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# Sufficient Unto the Day
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=== 2025-07-05 21:43:16 Saturday
Day winding down. Fun times sleeping in, then slowly
getting into the day. Hit the pool twice, sandwiched
around a drinking and out-to-eat outing, which went like:
two craft beers before dinner, then a favorite Mexican
dish to an excellent margarita.
Tomorrow we've a remote performance that might see
some rain. We'll be staying in its vicinity regardless,
so whatever.
But of course home remains sweetest.
=== 2025-07-05 18:37:08 Saturday
The only problem with what I used to do on the internet
was believing it could possibly lead to anything but
typing practice.
Early on I made the fatal assumption that only those like
me could find their way into certain spaces.
Turns out they were, at best, merely accidentally
similar - and imagination completed the delusional hoping
against hope.
Fortunately it matters not one whit, unlike how much it
seemed to for seemingly so long.
=== 2025-07-05 18:16:38 Saturday
"Carriage return is noise" @ nex://none.rip/035 rings
true.
I've spent what seems like half of my individual self
recurrences attempting to rid my"self" of carriage
returns, the mosquito of the ASCII characters.
I'll go a long time, and am suddenly plagued by them
by way of some innocent - yet errant - copy and past,
suddenly in desperate need of the muscle memory to, in
vim, to type Ctrl-V Ctrl-M into a global substitution
command without having to search all over yet again for
how to deal with that abomination.
=== 2025-07-05 13:57:22 Saturday
Behind the within is I.
Not you.
I.
I AM THAT I AM.
Yep, that one.
You don't need to find a way to get there.
You've never been other than there.
That you - as "a you" - have seemed to be
elsewhere has been nothing but a "fun" little
ex-ploration of ex-perience - i.e. of theoretical
elsewhere-and/or-other-than-ness.
=== 2025-07-05 13:37:17 Saturday
But that (previous entry) is just the world. Of *course*
it's variations on the theme of escape, because it begins
with the illusory identification with a posited notion
named "I" - a fundamental (in world scheme) escape of
sorts. Of *course* more of the same will follow from
that! Of *course* such fruit will fall near the tree!
=== 2025-07-05 13:28:39 Saturday
The internet is attempted escape from life, pure and
simple.
I could walk next door, knock on the door, and ask if
my neighbor would like to chat outside for a while. The
chances are fairly good they'd be interested, even if
not this moment. I can talk to the person at the next
gas pump while refilling, and they'll almost certainly
respond. We'll not solve world hunger, and yet we'll each
have temporarily addressed a hunger.
I've knocked of thousands of online doors, and have
nothing to show for it.
I think it's because nobody is here for it to
really/actually work, because the point is to escape what
can really/actually work....
=== 2025-07-05 13:13:33 Saturday
Here's a great example of the kind of documentation that
ruins online potential:
nex://nightfall.city/nps/info/form.txt
Therein, they show an example of a "form" (format of text)
to be sent to the alleged "Nightfall City Postal System":
nc nightfall.city 1915
shore/$USERNAME/page.txt
$CITIZEN_ID
DATA
.
And yet here is all the documentation says about the two
variables shown in that:
> $USERNAME should be replaced by a username
> $CITIZEN_ID should be replaced by a value
Ummm... no kidding?
Ummm.. but *WHOSE* "USERNAME" and
"CITIZEN_ID"? Mine? Someone else's? The "citizen id"
I received when I signed up doesn't look like something
that ought to be shared, nor can I see how to obtain
anyone else's to communicate with them.
Is the line beginning with "shore/" supposed to be a path
to my NEX "site"? Or to theirs, and the line is used as
a means to directing the message to the right person...?
And how come I'm not reading anywhere about how to receive
messages sent to me?
Again... can someone *PLEASE* create documentation that
contains more answers than the number of unanswered
questions it leads to? Please? Sometime before I die? I
just want to see such once....
=== 2025-07-05 11:33:13 Saturday
> You don't need encryption.
> To say what no one wants to hear.
Amen!
> We need a line.
> From one soul to another.
> Raw.
> Unwrapped.
> Unasked.
Love it. The theory of it, at least.
And, yet, setting up a listener on a port requires more
effort than it's worth. There might be a way in the Linux
environment of the "Terminal" app on my Chromebook. But
I'd bet everything I own that trying to research it would
lead to suicidal longings (not really, just trying to
express past memories of struggling with "technology" to
make what ought to be simple things happen) what with all
the conflicting reports, varying usages of terminology,
important environmental factors that were silently crucial
to another's success innocently left out, etc., etc.
I'm vaguely remembering it possible to upon up ports like
that between ChromeOS and the Linux under the "Terminal"
app covers.
But then there would be the router, and her ports are
locked down too tightly.
I've read about being able to work around that with a
router/modem (or is there another term I'm not remembering
that would open the door... bridge? gateway?... it was
weeks ago I read about it, so...). But then I learned
that the old device I thought might do that for me wasn't
really the right device... so I'd have to buy such.. or
spend a lot of time in used equipment stores, and never
with certainty I was getting the right thing.
So, let's see.. I can throw much of my sanity away for
possibly days, miss out on actual living, in order to.. be
able to occasionally receive lines of text message from
others on port 1915?
Even if it weren't for the aforementioned likely misery,
I've over three and a half decades of experience with the
Internet having not brought me more than a person and a
half that I really wanted to interact with.
We're talking a horrific "potential benefits" to "amount
of effort to make it work" ratio.
I suspect I've a far, FAR greater chance of stumbling
into enjoyable communication by walking into a store and
buying a stick of gum. There are always people in public
looking for some chit chat, and one can always feel others
out for how deep they might want to go on topics.
But waiting on port 1915? Sounds like some pretty low
odds of incredible encounters occurring.
In fact, I suspect that to a so-called "engineering
approximation", the chances are effectively zero.
Nah. I'm sticking with blasting whatever comes to
mind and feels urgent to be typed out to a handful
or so of http/gopher/gemini/nex servers on others'
systems. That'll do. I can always pretend it's part of
bigger multi-participant scenario. I'm pretty sure "I"
have been doing that my entire life anyway....
=== 2025-07-05 09:33:35 Saturday
remembering and/or creating theories about
is pitifully inadequate compared to/with
actually looking
=== 2025-07-05 09:04:07 Saturday
Had perhaps just a bit too much fun last night.
But got plenty of sleep.
It's wonderful there's no particular phrase or sentence
or paragraph - or more! - to memorize.
There's simply being the substance of awareness that
we are.
Just look and be honest about it instead of quoting what
you've been told about it.
=== ABOUT
In the name of not being burdened by what has been, and
not wishing to be defined by past thoughts, this page is
scrapped upon the first post of a new waking day.
=== LINKS
For seekers tired of searching
Great NEX of Nothing
The internet used to be* fun
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