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| shut it down | |
| July 08th, 2018 | |
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| Sometimes the little frustrations add up and spill over. I tend to | |
| get very quiet when I'm at my breaking point. I shut down. I walk | |
| away. When I was young I'd walk away in grandiose ways: from | |
| relationships, jobs, responsibility. I've learned how to siphon | |
| off the steam before reaching that point. I meditate, I walk, | |
| I pray. I can roll with it a lot more than when I was a kid. | |
| Still, sometimes it feels like it would be easier to shut it all | |
| down and walk away from my life. It's not a rational thought. My | |
| life is pretty damn good. The frustrations are minor things, | |
| meaningless really. You can't compare lives that way, though. It's | |
| not rational, as I said, and it's not logical. | |
| I'm going to drink a nice glass of gin, read a bit, and go for an | |
| evening walk. Tomorrow will start a busy work-week and I'll be | |
| walking into it already stressed. It's not a good recipe. |