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| #Post#: 34-------------------------------------------------- | |
| TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 19, 2017, 7:59 pm | |
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| When I was 6 I was taken advantage of by a family friend. | |
| While I won't go into super details it wasn't rape, there wasn't | |
| penetration, but fingers put where they shouldn't have been, and | |
| I woke up w him inside of me. | |
| He made me promise not to tell and I didn't. And I hate myself | |
| for it. | |
| As I got older and told therapists they made me think this could | |
| have a lot to do w who I am as a person. Does anyone else have | |
| any trauma as a child that they believe contributed to their | |
| issues today? | |
| #Post#: 50-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: relapsequietly Date: July 19, 2017, 9:48 pm | |
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| TW | |
| I was molested multiple times by an uncle as a child. I've | |
| blocked most of the memory out but as I'm getting older things | |
| are starting to come back. I have faint memories and even slight | |
| flashbacks of things he did to me. I'm currently in therapy | |
| trying to work through it since it's taking over my life and my | |
| ed has gotten worse because of it. | |
| Also in 8th grade I was sexually assaulted by a boy on the bus, | |
| and junior year of HS I was sexually assaulted in a car by a | |
| senior boy. | |
| I believe my ED is 75% due to the fact that I was sexually | |
| abused. | |
| #Post#: 78-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 20, 2017, 2:25 pm | |
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| TW | |
| I also had an issue in HS w someone who was 24 at the time I | |
| don't wanna call it rape but kinda felt like it. | |
| Most recently this past summer I had another weird experience w | |
| a guy friend. | |
| I'm happy you're talking about them in therapy | |
| [member=20]relapsequietly[/member] I'm just unable to do so but | |
| I do think the episode when I was really young has at least | |
| something to do w all of this | |
| #Post#: 89-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: relapsequietly Date: July 20, 2017, 8:07 pm | |
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| [quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg78#msg78 | |
| date=1500578708] | |
| TW | |
| I also had an issue in HS w someone who was 24 at the time I | |
| don't wanna call it rape but kinda felt like it. | |
| Most recently this past summer I had another weird experience w | |
| a guy friend. | |
| I'm happy you're talking about them in therapy | |
| [member=20]relapsequietly[/member] I'm just unable to do so but | |
| I do think the episode when I was really young has at least | |
| something to do w all of this | |
| [/quote] | |
| It's totally okay if you never talk about it, but if there ever | |
| comes a time where it starts to affect your life in extreme | |
| ways, I'd try to make an effort to talk about it. It will ruin | |
| your life otherwise. However if you're doing okay with it now, | |
| don't worry about therapy for it. Though therapy is EXTREMELY | |
| difficult and brings up a lot of unwanted feelings and memories | |
| and flashbacks I'm somehow getting validation for it. | |
| #Post#: 91-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 20, 2017, 8:23 pm | |
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| I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't | |
| know! | |
| One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The | |
| middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive | |
| about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one | |
| day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think | |
| she called my previous one and got that info because who asks | |
| that?? | |
| I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some | |
| effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too | |
| so who even knows. | |
| Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding | |
| it helpful! | |
| I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger | |
| picture buuuut idk how necessary it is | |
| #Post#: 93-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: relapsequietly Date: July 20, 2017, 8:25 pm | |
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| [quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91 | |
| date=1500600189] | |
| I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't | |
| know! | |
| One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The | |
| middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive | |
| about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one | |
| day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think | |
| she called my previous one and got that info because who asks | |
| that?? | |
| I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some | |
| effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too | |
| so who even knows. | |
| Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding | |
| it helpful! | |
| I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger | |
| picture buuuut idk how necessary it is | |
| [/quote] | |
| If you're in therapy for your ED I'd say talk about it, a huge | |
| majority of ED's develop because of sexual abuse. My therapist | |
| apparently always knew/had a feeling even though I never told | |
| anyone but waited for me to confirm it. | |
| #Post#: 102-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 23, 2017, 11:52 am | |
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| [quote author=relapsequietly link=topic=17.msg93#msg93 | |
| date=1500600356] | |
| [quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91 | |
| date=1500600189] | |
| I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't | |
| know! | |
| One tried doing EMDR w me but I felt like it was all BS. The | |
| middle one like pried it out of me and was super aggressive | |
| about always bringing it up. My last one randomly asked me one | |
| day if it ever happened but we never got into details- I think | |
| she called my previous one and got that info because who asks | |
| that?? | |
| I don't rly think about it but I think it might have left some | |
| effects although growing up I dealt w a lot of mental abuse too | |
| so who even knows. | |
| Either way, I'm happy you're talking about it if you're finding | |
| it helpful! | |
| I think my new therapist should know about it to paint a bigger | |
| picture buuuut idk how necessary it is | |
| [/quote] | |
| If you're in therapy for your ED I'd say talk about it, a huge | |
| majority of ED's develop because of sexual abuse. My therapist | |
| apparently always knew/had a feeling even though I never told | |
| anyone but waited for me to confirm it. | |
| [/quote] | |
| Yeah I am, I probably should tell her I just don't know how to | |
| just say that! | |
| #Post#: 103-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: relapsequietly Date: July 23, 2017, 10:09 pm | |
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| [quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg102#msg102 | |
| date=1500828772] | |
| [quote author=relapsequietly link=topic=17.msg93#msg93 | |
| date=1500600356] | |
| [quote author=ThinWishes3 link=topic=17.msg91#msg91 | |
| date=1500600189] | |
| I told 3/4 of my therapists about it- my most recent doesn't | |
| know! | |
| Yeah I am, I probably should tell her I just don't know how to | |
| just say that! | |
| [/quote] | |
| It's definitely not easy but if you can somehow get it out, | |
| you'll feel so much better! | |
| #Post#: 107-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: Katmaz69 Date: July 26, 2017, 7:12 pm | |
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| TW | |
| When I was 6 I was serially assaulted at a park. I had left the | |
| house just after dinner because mom was yelling at dad. And | |
| things always got really bad then. So I left. And while I was | |
| sitting a swing a man came up and asked why I was crying. Anyway | |
| without going into too much detail. I told my parents what had | |
| happened when they found me at the park. And they immediately | |
| shut me down. And kept asking why I was so stupid to have gone | |
| out after dark. And why I would talk to a strange man. And yes | |
| it's affected who I am today. Mpd was directly effected by this. | |
| #Post#: 115-------------------------------------------------- | |
| Re: TW. Childhood sexual abuse. | |
| By: ThinWishes3 Date: July 30, 2017, 5:01 pm | |
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| I'm so sorry your parents did that to you! Going through | |
| something traumatic is terrible on its own. Not having the | |
| people who are supposed to protect you believe or off to help | |
| you, makes that even worse. | |
| What is mpd if you don't mind me asking | |
| [quote author=Katmaz69 link=topic=17.msg107#msg107 | |
| date=1501114361] | |
| TW | |
| When I was 6 I was serially assaulted at a park. I had left the | |
| house just after dinner because mom was yelling at dad. And | |
| things always got really bad then. So I left. And while I was | |
| sitting a swing a man came up and asked why I was crying. Anyway | |
| without going into too much detail. I told my parents what had | |
| happened when they found me at the park. And they immediately | |
| shut me down. And kept asking why I was so stupid to have gone | |
| out after dark. And why I would talk to a strange man. And yes | |
| it's affected who I am today. Mpd was directly effected by this. | |
| [/quote] | |
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