So, it's been a while. The world kinda got to me for a bit, due mostly to
things well outside of my control. And as a result, I've really been in no mind
to write anything, much less a phlog or blog post.
Much of it involved my grandfather. He'd been sick for quite a while, but out
of the blue, he couldn't really walk without being winded. We finally got him
to go see a doctor, and he was diagnosed with bronchitis. Well, that turned out
to be the wrong problem, and one ER trip later, he had viral pneumonia. Then,
he was put on hospice and sent home because "they couldn't do anything more"
for him.
Literally two days later, he passed away from heart and respritory failure,
right in front of myself, my uncle, and other family members. That was last
month.
Things have been hectic ever since, with me having to do a lot of work for
my uncle (the last of four people who raised me). I've had to help in handling
all of the insurance changeovers, changing over the phone account, and just
doing what I can around the house when possible. I really haven't had a lot of
chances to relax, so my already bad anxiety and stress levels have only gotten
worse over time.
In other news, I managed to get Fedora 33 working on my laptop again. I don't
use Fedora 44 yet because of audio issues, namely losing all external audio
devices if I try to use anything but the built-in speakers. That's unusable for
me since I mostly use speakers through my port extender/dock for this thing
when I'm at my desk. So I'm waiting until Fedora 45, or news of a fix, before
I try to upgrade[0].
I missed my terminal apps. I missed using cmus, vim, wordgrinder, and the
massive toolkit I'd created over time. Windows just doesn't have a great CLI
or terminal[1] like *nix, so my wrist was hurting from all the use my mouse got
while I was back on Win7. That wasn't fun.
Also, I'll be honest, I'll be glad once I can get myself motivated enough to
start hacking on something again. I still have things I want to do with
Wordgrinder, and I still have an interest in fully learning Perl once I can get
my head back in the game. Same with learning C eventually.
For now, I just want to relax, and try to get myself to stop stressing out so
much about everything. I finally got an air conditioner for my room, I have
space to put things out for projects, and my recent returning love of Stardew
Valley means I have something casual to play when I just need to zone out for
a while. So not everything has been negative.
