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Myst III: Exile
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Atrus' Journal
Saavedro's Journal
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Atrus' Journal
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93.5.25
I always feared this day would come. For years, Catherine and I have
dreamed of restoring D'ni. We have dedicated our lives to the task, taking it
upon ourselves to locate the citizens of D'ni and convince them to return to
their ruined city and rebuild. Our dream has become the dream of so many now,
and the progress we have made toward achieving it is something of which we all
can stand proud. But I know now that it has been a mistake.
The city of D'ni should not be restored. It should stand forever in ruins,
as both a symbol of our past mistakes and a memorial to all who lost their
lives when D'ni fell. The devastating evens of recent months - the war on
Terahnee, and the death of Uta, in particular - have driven this truth home to
me quite forcefully. If we rebuild the city walls today, are we not giving
approval to the very illness that destroyed our civilization in the first
place? Are we not setting ourselves up to repeat that pattern again in future
generations?
I have put much thought into this tonight and have found only one
solution. if we, the men and women who survived the downfall of D'ni, are to
thrive, then we must break the pattern of hatred which has destroyed so many
lives. We must begin our civilization anew.
And we can only do that if I write us a new Age.
I have spoken with Catherine about this and she agrees. I only hope the
others will see it, as well.
93.5.26
Will these people never cease to amaze me? I thought they would object to
my decision. After all, most of them linked back to D'ni specifically to see
the city rebuilt. But when I told them why we should not restore it, their
response was immediate and unanimous. Whereas yesterday they thought only of
rebuilding, today they concentrate solely on salvage. They intend to take from
their ruined city only that which is best and move on.
Everywhere I look, the enthusiasm for this new task is obvious. It
heartens me, even as I face my own monumental contribution. I have written many
Ages in my lifetime - from my first timid attempts under the tyrannical
tutelage of my father, to my most recent accomplishment, Averone. Never before
has so much been riding on my skill. The Age I am about to write must be all I
ever imagined and more. How am I going to achieve it?
93.6.1
Catherine laughed this morning when she saw me drudging out my old
notebooks. I must have made quite the picture: sitting near the embers of a
fire, surrounded by countless commentaries and journals. Some of them seemed
more dust than paper. But the hours I spent sifting through them was worth it.
Ideas for what this new Age might be are tumbling around in my head. There are
almost too many to catch hold of.
Obviously, I must choose some starting point as my anchor. Writing Ages is
a science - a precisely structured equation of words. Every equation needs as
its foundation an underlying concept around which the Age can develop. In the
past, I have written my Books around whatever idea intrigued me most at the
time. I wanted to discover how the Age to which the Book linked would manifest
the results of that idea. Sometimes civilizations had arisen. Sometimes they
had not. But whether a society had come to exist on the Age or not, it was
often in response to whatever concept the Book I had written embodied. This
time, my search for a concept must be weighed very carefully. I already have
the civilization I wish to see develop. I know our history as a people, and the
paths we have followed to arrive here. Today I must write a Book which will
link to an Age that will allow us to continue on our way, growing ever stronger
as one people. What underlying concept must this new Age reflect that will best
allow our civilization to thrive?
I fear I must think on this some more.
93.6.5
it has taken me some time, but I may have found my anchor. It came to me
as I was considering what I know about the survivors of D'ni. We have seen so
much tragedy in our lives from the destruction of the city, to the suffering
and loss of loved ones due to plague and deprivation. Yet even in the midst of
these adversities, my kinsmen and I have found the strength to keep going. We
have tapped into our individual strengths and transformed ourselves into
something much stronger.
It is a characteristic I have seen in several of my Ages, whenever I
focused my Writing on the inherent energy sources in a world. Long ago,
Grandmother taught me that no life - no possibility for life in an Age - exists
without the presence of energy. By tapping into its latent energy sources, an
Age moves out of stasis. It grows, transforms, and develops. Energy is the
underlying fuel that powers all activity.
To put it more simply: energy powers future motion.
Yet, as Grandmother also liked to remind me, energy in an Age takes on
diverse forms. Each one has strengths and weaknesses of its own. How many forms
will this new Age contain? Which type will be its dominant theme?
Tomorrow I will link back to Myst, and from there revisit several of my
Ages. Perhaps in my old worlds, I will discover new ideas.
93.6.6
I had almost forgotten how painful it is to revisit Myst. In the ten years
since my sons, Sirrus and Achenar, left me trapped on K'veer Island and burned
so many of my Books, Catherine and I have rarely linked back. I told myself we
were always too busy. First with writing Ages like Averone, then with searching
the Ages of D'ni for survivors. I always said we would spend more time on Myst
eventually.
The truth is, I have been avoiding the Age. Seeing the island in its
current condition ignites such anger and grief. I am immediately reminded of
the betrayal of my sons, as well as the cruelty and greed with which they
plundered my Ages. I know I am partly responsible for these acts. I constantly
wonder if there were something I could have done to reach out to the boys
before - Enough! Nothing can change the tragedies of the past. Like my D'ni
kinsmen, I must salvage what is best and move on. Perhaps in the process, I
will find forgiveness and hope.
93.10.17
Once again I am back on Myst island, having completed a lengthy sojourn
through several of my Ages. The trip itself was not as inspiring as I had
hoped. The Selenitic Age was especially disturbing, but has it not always been
so? They very first time I linked to the Age, its uninhabited landscape was
shaking with tremors. At the time, I felt it was because the energy in the Age
was unfocused, as if it were at war with itself. Stability finally came but
even after it did, I never truly felt comfortable there. I missed the more
natural balance of Ages like Channelwood.
Perhaps that is the lesson to take home with me. The D'ni, too, have faced
much turmoil in their history. Their lives have been unsettled enough. Perhaps
I should be striving to offset the energy that already exists within our
civilization by providing it with a more stabilized environment in which to
grow. An environment in which the natural equilibrium of the world serves as a
counterpart to the upheavals of civilization.
The more I consider it, the more I wonder if I should make Nature the
foundation of this new Age. Worlds like Channelwood attain equilibrium quite
easily, primarily because of one reason: nature encourages mutual dependence.
As one life withers and dies, it provides nourishment so that another might
live. Plants become food for other animals, and the waste products animals
cannot absorb become nutrients to sustain the other plants. So long as nothing
intrudes to upset this balance, nature can maintain itself indefinitely.
An interesting metaphor to set as an example for my people!
I think I will confer with Catherine on this subject. Her Ages always
exhibit symbiosis more dramatically than mine. Perhaps she should help me Write
this new Age.
93.10.24
I am so tired, I can barely think right now. But I will force myself to
stay focused, for I have not written anything in days. The moment I linked back
to D'ni, I was besieged with requests for my assistance. Master Tamon wanted to
consult over which stone cutters were worth salvaging - and did I think the
rock in this new Age would be difficult to sound? Oma and Esel needed my
opinion about a new history they had uncovered - should they hold off on
starting its translation, or would paper supplies be scarce in the new Age?
There were so many questions needing answers, I barely had time to see
Catherine!
She, of course, laughed at my dilemma, saying that I had no one to blame
but myself. After all, I was the one who encouraged the D'ni to start over.
Naturally, they would look to me to keep them moving in the right direction,
unless some other force stepped in to change that view.
Her words made me realize a fundamental principle I had thus far been
ignoring. All this time, I have been debating whether to make energy or nature
the underlying framework for this Age. But there is another equation to
consider! An Age based solely on the future motion of energy will face constant
upheavals, most likely at the cost of tranquility. And an Age based solely on
the mutual dependence of nature can become so balanced over time, it may cease
to tolerate change. Yet to continue to grow as a people, D'ni civilization
needs both: occasional upheavals followed by periods of balanced stability.
I have seen such situations occur naturally on several of my Ages. Each
time, it was because I centered the Writing around some dynamic force that I
had decided to make prevalent in the Age. Such forces allow the balance between
forward motion and mutual dependence to fluctuate. As one concept takes
precedence, the other recedes until another force surfaces to change things. As
Catherine's insightful comment reminded me, dynamic forces spur change.
I am too tired to think more on this tonight. Hopefully in the morning, my
thoughts will coalesce.
93.10.25
Catherine surprised me today. Apparently while I was off visiting my Ages,
she linked to Myst herself. She did not say so, but I could tell that her visit
had been painful. More than ever now, I am convinced we must find a place to
begin again ourselves.
Perhaps when I have written this new Age for the D'ni, I will put some
thought into where Catherine and I might live.
93.10.28
I cannot believe I did not see it before! All this time I have been
struggling to describe the perfect Age for the D'ni. I have considered and
rejected several underlying concepts which I felt might best set the course for
their future - as if I alone should determine how D'ni civilization will grow!
In my own way, I have become as egotistical as my father!
In truth, I owe this realization to Catherine. Sensing my indecision about
the new Age, she led me on a walk around D'ni. Salvaging efforts were all
underway, with teams of people scouring the ruined harbor district. As I
watched my D'ni kinsmen deciding which parts of their culture to retain, I
realized they do not need me to determine their future. They are quite capable
of setting its course by themselves, regardless of what Age I write!
This realization has opened my eyes to the best way of approaching my
task. I no longer need to worry about which underlying concept - energy,
nature, or dynamic forces - I should make prevalent in the Age. Rather, I must
strive to include them all. I must write a balance of systems into the
descriptive Book, enough so that the D'ni people will constantly be challenged
to attain their ultimate potential. As Grandmother often pointed out to me when
we spoke about Ages back on Myst, balanced systems stimulate civilizations.
At last I feel I am ready to begin Writing this Age. Indeed, I am eager to
begin, and have already come up with the perfect name. I know Grandmother would
have loved it!
Of course, Catherine could tell the moment I turned to her that I had
finally found my starting point. I babbled on excitedly for some time before I
noticed the smile she was hiding. When I saw it enough to grow suspicious, she
handed me one of my oldest Age Books. She must have picked it up when she
linked back to Myst. Seeing the name "J'nanin" emblazoned on the Book cover, I
could only shake my head. The one Age I never got around to revisiting was the
one that might have helped me the most! How foolish was I to have completely
forgotten it.
I think, after I have finished this work, I should take one final trip -
if only restore an old fool's memories!
It is coming back to me. Slowly. The knowledge of who I am. How long I have
been trapped here. So much of it is blurry. Whole blocks of time still floating
in the fog that eats my mind. But if I concentrate, I get pieces of it back.
It was the dream that first helped me remember. I was lying near the tusk. I
don't know for how long or how I get here. I am staring at the sky. Seeing a
man grow out of the cliff. First his head. Then his shoulders. Then his torso.
Sunlight rims his body like a halo. I cannot move. I think that Death has
finally come for me.
The man stands on the cliff with a book in his hand, staring down at the lagoon
as if something made him sad. I wanted to call out to him. To tell him it was
me he's come to find. But my mouth is dry. I can't remember any words. And
before I think to stand, he opens his book. Puts his hand on the page. And
fades to dust.
I thought he was a dream.
It was only later - hours? or weeks later? - that I find his swirling book atop
the cliff. And when I reach down to grab it, it is real.
The fog tried to swallow me then and there but I held on to the firm reality of
the book and did not let it. I did not let the numbness steal my mind.
[[Entry 2]]
The book sits on the floor of the tusk, its swirling panel reaching tentacle -
like arms out to grab me. I want to close my eyes, to shut out these false
illusions before they suck me into the fog. I do not want those swirling arms
to touch me.
Why? Why am I so afraid of his book?
I want to remember. I must. I think -
I think this man may have come to our village. But he was younger then. Dark
haired. Tall. Wearing those same strange flowing brown robes. He carried a book
in his hands then too and he's always using it. Always writing down notes. His
eyes are covered by thick glasses but his face is warm and friendly. He tells
me his name. He says it is Atrus.
I remember now. His name is Atrus.
Atrus says he's come to our village from a faraway place because he wanted to
learn about the tree. He says he'll only stay awhile. Doesn't want to stop our
endless labors. He says he wants to help, if we will let him.
Oh Tamra. Why did we let him?
Keep writing, Saavedro. Write everything down.
This Atrus stayed with us for months. I taught him how to trim the delicate
Lattice roots. How to splice old and new growths together so the walls of our
houses will grow strong. I tell him the traditions of the Weave. How by using
the spores to support the growing branches, we keep the Lattice Tree alive. He
wants to learn everything I know. He wants Narayan to survive.
I take him to the rift, to where the sea flows through gas in the world. Steam
flows up from the waterfall. The puffer spores are ready to take flight. We
stand in the shadows of dusk and watch the spores begin to rise. He says they
look like pearls against the sky. Then he points to one of the spores. It's
smaller than the rest. Small enough to fit the nice we'd woven into the
branches that morning. Its skin is milky white. With just the faintest touch of
pink.
That one, Atrus said. That should support your new daughter's room perfectly, I
think.
I remember I nodded. Then I raised my pipe and played. Atrus stood beside me,
holding his breath as my song drew the hollow spore in close. As soon as it was
near he threw the net and dragged it in.
This is what I remember.
This is why I said he could send me his sons.
[[Entry 3]]
Focus, Saavedro. You must not let the fog come and swallow you. There are long
spells, I think. Days. Maybe months at a time when I can't remember so thick
around me, even if I hold my hand in front of my eyes I barely see it. I strain
and strain but nothing sticks. I think
I think his sons came to visit us twice -
On Narayan.
The first time, Atrus asked me to meet them. He told me they would come through
the book. He says, they will not understand how your words fit together, but
they will use them to open the shield. Narayan, he says, is where their lessons
come together. Narayan is the sum of what they must learn.
I remember. Tamra was carving a Spirit Mask into the Tree the day the boys
arrive. She tugs my sleeve to get attention. Points at a glide ship in the sky.
I am shocked by how young the boys appear. They look so much like their father.
Yet they are different somehow, too. They're more impatient. And they are angry
not to be treated like men.
I take them to our home. I tell them I will teach them how to care for it. I
say, together we will encourage the Lattice Tree to grow tall. They ask me why
they have to work so hard. They tell me -
No, Saavedro!!! That was later. That was after Atrus took them away. You know
this, because when you see them saying these things they are older. Their faces
have become angled and hard. They have grown up, into men. And something dark
is in their eyes.
They tell you they've come back to fix Narayan.
[[Entry 4]]
Sirrus. And. Achenar.
The walls run red with steam and strangling branches. I see their bloated faces
laughing at everything. I remember how they lied. I remember what they did.
They brought me here to die
I followed them
The Lattice Roots were black from too much overgrowth. Puffer spores floated up
in the hot steam and burst. No one was there to guide the spores to the
branches. No one was waiting to perform the ritual weaves. The fighting had
torn my people part.
They didn't care.
They didn't care.
They wanted Narayan to die
[[Entry 5]]
I have done it. I have used his swirling linking book to follow him. I touched
my palm to its glowing panel and felt the tingling begin. There was a sudden,
sickening lurch inside my stomach. Then I fell into the page.
This has happened before. I know it. It happened the first time I came to this
place. When I followed his murdering sons from Narayan. It happened when I used
his hidden books. And it happened when I finally opened the machine. Right
before the fog first ate my mind.
The fog didn't find me this time. When I opened my eyes I was alone in a room.
I was standing in the home of my betrayers.
I couldn't move. I was afraid. I thought they'd know that I had come and would
be waiting for me. Just like they had waited inside this very tusk. I was
afraid they would tie me up again. That the poison snakes would strike
But the silence was unbroken. The whole house was still. And without really
knowing what I did, I started to search. Every room. Every floor. Every
cabinet. I found his journals. Atrus' never-ending journals. I found the book
that brought me back to this world. The lesson world he calls J'nanin.
Oh Tamra my love. How long have I been trapped here? How much of my life has
been eaten by the fog? The face I see in the lagoon isn't one I remember even
wearing. It's so much older. So much more savage. But it is me. It is Saavedro.
And I remember what they did. How they led my people to death.
[[Entry 6]]
The memories flood over me too fast. They race around inside my head, filling
my soul with despair. And the more I think about how nothing can be done, how
no one can be alive outside his shield, the faster the fog rushes in.
I can lose myself in the fog.
When it's thick enough, I can let go and be safe.
I can start to forget
But I must not forget. I must remember every lie they told my people. How they
manipulated us all to get what they wanted! They told me they had come to fix
my world. They asked me to arrange a meeting with the Elders. The books they
carried in with them showed other worlds - beautiful places where people didn't
have to work so hard to survive. They told my people that Atrus had written
these books. That he had written Narayan, but that he'd made our world
unstable. They said he wanted to make us slaves to the Tree. They asked me,
don't you remember, Saavedro? Our father wrote this world to teach us. To show
his sons what an Age shouldn't be.
I don't know what to say. I don't know how it could be true. But why would they
lie? Why would Atrus have lied? The worlds they showed us in those Book
The Elders refuse to believe them. They say we cannot abandon the Tree. For
thousands of years we have tended the Lattice roots. Without our traditions, we
will die.
I don't want us to die. I don't! But Sirrus and Achenar said
They said they would come back, Saavedro. Just like Atrus once said to you, as
well. He said he would come back, but then he didn't. He didn't. And for that,
you will have to make him pay.
[[Entry 7]]
I have returned several times now to Tomahna. I am searching for some sign of
his sons. I was certain they wold run back to their father, but so much time
has passed. So many years in which to forget about my people.
Is that what happened, Atrus? Safe in your beautiful new home, enjoying your
dear wife and family. Did you become so busy envisioning new worlds that you
forgot the ones you've already created?
I must be very careful. I must not let them know that I am free. I will read
what journals I can find to figure out where his two sons are hiding. And when
I've found the sons again - when I've got the whole family together - I'll
bring them down. Atrus and his family will suffer.
The way I have suffered for years.
[[Entry 8]]
I see it all so clearly now. So clear, without the fog to sweep it away. How
the young men in the village don't want to listen to the Elders. How they stand
together at the back of the room, a growing knot of anger twisting inside them.
Why should we abide by your rules, old men? they scream. You have no life
inside you left to live! You gave it up decades ago to the Tree!
Tamra wants to take the children home. She doesn't like the way the tempers are
rising. Do something, Saavedro, she whispers. Tell them to stop shouting and
make them listen. Tell them
What, my love? Tell them what? That their young lives do not belong to them
alone? That our people are meant to be slaves to our world?
Sirrus and Achenar can see the confusion they're creating. I catch them looking
at faces, measuring which men are most dissatisfied. Later they will approach
these men in secret. They will urge the malcontents to boycott our rituals.
They will prey on their youth and dissatisfaction. And the young men will begin
forming gangs. They will throw off our traditions, rise against the Elders, and
follow the brothers. Riots will start. And the Tree will be neglected.
Oh Tamra. It's all so obvious now. But why couldn't I see it at the time? Every
lie the brothers told. Every whisper made to put themselves in power. And when
our world started collapsing around us, why didn't I see how Sirrus and Achenar
didn't care? They never believed the truth behind our traditions. They never
understood the work we had to do. They only knew the time had to come to leave.
And when they did they left their linking book behind, knowing I would use it
to chase after them. They lured me to this world, tied me up, and left me to
die here.
Because I didn't stop them when I should have.
[[Entry 9]]
Sirrus and Achenar are not in Tomahna. Every day, I become more and more
convinced Atrus' sons are not there.
What happened, Atrus? Did you grow tired of them, the way you tired of Narayan?
Did you abandon them, the way you abandoned my people behind your shield?
It does not matter. I can still take revenge against their father. Now that I'm
no longer stuck on J'nanin, I can avenge all the dead in my world. I have
already reopened his other books. I have begun making changes in those worlds,
using his own lessons against him. There is still much more work to be done,
but eventually I will lure him into this tusk. I will find some way to make him
follow me here from Tomahna.
For now, I will concentrate on the Orbiter. It is not a natural part of its
world. The material that creates it is like nothing I've seen. It reminds me,
just a little, of the shield. And if it is the same material, it can't be
damaged.
But perhaps I can damage the other devices.
[[Entry 10]]
I have desecrated the poem he placed in the columns. I could no longer stand to
see Narayan's artistry in his worlds. I think I can do something with sap to
cover the second one, but I'm not sure what to do about the island. I don't
know how to alter the current.
Perhaps, if I bring in some of the unusual floating stone from Amateria?
Something about the molecular composition of the rock in that Age causes it to
attract and repel other stone quite forcefully. Maybe, if I introduce some of
it to the soil on this island, it will interfere just enough to damage the last
poem.
I will have to conduct some experiments.
[[Entry 11]]
It is taking me too long! Every minute I spend searching his house runs the
risk of someone walking in and finding me. I would bring his journals to the
tusk, but I'm afraid he will notice them gone. Already, I'm afraid of what he
knows. Of what his wife might know. She almost caught me last time. I had
linked directly into the sun room. I was walking toward his study when I heard
footsteps coming down the hall. She was talking with someone. She was laughing.
And for one heart-wrenching moment, I thought she was Tamra.
Then I remembered my Tamra is dead. I left her to die when I went after the
brothers. I told her to go to the reef, to take our two girls there and hide. I
took the necklace she gave me to remember her and I told her
Oh god, Tamra! I told you it would all be okay! For years, I prayed my words
were not a lie. That you had made it to reef. That you were tending to the
ailing Lattice roots. By the Weaving, Tamra, how I prayed!
Until I opened his machine.
I saw Narayan through his shield.
And even though the barrier kept me locked inside, I knew. I knew the Lattice
Tree had died.
Narayan can't survive without the Tree.
No one can be alive outside his shield.
Standing in Atrus' house, knowing that my wife and children were dead, I felt
the fog roll toward me again. And as much as I wanted to give in to its
numbness, I couldn't. I couldn't let Atrus' wife find me standing there.
Somehow, I waded through the haze. I made my way to the study, found the book
that would take me back to J'nanin. It was right where I had left it. Where
they might not see it fall. I placed my hand on the panel. Heard the door
behind me opening. And then the study disappeared.
She almost saw me. I know it. It was much too close this time. If the book
hadn't been where I had left it -
Next time, I'll bring a book from one of his other Ages with me. Just in case
it happens again.
[[Entry 12]]
My attempts to produce a carnivorous hybrid have had limited success. I thought
I was making great progress, but the life that grows in the forest isn't like
the plants on Narayan. It's much more tenacious. Less susceptible to grafts.
Perhaps, if I try mixing in species from the swamp?
[[Entry 13]]
No!! It cannot be true! Surely his journals deceive me!
He says he's brought them back. He says he's given his D'ni brethren new life.
But how? How can one man have so much power? How can one man's writings
reawaken a dead world?
I don't know what this means. By all that is sacred, Tamra - what can it mean?
It doesn't change a thing. I can still continue as I planned. I can still seek
revenge for my people. I will make my enemies suffer.
By the Weaving, Tamra.
This changes everything.
[[Entry 14]]
The cavern wall is almost ready. For weeks I have been polishing it, rubbing
away at the cracks to obtain a smooth surface. I haven't been able to sleep
much these last weeks. I was afraid I might never wake up. But if I can make
him see all that happened - if I can show him the pain his family caused - it
will be worth it.
Tomorrow, I begin mixing the paints.
[[Entry 15]]
I have found a way to reprogram his scanning device. It requires scavenging
parts from another mechanism in the tusk, but I think the gears I leave can
still be operated by hand.
[[Entry 16]]
The final painting is almost done. It's been hard to work in the heat, but he
must see everything that happened. As he follows the instructions I have left
him, he will feel the pain I've suffered.
If he doesn't, perhaps both of us will die.
[[Entry 17]]
It is finished. All is ready for Atrus' arrival. Tonight I will sleep among the
ghosts. Then tomorrow, I will link into Tomahna. When I link out, I'll be
carrying his Book.
May the spirits of my people serve to guide me in this.
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