing in clouds, believing in twigs,
believing in a peculiar form of flying beetle, he believed now that he
was fed up, and was utterly convinced, furthermore, that he was getting
hungry.
He wished hed taken the precaution of providing himself with some
food from the dwelling place he had visited in the night, to which he
had carried his sacred burden for entombment in the holy broom
cupboard, but he had left in the grip of a white passion, believing
that such mundane matters as food were of no consequence, that the tree
would provide.
Well, it had provided.
It had provided twigs.
Monks did not eat twigs.
In fact, now he came to think of it, he felt a little uncomfortable
about some of the things he had believed last night and had found some
of the results a little confusing. He had been quite clearly instructed
to shoot off and had felt strangely compelled to obey but perhaps he
had made a mistake in acting so precipitately on an instruction given
in a language he had learned only two minutes before. Certainly the
reaction of the person he had shot off at had seemed a little extreme.
In his own world when people were shot at like that they came back
next week for another episode, but he didnt think this person would be
doing that.
A gust of wind blew through the tree, making it sway giddily. He
climbed down a little way. The first part was reasonably easy, since
the branches were all fairly close together. It was the last bit that
appeared to be an insuperable obstacle -- a sheer drop which could
cause him severe internal damage or rupture and might in turn cause him
to start believing things that were seriously strange.
The sound of voices over in a distant corner of the field suddenly
caught his attention. A lorry had pulled up by the side of the road. He
watched carefully for a moment, but couldnt see anything particular to
believe in and so returned to his introspection.
There was, he remembered, an odd function call he had had last
night, which he hadnt encountered before, but he had a feeling that it
might be something hed heard of called remorse. He hadnt felt at all
comfortable about the way the person he had shot at had just lain
there, and after initially walking away the Monk had returned to have
another look. There was definitely an expression on the persons face
which seemed to suggest that something was up, that this didnt fit in
with the scheme of things. The Monk worried that he might have badly
spoiled his evening.
Still, he reflected, so long as you did what you believed to be
right, that was the main thing.
The next thing he had believed to be right was that having spoiled
this persons evening he should at least convey him to his home, and a
quick search of his pockets had produced an address, some maps and some
keys. The trip had been an arduous one, but he had been sustained on
the way by his faith.
The word bathroom floated unexpectedly across the field.
He looked up again at the lorry in the distant comer. There was a
man in a dark blue uniform explaining something to a man in rough
working clothes, who seemed a little disgruntled about whatever it was.
The words until we trace the owner and completely batty, of course
were gusted over on the wind. The man in the working clothes clearly
agreed to accept the situation, but with bad grace.
A few moments later, a horse was led out of the back of the lorry
and into the field. The Monk blinked. His circuits thrilled and surged
with astonishment. Now here at last was something he could believe in,
a truly miraculous event, a reward at last for his unstinting if rather
promiscuous devotion.
The horse walked with a patient, uncomplaining gait. It had long
grown used to being wherever it was put, but for once it felt it didnt
mind this. Here, it thought, was a pleasant field. Here was grass. Here
was a hedge it could look at. There was enough space that it could go
for a trot later on if it felt the urge. The humans drove off and left
it to its own devices, to which it was quite content to be left. It
went for a little amble, and then, just for the hell of it, stopped
ambling. It could do what it liked.
What pleasure.
What very great and unaccustomed pleasure.
It slowly surveyed the whole field, and then decided to plan out a
nice relaxed day for itself. A little trot later on, it thought, maybe
around threeish. After that a bit of a lie down over on the east side
of the field where the grass was thicker. It looked like a suitable
spot to think about supper in.
Lunch, it rather fancied, could be taken at the south end of the
field where a small stream ran. Lunch by a stream, for heavens sake.
This was bliss.
It also quite liked the notion of spending half an hour walking
alternately a little bit to the left and then a little bit to the
right, for no apparent reason. It didnt know whether the time between
two and three would be best spent swishing its tail or mulling things
over.
Of course, it could always do both, if it so wished, and go for its
trot a little later. And it had just spotted what looked like a fine
piece of hedge for watching things over, and that would easily while
away a pleasant pre-prandial hour or two.
Good.
An excellent plan.
And the best thing about it was that having made it the horse could
now completely and utterly ignore it. It went instead for a leisurely
stand under the only tree in the field.
From out of its branches the Electric Monk dropped on to the horses
back, with a cry which sounded suspiciously like Geronimo.
Dirk Gently briefly ran over the salient facts once more while
Richard MacDuffs world crashed slowly and silently into a dark,
freezing sea which he hadnt even known was there, waiting inches
beneath his feet. When Dirk had finished for the second time the room
fell quiet while Richard stared fixedly at his face.
Where did you hear this? said Richard at last.
The radio, said Dirk, with a slight shrug, at least the main
points. Its all over the news of course. The details? Well, discreet
enquiries among contacts here and there. There are one or two people I
got to know at Cambridge police station, for reasons which may occur to
you.
I dont even know whether to believe you, said Richard quietly.
May I use the phone?
Dirk courteously picked a telephone receiver out of the wastepaper
bin and handed it to him. Richard dialled Susans number.
The phone was answered almost immediately and a frightened voice
said, Hello?
Susan, its Ri --
/Richard!/ Where are you? For Gods sake, where are you? Are you
all right?
Dont tell her where you are, said Dirk.
Susan, whats happened?
Dont you -- ?
Somebody told me that somethings happened to Gordon, but...
Somethings /happened/ -- ? Hes /dead/, Richard, hes been
/murdered/ --
Hang up, said Dirk.
Susan, listen. I --
Hang up, repeated Dirk, and then leaned forward to the phone and
cut him off.
The police will probably have a trace on the line, he explained.
He took the receiver and chucked it back in the bin.
But I have to go to the police, Richard exclaimed.
Go to the police?
What else can I do? I have to go to the police and tell them that
it wasnt me.
Tell them that it wasnt you? said Dirk incredulously. Well I
expect that will probably make it all right, then. Pity Dr Crippen
didnt think of that. Would have saved him a lot of bother.
Yes, but he was guilty!
Yes, so it would appear. And so it would appear, at the moment, are
you.
But I didnt do it, for Gods sake!
You are talking to someone who has spent time in prison for
something he didnt do, remember. I told you that coincidences are
strange and dangerous things. Believe me, it is a great deal better to
find cast-iron proof that youre innocent, than to languish in a cell
hoping that the police -- who already think youre guilty -- will find
it for you.
I cant think straight, said Richard, with his hand to his
forehead. Just stop for a moment and let me think this out --
If I may --
Let me think -- !
Dirk shrugged and turned his attention back to his cigarette, which
seemed to be bothering him.
Its no good, said Richard shaking his head after a few moments,
I cant take it in. Its like trying to do trigonometry when someones
kicking your head. OK, tell me what you think I should do.
Hypnotism.
What?
It is hardly surprising in the circumstances that you should be
unable to gather your thoughts clearly. However, it is vital that
somebody gathers them. It will be much simpler for both of us if you
will allow me to hypnotise you. I strongly suspect that there is a very
great deal of information jumbled up in your head that will not emerge
while you are shaking it up so -- that might not emerge at all because
you do not realise its significance. With your permission we can short-
cut all that.
Well, thats decided then, said Richard, standing up, Im going
to the police.
Very well, said Dirk, leaning back and spreading his palms on the
desk, I wish you the very best of luck. Perhaps on your way out you
would be kind enough to ask my secretary to get me some matches.
You havent got a secretary, said Richard, and left.
Dirk sat and brooded for a few seconds, made a valiant but vain
attempt to fold the sadly empty pizza box into the wastepaper bin, and
then went to look in the cupboard for a metronome.
Richard emerged blinking into the daylight. He stood on the top step
rocking slightly, then plunged off down the street with an odd kind of
dancing walk which reflected the whirling dance of his mind. On the one
hand he simply couldnt believe that the evidence wouldnt show
perfectly clearly that he couldnt have committed the murder; on the
other hand he had to admit that it all looked remarkably odd.
He found it impossible to think clearly or rationally about it. The
idea that Gordon had been murdered kept blowing up in his mind and
throwing all other thoughts into total confusion and disruption.
It occurred to him for a moment that whoever did it must have been a
damn fast shot to get the trigger pulled before being totally
overwhelmed by waves of guilt, but instantly he regretted the thought.
In fact he was a little appalled by the general quality of the thoughts
that sprang into his mind. They seemed inappropriate and unworthy and
mostly had to do with how it would affect his projects in the company.
He looked about inside himself for any feeling of great sorrow or
regret, and assumed that it must be there somewhere, probably hiding
behind the huge wall of shock.
He arrived back within sight of Islington Green, hardly noticing the
distance he had walked. The sudden sight of the police squad car parked
outside his house hit him like a hammer and he swung on his heel and
stared with furious concentration at the menu displayed in the window
of a Greek restaurant.
Dolmades, he thought, frantically.
Souvlaki, he thought.
A small spicy Greek sausage, passed hectically through his mind.
He tried to reconstruct the scene in his minds eye without turning
round. There had been a policeman standing watching the street, and as
far as he could recall from the brief glance he had, it looked as if
the side door of the building which led up to his flat was standing
open.
The police were in his flat. /In/ his flat. Fassolia Plaki! A
filling bowl of haricot beans cooked in a tomato and vegetable sauce!
He tried to shift his eyes sideways and back over his shoulder. The
policeman was looking at him. He yanked his eyes back to the menu and
tried to fill his mind with finely ground meat mixed with potato,
breadcrumbs, onions and herbs rolled into small balls and fried. The
policeman must have recognised him and was at that very moment dashing
across the road to grab him and lug him off in a Black Maria just as
they had done to Dirk all those years ago in Cambridge.
He braced his shoulders against the shock, but no hand came to grab
him. He glanced back again, but the policeman was looking unconcernedly
in another direction. Stifado.
It was very apparent to him that his behaviour was not that of one
who was about to go and hand himself in to the police.
So what else was he to do?
Trying in a stiff, awkward way to walk naturally, he yanked himself
away from the window, strolled tensely down the road a few yards, and
then ducked back down Camden Passage again, walking fast and breathing
hard. Where could he go? To Susan? No -- the police would be there or
watching. To the WFT offices in Primrose Hill? No -- same reason. What
on earth, he screamed silently at himself, was he doing suddenly as a
fugitive?
He insisted to himself, as he had insisted to Dirk, that he should
not be running away from the police. The police, he told himself, as he
had been taught when he was a boy, were there to help and protect the
innocent. This thought caused him instantly to break into a run and he
nearly collided with the proud new owner of an ugly Edwardian floor
lamp.
Sorry, he said, sorry. He was startled that anyone should want
such a thing, and slowed his pace to a walk, glancing with sharp hunted
looks around him. The very familiar shop fronts full of old polished
brass, old polished wood and pictures of Japanese fish suddenly seemed
very threatening and aggressive.
Who could possibly have wanted to kill Gordon? This was the thought
that suddenly hammered at him as he turned down Charlton Place. All
that had concerned him so far was that he hadnt.
But who had?
This was a new thought.
Plenty of people didnt care for him much, but there is a huge
difference between disliking somebody -- maybe even disliking them a
lot -- and actually shooting them, strangling them, dragging them
through the fields and setting their house on fire. It was a difference
which kept the vast majority of the population alive from day to day.
Was it just theft? Dirk hadnt mentioned anything being missing but
then he hadnt asked him.
Dirk. The image of his absurd but oddly commanding figure sitting
like a large toad, brooding in his shabby office, kept insisting itself
upon Richards mind. He realised that he was retracing the way he had
come, and deliberately made himself turn right instead of left.
That way madness lay.
He just needed a space, a bit of time to think and collect his
thoughts together.
All right -- so where was he going? He stopped for a moment, turned
around and then stopped again. The idea of dolmades suddenly seemed
very attractive and it occurred to him that the cool, calm and
collected course of action would have been simply to walk in and have
some. That would have shown Fate who was boss.
Instead, Fate was engaged on exactly the same course of action. It
wasnt actually sitting in a Greek restaurant eating dolmades, but it
might as well have been, because it was clearly in charge. Richards
footsteps drew him inexorably back through the winding streets, over
the canal.
He stopped, briefly, at a corner shop, and then hurried on past the
council estates, and into developer territory again until he was
standing once more outside 33, Peckender Street. At about the same time
as Fate would have been pouring itself the last of the retsina, wiping
its mouth and wondering if it had any room left for baklavas, Richard
gazed up at the tall ruddy Victorian building with its soot-darkened
brickwork and its heavy, forbidding windows. A gust of wind whipped
along the street and a small boy bounded up to him.
Fuck off, chirped the little boy, then paused and looked at him
again.
Ere, mister, he added, can I have your jacket?
No, said Richard.
Why not? said the boy.
Er, because I like it, said Richard.
Cant see why, muttered the boy. Fuck off. He slouched off
moodily down the street, kicking a stone at a cat.
Richard entered the building once more, mounted the stairs uneasily
and looked again into the office.
Dirks secretary was sitting at her desk, head down, arms folded.
Im not here, she said.
I see, said Richard.
I only came back, she said, without looking up from the spot on
her desk at which she was staring angrily, to make sure he notices
that Ive gone. Otherwise he might just forget.
Is he in? asked Richard.
Who knows? Who cares? Better ask someone who works for him, because
I dont.
Show him in! boomed Dirks voice.
She glowered for a moment, stood up, went to the inner door,
wrenched it open, said Show him in yourself, slammed the door once
more and returned to her seat.
Er, why dont I just show myself in? said Richard.
I cant even hear you, said Dirks ex-secretary, staring
resolutely at her desk. How do you expect me to hear you if Im not
even here?
Richard made a placatory gesture, which was ignored, and walked
through and opened the door to Dirks office himself. He was startled
to find the room in semi-darkness. A blind was drawn down over the
window, and Dirk was lounging back in his seat, his face bizarrely lit
by the strange arrangement of objects sitting on the desk. At the
forward edge of the desk sat an old grey bicycle lamp, facing backwards
and shining a feeble light on a metronome which was ticking softly back
and forth, with a highly polished silver teaspoon strapped to its metal
rod.
Richard tossed a couple of boxes of matches on to the desk.
Sit down, relax, and keep looking at the spoon, said Dirk, you
are already feeling sleepy...
Another police car pulled itself up to a screeching halt outside
Richards flat, and a grim-faced man climbed out and strode over to one
of the constables on duty outside, flashing an identity card.
Detective Inspector Mason, Cambridgeshire CID, he said. This the
MacDuff place?
The constable nodded and showed him to the side-door entrance which
opened on to the long narrow staircase leading up to the top flat.
Mason bustled in and then bustled straight out again.
Theres a sofa halfway up the stairs, he told the constable. Get
it moved.
Some of the lads have already tried, sir, the constable replied
anxiously. It seems to be stuck. Everyones having to climb over it
for the moment, sir. Sorry, sir.
Mason gave him another grim look from a vast repertoire he had
developed which ranged from very, very blackly grim indeed at the
bottom of the scale, all the way up to tiredly resigned and only
faintly grim, which he reserved for his childrens birthdays.
Get it moved, he repeated grimly, and bustled grimly back through
the door grimly hauling up his trousers and coat in preparation for the
grim ascent ahead.
No sign of him yet? asked the driver of the car, coming over
himself. Sergeant Gilks, he introduced himself. He looked tired.
Not as far as I know, said the constable, but no one tells me
anything.
Know how you feel, agreed Gilks. Once the CID gets involved you
just get relegated to driving them about. And Im the only one who
knows what he looked like. Stopped him in the road last night. We just
came from Ways house. Right mess.
Bad night, eh?
Varied. Everything from murder to hauling horses out of bathrooms.
No, dont even ask. Do you have the same cars as these? he added,
pointing at his own. This ones been driving me crazy all the way up.
Cold even with the heater on full blast, and the radio keeps turning
itself on and off.
The same morning found Michael Wenton-Weakes in something of an odd
mood.
You would need to know him fairly well to know that it was an
especially odd mood, because most people regarded him as being a little
odd to start with. Few people knew him that well. His mother, perhaps,
but there existed between them a state of cold war and neither had
spoken to the other now in weeks.
He also had an elder brother, Peter, who was now tremendously senior
in the Marines. Apart from at their fathers funeral, Michael had not
seen Peter since he came back from the Falklands, covered in glory,
promotion, and contempt for his younger brother.
Peter had been delighted that their mother had taken over Magna, and
had sent Michael a regimental Christmas card to that effect. His own
greatest satisfaction still remained that of throwing himself into a
muddy ditch and firing a machine gun for at least a minute, and he
didnt think that the British newspaper and publishing industry, even
in its current state of unrest, was likely to afford him that pleasure,
at least until some more Australians moved into it.
Michael had risen very late after a night of cold savagery and then
of troubled dreams which still disturbed him now in the late morning
daylight.
His dreams had been filled with the familiar sensations of loss,
isolation, guilt and so forth, but had also been inexplicably involved
with large quantities of mud. By the telescopic power of the night, the
nightmare of mud and loneliness had seemed to stretch on for
terrifying, unimaginable lengths of time, and had only concluded with
the appearance of slimy things with legs that had crawled on the slimy
sea. This had been altogether too much and he had woken with a start in
a cold sweat.
Though all the business with the mud had seemed strange to him, the
sense of loss, of isolation, and above all the aggrievement, the need
to undo what had been done, these had all found an easy home in his
spirit.
Even the slimy things with legs seemed oddly familiar and ticked
away irritably at the back of his mind while he made himself a late
breakfast, a piece of grapefruit and some China tea, allowed his eyes
to rest lightly on the arts pages of the /Daily Telegraph/ for a while,
and then rather clumsily changed the dressing on the cuts on his hand.
These small tasks accomplished, he was then in two minds as to what
to do next.
He was able to view the events of the previous night with a cool
detachment that he would not have expected. It had been right, it had
been proper, it had been correctly done. But it resolved nothing. All
that mattered was yet to be done.
All what? He frowned at the odd way his thoughts ebbed and flowed.
Normally he would pop along to his club at about this time. It used
to be that he would do this with a luxurious sense of the fact that
there were many other things that he should be doing. Now there was
nothing else to do, which made time spent there, as anywhere else, hang
somewhat heavy on his hands.
When he went he would do as he always did -- indulge in a gin and
tonic and a little light conversation, and then allow his eyes to rest
gently on the pages of the /Times Literary Supplement/, /Opera/, /The
New Yorker/ or whatever else fell easily to hand, but there was no
doubt that he did it these days with less verve and relish than
previously.
Then there would be lunch. Today, he had no lunch date planned --
again -- and would probably therefore have stayed at his club, and
eaten a lightly grilled Dover sole, with potatoes garnished with
parsley and boiled to bits, followed by a large heap of trifle. A glass
or two of Sancerre. And coffee. And then the afternoon, with whatever
that might bring.
But today he felt oddly impelled not to do that. He flexed the
muscles in his cut hand, poured himself another cup of tea, looked with
curious dispassion at the large kitchen knife that still lay by the
fine bone china teapot, and waited for a moment to see what he would do
next. What he did next, in fact, was to walk upstairs.
His house was rather chill in its formal perfection, and looked much
as people who buy reproduction furniture would like their houses to
look. Except of course that everything here was genuine -- crystal,
mahogany and Wilton -- and only looked as if it might be fake because
there was no life to any of it.
He walked up into his workroom, which was the only room in the house
that was not sterile with order, but here the disorder of books and
papers was instead sterile with neglect. A thin film of dust had
settled over everything. Michael had not been into it in weeks, and the
cleaner was under strict instructions to leave it well alone. He had
not worked here since he edited the last edition of /Fathom/. Not, of
course, the actual last edition, but the last proper edition. The last
edition as far as /he/ was concerned.
He set his china cup down in the fine dust and went to inspect his
elderly record player. On it he found an elderly recording of some
Vivaldi wind concertos, set it to play and sat down.
He waited again to see what he would do next and suddenly found to
his surprise that he was already doing it, and it was this: he was
/listening/ to the music.
A bewildered look crept slowly across his face as he realised that
he had never done this before. He had /heard/ it many, many times and
thought that it made a very pleasant noise. Indeed, he found that it
made a pleasant background against which to discuss the concert season,
but it had never before occurred to him that there was anything
actually to /listen/ to.
He sat thunderstruck by the interplay of melody and counterpoint
which suddenly stood revealed to him with a clarity that owed nothing
to the dust-ridden surface of the record or the fourteen-year-old
stylus.
But with this revelation came an almost immediate sense of
disappointment, which confused him all the more. The music suddenly
revealed to him was oddly unfulfilling. It was as if his capacity to
understand the music had suddenly increased up to and far beyond the
musics ability to satisfy it, all in one dramatic moment.
He strained to listen for what was missing, and felt that the music
was like a flightless bird that didnt even know what capacity it had
lost. It walked very well, but it walked where it should soar, it
walked where it should swoop, it walked where it should climb and bank
and dive, it walked where it should thrill with the giddiness of
flight. It never even looked up.
He looked up.
After a while he became aware that all he was doing was simply
staring stupidly at the ceiling. He shook his head, and discovered that
the perception had faded, leaving him feeling slightly sick and dizzy.
It had not vanished entirely, but had dropped deep inside him, deeper
than he could reach.
The music continued. It was an agreeable enough assortment of
pleasant sounds in the background, but it no longer stirred him.
He needed some clues as to what it was he had just experienced, and
a thought flicked momentarily at the back of his mind as to where he
might find them. He let go of the thought in anger, but it flicked at
him again, and kept on flicking at him until at last he acted upon it.
From under his desk he pulled out the large tin wastepaper bin.
Since he had barred his cleaning lady from even coming in here for the
moment, the bin had remained unemptied and he found in it the tattered
shreds of what he was looking for with the contents of an ashtray
emptied over them.
He overcame his distaste with grim determination and slowly jiggled
around the bits of the hated object on his desk, clumsily sticking them
together with bits of sticky tape that curled around and stuck the
wrong bit to the wrong bit and stuck the right bit to his pudgy fingers
and then to the desk, until at last there lay before him, crudely
reassembled, a copy of /Fathom/. As edited by the execrable creature A.
K. Ross.
Appalling.
He turned the sticky lumpish pages as if he was picking over chicken
giblets. Not a single line drawing of Joan Sutherland or Marilyn Horne
anywhere. No profiles of any of the major Cork Street art dealers, not
a one.
His series on the Rossettis: discontinued.
Green Room Gossip: discontinued.
He shook his head in incredulity and then he found the article he
was after.
Music and Fractal Landscapes by Richard MacDuff.
He skipped over the first couple of paragraphs of introduction and
picked it up further on:
Mathematical analysis and computer modelling are revealing
to us that the shapes and processes we encounter in nature --
the way that plants grow, the way that mountains erode or
rivers flow, the way that snowflakes or islands achieve their
shapes, the way that light plays on a surface, the way the
milk folds and spins into your coffee as you stir it, the way
that laughter sweeps through a crowd of people -- all these
things in their seemingly magical complexity can be described
by the interaction of mathematical processes that are, if
anything, even more magical in their simplicity.
Shapes that we think of as random are in fact the products
of complex shifting webs of numbers obeying simple rules. The
very word natural that we have often taken to mean
unstructured in fact describes shapes and processes that
appear so unfathomably complex that we cannot consciously
perceive the simple natural laws at work.
They can all be described by numbers.
Oddly, this idea seemed less revolting now to Michael than it had
done on his first, scant reading.
He read on with increasing concentration.
We know, however, that the mind is capable of understanding
these matters in all their complexity and in all their
simplicity. A ball flying through the air is responding to the
force and direction with which it was thrown, the action of
gravity, the friction of the air which it must expend its
energy on overcoming, the turbulence of the air around its
surface, and the rate and direction of the balls spin.
And yet, someone who might have difficulty consciously
trying to work out what 3 x 4 x 5 comes to would have no
trouble in doing differential calculus and a whole host of
related calculations so astoundingly fast that they /can
actually catch a flying ball./
People who call this instinct are merely giving the
phenomenon a name, not explaining anything.
I think that the closest that human beings come to
expressing our understanding of these natural complexities is
in music. It is the most abstract of the arts -- it has no
meaning or purpose other than to be itself.
Every single aspect of a piece of music can be represented
by numbers. From the organisation of movements in a whole
symphony, down through the patterns of pitch and rhythm that
make up the melodies and harmonies, the dynamics that shape
the performance, all the way down to the timbres of the notes
themselves, their harmonics, the way they change over time, in
short, all the elements of a noise that distinguish between
the sound of one person piping on a piccolo and another one
thumping a drum -- all of these things can be expressed by
patterns and hierarchies of numbers.
And in my experience the more internal relationships there
are between the patterns of numbers at different levels of the
hierarchy, however complex and subtle those relationships may
be, the more satisfying and, well, whole, the music will seem
to be.
In fact the more subtle and complex those relationships,
and the further they are beyond the grasp of the conscious
mind, the more the instinctive part of your mind -- by which I
mean that part of your mind that can do differential calculus
so astoundingly fast that it will put your hand in the right
place to catch a flying ball -- the more that part of your
brain revels in it.
Music of any complexity (and even Three Blind Mice is
complex in its way by the time someone has actually performed
it on an instrument with its own individual timbre and
articulation) passes beyond your conscious mind into the arms
of your own private mathematical genius who dwells in your
unconscious responding to all the inner complexities and
relationships and proportions that we think we know nothing
about.
Some people object to such a view of music, saying that if
you reduce music to mathematics, where does the emotion come
into it? I would say that its never been out of it.
The things by which our emotions can be moved -- the shape
of a flower or a Grecian urn, the way a baby grows, the way
the wind brushes across your face, the way clouds move, their
shapes, the way light dances on the water, or daffodils
flutter in the breeze, the way in which the person you love
moves their head, the way their hair follows that movement,
the curve described by the dying fall of the last chord of a
piece of music -- all these things can be described by the
complex flow of numbers.
Thats not a reduction of it, thats the beauty of it.
Ask Newton.
Ask Einstein.
Ask the poet (Keats) who said that what the imagination
seizes as beauty must be truth.
He might also have said that what the hand seizes as a ball
must be truth, but he didnt, because he was a poet and
preferred loafing about under trees with a bottle of laudanum
and a notebook to playing cricket, but it would have been
equally true.
This jogged a thought at the back of Michaels memory, but he
couldnt immediately place it.
Because that is at the heart of the relationship between on
the one hand our instinctive understanding of shape, form,
movement, light, and on the other hand our emotional responses
to them.
And that is why I believe that there must be a form of
music inherent in nature, in natural objects, in the patterns
of natural processes. A music that would be as deeply
satisfying as any naturally occurring beauty -- and our own
deepest emotions are, after all, a form of naturally occurring
beauty...
Michael stopped reading and let his gaze gradually drift from the
page.
He wondered if he knew what such a music would be and tried to grope
in the dark recesses of his mind for it. Each part of his mind that he
visited seemed as if that music had been playing there only seconds
before and all that was left was the last dying echo of something he
was unable to catch at and hear. He laid the magazine limply aside.
Then he remembered what it was that the mention of Keats had jogged
in his memory.
The slimy things with legs from his dream.
A cold calm came over him as he felt himself coming very close to
something.
Coleridge. That man.
Yea, slimy things did crawl with legs
Upon the slimy sea.
The Rime of the Ancient Mariner.
Dazed, Michael walked over to the bookshelf and pulled down his
Coleridge anthology. He took it back to his seat and with a certain
apprehension he riffled through the pages until he found the opening
lines.
It is an ancient Mariner,
And he stoppeth one of three.
The words were very familiar to him, and yet as he read on through
them they awoke in him strange sensations and fearful memories that he
knew were not his. There reared up inside him a sense of loss and
desolation of terrifying intensity which, while he knew it was not his
own, resonated so perfectly now with his own aggrievements that he
could not but surrender to it absolutely.
And a thousand thousand slimy things
Lived on; and so did I.
The blind rolled up with a sharp rattle and Richard blinked.
A fascinating evening you appear to have spent, said Dirk Gently,
even though the most interesting aspects of it seem to have escaped
your curiosity entirely.
He returned to his seat and lounged back in it pressing his
fingertips together.
Please, he said, do not disappoint me by saying where am I? A
glance will suffice.
Richard looked around him in slow puzzlement and felt as if he were
returning unexpectedly from a long sojourn on another planet where all
was peace and light and music that went on for ever and ever. He felt
so relaxed he could hardly be bothered to breathe.
The wooden toggle on the end of the blind cord knocked a few times
against the window, but otherwise all was now silent. The metronome was
still. He glanced at his watch. It was just after one oclock.
You have been under hypnosis for a little less than an hour, said
Dirk, during which I have learned many interesting things and been
puzzled by some others which I would now like to discuss with you. A
little fresh air will probably help revive you and I suggest a bracing
stroll along the canal. No one will be looking for you there. Janice!
Silence.
A lot of things were still not clear to Richard, and he frowned to
himself. When his immediate memory returned a moment later, it was like
an elephant suddenly barging through the door and he sat up with a
startled jolt.
Janice! shouted Dirk again. Miss Pearce! Damn the girl.
He yanked the telephone receivers out of the wastepaper basket and
replaced them. An old and battered leather briefcase stood by the desk,
and he picked this up, retrieved his hat from the floor and stood up,
screwing his hat absurdly on his head.
Come, he said, sweeping through the door to where Miss Janice
Pearce sat glaring at a pencil, let us go. Let us leave this festering
hellhole. Let us think the unthinkable, let us do the undoable. Let us
prepare to grapple with the ineffable itself, and see if we may not eff
it after all. Now, Janice --
Shut up.
Dirk shrugged, and then picked off her desk the book which earlier
she had mutilated when trying to slam her drawer. He leafed through it,
frowning, and then replaced it with a sigh. Janice returned to what she
had clearly been doing a moment or two earlier, which was writing a
long note with the pencil.
Richard regarded all this in silence, still feeling only semi-
present. He shook his head.
Dirk said to him, Events may seem to you to be a tangled mass of
confusion at the moment. And yet we have some interesting threads to
pull on. For of all the things you have told me that have happened,
only two are actually physically impossible.
Richard spoke at last. Impossible? he said with a frown.
Yes, said Dirk, completely and utterly impossible.
He smiled.
Luckily, he went on, you have come to exactly the right place
with your interesting problem, for there is no such word as
impossible in my dictionary. In fact, he added, brandishing the
abused book, everything between herring and marmalade appears to
be missing. Thank you, Miss Pearce, you have once again rendered me
sterling service, for which I thank you and will, in the event of a
successful outcome to this endeavour, even attempt to pay you. In the
meantime we have much to think on, and I leave the office in your very
capable hands.
The phone rang and Janice answered it.
Good afternoon, she said, Wainwrights Fruit Emporium. Mr
Wainwright is not able to take calls at this time since he is not right
in the head and thinks he is a cucumber. Thank you for calling.
She slammed the phone down. She looked up again to see the door
closing softly behind her ex-employer and his befuddled client.
Impossible? said Richard again, in surprise.
Everything about it, insisted Dirk, completely and utterly --
well, let us say inexplicable. There is no point in using the word
impossible to describe something that has clearly happened. But it
cannot be explained by anything we know.
The briskness of the air along the Grand Union Canal got in among
Richards senses and sharpened them up again. He was restored to his
normal faculties, and though the fact of Gordons death kept jumping at
him all over again every few seconds, he was at least now able to think
more clearly about it. Oddly enough, though, that seemed for the moment
to be the last thing on Dirks mind. Dirk was instead picking on the
most trivial of the nights sequence of bizarre incidents on which to
cross-examine him.
A jogger going one way and a cyclist going the other both shouted at
each other to get out of the way, and narrowly avoided hurling each
other into the murky, slow-moving waters of the canal. They were
watched carefully by a very slow-moving old lady who was dragging an
even slower-moving old dog.
On the other bank large empty warehouses stood startled, every
window shattered and glinting. A burned-out barge lolled brokenly in
the water. Within it a couple of detergent bottles floated on the
brackish water. Over the nearest bridge heavy-goods lorries thundered,
shaking the foundations of the houses, belching petrol fumes into the
air and frightening a mother trying to cross the road with her pram.
Dirk and Richard were walking along from the fringes of South
Hackney, a mile from Dirks office, back towards the heart of
Islington, where Dirk knew the nearest lifebelts were positioned.
But it was only a conjuring trick, for heavens sake, said
Richard. He does them all the time. Its just sleight of hand. Looks
impossible but Im sure if you asked any conjurer hed say its easy
once you know how these things are done. I once saw a man on the street
in New York doing --
I know how these things are done, said Dirk, pulling two lighted
cigarettes and a large glazed fig out of his nose. He tossed the fig up
in to the air, but it somehow failed to land anywhere. Dexterity,
misdirection, suggestion. All things you can learn if you have a little
time to waste. Excuse me, dear lady, he said to the elderly, slow-
moving dog-owner as they passed her. He bent down to the dog and pulled
a long string of brightly coloured flags from its bottom. I think he
will move more comfortably now, he said, tipped his hat courteously to
her and moved on.
These things, you see, he said to a flummoxed Richard, are easy.
Sawing a lady in half is easy. Sawing a lady in half and then joining
her up together again is less easy, but can be done with practice. The
trick you described to me with the two-hundred-year-old vase and the
college salt cellar is -- he paused for emphasis -- completely and
utterly inexplicable.
Well there was probably some detail of it I missed, but...
Oh, without question. But the benefit of questioning somebody under
hypnosis is that it allows the questioner to see the scene in much
greater detail than the subject was even aware of at the time. The girl
Sarah, for instance. Do you recall what she was wearing?
Er, no, said Richard, vaguely, a dress of some kind, I suppose --
Colour? Fabric?
Well, I cant remember, it was dark. She was sitting several places
away from me. I hardly glimpsed her.
She was wearing a dark blue cotton velvet dress gathered to a
dropped waist. It had raglan sleeves gathered to the cuffs, a white
Peter Pan collar and six small pearl buttons down the front -- the
third one down had a small thread hanging off it. She had long dark
hair pulled back with a red butterfly hairgrip.
If youre going to tell me you know all that from looking at a
scuff mark on my shoes, like Sherlock Holmes, then Im afraid I dont
believe you.
No, no, said Dirk, its much simpler than that. You told me
yourself under hypnosis.
Richard shook his head.
Not true, he said, I dont even know what a Peter Pan collar is.
But I do and you described it to me perfectly accurately. As you
did the conjuring trick. And that trick was not possible in the form in
which it occurred. Believe me. I know whereof I speak. There are some
other things I would like to discover about the Professor, like for
instance who wrote the note you discovered on the table and how many
questions George III actually asked, but --
What?
-- but I think I would do better to question the fellow directly.
Except... He frowned deeply in concentration. Except, he added,
that being rather vain in these matters I would prefer to know the
answers before I asked the questions. And I do not. I absolutely do
not. He gazed abstractedly into the distance, and made a rough
calculation of the remaining distance to the nearest lifebelt.
And the second impossible thing, he added, just as Richard was
about to get a word in edgeways, or at least, the next completely
inexplicable thing, is of course the matter of your sofa.
Dirk, exclaimed Richard in exasperation, may I remind you that
Gordon Way is dead, and that I appear to be under suspicion of his
murder! None of these things have the remotest connection with that,
and I --
But I am extremely inclined to believe that they are connected.
Thats absurd!
I believe in the fundamental inter--
Oh, yeah, yeah, said Richard, the fundamental interconnectedness
of all things. Listen, Dirk, I am not a gullible old lady and you wont
be getting any trips to Bermuda out of me. If youre going to help me
then lets stick to the point.
Dirk bridled at this. I believe that all things are fundamentally
interconnected, as anyone who follows the principles of quantum
mechanics to their logical extremes cannot, if they are honest, help
but accept. But I also believe that some things are a great deal more
interconnected than others. And when two apparently impossible events
and a sequence of highly peculiar ones all occur to the same person,
and when that person suddenly becomes the suspect of a highly peculiar
murder, then it seems to me that we should look for the solution in the
connection between these events. You are the connection, and you
yourself have been behaving in a highly peculiar and eccentric way.
I have not, said Richard. Yes, some odd things have happened to
me, but I --
You were last night observed, by me, to climb the outside of a
building and break into the flat of your girlfriend, Susan Way.
It may have been unusual, said Richard, it may not even have been
wise. But it was perfectly logical and rational. I just wanted to undo
something I had done before it caused any damage.
Dirk thought for a moment, and slightly quickened his pace.
And what you did was a perfectly reasonable and normal response to
the problem of the message you had left on the tape -- yes, you told me
all about that in our little session -- its what anyone would have
done?
Richard frowned as if to say that he couldnt see what all the fuss
was about. I dont say anyone would have done it, he said, I
probably have a slightly more logical and literal turn of mind than
many people, which is why I can write computer software. It was a
logical and literal solution to the problem.
Not a little disproportionate, perhaps?
It was very important to me not to disappoint Susan yet again.
So you are absolutely satisfied with your own reasons for doing
what you did?
Yes, insisted Richard angrily.
Do you know, said Dirk, what my old maiden aunt who lived in
Winnipeg used to tell me?
No, said Richard. He quickly took off all his clothes and dived
into the canal. Dirk leapt for the lifebelt, with which they had just
drawn level, yanked it out of its holder and flung it to Richard, who
was floundering in the middle of the canal looking completely lost and
disoriented.
Grab hold of this, shouted Dirk, and Ill haul you in.
Its all right, spluttered Richard, I can swim --
No, you cant, yelled Dirk, now grab it.
Richard tried to strike out for the bank, but quickly gave up in
consternation and grabbed hold of the lifebelt. Dirk pulled on the rope
till Richard reached the edge, and then bent down to give him a hand
out. Richard came up out of the water puffing and spitting, then turned
and sat shivering on the edge with his hands in his lap.
God, its foul in there! he exclaimed and spat again. Its
absolutely disgusting. Yeuchh. Whew. God. Im usually a pretty good
swimmer. Must have got some kind of cramp. Lucky coincidence we were so
close to the lifebelt. Oh thanks. This last he said in response to the
large towel which Dirk handed him.
He rubbed himself down briskly, almost scraping himself with the
towel to get the filthy canal water off him. He stood up and looked
about. Can you find my pants?
Young man, said the old lady with the dog, who had just reached
them. She stood looking at them sternly, and was about to rebuke them
when Dirk interrupted.
A thousand apologies, dear lady, he said, for any offence my
friend may inadvertently have caused you. Please, he added, drawing a
slim bunch of anemones from Richards bottom, accept these with my
compliments.
The lady dashed them out of Dirks hand with her stick, and hurried
off, horror-struck, yanking her dog after her.
That wasnt very nice of you, said Richard, pulling on his clothes
underneath the towel that was now draped strategically around him.
I dont think shes a very nice woman, replied Dirk, shes always
down here, yanking her poor dog around and telling people off. Enjoy
your swim?
Not much, no, said Richard, giving his hair a quick rub. I hadnt
realised how filthy it would be in there. And cold. Here, he said,
handing the towel back to Dirk, thanks. Do you always carry a towel
around in your briefcase?
Do you always go swimming in the afternoons?
No, I usually go in the mornings, to the swimming pool on Highbury
Fields, just to wake myself up, get the brain going. It just occurred
to me I hadnt been this morning.
And, er -- that was why you just dived into the canal?
Well, yes. I just thought that getting a bit of exercise would
probably help me deal with all this.
Not a little disproportionate, then, to strip off and jump into the
canal.
No, he said, it may not have been wise given the state of the
water, but it was perfectly --
You were perfectly satisfied with your own reasons for doing what
you did.
Yes --
And it was nothing to do with my aunt, then?
Richards eyes narrowed suspiciously. What on earth are you talking
about? he said.
Ill tell you, said Dirk. He went and sat on a nearby bench and
opened his case again. He folded the towel away into it and took out
instead a small Sony tape recorder. He beckoned Richard over and then
pushed the Play button. Dirks own voice floated from the tiny speaker
in a lilting sing-song voice. It said, In a minute I will click my
fingers and you will wake and forget all of this except for the
instructions I shall now give you.
In a little while we will go for a walk along the canal, and when
you hear me say the words my old maiden aunt who lived in Winnipeg --
Dirk suddenly grabbed Richards arm to restrain him.
The tape continued, You will take off all your clothes and dive
into the canal. You will find that you are unable to swim, but you will
not panic or sink, you will simply tread water until I throw you the
lifebelt...
Dirk stopped the tape and looked round at Richards face which for
the second time that day was pale with shock.
I would be interested to know exactly what it was that possessed
you to climb into Miss Ways flat last night, said Dirk, and why.
Richard didnt respond -- he was continuing to stare at the tape
recorder in some confusion. Then he said in a shaking voice, There was
a message from Gordon on Susans tape. He phoned from the car. The
tapes in my flat. Dirk, Im suddenly very frightened by all this.
Dirk watched the police officer on duty outside Richards house from
behind a van parked a few yards away. He had been stopping and
questioning everyone who tried to enter the small side alley down which
Richards door was situated, including, Dirk was pleased to note, other
policemen if he didnt immediately recognise them. Another police car
pulled up and Dirk started to move.
A police officer climbed out of the car carrying a saw and walked
towards the doorway. Dirk briskly matched his pace with him, a step or
two behind, striding authoritatively.
Its all right, hes with me, said Dirk, sweeping past at the
exact moment that the one police officer stopped the other.
And he was inside and climbing the stairs.
The officer with the saw followed him in.
Er, excuse me, sir, he called up after Dirk.
Dirk had just reached the point where the sofa obstructed the
stairway. He stopped and twisted round.
Stay here, he said, guard this sofa. Do not let anyone touch it,
and I mean anyone. Understood?
The officer seemed flummoxed for a moment.
Ive had orders to saw it up, he said.
Countermanded, barked Dirk. Watch it like a hawk. I shall want a
full report.
He turned back and climbed up over the thing. A moment or two later
he emerged into a large open area. This was the lower of the two floors
that comprised Richards flat.
Have you searched that? snapped Dirk at another officer who was
sitting at Richards dining table looking through some notes. The
officer looked up in surprise and started to stand up. Dirk was
pointing at the wastepaper basket.
Er, yes --
Search it again. Keep searching it. Whos here?
Er, well --
I havent got all day.
Detective Inspector Mason just left, with --
Good, Im having him pulled off. Ill be upstairs if Im needed,
but I dont want any interruptions unless its very important.
Understood?
Er, who --
I dont see you searching the wastepaper basket.
Er, right, sir. Ill --
I want it deep-searched. You understand?
Er --
Get cracking. Dirk swept on upstairs and into Richards workroom.
The tape was lying exactly where Richard had told him it would be,
on the long desk on which the six Macintoshes sat. Dirk was about to
pocket it when his curiosity was caught by the image of Richards sofa
slowly twisting and turning on the big Macintosh screen, and he sat
down at the keyboard.
He explored the program Richard had written for a short while, but
quickly realised that in its present form it was less than self-
explanatory and he learned little. He managed at last to get the sofa
unstuck and move it back down the stairs, but he realised that he had
had to turn part of the wall off in order to do it. With a grunt of
irritation he gave up.
Another computer he looked at was displaying a steady sine wave.
Around the edges of the screen were the small images of other waveforms
which could be selected and added to the main one or used to modify it
in other ways. He quickly discovered that this enabled you to build up
very complex waveforms from simple ones and he played with this for a
while. He added a simple sine wave to itself, which had the effect of
doubling the height of the peaks and troughs of the wave. Then he slid
one of the waves half a step back with respect to the other, and the
peaks and troughs of one simply cancelled out the peaks and troughs of
the other, leaving a completely flat line. Then he changed the
frequency of one of the sine waves by a small extent.
The result of this was that at some positions along the combined
waveform the two waves reinforced each other, and at others they
cancelled each other out. Adding a third simple wave of yet another
frequency resulted in a combined wave in which it was hard to see any
pattern at all. The line danced up and down seemingly at random,
staying quite low for some periods and then suddenly building into very
large peaks and troughs as all three waves came briefly into phase with
each other.
Dirk assumed that there must be amongst this array of equipment a
means for translating the waveform dancing on the Macintosh screen into
an actual musical tone and hunted among the menus available in the
program. He found one menu item which invited him to transfer the wave
sample into an Emu.
This puzzled him. He glanced around the room in search of a large
flightless bird, but was unable to locate any such thing. He activated
the process anyway, and then traced the cable which led from the back
of the Macintosh, down behind the desk, along the floor, behind a
cupboard, under a rug until it fetched up plugged into the back of a
large grey keyboard called an Emulator II.
This, he assumed, was where his experimental waveform has just
arrived. Tentatively he pushed a key.
The nasty farting noise that surged instantly out of the speakers
was so loud that for a moment he didnt hear the words Svlad Cjelli!
that were barked simultaneously from the doorway.
Richard sat in Dirks office and threw tiny screwed-up balls of
paper at the wastepaper bin which was already full of telephones. He
broke pencils. He played major extracts from an old Ginger Baker solo
on his knees.
In a word, he fretted.
He had been trying to write down on a piece of Dirks notepaper all
that he could remember of the events of the previous evening and, as
far as he could pinpoint them, the times at which each had occurred. He
was astonished at how difficult it was, and how feeble his conscious
memory seemed to be in comparison with his unconscious memory, as Dirk
had demonstrated it to him.
Damn Dirk, he thought. He wanted to talk to Susan.
Dirk had told him he must not do so on any account as there would be
a trace on the phone lines.
Damn Dirk, he said suddenly, and sprang to his feet.
Have you got any ten-pence pieces? he said to the resolutely glum
Janice.
Dirk turned.
Framed in the doorway stood a tall dark figure.
The tall dark figure appeared to be not at all happy with what it
saw, to be rather cross about it, in fact. To be more than cross. It
appeared to be a tall dark figure who could very easily yank the heads
off half a dozen chickens and still be cross at the end of it.
It stepped forward into the light and revealed itself to be Sergeant
Gilks of the Cambridgeshire Constabulary.
Do you know, said Sergeant Gilks of the Cambridgeshire
Constabulary, blinking with suppressed emotion, that when I arrive
back here to discover one police officer guarding a sofa with a saw and
another dismembering an innocent wastepaper basket I have to ask myself
certain questions? And I have to ask them with the disquieting sense
that I am not going to like the answers when I find them.
I then find myself mounting the stairs with a horrible premonition,
Svlad Cjelli, a very horrible premonition indeed. A premonition, I
might add, that I now find horribly justified. I suppose you cant shed
any light on a horse discovered in a bathroom as well? That seemed to
have an air of you about it.
I cannot, said Dirk, as yet. Though it interests me strangely.
I should think it bloody did. It would have interested you
strangely if youd had to get the bloody thing down a bloody winding
staircase at one oclock in the morning as well. What the hell are you
doing here? said Sergeant Gilks, wearily.
I am here, said Dirk, in pursuit of justice.
Well, I wouldnt mix with me then, said Gilks, and I certainly
wouldnt mix with the Met. What do you know of MacDuff and Way?
Of Way? Nothing beyond what is common knowledge. MacDuff I knew at
Cambridge.
Oh, you did, did you? Describe him.
Tall. Tall and absurdly thin. And good-natured. A bit like a
preying mantis that doesnt prey -- a non-preying mantis if you like. A
sort of pleasant genial mantis thats given up preying and taken up
tennis instead.
Hmm, said Gilks gruffly, turning away and looking about the room.
Dirk pocketed the tape.
Sounds like the same one, said Gilks.
And of course, said Dirk, completely incapable of murder.
Thats for us to decide.
And of course a jury.
Tchah! Juries!
Though, of course, it will not come to that, since the facts will
speak for themselves long before it comes to a court of law for my
client.
Your bleeding client, eh? All right, Cjelli, where is he?
I havent the faintest idea.
Ill bet youve got a billing address.
Dirk shrugged.
Look, Cjelli, this is a perfectly normal, harmless murder enquiry,
and I dont want you mucking it up. So consider yourself warned off as
of now. If I see a single piece of evidence being levitated Ill hit
you so hard you wont know if its tomorrow or Thursday. Now get out,
and give me that tape on the way. He held out his hand.
Dirk blinked, genuinely surprised. What tape?
Gilks sighed. Youre a clever man, Cjelli, I grant you that, he
said, but you make the same mistake a lot of clever people do of
thinking everyone else is stupid. If I turn away its for a reason, and
the reason was to see what you picked up. I didnt need to see you pick
it up, I just had to see what was missing afterwards. We are trained
you know. We used to get half an hour Observation Training on Tuesday
afternoons. Just as a break after four hours solid of Senseless
Brutality.
Dirk hid his anger with himself behind a light smile. He fished in
the pocket of his leather overcoat and handed over the tape.
Play it, said Gilks, lets see what you didnt want us to hear.
It wasnt that I didnt want you to hear it, said Dirk, with a
shrug. I just wanted to hear it first. He went over to the shelf
which carried Richards hi-fi equipment and slipped the tape into the
cassette player.
So do you want to give me a little introduction?
Its a tape, said Dirk, from Susan Ways telephone answering
machine. Way apparently had this habit of leaving long...
Yeah, I know about that. And his secretary goes round picking up
his prattlings in the morning, poor devil.
Well, I believe there may be a message on the tape from Gordon
Ways car last night.
I see. OK. Play it.
With a gracious bow Dirk pressed the Play button.
Oh, Susan, hi, its Gordon, said the tape once again. Just on my
way to the cottage --
Cottage! exclaimed Gilks, satirically.
Its, er, Thursday night, and its, er... 8.47. Bit misty on the
roads. Listen, I have those people from the States coming over this
weekend...
Gilks raised his eyebrows, looked at his watch, and made a note on
his pad.
Both Dirk and the police sergeant experienced a chill as the dead
mans voice filled the room.
-- its a wonder I dont end up dead in the ditch, that would be
something wouldnt it, leaving your famous last words on somebodys
answering machine, theres no reason --
They listened in a tense silence as the tape played on through the
entire message.
Thats the problem with crunch-heads -- they have one great idea
that actually works and then they expect you to carry on funding them
for years while they sit and calculate the topographies of their
navels. Im sorry, Im going to have to stop and close the boot
properly. Wont be a moment.
Next came the muffled bump of the telephone receiver being dropped
on the passenger seat, and a few seconds later the sound of the car
door being opened. In the meantime, the music from the cars sound
system could be heard burbling away in the background.
A few seconds later still came the distant, muffled, but
unmistakable double blam of a shotgun.
Stop the tape, said Gilks sharply and glanced at his watch. Three
minutes and twenty-five seconds since he said it was 8.47. He glanced
up at Dirk again. Stay here. Dont move. Dont touch anything. Ive
made a note of the position of every particle of air in this room, so I
shall know if youve been breathing.
He turned smartly and left. Dirk heard him saying as he went down
the stairs, Tuckett, get on to WayForwards office, get the details of
Ways carphone, what number, which network... The voice faded away
downstairs.
Quickly Dirk twisted down the volume control on the hi-fi, and
resumed playing the tape.
The music continued for a while. Dirk drummed his fingers in
frustration. Still the music continued.
He flicked the Fast Forward button for just a moment. Still music.
It occurred to him that he was looking for something, but that he
didnt know what. That thought stopped him in his tracks.
He was very definitely looking for something.
He very definitely didnt know what.
The realisation that he didnt know exactly why he was doing what he
was doing suddenly chilled and electrified him. He turned slowly like a
fridge door opening.
There was no one there, at least no one that he could see. But he
knew the chill prickling through his skin and detested it above all
things.
He said in a low savage whisper, If anyone can hear me, hear this.
My mind is my centre and everything that happens there is my
responsibility. Other people may believe what it pleases them to
believe, but I will do nothing without I know the reason why and know
it clearly. If you want something then let me know, but do not you dare
touch my mind.
He was trembling with a deep and old rage. The chill dropped slowly
and almost pathetically from him and seemed to move off into the room.
He tried to follow it with his senses, but was instantly distracted by
a sudden voice that seemed to come at him on the edge of his hearing,
on a distant howl of wind.
It was a hollow, terrified, bewildered voice, no more than an
insubstantial whisper, but it was there, audible, on the telephone-
answering machine tape.
It said, Susan! Susan, help me! Help me for Gods sake. Susan, Im
dead --
Dirk whirled round and stopped the tape.
Im sorry, he said under his breath, but I have the welfare of my
client to consider.
He wound the tape back a very short distance, to just before where
the voice began, twisted the Record Level knob to zero and pressed
Record. He left the tape to run, wiping off the voice and anything that
might follow it. If the tape was going to establish the time of Gordon
Ways death, then Dirk didnt want any embarrassing examples of Gordon
speaking to turn up on the tape after that point, even if it was only
to confirm that he was, in fact, dead.
There seemed to be a great eruption of emotion in the air near to
him. A wave of something surged through the room, causing the furniture
to flutter in its wake. Dirk watched where it seemed to go, towards a
shelf near the door on which, he suddenly realised, stood Richards own
telephone-answering machine. The machine started to jiggle fitfully
where it sat, but then sat still as Dirk approached it. Dirk reached
out slowly and calmly and pushed the button which set the machine to
Answer.
The disturbance in the air then passed back through the room to
Richards long desk where two old-fashioned rotary-dial telephones
nestled among the piles of paper and micro floppy disks. Dirk guessed
what would happen, but elected to watch rather than to intervene.
One of the telephone receivers toppled off its cradle. Dirk could
hear the dialling tone. Then, slowly and with obvious difficulty, the
dial began to turn. It moved unevenly round, further round, slower and
slower, and then suddenly slipped back.
There was a moments pause. Then the receiver rests went down and up
again to get a new dialling tone. The dial began to turn again, but
creaking even more fitfully than the last time.
Again it slipped back.
There was a longer pause this time, and then the entire process was
repeated once more.
When the dial slipped back a third time there was a sudden explosion
of fury -- the whole phone leapt into the air and hurtled across the
room. The receiver cord wrapped itself round an Anglepoise lamp on the
way and brought it crashing down in a tangle of cables, coffee cups and
floppy disks. A pile of books erupted off the desk and on to the floor.
The figure of Sergeant Gilks stood stony-faced in the doorway.
Im going to come in again, he said, and when I do, I dont want
to see anything of that kind going on whatsoever. Is that understood?
He turned and disappeared.
Dirk leapt for the cassette player and hit the Rewind button. Then
he turned and hissed at the empty air, I dont know who you are, but I
can guess. If you want my help, dont you ever embarrass me like that
again!
A few moments later, Gilks walked in again. Ah, there you are, he
said.
He surveyed the wreckage with an even gaze. Ill pretend I cant
see any of this, so that I wont have to ask any questions the answers
to which would, I know, only irritate me.
Dirk glowered.
In the moment or two of silence that followed, a slight ticking
whirr could be heard which caused the sergeant to look sharply at the
cassette player.
Whats that tape doing?
Rewinding.
Give it to me.
The tape reached the beginning and stopped as Dirk reached it. He
took it out and handed it to Gilks.
Irritatingly, this seems to put your client completely in the
clear, said the sergeant. Cellnet have confirmed that the last call
made from the car was at 8.46 pm last night, at which point your client
was lightly dozing in front of several hundred witnesses. I say
witnesses, in fact they were mostly students, but we will probably be
forced to assume that they cant all be lying.
Good, said Dirk, well, Im glad thats all cleared up.
We never thought he had actually done it, of course. Simply didnt
fit. But you know us -- we like to get results. Tell him we still want
to ask him some questions, though.
I shall be sure to mention it if I happen to run into him.
You just do that little thing.
Well, I shant detain you any longer, Sergeant, said Dirk, airily
waving at the door.
No, but I shall bloody detain you if youre not out of here in
thirty seconds, Cjelli. I dont know what youre up to, but if I can
possibly avoid finding out I shall sleep easier in my office. Out.
Then I shall bid you good day, Sergeant. I wont say its been a
pleasure because it hasnt.
Dirk swept out of the room, and made his way out of the flat, noting
with sorrow that where there had been a large chesterfield sofa wedged
magnificently in the staircase, there was now just a small, sad pile of
sawdust.
With a jerk Michael Wenton-Weakes looked up from his book.
His mind suddenly was alive with purpose. Thoughts, images,
memories, intentions, all crowded in upon him, and the more they seemed
to contradict each other the more they seemed to fit together, to pair
and settle.
The match at last was perfect, the teeth of one slowly aligned with
the teeth of another.
A pull and they were zipped.
Though the waiting had seemed an eternity of eternities when it was
filled with failure, with fading waves of weakness, with feeble groping
and lonely impotence, the match once made cancelled it all. Would
cancel it all. Would undo what had been so disastrously done.
Who thought that? It did not matter, the match was made, the match
was perfect.
Michael gazed out of the window across the well-manicured Chelsea
street and did not care whether what he saw were slimy things with legs
or whether they were all Mr A. K. Ross. What mattered was what they had
stolen and what they would be compelled to return. Ross now lay in the
past. What he was now concerned with lay still further in it.
His large soft cowlike eyes returned to the last few lines of Kubla
Khan, which he had just been reading. The match was made, the zip was
pulled.
He closed the book and put it in his pocket.
His path back now was clear. He knew what he must do. It only
remained to do a little shopping and then do it.
You? Wanted for murder? Richard what are you talking about?
The telephone wavered in Richards hand. He was holding it about
half an inch away from his ear anyway because it seemed that somebody
had dipped the earpiece in some chow mein recently, but that wasnt so
bad. This was a public telephone so it was clearly an oversight that it
was working at all. But Richard was beginning to feel as if the whole
world had shifted about half an inch away from him, like someone in a
deodorant commercial.
Gordon, said Richard, hesitantly, Gordons been murdered --
hasnt he?
Susan paused before she answered.
Yes, Richard, she said in a distressed voice, but no one thinks
you did it. They want to question you of course, but --
So there are no police with you now?
No, Richard, insisted Susan, Look, why dont you come here?
And theyre not out searching for me?
No! Where on earth did you get the idea that you were wanted for --
that they thought you had done it?
Er -- well, this friend of mine told me.
Who?
Well, his name is Dirk Gently.
Youve never mentioned him. Who is he? Did he say anything else?
He hypnotised me and, er, made me jump in the canal, and, er, well,
that was it really --
There was a terribly long pause at the other end.
Richard, said Susan at last with the sort of calmness that comes
over people when they realise that however bad things may seem to be,
there is absolutely no reason why they shouldnt simply get worse and
worse, come over here. I was going to say I need to see you, but I
think you need to see me.
I should probably go to the police.
Go to the police later. Richard, please. A few hours wont make any
difference. I... I can hardly even think. Richard, its so awful. It
would just help if you were here. Where are you?
OK, said Richard, Ill be with you in about twenty minutes.
Shall I leave the window open or would you like to try the door?
she said with a sniff.
No, please, said Dirk, restraining Miss Pearces hand from opening
a letter from the Inland Revenue, there are wilder skies than these.
He had emerged from a spell of tense brooding in his darkened office
and there was an air of excited concentration about him. It had taken
his actual signature on an actual salary cheque to persuade Miss Pearce
to forgive him for the latest unwarrantable extravagance with which he
had returned to the office and he felt that just to sit there blatantly
opening letters from the taxman was to take his magnanimous gesture in
entirely the wrong spirit.
She put the envelope aside.
Come! he said. I have something I wish you to see. I shall
observe your reactions with the very greatest of interest.
He bustled back into his own office and sat at his desk.
She followed him in patiently and sat opposite, pointedly ignoring
the new unwarrantable extravagance sitting on the desk.
The flashy brass plaque for the door had stirred her up pretty badly
but the silly phone with big red push buttons she regarded as being
beneath contempt. And she certainly wasnt going to do anything rash
like smile until she knew for certain that the cheque wouldnt bounce.
The last time he signed a cheque for her he cancelled it before the end
of the day, to prevent it, as he explained, falling into the wrong
hands. The wrong hands presumably, being those of her bank manager.
He thrust a piece of paper across the desk.
She picked it up and looked at it. Then she turned it round and
looked at it again. She looked at the other side and then she put it
down.
Well? demanded Dirk. What do you make of it? Tell me!
Miss Pearce sighed.
Its a lot of meaningless squiggles done in blue felt tip on a
piece of typing paper, she said. It looks like you did them
yourself.
No! barked Dirk, Well, yes, he admitted, but only because I
believe that it is the answer to the problem!
What problem?
The problem, insisted Dirk, slapping the table, of the conjuring
trick! I told you!
Yes, Mr Gently, several times. I think it was just a conjuring
trick. You see them on the telly.
With this difference -- that this one was completely impossible!
Couldnt have been impossible or he wouldnt have done it. Stands
to reason.
Exactly! said Dirk excitedly. Exactly! Miss Pearce, you are a
lady of rare perception and insight.
Thank you, sir, can I go now?
Wait! I havent finished yet! Not by a long way, not by a
bucketful! You have demonstrated to me the depth of your perception and
insight, allow me to demonstrate mine!
Miss Pearce slumped patiently in her seat.
I think, said Dirk, you will be impressed. Consider this. An
intractable problem. In trying to find the solution to it I was going
round and round in little circles in my mind, over and over the same
maddening things. Clearly I wasnt going to be able to think of
anything else until I had the answer, but equally clearly I would have
to think of something else if I was ever going to get the answer. How
to break this circle? Ask me how.
How? said Miss Pearce obediently, but without enthusiasm.
By writing down what the answer is! exclaimed Dirk. And here it
is! He slapped the piece of paper triumphantly and sat back with a
satisfied smile.
Miss Pearce looked at it dumbly.
With the result, continued Dirk, that I am now able to turn my
mind to fresh and intriguing problems, like, for instance...
He took the piece of paper, covered with its aimless squiggles and
doodlings, and held it up to her.
What language, he said in a low, dark voice, is this written in?
Miss Pearce continued to look at it dumbly.
Dirk flung the piece of paper down, put his feet up on the table,
and threw his head back with his hands behind it.
You see what I have done? he asked the ceiling, which seemed to
flinch slightly at being yanked so suddenly into the conversation. I
have transformed the problem from an intractably difficult and possibly
quite insoluble conundrum into a mere linguistic puzzle. Albeit, he
muttered, after a long moment of silent pondering, an intractably
difficult and possibly insoluble one.
He swung back to gaze intently at Janice Pearce.
Go on, he urged, say that its insane -- but it might just work!
Janice Pearce cleared her throat.
Its insane, she said, trust me.
Dirk turned away and sagged sideways off his chair, much as the
sitter for The Thinker probably did when Rodin went off to be excused.
He suddenly looked profoundly tired and depressed.
I know, he said in a low, dispirited voice, that there is
something profoundly wrong somewhere. And I know that I must go to
Cambridge to put it right. But I would feel less fearful if I knew what
it was...
Can I get on now, please, then? said Miss Pearce.
Dirk looked up at her glumly.
Yes, he said with a sigh, but just -- just tell me -- he flicked
at the piece of paper with his fingertips -- what do you think of
this, then?
Well, I think its childish, said Janice Pearce, frankly.
But -- but -- but! said Dirk thumping the table in frustration.
Dont you understand that we need to be childish in order to
understand? Only a child sees things with perfect clarity, because it
hasnt developed all those filters which prevent us from seeing things
that we dont expect to see?
Then why dont you go and ask one?
Thank you, Miss Pearce, said Dirk reaching for his hat, once
again you have rendered me an inestimable service for which I am
profoundly grateful.
He swept out.
The weather began to bleaken as Richard made his way to Susans
flat. The sky which had started out with such verve and spirit in the
morning was beginning to lose its concentration and slip back into its
normal English condition, that of a damp and rancid dish cloth. Richard
took a taxi, which got him there in a few minutes.
They should all be deported, said the taxi driver as they drew to
a halt.
Er, who should? said Richard, who realised he hadnt been
listening to a word the driver said.
Er --said the driver, who suddenly realised he hadnt been
listening either, er, the whole lot of them. Get rid of the whole
bloody lot, thats what I say. And their bloody newts, he added for
good measure.
Expect youre right, said Richard, and hurried into the house.
Arriving at the front door of her flat he could hear from within the
sounds of Susans cello playing a slow, stately melody. He was glad of
that, that she was playing. She had an amazing emotional self
sufficiency and control provided she could play her cello. He had
noticed an odd and extraordinary thing about her relationship with the
music she played. If ever she was feeling emotional or upset she could
sit and play some music with utter concentration and emerge seeming
fresh and calm.
The next time she played the same music, however, it would all burst
from her and she would go completely to pieces.
He let himself in as quietly as possible so as not to disturb her
concentration.
He tiptoed past the small room she practised in, but the door was
open so he paused and looked at her, with the slightest of signals that
she shouldnt stop. She was looking pale and drawn but gave him a
flicker of a smile and continued bowing with a sudden intensity.
With an impeccable timing of which it is very rarely capable the sun
chose that moment to burst briefly through the gathering rainclouds,
and as she played her cello a stormy light played on her and on the
deep old brown of the wood of the instrument. Richard stood transfixed.
The turmoil of the day stood still for a moment and kept a respectful
distance.
He didnt know the music, but it sounded like Mozart and he
remembered her saying she had some Mozart to learn. He walked quietly
on and sat down to wait and listen.
Eventually she finished the piece, and there was about a minute of
silence before she came through. She blinked and smiled and gave him a
long, trembling hug, then released herself and put the phone back on
the hook. It usually got taken off when she was practising.
Sorry, she said, I didnt want to stop. She briskly brushed away
a tear as if it was a slight irritation. How are you Richard?
He shrugged and gave her a bewildered look. That seemed about to
cover it.
And Im going to have to carry on, Im afraid, said Susan with a
sigh Im sorry. Ive just been... She shook her head. Who would do
it?
I dont know. Some madman. Im not sure that it matters who.
No, she said. Look, er, have you had any lunch?
No. Susan, you keep playing and Ill see whats in the fridge. We
can talk about it all over some lunch.
Susan nodded.
All right, she said, except...
Yes?
Well, just for the moment I dont really want to talk about Gordon.
Just till it sinks in. I feel sort of caught out. It would be easier if
Id been closer to him, but I wasnt and Im sort of embarrassed by not
having a reaction ready. Talking about it would be all right except
that you have to use the past tense and thats whats...
She clung to him for a moment and then quieted herself with a sigh.
Theres not much in the fridge at the moment, she said, some
yoghurt, I think, and a jar of roll-mop herrings you could open. Im
sure youll be able to muck it up if you try, but its actually quite
straightforward. The main trick is not to throw them all over the floor
or get jam on them.
She gave him a hug, a kiss and a glum smile and then retreated back
to her music room.
The phone rang and Richard answered it.
Hello? he said. There was nothing, just a faint sort of windy
noise on the line.
Hello? he said again, waited, shrugged and put the phone back
down.
Was there anybody there? called Susan.
No, no one, said Richard.
Thats happened a couple of times, said Susan. I think its a
sort of minimalist heavy breather. She resumed playing.
Richard went into the kitchen and opened the fridge. He was less of
a health-conscious eater than Susan and was therefore less than
thrilled by what he found there, but he managed to put some roll-mop
herrings, some yoghurt, some rice and some oranges on a tray without
difficulty and tried not to think that a couple of fat hamburgers and
fries would round it off nicely.
He found a bottle of white wine and carried it all through to the
small dining table.
After a minute or two Susan joined him there. She was at her most
calm and composed, and after a few mouthsful she asked him about the
canal.
Richard shook his head in bemusement and tried to explain about it,
and about Dirk.
What did you say his name was? said Susan with a frown when he had
come, rather lamely, to a conclusion.
Its, er, Dirk Gently, said Richard, in a way.
In a way?
Er, yes, said Richard with a difficult sigh. He reflected that
just about anything you could say about Dirk was subject to these kind
of vague and shifty qualifications. There was even, on his letter
heading, a string of vague and shifty-looking qualifications after his
name. He pulled out the piece of paper on which he had vainly been
trying to organise his thoughts earlier in the day.
I... he started, but the doorbell rang. They looked at each other.
If its the police, said Richard, Id better see them. Lets get
it over with.
Susan pushed back her chair, went to the front door and picked up
the Entryphone.
Hello? she said.
Who? she said after a moment. She frowned as she listened then
swung round and frowned at Richard.
Youd better come up, she said in a less than friendly tone of
voice and then pressed the button. She came back and sat down.
Your friend, she said evenly, Mr Gently.
The Electric Monks day was going tremendously well and he broke
into an excited gallop. That is to say that, excitedly, he spurred his
horse to a gallop and, unexcitedly, his horse broke into it.
This world, the Monk thought, was a good one. He loved it. He didnt
know whose it was or where it had come from, but it was certainly a
deeply fulfilling place for someone with his unique and extraordinary
gifts.
He was appreciated. All day he had gone up to people, fallen into
conversation with them, listened to their troubles, and then quietly
uttered those three magic words, I believe you.
The effect had invariably been electrifying. It wasnt that people
on this world didnt occasionally say it to each other, but they
rarely, it seemed, managed to achieve that deep timbre of sincerity
which the Monk had been so superbly programmed to reproduce.
On his own world, after all, he was taken for granted. People would
just expect him to get on and believe things for them without bothering
them. Someone would come to the door with some great new idea or
proposal or even a new religion, and the answer would be Oh, go and
tell that to the Monk. And the Monk would sit and listen and patiently
believe it all, but no one would take any further interest.
Only one problem seemed to arise on this otherwise excellent world.
Often, after he had uttered the magic words, the subject would rapidly
change to that of money, and the Monk of course didnt have any -- a
shortcoming that had quickly blighted a number of otherwise very
promising encounters.
Perhaps he should acquire some -- but where?
He reined his horse in for a moment, and the horse jerked gratefully
to a halt and started in on the grass on the roadside verge. The horse
had no idea what all this galloping up and down was in aid of, and
didnt care. All it did care about was that it was being made to gallop
up and down past a seemingly perpetual roadside buffet. It made the
best of its moment while it had it.
The Monk peered keenly up and down the road. It seemed vaguely
familiar. He trotted a little further up it for another look. The horse
resumed its meal a few yards further along.
Yes. The Monk had been here last night.
He remembered it clearly, well, sort of clearly. He believed that he
remembered it clearly, and that, after all, was the main thing. Here
was where he had walked to in a more than usually confused state of
mind, and just around the very next corner, if he was not very much
mistaken, again, lay the small roadside establishment at which he had
jumped into the back of that nice mans car -- the nice man who had
subsequently reacted so oddly to being shot at.
Perhaps they would have some money there and would let him have it.
He wondered. Well, he would find out. He yanked the horse from its
feast once again and galloped towards it.
As he approached the petrol station he noticed a car parked there at
an arrogant angle. The angle made it quite clear that the car was not
there for anything so mundane as to have petrol put into it, and was
much too important to park itself neatly out of the way. Any other car
that arrived for petrol would just have to manoeuvre around it as best
it could. The car was white with stripes and badges and important
looking lights.
Arriving at the forecourt the Monk dismounted and tethered his horse
to a pump. He walked towards the small shop building and saw that
inside it there was a man with his back to him wearing a dark blue
uniform and a peaked cap. The man was dancing up and down and twisting
his fingers in his ears, and this was clearly making a deep impression
on the man behind the till.
The Monk watched in transfixed awe. The man, he believed with an
instant effortlessness which would have impressed even a Scientologist,
must be a God of some kind to arouse such fervour. He waited with bated
breath to worship him. In a moment the man turned around and walked out
of the shop, saw the Monk and stopped dead.
The Monk realised that the God must be waiting for him to make an
act of worship, so he reverently danced up and down twisting his
fingers in his ears.
His God stared at him for a moment, caught hold of him, twisted him
round, slammed him forward spreadeagled over the car and frisked him
for weapons.
Dirk burst into the flat like a small podgy tornado.
Miss Way, he said, grasping her slightly unwilling hand and
doffing his absurd hat, it is the most inexpressible pleasure to meet
you, but also the matter of the deepest regret that the occasion of our
meeting should be one of such great sorrow and one which bids me extend
to you my most profound sympathy and commiseration. I ask you to
believe me that I would not intrude upon your private grief for all the
world if it were not on a matter of the gravest moment and magnitude.
Richard -- I have solved the problem of the conjuring trick and its
extraordinary.
He swept through the room and deposited himself on a spare chair at
the small dining table, on which he put his hat.
You will have to excuse us, Dirk -- said Richard, coldly.
No, I am afraid you will have to excuse me, returned Dirk. The
puzzle is solved, and the solution is so astounding that it took a
seven-year-old child on the street to give it to me. But it is
undoubtedly the correct one, absolutely undoubtedly. What, then, is
the solution? you ask me, or rather would ask me if you could get a
word in edgeways, which you cant, so I will save you the bother and
ask the question for you, and answer it as well by saying that I will
not tell you, because you wont believe me. I shall instead show you,
this very afternoon.
Rest assured, however, that it explains everything. It explains the
trick. It explains the note you found -- that should have made it
perfectly clear to me but I was a fool. And it explains what the
missing third question was, or rather -- and this is the significant
point -- it explains what the missing first question was!
What missing question? exclaimed Richard, confused by the sudden
pause, and leaping in with the first phrase he could grab.
Dirk blinked as if at an idiot. The missing question that George
III asked, of course, he said.
Asked who?
Well, the Professor, said Dirk impatiently. Dont you listen to
anything you say? The whole thing was obvious! he exclaimed, thumping
the table, So obvious that the only thing which prevented me from
seeing the solution was the trifling fact that it was completely
impossible. Sherlock Holmes observed that once you have eliminated the
impossible, then whatever remains, however improbable, must be the
answer. I, however, do not like to eliminate the impossible. Now. Let
us go.
No.
What? Dirk glanced up at Susan, from whom this unexpected -- or at
least, unexpected to him -- opposition had come.
Mr Gently, said Susan in a voice you could notch a stick with,
why did you deliberately mislead Richard into thinking that he was
wanted by the police?
Dirk frowned.
But he was wanted by the police, he said, and still is.
Yes, but just to answer questions! Not because hes a suspected
murderer.
Dirk looked down.
Miss Way, he said, the police are interested in knowing who
murdered your brother. I, with the very greatest respect, am not. It
may, I concede, turn out to have a bearing on the case, but it may just
as likely turn out to be a casual madman. I wanted to know, still need
desperately to know, /why Richard climbed into this flat last night/.
I told you, protested Richard.
What you told me is immaterial -- it only reveals the crucial fact
that you do not know the reason yourself! For heavens sake I thought I
had demonstrated that to you clearly enough at the canal!
Richard simmered.
It was perfectly clear to me watching you, pursued Dirk, that you
had very little idea what you were doing, and had absolutely no concern
about the physical danger you were in. At first I thought, watching,
that it was just a brainless thug out on his first and quite possibly
last burgle. But then the figure looked back and I realised it was you
-- and I know you to be an intelligent, rational, and moderate man.
Richard MacDuff? Risking his neck carelessly climbing up drainpipes at
night? It seemed to me that you would only behave in such a reckless
and extreme way if you were desperately worried about something of
terrible importance. Is that not true, Miss Way?
He looked sharply up at Susan, who slowly sat down, looking at him
with an alarm in her eyes which said that he had struck home.
And yet, when you came to see me this morning you seemed perfectly
calm and collected. You argued with me perfectly rationally when I
talked a lot of nonsense about Schrödingers Cat. This was not the
behaviour of someone who had the previous night been driven to extremes
by some desperate purpose. I confess that it was at that moment that I
stooped to, well, exaggerating your predicament, simply in order to
keep hold of you.
You didnt. I left.
With certain ideas in your head. I knew you would be back. I
apologise most humbly for having misled you, er, somewhat, but I knew
that what I had to find out lay far beyond what the police would
concern themselves with. And it was this -- if you were not quite
yourself when you climbed the wall last night... then /who were you, --
and why/?
Richard shivered. A silence lengthened.
What has it got to do with conjuring tricks? he said at last.
That is what we must go to Cambridge to find out.
But what makes you so sure -- ?
It disturbs me, said Dirk, and a dark and heavy look came into his
face.
For one so garrulous he seemed suddenly oddly reluctant to speak.
He continued, It disturbs me very greatly when I find that I know
things and do not know why I know them. Maybe it is the same
instinctive processing of data that allows you to catch a ball almost
before youve seen it. Maybe it is the deeper and less explicable
instinct that tells you when someone is watching you. It is a very
great offence to my intellect that the very things that I despise other
people for being credulous of actually occur to me. You will remember
the... unhappiness surrounding certain exam questions.
He seemed suddenly distressed and haggard. He had to dig deep inside
himself to continue speaking.
He said, The ability to put two and two together and come up
instantly with four is one thing. The ability to put the square root of
five hundred and thirty-nine point seven together with the cosine of
twenty-six point four three two and come up with... with whatever the
answer to that is, is quite another. And I... well, let me give you an
example.
He leant forward intently. Last night I saw you climbing into this
flat. I /knew/ that something was wrong. Today I got you to tell me
every last detail you knew about what happened last night, and already,
as a result, using my intellect alone, I have uncovered possibly the
greatest secret lying hidden on this planet. I swear to you that this
is true and that I can prove it. Now you must believe me when I tell
you that I know, I know that there is something terribly, desperately,
appallingly wrong and that we must find it. Will you go with me now, to
Cambridge?
Richard nodded dumbly.
Good, said Dirk. What is this? he added, pointing at Richards
plate.
A pickled herring. Do you want one?
Thank you, no, said Dirk, rising and buckling his coat. There
is, he added as he headed towards the door, steering Richard with him,
no such word as herring in my dictionary. Good afternoon, Miss Way,
wish us God speed.
There was a rumble of thunder, and the onset of that interminable
tight drizzle from the north-east by which so many of the worlds most
momentous events seem to be accompanied.
Dirk turned up the collar of his leather overcoat against the
weather, but nothing could dampen his demonic exuberance as he and
Richard approached the great twelfth-century gates.
St Cedds College, Cambridge, he exclaimed, looking at them for
the first time in eight years. Founded in the year something or other,
by someone I forget in honour of someone whose name for the moment
escapes me.
St Cedd? suggested Richard.
Do you know, I think it very probably was? One of the duller
Northumbrian saints. His brother Chad was even duller. Has a cathedral
in Birmingham if that gives you some idea. Ah, Bill, how good to see
you again, he added, accosting the porter who was just walking into
the college as well. The porter looked round.
Mr Cjelli, nice to see you back, sir. Sorry you had a spot of
bother, hope thats all behind you now.
Indeed, Bill, it is. You find me thriving. And Mrs Roberts? How is
she? Foot still troubling her?
Not since she had it off, thanks for asking, sir. Between you and
me, sir, I wouldve been just as happy to have had her amputated and
kept the foot. I had a little spot reserved on the mantelpiece, but
there we are, we have to take things as we find them.
Mr MacDuff, sir, he added, nodding curtly at Richard. Oh that
horse you mentioned, sir, when you were here last night, Im afraid we
had to have it removed. It was bothering Professor Chronotis.
I was only curious, er, Bill, said Richard. I hope it didnt
disturb you.
Nothing ever disturbs me, sir, so long as it isnt wearing a dress.
Cant abide it when the young fellers wear dresses, sir.
If the horse bothers you again, Bill, interrupted Dirk, patting
him on the shoulder, send it up to me and I shall speak with it. Now,
you mention the good Professor Chronotis. Is he in at the moment? Weve
come on an errand.
Far as I know, sir. Cant check for you because his phones out of
order. Suggest you go and look yourself. Far left corner of Second
Court.
I know it well, Bill, thank you, and my best to what remains of Mrs
Roberts.
They swept on through into First Court, or at least Dirk swept, and
Richard walked in his normal heron-like gait, wrinkling up his face
against the measly drizzle.
Dirk had obviously mistaken himself for a tour guide.
St Cedds, he pronounced, the college of Coleridge, and the
college of Sir Isaac Newton, renowned inventor of the milled-edge coin
and the catflap!
The what? said Richard.
The catflap! A device of the utmost cunning, perspicuity and
invention. It is a door within a door, you see, a...
Yes, said Richard, there was also the small matter of gravity.
Gravity, said Dirk with a slightly dismissive shrug, yes, there
was that as well, I suppose. Though that, of course, was merely a
discovery. It was there to be discovered.
He took a penny out of his pocket and tossed it casually on to the
pebbles that ran alongside the paved pathway.
You see? he said, They even keep it on at weekends. Someone was
bound to notice sooner or later. But the catflap... ah, there is a very
different matter. Invention, pure creative invention.
I would have thought it was quite obvious. Anyone could have
thought of it.
Ah, said Dirk, it is a rare mind indeed that can render the
hitherto non-existent blindingly obvious. The cry I could have thought
of that is a very popular and misleading one, for the fact is that
they didnt, and a very significant and revealing fact it is too. This
if I am not mistaken is the staircase we seek. Shall we ascend?
Without waiting for an answer he plunged on up the stairs. Richard,
following uncertainly, found him already knocking on the inner door.
The outer one stood open.
Come in! called a voice from within. Dirk pushed the door open,
and they were just in time to see the back of Regs white head as he
disappeared into the kitchen.
Just making some tea, he called out. Like some? Sit down, sit
down, whoever you are.
That would be most kind, returned Dirk. We are two. Dirk sat,
and Richard followed his lead.
Indian or China? called Reg.
Indian, please.
There was a rattle of cups and saucers.
Richard looked around the room. It seemed suddenly humdrum. The fire
was burning quietly away to itself, but the light was that of the grey
afternoon. Though everything about it was the same, the old sofa, the
table burdened with books, there seemed nothing to connect it with the
hectic strangeness of the previous night. The room seemed to sit there
with raised eyebrows, innocently saying Yes?
Milk? called out Reg from the kitchen.
Please, replied Dirk. He gave Richard a smile which seemed to him
to be half-mad with suppressed excitement.
One lump or two? called Reg again.
One, please, said Dirk, ...and two spoons of sugar if you would.
There was a suspension of activity in the kitchen. A moment or two
passed and Reg stuck his head round the door.
Svlad Cjelli! he exclaimed. Good heavens! Well, that was quick
work, young MacDuff, well done. My dear fellow, how very excellent to
see you, how good of you to come.
He wiped his hands on a tea towel he was carrying and hurried over
to shake hands.
My dear Svlad.
Dirk, please, if you would, said Dirk, grasping his hand warmly,
I prefer it. It has more of a sort of Scottish dagger feel to it, I
think. Dirk Gently is the name under which I now trade. There are
certain events in the past, Im afraid, from which I would wish to
disassociate myself.
Absolutely, I know how you feel. Most of the fourteenth century,
for instance, was pretty grim, agreed Reg earnestly.
Dirk was about to correct the misapprehension, but thought that it
might be somewhat of a long trek and left it.
So how have you been, then, my dear Professor? he said instead,
decorously placing his hat and scarf upon the arm of the sofa.
Well, said Reg, its been an interesting time recently, or
rather, a dull time. But dull for interesting reasons. Now, sit down
again, warm yourselves by the fire, and I will get the tea and
endeavour to explain. He bustled out again, humming busily, and left
them to settle themselves in front of the fire.
Richard leant over to Dirk. I had no idea you knew him so well, he
said with a nod in the direction of the kitchen.
I dont, said Dirk instantly. We met once by chance at some
dinner, but there was an immediate sympathy and rapport.
So how come you never met again?
He studiously avoided me, of course. Close rapports with people are
dangerous if you have a secret to hide. And as secrets go, I fancy that
this is somewhat of a biggie. If there is a bigger secret anywhere in
the world I would very much care, he said quietly, to know what it
is.
He gave Richard a significant look and held his hands out to the
fire. Since Richard had tried before without success to draw him out on
exactly what the secret was, he refused to rise to the bait on this
occasion, but sat back in his armchair and looked about him.
Did I ask you, said Reg, returning at that moment, if you wanted
any tea?
Er, yes, said Richard, we spoke about it at length. I think we
agreed in the end that we would, didnt we?
Good, said Reg, vaguely, by a happy chance there seems to be some
ready in the kitchen. Youll have to forgive me. I have a memory like
a... like a... what are those things you drain rice in? What am I
talking about?
With a puzzled look he turned smartly round and disappeared once
more into the kitchen.
Very interesting, said Dirk quietly, I wondered if his memory
might be poor.
He stood, suddenly, and prowled around the room. His eyes fell on
the abacus which stood on the only clear space on the large mahogany
table.
Is this the table, he asked Richard in a low voice, where you
found the note about the salt cellar?
Yes, said Richard, standing, and coming over, tucked into this
book. He picked up the guide to the Greek islands and flipped through
it.
Yes, yes, of course, said Dirk, impatiently. We know about all
that. Im just interested that this was the table. He ran his fingers
along its edge, curiously.
If you think it was some sort of prior collaboration between Reg
and the girl, Richard said, then I must say that I dont think it
possibly can have been.
Of course it wasnt, said Dirk testily, I would have thought that
was perfectly clear.
Richard shrugged in an effort not to get angry and put the book back
down again.
Well, its an odd coincidence that the book should have been...
Odd coincidence! snorted Dirk. Ha! We shall see how much of a
coincidence. We shall see exactly how odd it was. I would like you,
Richard, to ask our friend how he performed the trick.
I thought you said you knew already.
I do, said Dirk airily. I would like to hear it confirmed.
Oh, I see, said Richard, yes, thats rather easy, isnt it? Get
him to explain it, and then say, Yes, thats exactly what I thought it
was! Very good, Dirk. Have we come all the way up here in order to
have him explain how he did a conjuring trick? I think I must be mad.
Dirk bridled at this.
Please do as I ask, he snapped angrily. You saw him do the trick,
you must ask how he did it. Believe me, there is an astounding secret
hidden within it. I know it, but I want you to hear it from him.
He spun round as Reg re-entered, bearing a tray, which he carried
round the sofa and put on to the low coffee table that sat in front of
the fire.
Professor Chronotis... said Dirk.
Reg, said Reg, please.
Very, well, said Dirk, Reg...
Sieve! exclaimed Reg.
What?
Thing you drain rice in. A sieve. I was trying to remember the
word, though I forget now the reason why. No matter. Dirk, dear fellow,
you look as if you are about to explode about something. Why dont you
sit down and make yourself comfortable?
Thank you, no, I would rather feel free to pace up and down
fretfully if I may. Reg...
He turned to face him square on, and raised a single finger.
I must tell you, he said, that I know your secret.
Ah, yes, er -- do you indeed? mumbled Reg, looking down awkwardly
and fiddling with the cups and teapot. I see.
The cups rattled violently as he moved them. Yes, I was afraid of
that.
And there are some questions that we would like to ask you. I must
tell you that I await the answers with the very greatest apprehension.
Indeed, indeed, Reg muttered. Well, perhaps it is at last time. I
hardly know myself what to make of recent events and am... fearful
myself. Very well. Ask what you will. He looked up sharply, his eyes
glittering.
Dirk nodded curtly at Richard, turned, and started to pace, glaring
at the floor.
Er, said Richard, well. Id be... interested to know how you did
the conjuring trick with the salt cellar last night.
Reg seemed surprised and rather confused by the question. The
/conjuring/ trick? he said.
Er, yes, said Richard, the conjuring trick.
Oh, said Reg, taken aback, well, the conjuring part of it, Im
not sure I should -- Magic Circle rules, you know, very strict about
revealing these secrets. Very strict. Impressive trick, though, dont
you think? he added slyly.
Well, yes, said Richard, it seemed very natural at the time, but
now that I... think about it, I have to admit that it was a bit
dumbfounding.
Ah, well, said Reg, its skill. you see. Practice. Make it look
natural.
It did look very natural, continued Richard, feeling his way, I
was quite taken in.
You liked it?
It was very impressive.
Dirk was getting a little impatient. He shot a look to that effect
at Richard.
And I can quite see, said Richard firmly, why its impossible for
you to tell me. I was just interested, thats all. Sorry I asked.
Well, said Reg in a sudden seizure of doubt, I suppose... well,
so long as you absolutely promise not to tell anyone else. he carried
on, I suppose you can probably work out for yourself that I used two
of the salt cellars on the table. No one was going to notice the
difference between one and another. The quickness of the hand, you
know, deceives the eye, particularly some of the eyes around that
table. While I was fiddling with my woolly hat, giving, though I say so
myself, a very cunning simulation of clumsiness and muddle, I simply
slipped the salt cellar down my sleeve. You see?
His earlier agitation had been swept away completely by his pleasure
in showing off his craft.
Its the oldest trick in the world, in fact, he continued, but
nevertheless takes a great deal of skill and deftness. Then a little
later, of course, I returned it to the table with the appearance of
simply passing it to someone else. Takes years of practice, of course,
to make it look natural, but I much prefer it to simply slipping the
thing down to the floor. Amateur stuff that. You cant pick it up, and
the cleaners never notice it for at least a fortnight. I once had a
dead thrush under my seat for a month. No trick involved there, of
course. Cat killed it.
Reg beamed.
Richard felt he had done his bit, but hadnt the faintest idea where
it was supposed to have got them. He glanced at Dirk, who gave him no
help whatsoever, so he plunged on blindly.
Yes, he said, yes, I understand that that can be done by sleight
of hand. What I dont understand is how the salt cellar got embedded in
the pot.
Reg looked puzzled once again, as if they were all talking at cross
purposes. He looked at Dirk, who stopped pacing and stared at him with
bright, expectant eyes.
Well, thats... perfectly straightforward, said Reg, didnt take
any conjuring skill at all. I nipped out for my hat, you remember?
Yes, said Richard, doubtfully.
Well, said Reg, while I was out of the room I went to find the
man who made the pot. Took some time, of course. About three weeks of
detective work to track him down and another couple of days to sober
him up, and then with a little difficulty I persuaded him to bake the
salt cellar into the pot for me. After that I briefly stopped off
somewhere to find some, er, powder to disguise the suntan, and of
course I had to time the return a little carefully so as to make it all
look natural. I bumped into myself in the ante-room, which I always
find embarrassing, I never know where to look, but, er... well, there
you have it.
He smiled a rather bleak and nervous smile.
Richard tried to nod, but eventually gave up.
What on earth are you talking about? he said.
Reg looked at him in surprise.
I thought you said you knew my secret, he said.
I do, said Dirk, with a beam of triumph. He, as yet, does not,
though he furnished all the information I needed to discover it. Let
me, he added, fill in a couple of little blanks. In order to help
disguise the fact that you had in fact been away for weeks when as far
as anyone sitting at the table was concerned you had only popped out of
the door for a couple of seconds, you had to write down for your own
reference the last thing you said, in order that you could pick up the
thread of conversation again as naturally as possible. An important
detail if your memory is not what it once was. Yes?
What it once was, said Reg, slowly shaking his white head, I can
hardly remember what it once was. But yes, you are very sharp to pick
up such a detail.
And then there is the little matter, continued Dirk, of the
questions that George III asked. Asked you.
This seemed to catch Reg quite by surprise.
He asked you, continued Dirk, consulting a small notebook he had
pulled from his pocket, if there was any particular reason why one
thing happened after another and if there was any way of stopping it.
Did he not also ask you, and ask you first, if it was possible to move
backwards in time, or something of that kind?
Reg gave Dirk a long and appraising look.
I was right about you, he said, you have a very remarkable mind,
young man. He walked slowly over to the window that looked out on to
Second Court. He watched the odd figures scuttling through it hugging
themselves in the drizzle or pointing at things.
Yes, said Reg at last in a subdued voice, that is precisely what
he said.
Good, said Dirk, snapping shut his notebook with a tight little
smile which said that he lived for such praise, then that explains why
the answers were yes, no and maybe -- in that order. Now. Where is it?
Where is what?
The time machine.
Youre standing in it. said Reg.
A party of noisy people spilled into the train at Bishops
Stortford. Some were wearing morning suits with carnations looking a
little battered by a days festivity. The women of the party were in
smart dresses and hats, chattering excitedly about how pretty Julia had
looked in all that silk taffeta, how Ralph still looked like a smug oaf
even done up in all his finery, and generally giving the whole thing
about two weeks.
One of the men stuck his head out of the window and hailed a passing
railway employee just to check that this was the right train and was
stopping at Cambridge. The porter confirmed that of course it bloody
was. The young man said that they didnt all want to find they were
going off in the wrong direction, did they, and made a sound a little
like that of a fish barking, as if to indicate that this was a
pricelessly funny remark, and then pulled his head back in, banging it
on the way.
The alcohol content of the atmosphere in the carriage rose sharply.
There seemed to be a general feeling in the air that the best way of
getting themselves in the right mood for the post-wedding reception
party that evening was to make a foray to the bar so that any members
of the party who were not already completely drunk could finish the
task. Rowdy shouts of acclamation greeted this notion, the train
restarted with a jolt and a lot of those still standing fell over.
Three young men dropped into the three empty seats round one table,
of which the fourth was already taken by a sleekly overweight man in an
old-fashioned suit. He had a lugubrious face and his large, wet,
cowlike eyes gazed into some unknown distance.
Very slowly his eyes began to refocus all the way from infinity and
gradually to home in on his more immediate surroundings, his new and
intrusive companions. There was a need he felt, as he had felt before.
The three men were discussing loudly whether they would all go to
the bar, whether some of them would go to the bar and bring back drinks
for the others, whether the ones who went to the bar would get so
excited by all the drinks there that they would stay put and forget to
bring any back for the others who would be sitting here anxiously
awaiting their return, and whether even if they did remember to come
back immediately with the drinks they would actually be capable of
carrying them and wouldnt simply throw them all over the carriage on
the way back, incommoding other passengers.
Some sort of consensus seemed to be reached, but almost immediately
none of them could remember what it was. Two of them got up, then sat
down again as the third one got up. Then he sat down. The two other
ones stood up again, expressing the idea that it might be simpler if
they just bought the entire bar.
The third was about to get up again and follow them, when slowly,
but with unstoppable purpose, the cow-eyed man sitting opposite him
leant across, and gripped him firmly by the forearm.
The young man in his morning suit looked up as sharply as his
somewhat bubbly brain would allow and, startled, said, What do you
want?
Michael Wenton-Weakes gazed into his eyes with terrible intensity,
and said, in a low voice, I was on a ship...
What?
A ship... said Michael.
What ship, what are you talking about? Get off me. Let go!
We came, continued Michael, in a quiet, almost inaudible, but
compelling voice, a monstrous distance. We came to build a paradise. A
paradise. Here.
His eyes swam briefly round the carriage, and then gazed briefly out
through the spattered windows at the gathering gloom of a drizzly East
Anglian evening. He gazed with evident loathing. His grip on the
others forearm tightened.
Look, Im going for a drink, said the wedding guest, though
feebly, because he clearly wasnt.
We left behind those who would destroy themselves with war,
murmured Michael. Ours was to be a world of peace, of music, of art,
of enlightenment. All that was petty, all that was mundane, all that
was contemptible would have no place in our world...
The stilled reveller looked at Michael wonderingly. He didnt look
like an old hippy. Of course, you never could tell. His own elder
brother had once spent a couple of years living in a Druidic commune,
eating LSD doughnuts and thinking he was a tree, since when he had gone
on to become a director of a merchant bank. The difference, of course,
was that he hardly ever still thought he was a tree, except just
occasionally, and he had long ago learnt to avoid the particular claret
which sometimes triggered off that flashback.
There were those who said we would fail, continued Michael in his
low tone that carried clearly under the boisterous noise that filled
the carriage, who prophesied that we too carried in us the seed of
war, but it was our high resolve and purpose that only art and beauty
should flourish, the highest art, the highest beauty -- music. We took
with us only those who believed, who wished it to be true.
But what are you talking about? asked the wedding guest though not
challengingly, for he had fallen under Michaels mesmeric spell. When
was this? Where was this?
Michael breathed hard. Before you were born -- he said at last,
be still, and I will tell you.
There was a long startled silence during which the evening gloom
outside seemed to darken appreciably and gather the room into its grip.
A trick of the light wreathed Reg in shadows.
Dirk was, for one of the few times in a life of exuberantly prolific
loquacity, wordless. His eyes shone with a childs wonder as they
passed anew over the dull and shabby furniture of the room, the
panelled walls, the threadbare carpets. His hands were trembling.
Richard frowned faintly to himself for a moment as if he was trying
to work out the square root of something in his head, and then looked
back directly at Reg.
Who are you? he asked.
I have absolutely no idea, said Reg brightly, much of my memorys
gone completely. I am very old, you see. Startlingly old. Yes, I think
if I were to tell you how old I was it would be fair to say that you
would be startled. Odds are that so would I, because I cant remember.
Ive seen an awful lot, you know. Forgotten most of it, thank God.
Trouble is, when you start getting to my age, which, as I think I
mentioned earlier, is a somewhat startling one -- did I say that?
Yes, you did mention it.
Good. Id forgotten whether I had or not. The thing is that your
memory doesnt actually get any bigger, and a lot of stuff just falls
out. So you see, the major difference between someone of my age and
someone of yours is not how much I know, but how much Ive forgotten.
And after a while you even forget what it is youve forgotten, and
after that you even forget that there was something to remember. Then
you tend to forget, er, what it was you were talking about.
He stared helplessly at the teapot.
Things you remember... prompted Richard gently.
Smells and earrings.
I beg your pardon?
Those are things that linger for some reason, said Reg, shaking
his head in a puzzled way. He sat down suddenly. The earrings that
Queen Victoria wore on her Silver Jubilee. Quite startling objects.
Toned down in the pictures of the period, of course. The smell of the
streets before there were cars in them. Hard to say which was worse.
Thats why Cleopatra remains so vividly in the memory, of course. A
quite devastating combination of earrings and smell. I think that will
probably be the last thing that remains when all else has finally fled.
I shall sit alone in a darkened room, /sans/ teeth, /sans/ eyes, /sans/
taste, /sans/ everything but a little grey old head, and in that little
grey old head a peculiar vision of hideous blue and gold dangling
things flashing in the light, and the smell of sweat, catfood and
death. I wonder what I shall make of it...
Dirk was scarcely breathing as he began to move slowly round the
room, gently brushing his fingertips over the walls, the sofa, the
table.
How long, he said, has this been --
Here? said Reg. Just about two hundred years. Ever since I
retired.
Retired from what?
Search me. Must have been something pretty good, though, what do
you think?
You mean youve been in this same set of rooms here for... two
hundred years? murmured Richard. Youd think someone would notice, or
think it was odd.
Oh, thats one of the delights of the older Cambridge colleges,
said Reg, everyone is so discreet. If we all went around mentioning
what was odd about each other wed be here till Christmas. Svlad, er --
Dirk, my dear fellow, please dont touch that just at the moment.
Dirks hand was reaching out to touch the abacus standing on its own
on the only clear spot on the big table.
What is it? said Dirk sharply.
Its just what it looks like, an old wooden abacus, said Reg.
Ill show you in a moment, but first I must congratulate you on your
powers of perception. May I ask how you arrived at the solution?
I have to admit, said Dirk with rare humility, that I did not. In
the end I asked a child. I told him the story of the trick and asked
him how he thought it had been done, and he said and I quote, Its
bleedin obvious, innit, he mustve ad a bleedin time machine. I
thanked the little fellow and gave him a shilling for his trouble. He
kicked me rather sharply on the shin and went about his business. But
he was the one who solved it. My only contribution to the matter was to
see that he /must/ be right. He had even saved me the bother of kicking
myself.
But you had the perception to think of asking a child, said Reg.
Well then, I congratulate you on that instead.
Dirk was still eyeing the abacus suspiciously.
How... does it work? he said, trying to make it sound like a
casual enquiry.
Well, its really terribly simple, said Reg, it works any way you
want it to. You see, the computer that runs it is a rather advanced
one. In fact it is more powerful than the sum total of all the
computers on this planet including -- and this is the tricky part --
including itself. Never really understood that bit myself, to be honest
with you. But over ninety-five per cent of that power is used in simply
understanding what it is you want it to do. I simply plonk my abacus
down there and it understands the way I use it. I think I must have
been brought up to use an abacus when I was a... well, a child, I
suppose.
Richard, for instance, would probably want to use his own personal
computer. If you put it down there, where the abacus is the machines
computer would simple take charge of it and offer you lots of nice
user-friendly time-travel applications complete with pull-down menus
and desk accessories if you like. Except that you point to 1066 on the
screen and youve got the Battle of Hastings going on outside your
door, er, if thats the sort of thing youre interested in.
Regs tone of voice suggested that his own interests lay in other
areas.
Its, er, really quite fun in its way, he concluded. Certainly
better than television and a great deal easier to use than a video
recorder. If I miss a programme I just pop back in time and watch it.
Im hopeless fiddling with all those buttons.
Dirk reacted to this revelation with horror.
You have a time machine and you use it for... watching television?
Well, I wouldnt use it at all if I could get the hang of the video
recorder. Its a very delicate business, time travel, you know. Full of
appalling traps and dangers, if you should change the wrong thing in
the past, you could entirely disrupt the course of history.
Plus, of course, it mucks up the telephone. Im sorry, he said to
Richard a little sheepishly, that you were unable to phone your young
lady last night. There seems to be something fundamentally inexplicable
about the British telephone system, and my time machine doesnt like
it. Theres never any problem with the plumbing, the electricity, or
even the gas. The connection interfaces are taken care of at some
quantum level I dont entirely understand, and its never been a
problem.
The phone on the other hand is definitely a problem. Every time I
use the time machine, which is, of course, hardly at all, partly
because of this very problem with the phone, the phone goes haywire and
I have to get some lout from the phone company to come and fix it, and
he starts asking stupid questions the answers to which he has no hope
of understanding.
Anyway, the point is that I have a very strict rule that I must not
change anything in the past at all -- Reg sighed -- whatever the
temptation.
What temptation? said Dirk, sharply.
Oh, its just a little, er, thing Im interested in, said Reg,
vaguely, it is perfectly harmless because I stick very strictly to the
rule. It makes me sad, though.
But you broke your own rule! insisted Dirk. Last night! You
changed something in the past --
Well, yes, said Reg, a little uncomfortably, but that was
different. Very different. If you had seen the look on the poor childs
face. So miserable. She thought the world should be a marvellous place,
and all those appalling old dons were pouring their withering scorn on
her just because it wasnt marvellous for them anymore.
I mean, he added, appealing to Richard, remember Cawley. What a
bloodless old goat. Someone should get some humanity into him even if
they have to knock it in with a brick. No, that was perfectly
justifiable. Otherwise, I make it a very strict rule --
Richard looked at him with dawning recognition of something.
Reg, he said politely, may I give you a little advice?
Of course you may, my dear fellow, I should adore you to, said
Reg.
If our mutual friend here offers to take you for a stroll along the
banks of the River Cam, /dont go/.
What on earth do you mean?
He means, said Dirk earnestly, that he thinks there may be
something a little disproportionate between what you actually did, and
your stated reasons for doing it.
Oh. Well, odd way of saying it --
Well, hes a very odd fellow. But you see, there sometimes may be
other reasons for things you do which you are not necessarily aware of.
As in the case of post-hypnotic suggestion -- or possession.
Reg turned very pale.
Possession -- he said.
Professor -- Reg -- I believe there was some reason you wanted to
see me. What exactly was it?
Cambridge! this is... Cambridge! came the lilting squawk of the
station public address system.
Crowds of noisy revellers spewed out on to the platform barking and
honking at each other.
Wheres Rodney? said one, who had clambered with difficulty from
the carriage in which the bar was situated. He and his companion looked
up and down the platform, totteringly. The large figure of Michael
Wenton-Weakes loomed silently past them and out to the exit.
They jostled their way down the side of the train, looking in
through the dirty carriage windows. They suddenly saw their missing
companion still sitting, trance-like, in his seat in the now almost
empty compartment. They banged on the window and hooted at him. For a
moment or two he didnt react, and when he did he woke suddenly in a
puzzled way as if seeming not to know where he was.
Hes pie-eyed! his companions bawled happily, bundling themselves
on to the train again and bundling Rodney back off.
He stood woozily on the platform and shook his head. Then glancing
up he saw through the railings the large bulk of Michael Wenton-Weakes
heaving himself and a large heavy bag into a taxi- cab, and he stood
for a moment transfixed.
Straordinary thing, he said, that man. Telling me a long story
about some kind of shipwreck.
Har har, gurgled one of his two companions, get any money off
you?
What? said Rodney, puzzled. No. No, I dont think so. Except it
wasnt a shipwreck, more an accident, an explosion -- ? He seems to
think he caused it in some way. Or rather there was an accident, and he
caused an explosion trying to put it right and killed everybody. Then
he said there was an awful lot of rotting mud for years and years, and
then slimy things with legs. It was all a bit peculiar.
Trust Rodney! Trust Rodney to pick a madman!
I think he must have been mad. He suddenly went off on a tangent
about some bird. He said the bit about the bird was all nonsense. He
wished he could get rid of the bit about the bird. But then he said it
would be put right. It would all be put right. For some reason I didnt
like it when he said that.
Should have come along to the bar with us. Terribly funny, we --
I also didnt like the way he said goodbye. I didnt like that at
all.
You remember, said Reg, when you arrived this afternoon I said
that times recently had been dull, but for... interesting reasons?
I remember it vividly, said Dirk, it happened a mere ten minutes
ago. You were standing exactly there as I recall. Indeed you were
wearing the very clothes with which you are currently apparelled, and -
-
Shut up, Dirk, said Richard, let the poor man talk, will you?
Dirk made a slight, apologetic bow.
Quite so, said Reg. Well, the truth is that for many weeks,
months even, I have not used the time machine at all, because I had the
oddest feeling that someone or something was trying to make me do it.
It started as the very faintest urge, and then it seemed to come at me
in stronger and stronger waves. It was extremely disturbing. I had to
fight it very hard indeed because it was trying to make me do something
I actually wanted to do. I dont think I would have realised that it
was something outside of me creating this pressure and not just my own
wishes asserting themselves if it wasnt for the fact that I was so
wary of allowing myself to do any such thing. As soon as I began to
realise that it was something else trying to invade me things got
really bad and the furniture began to fly about. Quite damaged my
little Georgian writing desk. Look at the marks on the --
Is that what you were afraid of last night, upstairs? asked
Richard.
Oh yes, said Reg in a hushed voice, most terribly afraid. But it
was only that rather nice horse, so that was all right. I expect it
just wandered in when I was out getting some powder to cover up my
suntan.
Oh? said Dirk, And where did you go for that? he asked. I cant
think of many chemists that a horse would be likely to visit.
Oh, theres a planet off in whats known here as the Pleiades where
the dust is exactly the right --
You went, said Dirk in a whisper, to another planet? To get face
powder?
Oh, its no distance, said Reg cheerfully. You see, the actual
distance between two points in the whole of the space\time continuum is
almost infinitely smaller than the apparent distance between adjacent
orbits of an electron. Really, its a lot less far than the chemist,
and theres no waiting about at the till. I never have the right
change, do you? Go for the quantum jump is always my preference. Except
of course that you then get all the trouble with the telephone.
Nothings ever that easy, is it?
He looked bothered for a moment.
I think you may be right in what I think youre thinking, though,
he added quietly.
Which is?
That I went through a rather elaborate bit of business to achieve a
very small result. Cheering up a little girl, charming, delightful and
sad though she was, doesnt seem to be enough explanation for -- well,
it was a fairly major operation in time-engineering, now that I come to
face up to it. Theres no doubt that it would have been simpler to
compliment her on her dress. Maybe the... ghost -- we are talking of a
ghost here, arent we?
I think we are, yes, said Dirk slowly.
A ghost? said Richard, Now come on --
Wait! said Dirk, abruptly. Please continue, he said to Reg.
Its possible that the... ghost caught me off my guard. I was
fighting so strenuously against doing one thing that it easily tripped
me into another --
And now?
Oh, its gone completely. The ghost left me last night.
And where, we wonder, said Dirk, turning his gaze on Richard, did
it go?
No, please, said Richard, not this. Im not even sure Ive agreed
were talking about time machines yet, and now suddenly its ghosts?
So what was it, hissed Dirk, that got into you to make you climb
the wall?
Well, you suggested that I was under post-hypnotic suggestion from
someone --
I did not! I demonstrated the power of post-hypnotic suggestion to
you. But I believe that hypnosis and possession work in very, very
similar ways. You can be made to do all kinds of absurd things, and
will then cheerfully invent the most transparent rationalisations to
explain them to yourself. But -- you cannot be made to do something
that runs against the fundamental grain of your character. You will
fight. You will resist!
Richard remembered then the sense of relief with which he had
impulsively replaced the tape in Susans machine last night. It had
been the end of a struggle which he had suddenly won. With the sense of
another struggle that he was now losing he sighed and related this to
the others.
Exactly! exclaimed Dirk. You wouldnt do it! Now were getting
somewhere! You see, hypnosis works best when the subject has some
fundamental sympathy with what he or she is being asked to do. Find the
right subject for your task and the hypnosis can take a very, very deep
hold indeed. And I believe the same to be true of possession. So. What
do we have?
We have a ghost that wants something done and is looking for the
right person to take possession of to do that for him. Professor --
Reg -- said Reg.
Reg -- may I ask you something that may be terribly personal? I
will understand perfectly if you dont want to answer, but I will just
keep pestering you until you do. Just my methods, you see. You said
there was something that you found to be a terrible temptation to you.
That you wanted to do but would not allow yourself, and that the ghost
was trying to make you do? Please. This may be difficult for you, but I
think it would be very helpful if you would tell us what it is.
I will not tell you.
You must understand how important --
Ill show you instead, said Reg.
Silhouetted in the gates of St Cedds stood a large figure carrying
a large heavy black nylon bag. The figure was that of Michael Wenton-
Weakes, the voice that asked the porter if Professor Chronotis was
currently in his room was that of Michael Wenton-Weakes, the ears that
heard the porter say he was buggered if he knew because the phone
seemed to be on the blink again was that of Michael Wenton-Weakes, but
the spirit that gazed out of his eyes was his no longer.
He had surrendered himself completely. All doubt, disparity and
confusion had ceased.
A new mind had him in full possession.
The spirit that was not Michael Wenton-Weakes surveyed the college
which lay before it, to which it had grown accustomed in the last few
frustrating, infuriating weeks.
Weeks! Mere microsecond blinks.
Although the spirit -- the ghost -- that now inhabited Michael
Wenton-Weakes body had known long periods of near oblivion, sometimes
even for centuries at a stretch, the time for which it had wandered the
earth was such that it seemed only minutes ago that the creatures which
had erected these walls had arrived. Most of his personal eternity --
not really eternity, but a few billion years could easily seem like it
-- had been spent wandering across interminable mud, wading through
ceaseless seas, watching with stunned horror when the slimy things with
legs suddenly had begun to crawl from those rotting seas -- and here
they were, suddenly walking around as if they owned the place and
complaining about the phones.
Deep in a dark and silent part of himself he knew that he was now
mad, had been driven mad almost immediately after the accident by the
knowledge of what he had done and of the existence he faced, by the
memories of his fellows who had died and who for a while had haunted
him even as he had haunted the Earth.
He knew that what he now had been driven to would have revolted the
self he only infinitesimally remembered, but that it was the only way
for him to end the ceaseless nightmare in which each second of billions
of years had been worse than the previous one.
He hefted the bag and started to walk.
Deep in the rain forest it was doing what it usually does in rain
forests, which was raining: hence the name.
It was a gentle, persistent rain, not the heavy slashing which would
come later in the year, in the hot season. It formed a fine dripping
mist through which the occasional shaft of sunlight would break, be
softened and pass through on its way towards the wet bark of a calvaria
tree on which it would settle and glisten. Sometimes it would do this
next to a butterfly or a tiny motionless sparkling lizard, and then the
effect would be almost unbearable.
Away up in the high canopy of the trees an utterly extraordinary
thought would suddenly strike a bird, and it would go flapping wildly
through the branches and settle at last in a different and altogether
better tree where it would sit and consider things again more calmly
until the same thought came along and struck it again, or it was time
to eat.
The air was full of scents -- the light fragrance of flowers, and
the heavy odour of the sodden mulch with which the floor of the forest
was carpeted.
Confusions of roots tangled through the mulch, moss grew on them,
insects crawled.
In a space in the forest, on an empty patch of wet ground between a
circle of craning trees, appeared quietly and without fuss a plain
white door. After a few seconds it opened a little way with a slight
squeak. A tall thin man looked out, looked around, blinked in surprise,
and quietly pulled the door closed again.
A few seconds later the door opened again and Reg looked out.
Its real, he said, I promise you. Come out and see for
yourself. Walking out into the forest, he turned and beckoned the
other two to follow him.
Dirk stepped boldly through, seemed disconcerted for about the
length of time it takes to blink twice, and then announced that he saw
exactly how it worked, that it was obviously to do with the unreal
numbers that lay between minimum quantum distances and defined the
fractal contours of the enfolded Universe and he was only astonished at
himself for not having thought of it himself.
Like the catflap, said Richard from the doorway behind him.
Er, yes, quite so, said Dirk, taking off his spectacles and
leaning against a tree wiping them, you spotted of course that I was
lying. A perfectly natural reflex in the circumstances as I think
youll agree. Perfectly natural. He squinted slightly and put his
spectacles back on. They began to mist up again almost immediately.
Astounding, he admitted.
Richard stepped through more hesitantly and stood rocking for a
moment with one foot still on the floor in Regs room and the other on
the wet earth of the forest. Then he stepped forward and committed
himself fully.
His lungs instantly filled with the heady vapours and his mind with
the wonder of the place. He turned and looked at the doorway through
which he had walked. It was still a perfectly ordinary door frame with
a perfectly ordinary little white door swinging open in it, but it was
standing free in the open forest, and through it could clearly he seen
the room he had just stepped out of.
He walked wonderingly round the back of the door, testing each foot
on the muddy ground, not so much for fear of slipping as for fear that
it might simply not be there. From behind it was just a perfectly
ordinary open door frame, such as you might fail to find in any
perfectly ordinary rain forest. He walked through the door from behind,
and looking back again could once more see, as if he had just stepped
out of them again, the college rooms of Professor Urban Chronotis of St
Cedds College, Cambridge, which must be thousands of miles away.
Thousands? Where were they?
He peered off through the trees and thought he caught a slight
shimmer in the distance, between the trees.
Is that the sea? he asked.
You can see it a little more clearly from up here, called Reg, who
had walked on a little way up a slippery incline and was now leaning,
puffing, against a tree. He pointed.
The other two followed him up, pulling themselves noisily through
the branches and causing a lot of cawing and complaining from unseen
birds high above.
The Pacific? asked Dirk.
The Indian Ocean, said Reg.
Dirk wiped his glasses again and had another look.
Ah, yes, of course, he said.
Not Madagascar? said Richard. Ive been there --
Have you? said Reg. One of the most beautiful and astonishing
places on Earth, and one that is also full of the most appalling...
temptations for me. No.
His voice trembled slightly, and he cleared his throat.
No, he continued, Madagascar is -- let me see, which direction
are we -- wheres the sun? Yes. That way. Westish. Madagascar is about
five hundred miles roughly west of here. The island of Réunion lies
roughly in-between.
Er, whats the place called? said Dirk suddenly, rapping his
knuckles on the tree and frightening a lizard. Place where that stamp
comes from, er -- Mauritius.
Stamp? said Reg.
Yes, you must know, said Dirk, very famous stamp. Cant remember
anything about it, but it comes from here. Mauritius. Famous for its
very remarkable stamp, all brown and smudged and you could buy Blenheim
Palace with it. Or am I thinking of British Guiana?
Only you, said Richard, know what you are thinking of.
Is it Mauritius?
It is, said Reg, it is Mauritius.
But you dont collect stamps?
No.
What on /earth/s that? said Richard suddenly, but Dirk carried on
with his thought to Reg, Pity, you could get some nice first-day
covers, couldnt you?
Reg shrugged. Not really interested, he said.
Richard slithered back down the slope behind them.
So whats the great attraction here? said Dirk. Its not, I have
to confess, what I was expecting. Very nice in its way, of course, all
this nature, but Im a city boy myself, Im afraid. He cleaned his
glasses once again and pushed them back up his nose.
He started backwards at what he saw, and heard a strange little
chuckle from Reg. Just in front of the door back into Regs room, the
most extraordinary confrontation was taking place.
A large cross bird was looking at Richard and Richard was looking at
a large cross bird. Richard was looking at the bird as if it was the
most extraordinary thing he had ever seen in his life, and the bird was
looking at Richard as if defying him to find its beak even remotely
funny.
Once it had satisfied itself that Richard did not intend to laugh,
the bird regarded him instead with a sort of grim irritable tolerance
and wondered if he was just going to stand there or actually do
something useful and feed it. It padded a couple of steps back and a
couple of steps to the side and then just a single step forward again,
on great waddling yellow feet. It then looked at him again,
impatiently, and squarked an impatient squark.
The bird then bent forward and scraped its great absurd red beak
across the ground as if to give Richard the idea that this might be a
good area to look for things to give it to eat.
It eats the nuts of the calvaria tree, called out Reg to Richard.
The big bird looked sharply up at Reg in annoyance, as if to say
that it was perfectly clear to any idiot what it ate. It then looked
back at Richard once more and stuck its head on one side as if it had
suddenly been struck by the thought that perhaps it was an idiot it had
to deal with, and that it might need to reconsider its strategy
accordingly.
There are one or two on the ground behind you, called Reg softly.
In a trance of astonishment Richard turned awkwardly and saw one or
two large nuts lying on the ground. He bent and picked one up, glancing
up at Reg, who gave him a reassuring nod.
Tentatively Richard held the thing out to the bird, which leant
forward and pecked it sharply from between his fingers. Then, because
Richards hand was still stretched out, the bird knocked it irritably
aside with its beak.
Once Richard had withdrawn to a respectful distance, it stretched
its neck up, closed its large yellow eyes and seemed to gargle
gracelessly as it shook the nut down its neck into its maw.
It appeared then to be at least partially satisfied. Whereas before
it had been a cross dodo, it was at least now a cross, fed dodo, which
was probably about as much as it could hope for in this life.
It made a slow, waddling, on-the-spot turn and padded back into the
forest whence it had come, as if defying Richard to find the little
tuft of curly feathers stuck up on top of its backside even remotely
funny.
I only come to look, said Reg in a small voice, and glancing at
him Dirk was discomfited to see that the old mans eyes were brimming
with tears which he quickly brushed away. Really, it is not for me to
interfere --
Richard came scurrying breathlessly up to them.
Was that a /dodo/? he exclaimed.
Yes, said Reg, one of only three left at this time. The year is
1676. They will all be dead within four years, and after that no one
will ever see them again. Come, he said, let us go.
Behind the stoutly locked outer door in the corner staircase in the
Second Court of St Cedds College, where only a millisecond earlier
there had been a slight flicker as the inner door departed, there was
another slight flicker as the inner door now returned.
Walking through the dark evening towards it the large figure of
Michael Wenton-Weakes looked up at the corner windows. If any slight
flicker had been visible, it would have gone unnoticed in the dim
dancing firelight that spilled from the window.
The figure then looked up into the darkness of the sky, looking for
what it knew to be there though there was not the slightest chance of
seeing it, even on a clear night which this was not. The orbits of
Earth were now so cluttered with pieces of junk and debris that one
more item among them -- even such a large one as this was -- would pass
perpetually unnoticed. Indeed, it had done so, though its influence had
from time to time exerted itself. From time to time. When the waves had
been strong. Not for nearly two hundred years had they been so strong
as now they were again.
And all at last was now in place. The perfect carrier had been
found.
The perfect carrier moved his footsteps onwards through the court.
The Professor himself had seemed the perfect choice at first, but
that attempt had ended in frustration, fury, and then -- inspiration!
Bring a Monk to Earth! They were designed to believe anything, to be
completely malleable. It could be suborned to undertake the task with
the greatest of ease.
Unfortunately, however, this one had proved to be completely
hopeless. Getting it to believe something was very easy. Getting it to
continue to believe the same thing for more than five minutes at a time
had proved to be an even more impossible task than that of getting the
Professor to do what he fundamentally wanted to do but wouldnt allow
himself.
Then another failure and then, miraculously, the perfect carrier had
come at last.
The perfect carrier had already proved that it would have no
compunction in doing what would have to be done.
Damply, clogged in mist, the moon struggled in a corner of the sky
to rise. At the window, a shadow moved.
From the window overlooking Second Court Dirk watched the moon. We
shall not, he said, have long to wait.
To wait for what? said Richard.
Dirk turned.
For the ghost, he said, to return to us. Professor -- he added
to Reg, who was sitting anxiously by the fire, do you have any brandy,
French cigarettes or worry beads in your rooms?
No, said Reg.
Then I shall have to fret unaided, said Dirk and returned to
staring out of the window.
I have yet to be convinced, said Richard, that there is not some
other explanation than that of... ghosts to --
Just as you required actually to see a time machine in operation
before you could accept it, returned Dirk. Richard, I commend you on
your scepticism, but even the sceptical mind must be prepared to accept
the unacceptable when there is no alternative. If it looks like a duck,
and quacks like a duck, we have at least to consider the possibility
that we have a small aquatic bird of the family Anatidae on our hands.
Then what is a ghost?
I think that a ghost... said Dirk, is someone who died either
violently or unexpectedly with unfinished business on his, her -- or
its -- hands. Who cannot rest until it has been finished, or put
right.
He turned to face them again.
Which is why, he said, a time machine would have such a
fascination for a ghost once it knew of its existence. A time machine
provides the means to put right what, in the ghosts opinion, went
wrong in the past. To free it.
Which is why it will be back. It tried first to take possession of
Reg himself, but he resisted. Then came the incident with the conjuring
trick, the face powder and the horse in the bathroom which I -- he
paused -- which even I do not understand, though I intend to if it
kills me. And then you, Richard, appear on the scene. The ghost deserts
Reg and concentrates instead on you. Almost immediately there occurs an
odd but significant incident. You do something that you then wish you
hadnt done.
I refer, of course, to the phone call you made to Susan and left on
her answering machine.
The ghost seizes its chance and tries to induce you to undo it. To,
as it were, go back into the past and erase that message -- to change
the mistake you had made. Just to see if you would do it. Just to see
if it was in your character.
If it had been, you would now be totally under its control. But at
the very last second your nature rebelled and you would not do it. And
so the ghost gives you up as a bad job and deserts you in turn. It must
find someone else.
How long has it been doing this? I do not know. Does this now make
sense to you? Do you recognise the truth of what I am saying?
Richard turned cold.
Yes, he said, I think you must be absolutely right.
And at what moment, then, said Dirk, did the ghost leave you?
Richard swallowed.
When Michael Wenton-Weakes walked out of the room, he said.
So I wonder, said Dirk quietly, what possibilities the ghost saw
in him. I wonder whether this time it found what it wanted. I believe
we shall not have long to wait.
There was a knock on the door.
When it opened, there stood Michael Wenton-Weakes.
He said simply, Please, I need your help.
Reg and Richard stared at Dirk, and then at Michael.
Do you mind if I put this down somewhere? said Michael. Its
rather heavy. Full of scuba-diving equipment.
Oh, I see, said Susan, oh well, thanks, Nicola, Ill try that
fingering. Im sure he only put the E flat in there just to annoy
people. Yes, Ive been at it solidly all afternoon. Some of those
semiquaver runs in the second movement are absolute bastards. Well,
yes, it helped take my mind off it all. No, no news. Its all just
mystifying and absolutely horrible. I dont want even to -- look, maybe
Ill give you a call again later and see how youre feeling. I know,
yes, you never know which is worse, do you, the illness, the
antibiotics, or the doctors bedside manner. Look after yourself, or at
least, make sure Simon does. Tell him to bring you gallons of hot
lemon. OK. Well, Ill talk to you later. Keep warm. Bye now.
She put the phone down and returned to her cello. She had hardly
started to reconsider the problem of the irritating E flat when the
phone went again. She had simply left it off the hook for the
afternoon, but had forgotten to do so again after making her own call.
With a sigh she propped up the cello, put down the bow, and went to
the phone again.
Hello? she demanded.
Again, there was nothing, just a distant cry of wind. Irritably, she
slammed the receiver back down once more.
She waited a few seconds for the line to clear, and then was about
to take the phone off the hook once more when she realised that perhaps
Richard might need her.
She hesitated.
She admitted to herself that she hadnt been using the answering
machine, because she usually just put it on for Gordons convenience,
and that was something of which she did not currently wish to be
reminded.
Still, she put the answering machine on, turned the volume right
down, and returned again to the E flat that Mozart had put in only to
annoy cellists.
In the darkness of the offices of Dirk Gentlys Holistic Detective
Agency, Gordon Way clumsily fumbled the telephone receiver back on to
its rest and sat slumped in the deepest dejection. He didnt even stop
himself slumping all the way through the seat until he rested lightly
on the floor.
Miss Pearce had fled the office the first time the telephone had
started actually using itself, her patience with all this sort of thing
finally exhausted again, since which time Gordon had had the office to
himself. However, his attempts to contact anybody had failed
completely.
Or rather, his attempts to contact Susan, which was all he cared
about. It was Susan he had been speaking to when he died and he knew he
had somehow to speak to her again. But she had left her phone off the
hook most of the afternoon and even when she had answered she could not
hear him.
He gave up. He roused himself from the floor, stood up, and slipped
out and down into the darkening streets. He drifted aimlessly for a
while, went for a walk on the canal, which was a trick that palled very
quickly, and then wandered back up to the street again.
The houses with light and life streaming from them upset him most
particularly since the welcome they seemed to extend would not be
extended to him. He wondered if anyone would mind if he simply slipped
into their house and watched television for the evening. He wouldnt be
any trouble.
Or a cinema.
That would be better, he could go to the cinema.
He turned with more positive, if still insubstantial, footsteps into
Noel Road and started to walk up it.
Noel Road, he thought. It rang a vague bell. He had a feeling that
he had recently had some dealings with someone in Noel Road. Who was
it?
His thoughts were interrupted by a terrible scream of horror that
rang through the street. He stood stock still. A few seconds later a
door flew open a few yards from him and a woman ran out of it, wild-
eyed and howling.
Richard had never liked Michael Wenton-Weakes and he liked him even
less with a ghost in him. He couldnt say why, he had nothing against
ghosts personally, didnt think a person should be judged adversely
simply for being dead, but -- he didnt like it.
Nevertheless, it was hard not to feel a little sorry for him.
Michael sat forlornly on a stool with his elbow resting on the large
table and his head resting on his fingers. He looked ill and haggard.
He looked deeply tired. He looked pathetic. His story had been a
harrowing one, and concluded with his attempts to possess first Reg and
then Richard.
You were, he concluded, right. Entirely.
He said this last to Dirk, and Dirk grimaced as if trying not to
beam with triumph too many times in a day.
The voice was Michaels and yet it was not Michaels. Whatever
timbre a voice acquires through a billion or so years of dread and
isolation, this voice had acquired it, and it filled those who heard it
with a dizzying chill akin to that which clutches the mind and stomach
when standing on a cliff at night.
He turned his eyes on Reg and on Richard, and the effect of the
eyes, too, was one that provoked pity and terror. Richard had to look
away.
I owe you both an apology, said the ghost within Michael which I
offer you from the depths of my heart, and only hope that as you come
to understand the desperation of my predicament, and the hope which
this machine offers me, you will understand why I have acted as I have,
and that you will find it within yourselves to forgive me. And to help
me. I beg you.
Give the man a whisky, said Dirk gruffly.
Havent got any whisky, said Reg. Er, port? Theres a bottle or
so of Margaux I could open. Very fine one. Should be chambréd for an
hour, but I can do that of course, its very easy, I --
Will you help me? interrupted the ghost.
Reg bustled to fetch some port and some glasses.
Why have you taken over the body of this man? said Dirk.
I need to have a voice with which to speak and a body with which to
act. No harm will come to him, no harm --
Let me ask the question again. Why have you taken over the body of
this man? insisted Dirk.
The ghost made Michaels body shrug.
He was willing. Both of these two gentlemen quite understandably
resisted being... well, hypnotised -- your analogy is fair. This one?
Well, I think his sense of self is at a low ebb, and he has acquiesced.
I am very grateful to him and will not do him any harm.
His sense of self, repeated Dirk thoughtfully, is at a low ebb.
I suppose that is probably true, said Richard quietly to Dirk. He
seemed very depressed last night. The one thing that was important to
him had been taken away because he, well, he wasnt really very good at
it. Although hes proud I expect he was probably quite receptive to the
idea of actually being wanted for something.
Hmmm, said Dirk, and said it again. He said it a third time with
feeling. Then he whirled round and barked at the figure on the stool.
Michael Wenton-Weakes!
Michaels head jolted back and he blinked.
Yes? he said, in his normal lugubrious voice. His eyes followed
Dirk as he moved.
You can hear me, said Dirk, and you can answer for yourself?
Oh, yes, said Michael, most certainly I can.
This... being, this spirit. You know he is in you? You accept his
presence? You are a willing party to what he wishes to do?
That is correct. I was much moved by his account of himself, and am
very willing to help him. In fact I think it is right for me to do so.
All right, said Dirk with a snap of his fingers, you can go.
Michaels head slumped forward suddenly, and then after a second or
so it slowly rose again, as if being pumped up from inside like a tyre.
The ghost was back in possession.
Dirk took hold of a chair, spun it round and sat astride it facing
the ghost in Michael, peering intently into its eyes.
Again, he said, tell me again. A quick snap account.
Michaels body tensed slightly. It reached out to Dirks arm.
Dont -- touch me! snapped Dirk. Just tell me the facts. The
first time you try and make me feel sorry for you Ill poke you in the
eye. Or at least, the one youve borrowed. So leave out all the stuff
that sounded like... er --
Coleridge, said Richard suddenly, it sounded exactly like
Coleridge. It was like The Rime of the Ancient Mariner. Well bits of
it were.
Dirk frowned. Coleridge? he said.
I tried to tell him my story, admitted the ghost, I --
Sorry, said Dirk, youll have to excuse me -- Ive never cross-
examined a four-billion-year-old ghost before. Are we talking Samuel
Taylor here? Are you saying you told your story to Samuel Taylor
Coleridge?
I was able to enter his mind at... certain times. When he was in an
impressionable state.
You mean when he was on laudanum? said Richard.
That is correct. He was more relaxed then.
Ill say, snorted Reg, I sometimes encountered him when he was
quite astoundingly relaxed. Look, Ill make some coffee.
He disappeared into the kitchen, where he could be heard laughing to
himself.
Its another world, muttered Richard to himself, sitting down and
shaking his head.
But unfortunately when he was fully in possession of himself I, so
to speak, was not, said the ghost, and so that failed. And what he
wrote was very garbled.
Discuss, said Richard, to himself, raising his eyebrows.
Professor, called out Dirk, this may sound absurd. Did --
Coleridge ever try to... er... use your time machine? Feel free to
discuss the question in any way which appeals to you.
Well, do you know, said Reg, looking round the door, he did come
in prying around on one occasion, but I think he was in a great deal
too relaxed a state to do anything.
I see, said Dirk. But why, he added turning back to the strange
figure of Michael slumped on its stool, why has it taken you so long
to find someone?
For long, long periods I am very weak, almost totally non-existent,
and unable to influence anything at all. And then, of course, before
that time there was no time machine here, and... no hope for me at all
--
Perhaps ghosts exist like wave patterns, suggested Richard, like
interference patterns between the actual with the possible. There would
be irregular peaks and troughs, like in a musical waveform.
The ghost snapped Michaels eyes around to Richard.
You... he said, you wrote that article...
Er, yes --
It moved me very greatly, said the ghost, with a sudden remorseful
longing in his voice which seemed to catch itself almost as much by
surprise as it did its listeners.
Oh. I see, said Richard, Well, thank you. You didnt like it so
much last time you mentioned it. Well, I know that wasnt you as such -
-
Richard sat back frowning to himself.
So, said Dirk, to return to the beginning --
The ghost gathered Michaels breath for him and started again. We
were on a ship -- it said.
A spaceship.
Yes. Out from Salaxala, a world in... well, very far from here. A
violent and troubled place. We -- a party of some nine dozen of us --
set out, as people frequently did, to find a new world for ourselves.
All the planets in this system were completely unsuitable for our
purpose, but we stopped on this world to replenish some necessary
mineral supplies.
Unfortunately our landing ship was damaged on its way into the
atmosphere. Damaged quite badly, but still quite reparable.
I was the engineer on board and it fell to me to supervise the task
of repairing the ship and preparing it to return to our main ship. Now,
in order to understand what happened next you must know something of
the nature of a highly-automated society. There is no task that cannot
be done more easily with the aid of advanced computerisation. And there
were some very specific problems associated with a trip with an aim
such as ours --
Which was? said Dirk sharply.
The ghost in Michael blinked as if the answer was obvious.
Well, to find a new and better world on which we could all live in
freedom, peace and harmony forever, of course, he said.
Dirk raised his eyebrows.
Oh, that, he said. Youd thought this all out carefully, I
assume.
Wed had it thought out for us. We had with us some very
specialised devices for helping us to continue to believe in the
purpose of the trip even when things got difficult. They generally
worked very well, but I think we probably came to rely on them too
much.
What on earth were they? said Dirk.
Its probably hard for you to understand how reassuring they were.
And that was why I made my fatal mistake. When I wanted to know whether
or not it was safe to take off, I didnt want to know that it might
/not/ be safe. I just wanted to be reassured that it /was/. So instead
of checking it myself, you see, I sent out one of the Electric Monks.
The brass plaque on the red door in Peckender Street glittered as it
reflected the yellow light of a street lamp. It glared for a moment as
it reflected the violent flashing light of a passing police car
sweeping by.
It dimmed slightly as a pale, pale wraith slipped silently through
it. It glimmered as it dimmed, because the wraith was trembling with
such terrible agitation.
In the dark hallway the ghost of Gordon Way paused. He needed
something to lean on for support, and of course there was nothing. He
tried to get a grip on himself, but there was nothing to get a grip on.
He retched at the horror of what he had seen, but there was, of course,
nothing in his stomach. He half stumbled, half swam up the stairs, like
a drowning man trying to grapple for a grip on the water.
He staggered through the wall, through the desk, through the door,
and tried to compose and settle himself in front of the desk in Dirks
office.
If anyone had happened into the office a few minutes later -- a
night cleaner perhaps, if Dirk Gently had ever employed one, which he
didnt on the grounds that they wished to be paid and he did not wish
to pay them, or a burglar, perhaps, if there had been anything in the
office worth burgling, which there wasnt -- they would have seen the
following sight and been amazed by it.
The receiver of the large red telephone on the desk suddenly rocked
and tumbled off its rest on to the desk top.
A dialling tone started to burr. Then, one by one, seven of the
large, easily pushed buttons depressed themselves, and after the very
long pause which the British telephone system allows you within which
to gather your thoughts and forget who it is youre phoning, the sound
of a phone ringing at the other end of the line could be heard.
After a couple of rings there was a click, a whirr, and a sound as
of a machine drawing breath. Then a voice started to say, Hello, this
is Susan. I cant come to the phone right at the moment because Im
trying to get an E flat right, but if youd like to leave your name...
So then, on the say so of an -- I can hardly bring myself to utter
the words -- Electric Monk, said Dirk in a voice ringing with
derision, you attempt to launch the ship and to your utter
astonishment it explodes. Since when -- ?
Since when, said the ghost, abjectly, I have been alone on this
planet. Alone with the knowledge of what I had done to my fellows on
the ship. All, all alone...
Yes, skip that, I said, snapped Dirk angrily. What about the main
ship? That presumably went on and continued its search for --
No.
Then what happened to it?
Nothing. Its still there.
Still /there/?
Dirk leapt to his feet and whirled off to pace the room, his brow
furiously furrowed.
Yes. Michaels head drooped a little, but he looked up pitieously
at Reg and at Richard. All of us were aboard the landing craft. At
first I felt myself to be haunted by the ghosts of the rest, but it was
only in my imagination. For millions of years, and then billions, I
stalked the mud utterly alone. It is impossible for you to conceive of
even the tiniest part of the torment of such eternity. Then, he added,
just recently life arose on the planet. Life. Vegetation, things in
the sea, then, at last, you. Intelligent life. I turn to you to release
me from the torment I have endured.
Michaels head sank abjectly on to his chest for some few seconds.
Then slowly, wobblingly, it rose and stared at them again, with yet
darker fires in his eyes.
Take me back, he said, I beg you, take me back to the landing
craft. Let me undo what was done. A word from me, and it can be undone,
the repairs properly made, the landing craft can then return to the
main ship, we can be on our way, my torment will be extinguished, and I
will cease to be a burden to you. I beg you.
There was a short silence while his plea hung in the air.
But that cant work, can it? said Richard. If we do that, then
this wont have happened. Dont we generate all sorts of paradoxes?
Reg stirred himself from thought. No worse than many that exist
already, he said. If the Universe came to an end every time there was
some uncertainty about what had happened in it, it would never have got
beyond the first picosecond. And many of course dont. Its like a
human body, you see. A few cuts and bruises here and there dont hurt
it. Not even major surgery if its done properly. Paradoxes are just
the scar tissue. Time and space heal themselves up around them and
people simply remember a version of events which makes as much sense as
they require it to make.
That isnt to say that if you get involved in a paradox a few
things wont strike you as being very odd, but if youve got through
life without that already happening to you, then I dont know which
Universe youve been living in, but it isnt this one.
Well, if thats the case, said Richard, why were you so fierce
about not doing anything to save the dodo?
Reg sighed. You dont understand at all. The dodo wouldnt have
died if I hadnt worked so hard to save the coelacanth.
The coelacanth? The prehistoric fish? But how could one possibly
affect the other?
Ah. Now there youre asking. The complexities of cause and effect
defy analysis. Not only is the continuum like a human body, it is also
very like a piece of badly put up wallpaper. Push down a bubble
somewhere, another one pops up somewhere else. There are no more dodos
because of my interference. In the end I imposed the rule on myself
because I simply couldnt bear it any more. The only thing that really
gets hurt when you try and change time is yourself. He smiled bleakly,
and looked away.
Then he added, after a long moments reflection, No, it can be
done. Im just cynical because its gone wrong so many times. This poor
fellows story is a very pathetic one, and it can do no harm to put an
end to his misery. It happened so very, very long ago on a dead planet.
If we do this we will each remember whatever it is that has happened to
us individually. Too bad if the rest of the world doesnt quite agree.
It will hardly be the first time.
Michaels head bowed.
Youre very silent, Dirk, said Richard.
Dirk glared angrily at him. I want to see this ship, he demanded.
In the darkness, the red telephone receiver slipped and slid
fitfully back across the desk. If anybody had been there to see it they
might just have discerned a shape that moved it.
It shone only very faintly, less than would the hands of a luminous
watch. It seemed more as if the darkness around it was just that much
darker and the ghostly shape sat within it like thickened scar tissue
beneath the surface of the night.
Gordon grappled one last time with the recalcitrant receiver. At
length he got a final grip and slipped it up on to the top of the
instrument.
From there it fell back on to its rest and disconnected the call. At
the same moment the ghost of Gordon Way, his last call finally
completed, fell back to his own rest and vanished.
Swinging slowly round in the shadow of the Earth, just one more
piece of debris among that which floated now forever in high orbit, was
one dark shape that was larger and more regularly formed than the rest.
And far, far older.
For four billion years it had continued to absorb data from the
world below it, scanning, analysing, processing. Occasionally it sent
pieces back if it thought they would help, if it thought they might be
received. But otherwise, it watched, it listened, it recorded. Not the
lapping of a wave nor the beating of a heart escaped its attention.
Otherwise, nothing inside it had moved for four billion years,
except for the air which circulated still, and the motes of dust within
the air that danced and danced and danced and danced... and danced.
It was only a very slight disturbance that occurred now. Quietly,
without fuss, like a dew drop precipitating from the air on to a leaf,
there appeared in a wall which had stood blank and grey for four
billion years, a door. A plain, ordinary white-panelled door with a
small dented brass handle.
This quiet event, too, was recorded and incorporated in the
continual stream of data processing that the ship ceaselessly
performed. Not only the arrival of the door, but the arrival of those
behind the door, the way they looked, the way they moved, the way they
felt about being there. All processed, all recorded, all transformed.
After a moment or two had passed, the door opened.
Within it could be seen a room unlike any on the ship. A room of
wooden floors, of shabby upholstery, a room in which a fire danced. And
as the fire danced, its data danced within the ships computers, and
the motes of dust in the air also danced with it.
A figure stood in the doorway -- a large lugubrious figure with a
strange light that danced now in its eyes. It stepped forward across
the threshold into the ship, and its face was suddenly suffused with a
calm for which it had longed but had thought never again to experience.
Following him stepped out a smaller, older man with hair that was
white and wayward. He stopped and blinked with wonder as he passed from
out of the realm of his room and into the realm of the ship. Following
him came a third man, impatient and tense, with a large leather
overcoat that flapped about him. He, too, stopped and was momentarily
bewildered by something he didnt understand. With a look of deepest
puzzlement on his face he walked forward and looked around at the grey
and dusty walls of the ancient ship.
At last came a fourth man, tall and thin. He stooped as he walked
out of the door, and then instantly stopped as if he had walked into a
wall.
He had walked into a wall, of a kind.
He stood transfixed. If anyone had been looking at his face at that
moment, it would have been abundantly clear to them that the single
most astonishing event of this mans entire existence was currently
happening to him.
When slowly he began to move it was with a curious gait, as if he
was swimming very slowly. Each tiniest movement of his head seemed to
bring fresh floods of awe and astonishment into his face. Tears welled
in his eyes, and he became breathless with gasping wonder.
Dirk turned to look at him, to hurry him along.
Whats the matter? he called above the noise.
The... music... whispered Richard.
The air was full of music. So full it seemed there was room for
nothing else. And each particle of air seemed to have its own music, so
that as Richard moved his head he heard a new and different music,
though the new and different music fitted quite perfectly with the
music that lay beside it in the air.
The modulations from one to another were perfectly accomplished --
astonishing leaps to distant keys made effortlessly in the mere
shifting of the head. New themes, new strands of melody, all perfectly
and astoundingly proportioned, constantly involved themselves into the
continuing web. Huge slow waves of movement, faster dances that
thrilled through them, tiny scintillating scampers that danced on the
dances, long tangled tunes whose ends were so like their beginnings
that they twisted around upon themselves, turned inside out, upside
down, and then rushed off again on the back of yet another dancing
melody in a distant part of the ship.
Richard staggered against the wall.
Dirk hurried to grab him.
Come on, he said, brusquely, whats the matter? Cant you stand
the music? Its a bit loud, isnt it? For Gods sake, pull yourself
together. Theres something here I still dont understand. Its not
right. Come on --
He tugged Richard after him, and then had to support him as
Richards mind sank further and further under the overwhelming weight
of music. The visions that were woven in his mind by the million
thrilling threads of music as they were pulled through it, were
increasingly a welter of chaos, but the more the chaos burgeoned the
more it fitted with the other chaos, and the next greater chaos, until
it all became a vast exploding ball of harmony expanding in his mind
faster than any mind could deal with.
And then it was all much simpler.
A single tune danced through his mind and all his attention rested
upon it. It was a tune that seethed through the magical flood, shaped
it, formed it, lived through it hugely, lived through it minutely, was
its very essence. It bounced and trilled along, at first a little
tripping tune, then it slowed, then it danced again but with more
difficulty, seemed to founder in eddies of doubt and confusion, and
then suddenly revealed that the eddies were just the first ripples of a
huge new wave of energy surging up joyfully from beneath.
Richard began very, very slowly to faint.
He lay very still.
He felt he was an old sponge steeped in paraffin and left in the sun
to dry.
He felt like the body of an old horse burning hazily in the sun. He
dreamed of oil, thin and fragrant, of dark heaving seas. He was on a
white beach, drunk with fish, stupefied with sand, bleached, drowsing,
pummelled with light, sinking, estimating the density of vapour clouds
in distant nebulae, spinning with dead delight. He was a pump spouting
fresh water in the springtime, gushing into a mound of reeking newmown
grass. Sounds, almost unheard, burned away like distant sleep.
He ran and was falling. The lights of a harbour spun into night. The
sea like a dark spirit slapped infinitesimally at the sand, glimmering,
unconscious. Out where it was deeper and colder he sank easily with the
heavy sea swelling like oil around his ears, and was disturbed only by
a distant burr burr as of the phone ringing.
He knew he had been listening to the music of life itself. The music
of light dancing on water that rippled with the wind and the tides, of
the life that moved through the water, of the life that moved on the
land, warmed by the light.
He continued to lie very still. He continued to be disturbed by a
distant burr burr as of a phone ringing.
Gradually he became aware that the distant burr burr as of a phone
ringing was a phone ringing.
He sat up sharply.
He was lying on a small crumpled bed in a small untidy panelled room
that he knew he recognised but couldnt place. It was cluttered with
books and shoes. He blinked at it and was blank.
The phone by the bed was ringing. He picked it up.
Hello? he said.
Richard! It was Susans voice, utterly distraught. He shook his
head and had no recollection of anything useful.
Hello? he said again.
Richard, is that you? /Where are you?/
Er, hold on, Ill go and look.
He put the receiver down on the crumpled sheets, where it lay
squawking, climbed shakily off the bed, staggered to the door and
opened it.
Here was a bathroom. He peered at it suspiciously. Again, he
recognised it but felt that there was something missing. Oh yes. There
should be a horse in it. Or at least, there had been a horse in it the
last time he had seen it. He crossed the bathroom floor and went out of
the other door. He found his way shakily down the stairs and into Regs
main room.
He was surprised by what he saw when he got there.
The storms of the day before, and of the day before that, and the
floods of the previous week, had now abated. The skies still bulged
with rain, but all that actually fell in the gathering evening gloom
was a dreary kind of prickle.
Some wind whipped across the darkening plain, blundered through the
low hills and gusted across a shallow valley where stood a structure, a
kind of tower, alone in a nightmare of mud, and leaning.
It was a blackened stump of a tower. It stood like an extrusion of
magma from one of the more pestilential pits of hell, and it leaned at
a peculiar angle, as if oppressed by something altogether more terrible
than its own considerable weight. It seemed a dead thing, long ages
dead.
The only movement was that of a river of mud that moved sluggishly
along the bottom of the valley past the tower. A mile or so further on,
the river ran down a ravine and disappeared underground.
But as the evening darkened it became apparent that the tower was
not entirely without life. There was a single dim red light guttering
deep within it.
It was this scene that Richard was surprised to see from a small
white doorway set in the side of the valley wall, a few hundred yards
from the tower.
Dont step out! said Dirk, putting up an arm, The atmosphere is
poisonous. Im not sure whats in it but it would certainly get your
carpets nice and clean.
Dirk was standing in the doorway watching the valley with deep
mistrust.
Where are we? asked Richard.
Bermuda, said Dirk. Its a bit complicated.
Thank you, said Richard and walked groggily back across the room.
Excuse me, he said to Reg, who was busy fussing round Michael
Wenton-Weakes, making sure that the scuba diving suit he was wearing
fitted snuggly everywhere, that the mask was secure and that the
regulator for the air supply was working properly.
Sorry, can I just get past? said Richard. Thanks.
He climbed back up the stairs, went back into Regs bedroom, sat
shakily on the edge of the bed and picked up the phone again.
Bermuda, he said, its a bit complicated.
Downstairs, Reg finished smearing Vaseline on all the joins of the
suit and the few pieces of exposed skin around the mask, and then
announced that all was ready.
Dirk swung himself away from the door and stood aside with the
utmost bad grace.
Well then, he said, be off with you. Good riddance. I wash my
hands of the whole affair. I suppose we will have to wait here for you
to send back the empty, for what its worth. He stalked round the sofa
with an angry gesture. He didnt like this. He didnt like any of it.
He particularly didnt like Reg knowing more about space\time than he
did. It made him angry that he didnt know why he didnt like it.
My dear fellow, said Reg in a conciliatory tone, consider what a
very small effort it is for us to help the poor soul. Im sorry if it
seems to you an anti-climax after all your extraordinary feats of
deduction. I know you feel that a mere errand of mercy seems not enough
for you, but you should be more charitable.
Charitable, ha! said Dirk. I pay my taxes, what more do you
want?
He threw himself on to the sofa, ran his hands through his hair and
sulked.
The possessed figure of Michael shook hands with Reg and said a few
words of thanks. Then he walked stiffly to the door, turned and bowed
to them both.
Dirk flung his head round and glared at him, his eyes flashing
behind their spectacles and his hair flying wildly. The ghost looked at
Dirk, and for a moment shivered inside with apprehension. A
superstitious instinct suddenly made the ghost wave. He waved Michaels
hand round in a circle, three times, and then said a single word.
Goodbye, he said.
With that he turned again, gripped the sides of the doorway and
stepped resolutely out into the mud, and into the foul and poisonous
wind.
He paused for a moment to be sure that his footing was solid, that
he had his balance, and then without another look back he walked away
from them, out of the reach of the slimy things with legs, towards his
ship.
Now, what on earth did /that/ mean? said Dirk, irritably mimicking
the odd triple wave.
Richard came thundering down the stairs, threw open the door and
plunged into the room, wild-eyed.
Ross has been murdered! he shouted.
Who the hells Ross? shouted Dirk back at him.
Whatsisname Ross, for Gods sake, exclaimed Richard, the new
editor of /Fathom/.
Whats /Fathom/? shouted Dirk again.
Michaels bloody magazine, Dirk! Remember? Gordon chucked Michael
off the magazine and gave it to this Ross guy to fun instead. Michael
hated him for that. Well, last night Michael went and bloody murdered
him!
He paused, panting. At least, he said, he was murdered. And
Michael was the only one with any reason to.
He ran to the door, looked out at the retreating figure disappearing
into the gloom, and spun round again.
Is he coming back? said Richard.
Dirk leapt to his feet and stood blinking for a moment.
Thats it... he said, /thats/ why Michael was the perfect
subject. /Thats/ what I should have been looking for. The thing the
ghost made him do in order to establish his hold, the thing he had to
be fundamentally /willing/ to do, the thing that would match the
ghosts own purpose. Oh my dear God. He thinks weve supplanted them
and thats what he wants to reverse.
He thinks this is their world not ours. /This/ was where they were
going to settle and build their blasted paradise. It matches every step
of the way.
You see, he said, turning on Reg, what we have done? I would not
be surprised to discover that the accident your poor tormented soul out
there is trying to reverse is the very thing which started life on this
planet!
He turned his eyes suddenly from Reg, who was white and trembling,
back to Richard.
When did you hear this? he said, puzzled.
Er, just now, said Richard, on... on the phone. Upstairs.
What?
It was Susan, I dont know how -- said she had a message on her
answering machine telling her about it. She said the message... was
from -- she said it was from Gordon, but I think she was hysterical.
Dirk, what the hell is happening? Where are we?
We are four billion years in the past, said Reg in a shaking
voice, please dont ask me why it is that the phone works when we are
anywhere in the Universe other than where its actually connected,
thats a matter you will have to take up with British Telecom, but --
Damn and blast British Telecom, shouted Dirk, the words coming
easily from force of habit. He ran to the door and peered again at the
dim shadowy figure trudging through the mud towards the Salaxalan ship,
completely beyond their reach.
How long, said Dirk, quite calmly, would you guess that its
going to take that fat self deluding bastard to reach his ship? Because
that is how long we have.
Come. Let us sit down. Let us think. We have two minutes in which
to decide what we are going to do. After that, I very much suspect that
the three of us, and everything we have ever known, including the
coelacanth and the dodo, dear Professor, will cease ever to have
existed.
He sat heavily on the sofa, then stood up again and removed
Michaels discarded jacket from under him. As he did so, a book fell
out of the pocket.
I think its an appalling act of desecration, said Richard to Reg,
as they sat hiding behind a hedge.
The night was full of summer smells from the cottage garden, and the
occasional whiff of sea air which came in on the light breezes that
were entertaining themselves on the coast of the Bristol Channel.
There was a bright moon playing over the sea off in the distance,
and by its light it was also possible to see some distance over Exmoor
stretching away to the south of them.
Reg sighed.
Yes, maybe, he said, but Im afraid hes right, you know, it must
be done. It was the only sure way. All the instructions were clearly
contained in the piece once you knew what you were looking for. It has
to be suppressed. The ghost will always be around. In fact two of him
now. That is, assuming this works. Poor devil. Still, I suppose he
brought it on himself.
Richard fretfully pulled up some blades of grass and twisted them
between his fingers.
He held them up to the moonlight, turned them to different angles,
and watched the way light played on them.
Such music, he said. Im not religious, but if I were I would say
it was like a glimpse into the mind of God. Perhaps it was and I ought
to be religious. I have to keep reminding myself that they didnt
create the music, they only created the instrument which could read the
score. And the score was life itself. And its all up there.
He glanced into the sky. Unconsciously he started to quote:
Could I revive within me
Her symphony and song
To such a deep delight twould win me
That with music loud and long
I would build that dome in air,
That sunny dome! Those caves of ice!
Hmmm, said Reg to himself, I wonder if he arrived early enough.
What did you say?
Oh, nothing. Just a thought.
Good God, he can talk, cant he? Richard exclaimed suddenly. Hes
been in there over an hour now. I wonder whats going on.
He got up and looked over the hedge at the small farm cottage
basking in the moonlight behind them. About an hour earlier Dirk had
walked boldly up to the front door and rapped on it.
When the door had opened, somewhat reluctantly, and a slightly dazed
face had looked out, Dirk had doffed his absurd hat and said in a loud
voice, Mr Samuel Coleridge?
I was just passing by, on my way from Porlock, you understand, and
I was wondering if I might trouble you to vouchsafe me an interview?
Its just for a little parish broadsheet I edit. Wont take much of
your time I promise, I know you must be busy, famous poet like you, but
I do so admire your work, and...
The rest was lost, because by that time Dirk had effected his entry
and closed the door behind him.
Would you excuse me a moment? said Reg.
What? Oh sure, said Richard, Im just going to have a look and
see whats happening.
While Reg wandered off behind a tree Richard pushed open the little
gate and was just about to make his way up the path when he heard the
sound of voices approaching the front door from within.
He hurriedly darted back, as the front door started to open.
Well, thank you very much indeed, Mr Coleridge, said Dirk, as he
emerged, fiddling with his hat and bowing, you have been most kind and
generous with your time, and I do appreciate it very much, as Im sure
will my readers. Im sure it will work up into a very nice little
article, a copy of which you may rest assured I will send you for you
to peruse at your leisure. I will most certainly welcome your comments
if you have any, any points of style, you know, hints, tips, things of
that nature. Well, thank you again, so much, for your time, I do hope I
havent kept you from anything important --
The door slammed violently behind him.
Dirk turned with another in a long succession of triumphant beams
and hurried down the path to Richard.
Well, thats put a stop to that, he said, patting his hands
together, I think hed made a start on writing it down, but he wont
remember another word, thats for certain. Wheres the egregious
Professor? Ah, there you are. Good heavens, Id no idea Id been that
long. A most fascinating and entertaining fellow, our Mr Coleridge, or
at least Im sure he would have been if Id given him the chance, but I
was rather too busy being fascinating myself.
Oh, but I did do as you asked, Richard, I asked him at the end
about the albatross and he said what albatross? So I said, oh it wasnt
important, the albatross did not signify. He said what albatross didnt
signify, and I said never mind the albatross, it didnt matter, and he
said it did matter -- someone comes to his house in the middle of the
night raving about albatrosses, he wanted to know why. I said blast the
bloody albatross and he said he had a good mind to and he wasnt
certain that that didnt give him an idea for a poem he was working on.
Much better, he said, than being hit by an asteroid, which he thought
was stretching credulity a bit. And so I came away.
Now. Having saved the entire human race from extinction I could do
with a pizza. What say you to such a proposal?
Richard didnt offer an opinion. He was staring instead with some
puzzlement at Reg.
Something troubling you? said Reg, taken aback.
Thats a good trick, said Richard, I could have sworn you didnt
have a beard before you went behind the tree.
Oh -- Reg fingered the luxuriant three-inch growth -- yes, he
said, just carelessness, he said, carelessness.
What have you been up to?
Oh, just a few adjustments. A little surgery, you understand.
Nothing drastic.
A few minutes later as he ushered them into the extra door that a
nearby cowshed had mysteriously acquired, he looked back up into the
sky behind them, just in time to see a small light flare up and
disappear.
Sorry, Richard, he muttered, and followed them in.
Thank you, no, said Richard firmly, much as I would love the
opportunity to buy you a pizza and watch you eat it, Dirk, I want to go
straight home. I have to see Susan. Is that possible, Reg? Just
straight to my flat? Ill come up to Cambridge next week and collect my
car.
We are already there, said Reg, simply step out of the door, and
you are home in your own flat. It is early on Friday evening and the
weekend lies before you.
Thanks. Er, look, Dirk, Ill see you around, OK? Do I owe you
something? I dont know.
Dirk waved the matter aside airily. You will hear from my Miss
Pearce in due course, he said.
Fine, OK, well Ill see you when Ive had some rest. Its been,
well, unexpected.
He walked to the door and opened it. Stepping outside he found
himself halfway up his own staircase, in the wall of which the door had
materialised.
He was about to start up the stairs when he turned again as a
thought struck him. He stepped back in, closing the door behind him.
Reg, could we make one tiny detour? he said. I think it would be
a good move if I took Susan out for a meal tonight, only the place I
have in mind you have to book in advance. Could you manage three weeks
for me?
Nothing could be easier, said Reg, and made a subtle adjustment to
the disposition of the beads on the abacus. There, he said, We have
travelled backwards in time three weeks. You know where the phone is.
Richard hurried up the internal staircase to Regs bedroom and
phoned LEsprit dEscalier. The maître d was charmed and delighted to
take his reservation, and looked forward to seeing him in three weeks
time. Richard went back downstairs shaking his head in wonder.
I need a weekend of solid reality, he said. Who was that just
going out of the door?
That, said Dirk, was your sofa being delivered. The man asked if
we minded him opening the door so they could manoeuvre it round and I
said we would be delighted.
It was only a few minutes later that Richard found himself hurrying
up the stairs to Susans flat. As he arrived at her front door he was
pleased, as he always was, to hear the deep tones of her cello coming
faintly from within. He quietly let himself in and then as he walked to
the door of her music room he suddenly froze in astonishment. The tune
she was playing was one he had heard before. A little tripping tune,
that slowed, then danced again but with more difficulty...
His face was so amazed that she stopped playing the instant she saw
him.
Whats wrong? she said, alarmed.
Where did you get that music? said Richard in a whisper.
She shrugged. Well, from the music shop, she said, puzzled. She
wasnt being facetious, she simply didnt understand the question.
What is it?
Its from a cantata Im playing in in a couple of weeks, she said,
Bach, number six.
Who wrote it?
Well, Bach I expect. If you think about it.
Who?
Watch my lips. Bach. B-A-C-H. Johannes Sebastian. Remember?
No, never heard of him. Who is he? Did he write anything else?
Susan put down her bow, propped up her cello, stood up and came over
to him.
Are you all right? she said.
Er, its rather hard to tell. Whats...
He caught sight of a pile of music books sitting in a corner of the
room with the same name on the top one. BACH. He threw himself at the
pile and started to scrabble through it. Book after book -- J. S. BACH.
Cello sonatas. Brandenburg Concertos. A Mass in B Minor.
He looked up at her in blank incomprehension.
Ive never seen any of this before, he said.
Richard my darling, she said, putting her hand to his cheek, what
on earths the matter? Its just Bach sheet music.
But dont you understand? he said, shaking a handful of the stuff.
Ive never, ever seen any of this before!
Well, she said with mock gravity, perhaps if you didnt spend all
your time playing with computer music...
He looked at her with wild surprise, then slowly he sat back against
the wall and began to laugh hysterically.
On Monday afternoon Richard phoned Reg.
Reg! he said. Your phone is working. Congratulations.
Oh yes, my dear fellow, said Reg, how delightful to hear from
you. Yes. A very capable young man arrived and fixed the phone a little
earlier. I dont think it will go wrong again now. Good news, dont you
think?
Very good. You got back safely then.
Oh yes, thank you. Oh, we had high excitement here when we returned
from dropping you off. Remember the horse? Well he turned up again with
his owner. Theyd had some unfortunate encounter with the constabulary
and wished to be taken home. Just as well. Dangerous sort of chap to
have on the loose I think. So. How are you then?
Reg... The music --
Ah, yes, I thought youd be pleased. Took a bit of work, I can tell
you. I saved only the tiniest tiniest scrap, of course, but even so I
cheated. It was rather more than one man could actually do in a
lifetime, but I dont suppose anybody will look at that too seriously.
Reg, cant we get some more of it?
Well, no. The ship has gone, and besides --
We could go back in time --
No, well, I told you. Theyve fixed the phone so it wont go wrong
again.
So?
Well, the time machine wont work now. Burnt out. Dead as a dodo. I
think thats it Im afraid. Probably just as well, though, dont you
think?
On Monday, Mrs Sauskind phoned Dirk Gentlys Holistic Detective
Agency to complain about her bill.
I dont understand what all this is about, she said, its
complete nonsense. Whats the meaning of it?
My dear Mrs Sauskind, he said, I can hardly tell you how much I
have been looking forward to having this exact same conversation with
you yet again. Where shall we begin today? Which particular item is it
that you would like to discuss?
None of them, thank you very much, Mr Gently. I do not know who you
are or why you should think my cat is missing. Dear Roderick passed
away in my arms two years ago and I have not wished to replace him.
Ah, well Mrs Sauskind, said Dirk, what you probably fail to
appreciate is that it is as a direct result of my efforts that -- If I
might explain about the interconnectedness of all... He stopped. It
was pointless. He slowly dropped the telephone back on its cradle.
Miss Pearce! he called out, Kindly send out a revised bill would
you to our dear Mrs Sauskind. The new bill reads To saving human race
from total extinction -- no charge.
He put on his hat and left for the day.
