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| My Story | |
| By: Montraviatommygun Date: February 27, 2011, 9:23 am | |
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| My Story | |
| I'll start from when I was 12 years old so it will make a bit | |
| more sense with my reasoning. | |
| When I was 12 and my sister was 15 she had a steady boyfriend by | |
| whom she feel pregnant and when my parents found out they were | |
| furious. They insisted she had an abortion and made sure she | |
| split up from her boyfriend despite them wanting to keep the | |
| baby. He was working so could have afforded to support my sister | |
| and their baby. | |
| Fast forward 6 years and I got myself into a serious | |
| relationship resulting in us getting engaged. Unfortunately he | |
| changed slowly becoming possessive and jealous so although he | |
| didn't physically abuse me he did emotionally. I couldn't look | |
| at another man let alone talk to any I knew, except his friends | |
| whom he trusted, without him kicking off. At the time I lost | |
| count of the times I was accused of flirting or fancying other | |
| men. In late 1980 we split up basically because his jealousy got | |
| the better off him and shortly afterwards I knew I was pregnant. | |
| I knew it would be a waste of telling my ex boyfriend he was the | |
| father as he wouldn't have believed me. | |
| I kept quiet long enough so that my parents couldn't force me to | |
| have an abortion like they did with my sister. It had crossed my | |
| mind once but I couldn't go through with it as I wanted my baby. | |
| I was working so could afford to keep my baby financially as | |
| well emotionally wanted to keep him. | |
| When my parents found out they went ballistic as it was too late | |
| for me to have an abortion so they were adament he was to be | |
| adopted. Nothing was discussed nor did I agree with them and | |
| they went ahead with making arrangements. The first time I saw a | |
| case worker was after I had my son on the 3rd August 1981 and I | |
| admitted that I didn't want him adopted, that it was my parents | |
| who were adament about this. She promised to put a stop to the | |
| adoption and that she would support my decision. However she did | |
| persuade me to let my son go into foster care until I got sorted | |
| and not to see him in case I decided adoption was the best | |
| option. My one act of defiance was to go and see him in the | |
| nursery and to hold him for a while which I have always been | |
| glad I did. I was in hospital for about a week as I was ill so | |
| asked to see my son again but was told I was too ill to see him. | |
| Later I found out he had already been moved to another hospital | |
| so I couldn't have seen him anyway. | |
| The weeks went by and I still wanted to keep my son but my | |
| parents started putting more pressure on me as the case worker | |
| had told them how I felt. They used lines like I couldn't work | |
| and look after my son, I couldn't afford child care, they would | |
| make sure I would lose my job, that I would be homeless and that | |
| if I was living on the streets my son would be taken away from | |
| me. When he was 6 weeks old I was told it was too late to put a | |
| stop to the adoption which I naively believed so that was it. | |
| For the next 23 years my son wasn't talked about although I | |
| never forgot about him. I got married on the 20th November 1993 | |
| although unfortunately we haven't had any children. In early | |
| 1999 I had a falling out with my family as my sister had told | |
| some particularly nasty lies about me and my husband. In the | |
| August my son started searching for me and found my family quite | |
| quickly. However by this time I had moved so they quite honestly | |
| told him they didn't know where I was. | |
| In late 2001 I got back in contact with my parents as I felt it | |
| was time to try and bridges as they are elderly and frail. I | |
| still refuse to have anything to do with my sister as she still | |
| tells lies about me. In August 2004 my husband and I thought it | |
| would be fun to join www.genesreunited.com which is a British | |
| based site for people researching there family trees. After I | |
| had put all the details that I could I realized my details had | |
| been entered by my son as he was a member using the names I had | |
| given him. I emailed him without a second thought then panicked | |
| about it. He responded quite quickly and we have been in reunion | |
| since. I was very upset to find out that my parents hadn't told | |
| me that they had contact with him or let him know where I was, | |
| Their excuse was that they didn't know if my husband knew about | |
| my son yet my sister had told him about my son years ago. All I | |
| can assume is that my sister didn't tell my parents what she had | |
| done. However because of their silence my son thought I didn't | |
| want to know him and that my family were covering for me though | |
| he knows that isn't true now. | |
| It's been a rollercoaster journey particularly since my son | |
| moved in with us on the 21st Dec 2006. At the time we thought it | |
| was just till September 2007 when he would be returning back to | |
| Canada. My son moved out in 2009 and the journey continues.... | |
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