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               Lovenest
               --------

       Two cream fledglings and
       yellow beaks click wet,
       knife and stone's ringing strokes
       in jagged nest.

       But jelly eyes and soft membrane
       push through fresh lids
       and blades fold,
       and beaks nestle in downy necks
       when I've been as honest as eggs.


                       Ron Rankin
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               ------------------
               Bring to Me Spring
               ------------------

       Arrives the Burpee catalog,
       Canterbury Bells peal Springtime's chimes.
       Wishful mass of floral flash -
       page upon page,
       like the budding roses
       unfolding,
       each turn,
       each aspect of the unfurling petals
       a divergent portrait
       of splendor seeded...

       I plot my plot,
       paint my patch
       in pastels, with Pinks!
       Clumps of lowlying crops
       cover the border bricks
       I dug in, dirtied kneed
       and broken nailed
       eons ahead of this year's
       new arrivals.

       Stakes impaled
       Impatiens sturdied,
       I plan my planting
       cycled with the moons and tides,
       germinating when the Lilacs bloom,
       bury the Mums by Mother's Day-
       my mother's dead, but the day survives
       like perennials, always room
       for another Hallmark sowing.

       Burpee's Best
       are always better
       in pictoral propogation,
       anticipation - my best attempt
       to burrow the Four O' Clocks
       beside the Morning Glories
       o' course creates Circadian conflict -
       time and Cicadas wait for no woman,
       they grow when they feel like it,
       no matter what Sam Burpee says,
       and grasshoppers do eat Marigolds...


                       Susan DeCarlo
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               ----
               Dawn
               ----

       waking to the light
       rising from water
       the new dawn turns
       wind swirls
       to buddha robes flapping
       orange across
       the surface
       of a dark animal eye


                       Jody Upshaw
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               --------
               Pleaides
               --------

       Butterfly flapping chromatic dots
       Sparkling around a dark illumination
       Careless determined flight
       In a jellyfish bag

       Chalk-black shroud evades
       Organ humming city lights
       Spasmodic dancing
       In quick personal orbits

       Eternal brushstroke
       On a thick-dark molasses masterpiece
       Twinkling command performance
       In a spectator sky


                       Christopher J. Hynes
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               ------------
               Of the Night
               ------------

       My love rides the night,
       And the fortunate have not laid eyes upon her.

       Which of the rising mists is she?
       What paw print or black wing
       Off the corner of sight
       Tells of her passing?
       For she has become the great evil
       Stalking the land, the stuff of legends
       Future and past.

       Her skin has grown cold, and her eyes
       Blacker than her hair.
       Her love has turned dark, into lust
       For any blood of the human.

       She will come for me.
       My stake and mallet await,
       Ready to pierce the heart
       That once I cherished,
       And free her to sleep.

       When this is done, the world
       Will be left to contend with merely the evils
       Of average men.


                       Eric Thomas
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               ------------------
               in shamrock, texas
               ------------------

               (Note on pronunciation: "hoooo" is an
               unvoiced "who", like blowing wind, 3 seconds.)


       find me, brush me, pocket me, keep me.

       to the longing in the clouds
       i say,
       in the high, high heaven,
       please do away
       with your forever blue
       hugging you

       and drop them jeans
       in a sacred rain
       onto this forever plain
       that's wrapped in a forever hoooo.

       now i'm a pony
       buckling
       under you, dear load.

       dear load, please grant me thy grace and guidance
       and don't withhold your sweet open
       thighs
       either
       while you are in the granting
       garment-chucking
       mood.
       should you weigh so heavy on me
       in your absence, dear load?

       immortal kisses, kindnesses
       and an afterwife.
       this is the land of divorce,
       there is virtue in widows.

       however, i want to hump with innocence.
       miss innocence,
       oh, to throw the good book at you
       and put a ski on our child...
       and a mac on our table...
       and to teach you how
       to pour your charm into e-mail
       what's that
       and to show you off to other women
       show what?
       like a he'll-marry-me! ring.

       i wish to watch you brush
       our moments
       out of your swollen hair.

       heaven is, if heaven were,
       helping you with a stocking or two.

       there is no discipline i would not abandon
       to learn the texan twang from you
       that patient, exacting kindness:
       no, silly goose, you say it like this...

       in the cleavage of the dark, in the bluebells of the blossom
       ...sweetness...  i don't want anything else...
       of a country house porch swing
       ...moreover, i never wanted less...
       across the unfinished kitchen table
       ...this is enough for me...
       in a plastic booth in a dairy queen
       ...you make me so very dizzy...
       in the tall grass pearling up around us
       ...i once was lost but now i'm found...

       miss innocence, i have a prayer to offer:
       let us take this moment, dear load, in pails
       like pig slop
       or manna from heaven
       my lady of the immaculate nails
       a red like a church-going ford pick-up truck
       and 14k jewelry
       and may i have me granted thy welcoming pussy.

       on my way to the bloodkissed
       santa fe, new mexico
       i stopped here,
       with friends
       but i could have settled
       instead on your shy open hand
       and drunk your scent
       at full strength.

       the texan sun raineth on your head for 20 years.  okay.
       monday to sunday, sunday to monday.  okay.
       from it you soaked some mysterious rays.
       and they produced true love, aimless and wanton.
       until it has.  yes?
       seeped into your lashes, dripped into your eyes.
       slipped into your speech, leached into your walk.  my walk?
       and now it wisps out of your pores.
       at the slightest shift of your perfect.  perfect?
       ass.
       and it is gleaming
       in that look.
       in those eyes.  my eyes?
       trapped under that hair.  what about my hair!
       focused in your face.
       and it says.
       hi...  boy...  you crazy on me yet?
       you've got 5 minutes to axe me out...

       i'd never say thaaaaaaaaaaaat!

       you are a walking country diction
       sweeping succulent idioms aside with your scentful breasts
       and so
       my heart gets yanked from san francisco
       on arrival, out of breath it says:
       girl... we have... not... yet met...
       but between you... and me...
       i would have you...
       framed... in this voracious sky...
       dry...
       framed... in your... sweetness...
       swarming... like bees...
       all hot... and bothered... warm and

       wet.


                       Marek Lugowski
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               ----------
               The 1950's
               ----------

       The doctor thinking he's
       got to learn about the world
       all over again from
               square one
               start

       Looking over words
       as he'd peer
       over a newly trimmed hedge
       seeing something just beyond
               and to one side

       The doctor doesn't think he knows anything for sure
       only the hula hoops and twinkies,
       the blues and violets of his mind
               very late at night

       He doesn't know what he's putting down
       only that he's noticing,
       noting, noticing
       his stethoscope here
               and here

       Red and pink lipstick cases
       with a little mirror on one side,
       hats, stockings, garter belts
               and gloves

       There is sound
       there's the refrigerator
               and the water dripping

       He bought a shirt in 1950 the most remarkable
               feature of which
       is a snag or tear will reduce it
               to nothing.
       It's a shirt made of a single cell
       that, when it's reduced to nothing,
       a single cell remains.
               The original cell of that fabric.

       What he is seeking is a quilt
       made up of the original cells of all the fabrics.

       What the l950s does
       like a blow to the back or side of one's head
       it relocates your mind

       The doctor in Intensive Care
       where he belongs
       if anyone else is here or still here
               that's fine.

               *       *       *

       What were the 1950s?  Teresa Brewer and the Korean War

       It was hard apples and the popularity of DDT
       Popularity was a word heard a lot of in 1950

       It was James Dean
       and Peter Lawford,
       TV's Karen and Chubby,
               the Mickey Mouse Club
                       taken seriously

       It was the time many people who came into their own
               in the 1960s
       first got laid
       or had wet dreams
       the last wet dream the doctor had was sometime in
               the 1950s

       Basketball games on Chicago's north side
       and the walk home at 5 o'clock
               carrying a switchblade knife,
               the two Rosenbergs frying in the electric chair
               McCarthy and his crony Roy Cohn
       the atomic bomb already five years old

       Plastic surgery
       and nose jobs
       fame
       in a new light

               *       *       *

       Nixon saying, "California politics is a can of worms"
       Captain Kangaroo, Howdy Doody
       Arthur Godfrey on television.
       the Outside
       the Inside
       Outside
       Inside
       Fresh hot toast with butter on it from the mother
               of a friend
       the doctor's own mother dead at 42
       the knowledge there were two different worlds
       giving
       taking
       Epistemology
       Involved elaborate schemes for not making up your
               mind anyway
       "Saturday night is the loneliest night in the week--"
       Taking No-Doz and staying up all night for exams

       Right-handed angel playing a trumpet
       and Moses coming down off the mountain
       not with the 10 Commandments
       but a set of scrolls
               and where the commandments
               would normally go
               double sets of chimes.

       Moses coming down with castanets
       Saul of Tarsus with a set of drums
       Christ fluting
       Buddha blissful at the keyboard

               *       *       *

       The jazz was good
       Death was softened, advancements made
       in the salesmanship of everything
       The doctor's own deepest impulses
               were not to nurse or nurture
               but to attack

       Hanging out at Sonny Berkowitz' Pool Hall,
       wearing blue suede shoes,
       Levis and navy blue shirt,
       he bought a zip gun,
       joined a street gang

       Once, doing reconnaissance,
       exploring the intricacies
       of the Chicago Drainage Canal,
       he entered a sewer
       and ambled deeply as he could
       reflecting all the while
       on his chances of surviving
       the synchronizied flushing
       of three-and-a-half million toilets.


       For the first time in 2,000 years
       one went four years to a University
       without saying one true word
       going to work for Hallmark Greeting cards
       or the phone company
       one knew something was at hand because things
       became easy.
       Richard Wilbur's poems
       arrived at one's door
       in little four-line stanzas
       Tin-Pan alley
       people in college dormitories subscribing
               to the KENYON REVIEW
       and listening to Pat Boone

               Five foot two, eyes of blue,
               cotton candy hair
               strapless white lace dress
               zipped up over
               a snug corset
               seated on a sofa
               in a dormitory
               in Champaign, Illinois,
               touch me, touch me
               black patent leather belt open
               and matching black patent leather
                       pocket book
               beside her,
               `petting' it was called,
               one foot touching the floor at all times
               ("that's right you two,
                       or I `ll have to ask you to leave"),
               ejaculating beneath her dress
               somewhere or other
               discreetly as possible

       Birds flutter and when they walk
       they flutter too.

       The doctor sees giant mushroom cloud
       father of the H-Bomb Edward Teller
       Police Action Korea Harry Truman
       and Dwight David Eisenhower,
       each with six legs and arms
       dancing to the music
               of Lord Shiva and Judy Garland
               doing it
                       on a pink velvet loveseat.

       The doctor makes a mental note to turn
       his socks inside out to empty
       out the sand before putting
       them into the laundry bag.


                       Robert Sward
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               ---------------------------------
               monet's old studio is a gift shop
               ---------------------------------

       I received the dream of the six gardens:
       wandering the peculiarities of light -
       painting again the damp stacks of hay
       by the edge of the Seine, eating lunch.
       the old man's celebration
       of a simple pond of lilies -
       the reflection of long-armed willows
       hanging limp in remembrance
       of modernity.  please, can i return
       to the studio now, so i can buy
       that small reproduction?  thank you.

                       John Adam Kaune
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               --------------------
               this place in winter
               --------------------

       snow blows through an open door
       and I curse him
       for being so careless

       inside
       blue pears
               no longer ripen on the settee
       flurries blur
               a windsor castle watercolor
                       a lincoln family lithograph
       from the pantry you can look up at the sky
               where paraffin has crumbled from the lids
                       of mason-jarred preserves
       clover and violets uprooted
               in the marriage bed
       have I forgotten something?
               family bible promises
                       on a homemade altar

       I forgive him
       for not closing the door
       on his way out

       this time

       I feel a coastal winter wind
               slam.


                       Elizabeth Haight
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               ----------
               Boundaries
               ----------

       The old man went with me when I walked the line,
       checking boundaries. We drove round the mountain
       to an unkempt farm on its western slope, parked,
       and ranged its pasture for a survey marker,
       dividing blatting sheep among the trampled
       sedges along a line of willow. The sign
       of success was a cap of brass, much chewed by
       bush hogs and sickle bar mowers: the section
       corner. We cut a pole from willow for our
       chain, and taking compass in hand, set out south
       along the invisible section line, straight
       up one knee of the dark mountain, floundering
       through viney maples, over old hemlock logs,
       around the huge stumps of shipped-out firs, with their
       deep-set eyes, which were the notches cut by men
       to set their spring boards in to stand on, drawing
       their singing misery whips through the bellies
       of the silent giants. We flagged the line as
       we went, hanging the orange strips from chittims,
       blackcherries, huckleberries, bigleaf maple.
       Across to the south side of the hill we shanked,
       breaking out into sun sometimes, waist deep in
       bracken ferns and trailing blackberries, pushing
       through young Douglas firs with their rich Christmas whiff,
       down to the alders with ancient yews lurking
       in their shade, and crawled through tall salmonberry
       at last into my new-made clearing by my
       new-built house, hanging a flag only fifteen
       feet off the flag we'd hung before we drove out.
       The old man admired the results, and said to
       the old woman, standing by, "That boy is just
       the same in the woods as I am way out on
       the water; always knows right where he is." She
       nodded, and handed him a cup of coffee,
       with cream, no sugar, and not too hot or cold.


                       Richard Bear
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               --------------
               Northern Skies
               --------------

       The sky above this garden is ablaze
       With shimmer running almost to Orion;
       A ghostly movement crosses half the sky
       A living luster trembling through a phase.

       Finding star-to-star form we plan by,
       Remembering by murmuring of ion,
       Here between a willow and the stream,
       Let's wait awhile to watch our planet dream.


                       Robert Temple
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               --------------------------
               reflection in the fountain
               --------------------------

       i smell the smell of entire tribes,
       order and a grass as fine as hemp,
       in the division of water below
       my potted palms. bourbon-minced
       saliva creeps like cloth.
       lips curve an alleyway,
       a hardened rot of spilling for substance
       and down the coil;
       i fall into small thimble,
       tip myself into relic
       without a thought for foe
       or even the flinging out of love that
       will replace my lips for conversation.
       the waking mouth
       hangs just so, off to one side and
       then parted.  underneath tongue rises
       and falls and rises
       and falls.  sharp-tuned tunnel
       catches and i spin out into
       stain, rubbed and postured for
       future.  swells of water
       ripple form and swoop the snail
       in me - my criminal in apathy.
       i regard my shadow with malice
       and adorn its shape
       with giggles.  boots loop my feet,
       bulging ankles strapped in leather
       as to walk on glass
       without fluttering.  naughty speaks
       through the fountain, hickeys and
       tenor visions like stalks.  what do i
       see but hiding?


                       Hillary Joyce
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               The Changeling's Wife
               ---------------------

       i am like the piano you play
       that always falters somewhere up ahead

       a man but also a dog needing
       something to be brave for

       i praise the day you filleted me
       zipped away the offending spine

       pull me to bed with you tonight
       let me sleep this curiosity off

       the way that the lion feels
       for his mate when she brings him red meat

       it's the love of the dog that sleeps
       curled at the monastery gate


                       Michael Finley
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               ----
               wind
               ----

       an empty poem
       that has lost its heart,
       a sky as hollow

       as the mouth of heaven.


                       Erik Asphaug
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               -------------------
               The Death of My Son
               -------------------

       I sit in a smoke-filled room
       A half-empty bottle sits near me.
       Glowing cigarettes walk around
       In the mouths of black-suited guests.
       Mourners, they call themselves.
       I know him, he who lies within
       Though the bottle takes away his name.
       A boy.  He used to be my son
       Though he never once called me Dad.
       I used to see him once a year.
       I haven't seen him at all for three.
       His mother sits next to another man.
       The man is rigid and staring at me.
       He is angry that I have come.
       I drink again from the bottle.
       I find little solace in its contents.
       I sense that something is missing.
       I sense the wrong one is dead.


                       Justin Taylor
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               ------
               Enigma
               ------

       cryptic dissertations
       seek to enlighten
       those despaired

       existential incantations
       espouse revelation
       behind reverential masks

       can light emanate
       from between
       dark, parted lips?


                       Ron Stewart
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               another NYC-ku
               --------------

       Penn Station after midnight:
       even the shadows have echoes.


                       Paul David Mena
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               bellybutton
               -----------

       bellybutton
       through
       cigarette glasses
       waves slippery
       still
       silver and black
       bearing
       unblemished
       taut ripples
       either
       freely
       poked loose or
       blasted
       gasping
       desperate cotton
       shrieks
       remove me
       young pedophile
       listen to my
       pupils resonate


                       Jon Litchfield
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                --------------------------------
                 Imaginary Lovers' Conversation
               Overheard on the CNR Spurline Trail
               -----------------------------------

       I would steal you a water tower in winter my dearest
       and we would walk around its smoother bevelled edges.
       I would climb the circular stairs and use my largest
       ray gun to puncture the unruly strands of steel.
       Not even all the lawyers in the office nearby could
       stop our rivers of empire from unfurling in frozen
       abandon. And we would kiss each of our blue lips
       desperately, wanton in the existence of frigid solitude.


                       Kate Armstrong
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               ---------------------
               having fallen in love
               ---------------------

       for the first time real
       time frying bits of white onion
       in a cast iron pan with
       olive green burning to jump
       sauteeing sweet smoke and
       wanting desperately and coldly
       to put my hands into the oil


                       Karen Hussey
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               ------
               Coffee
               ------

       Out his kitchen window, he watches
       a bus pull away from the corner.
       He holds his coffee cup,
       swirling it although there is
       no coffee in it,
       considers taking a bath.

       She always told him not too
       much coffee, just the one cup
       in the morning, and that he should
       remember to bathe every day,
       as these were just the kinds of things
       he would soon forget
       once she was gone.

       He places his cup among others
       in the sink.  The bathtub is clean
       and damp, still warm.
       He sits on the toilet
       watching as the tub fills.

       By custom, he draws too much
       water, so that some always runs
       out the overflow as he gets in,
       leaving behind as much water
       as will fit,
       making a sound he always
       liked hearing.

       He images a spider trapped
       in the overflow, washing
       down the pipes.
       As he slides into the water
       he thinks of her, so many years,

       and although she is not here
       to scrub his back he smiles.
       His toes surface and submerge:
       he watches them break
       through floating rafts
       of bubbles, then sink again,
       like a shipwrecked crew
       of drowning men.

       After his bath he watches the water
       circle down the drain,
       but without his glasses
       he cannot tell
       if the whirlpool drains
       with or counter to the clock,

       although he understands
       or thinks he remembers
       it always turns the same way,
       like a dog circling nose to tail
       on a carpet looking
       for that one best spot.

       The word "coriolis"
       surfaces slowly and submerges again,
       and eyes closed he watches it
       as from a moving vehicle,
       experiences it as he would a neon
       sign flashing past

       in the nighttime.
       He makes a note on his mental
       blackboard to watch closely
       next time which way the water
       circles as it drains.
       He smiles again,
       as he can have
       his coffee now
       that he has bathed.


                       Michael McNeilley
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               Elses laughter
               --------------

       In March,1993
       totally without warning
       I changed the way I eat apples
       and the way I laugh -
       I'd been borrowing someone
       elses laughter before then.


                       Ross Munro
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               The Lotus Flower
               ----------------

       If you cannot find the rose
       That tireless, blooms,
       Here within these arms,
       Find instead the timeless lotus flower
       Which once you offered and I refused
       In a white-hued winter,
       Drawn in brilliant colour,
       Under a cloudless sky.

       If you will not speak of these
       Silent whispers,
       There within the day,
       Speak instead to the snow white lilly
       Which grows within my only cavern
       In a heart filled with light
       Grey and lifeless in pallor,
       Under this cooling skin.


                       Scott Cudmore
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               Leave as you have Lived
               -----------------------

       You are costive in your imaginations,
       like Corundum in muddy thought
       sinking to the complaisant image
       of a prosaic, adequate Self -
       All for sake of comformity.
       And wiping out your
       individuality as you content
       yourself out of being.

       And you will leave as you have
       lived your life: Dead.


                       Kirian Chowning
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               The wind is a pillow
               --------------------

       The wind is a pillow.
       It rustles like bed clothes
       in the temperature of night.
       I can sense your skin.
       It feels like molten glass
       wrapped in cashmere.
       It's singing!
       I love it like this.


                       Ross Munro
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               City Square, Buenos Aires
               -------------------------

       An outdoor room of bowed walls
       and low defining trees,
       the city square is railed off
       to enclose what no cloister could:

       a fountain made of broken columns
       and a squat equestrian general
       who spurred civic pride
       by surpressing laws, punishing foes,

       curtailing lives with a high necessity.
       This is Borges city,
       a place of traffic, where grey
       historical clouds define oppression

       in other terms, other pantomimes:
       the fidget of pigeons and old men
       pensioned since the last revolution
       or the last coarse drought.

       Yet the boulevards are wide enough
       for tanks, close enough for walks,
       the city square more barren
       than sunlight on catafalques.


                       David Barton
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               ----------------------
               South Seas Rumba Party
               ----------------------

       The Wind flew softly to my side
       Playfully lifting my hair from my eyes
       Kissing my cheek in passing
       On his way to a South Seas Rumba Party
       .Party on, dude, I said!

       The Rain flowed down my face
       Tickling my sides and legs
       Licking my ear in passing
       On her way to a South Seas Rumba Party
       .Party Hearty, sweets, said I!

       The Lightening sped across my sight
       Electrifying my every orifice
       Shooting sparks in passing
       On her way to a South Seas Rumba Party
       .'s Party, I slurred, dazed!

       But when Thunder came rumbling my way
       Growling up my spine to my head
       I roared at him in passing
       NOT on my way to a South Seas Rumba Party
       .Now your Party's mine! (and I swallowed him!)

       So if, by chance, you happen upon
       A South Seas Rumba Party in progress
       Just know in passing
       Thunder won't be there, oh no, not him
       .Party'd out, we'd say!


                       Terry Schorer
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               ---------------------------
               everybody's favorite lunger
               ---------------------------

       and even pussyfaced doc told wyatt to leave
       coughed blood and gargled
       the way to live life ain't sittin'
       here to grieve.
       then he died, laughing.  end of movie.

       hey pistol pete would you believe
       i need a mean ol cowpoke.
       or a pussywhipped eyetalian, movie-sized.

       this crimson a on my chest ain't
       like the rest, for school spirit, boys.

       i want that stain.


                       michelle vessel
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               -------------
               copper of age
               -------------

       take dilaudid in a spoon
       add water heat quickly till
       a foul smelling smoke is produced
       and the liquid bubbles and seethes
       this burns off the impurities and
       the things that will kill you.
       add a bud of cotton wool
       insert the needle into the cotton and
       draw back the plunger
       notice that no matter how carefully
       you do this there is always
       a small bubble of air in the syringe
       this must be removed
       so depress the plunger until
       a droplet of solution glitters at
       the end of the needle.
       it is now safe.
       you may find it easier to wrap
       a belt around your upper arm
       watch for the large vein
       insert the needle
       if you do it right, then
       a tendril of blood should shoot
       into the solution.
       you may now slowly press the plunger.
       sit back. relax. sleep.


                       Adrian Preston
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               -------------
               Danny & Andre
               -------------

       Danny finds a throw
       away medicine cabinet
       burned out bulbs
       sliding mirror
       jagged, tarnished frame
       pried from wall.

       Danny props it atop
       concrete fencing
       next to Lady Luck
       Laundromat - he preens
       picking his face, nose
       wiping fingers
       on tan corduroys.

       Andre slides up
       in chrome wheel chair
       spray painted red
       with green glitter flecks.
       Chicago Bulls emblem
       brands the back rest
       in black magic
       marker and dyslexic hand.

       Danny turns round
       high fiver - high
       fiver.  +Ma boooy+.
       He dances everything -
       tribal incantations,
       polkas, jigs, Swan Lake.
       Andre's rag doll legs
       impact with callused
       palms.  He mouths
       every instrument
       with rhythmic echoes.

       Danny yo yo's
       Andre out and back
       out, back. Twirling round
       popping wheely's.
       Andre's vision flies
       up to sky, the world circles,
       Andre's arms raise hallelujah.

       On the outspin Danny catches
       his profile and stops,
       throwing Andre forward.
       He sneaks up to glass mumbling
       eyes unblinking.  Andre
       readjusts his legs.

       Danny tilts his head
       left then right,
       then behind and in again.
       pointing dirty fingers
       blackened nails, spitting
       the reflection.

       Danny pulls his hair.
       clumps of blonde
       oiled and gritty curls
       sprout from knotted fists.

       Andre pulls Danny's
       corduroy leg.  a dog
       begging attention.
       He pulls harder
       the second time.
       Danny flies round
       inhales a gust of wind,
       propels forward.
       the curls sprinkle
       Andre's high-low fade.

       Danny belly laughs, grooves,
       skipping, knee slapping,
       butt shaking, high fiving
       down Park Street.

       Andre pulls Danny's medicine
       cabinet into his lap.  Leans
       forward curled to view
       his upside down image.

       Danny beckons from
       the corner +yo brother get
       ya dumb ass ova here+
       Andre tosses Danny's
       medicine cabinet into
       the busy street. The glass
       breaks.  You and I swerve.


                       Erica L. Wagner
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               ------
               pauper
               ------

            you stand on the street corner
            like a blind man
       waiting for the clink of money
       in an upturned fedora
       my pockets are empty
       please do not hold
       your heart in your hands
            i am a pauper
       i do not have gold coins
       to fill the emptiness


                       zita marie evensen
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                ----------------------
                 Standing Prematurely
               Before Benedictio's Tomb
               ------------------------

       I have never looked for Guy's name in
       The Funerary Times or Gestalt World,
       Preferring to chuckle on finding it
       In unexpected indices.

       Adroitest of scholars,
       Impeccably reticent,
       He understood the commonality of
       Socrates and oaken tables.

       It took two generations for me
       To comprehend that the internal link
       Between the elegant poet and my blunt father
       Was the purity of their honor.


                       Dave W. Mitchell
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               nightmare in bflat, op.31
               -------------------------

       parades of soft vienna clowns
       with lanterns of the hungarian princess
       swung before my eyes, laughing their hungry thirst for
       smatterings of shattered love letters
       which hung like ice crystals on a clear prairie winter morning

       living in the shadows of deaf giants
       who stole the show right out from under me
       leaving me naked for no-one to see
                               but me

       i've played these same scales
       over and over and
       candles burn down over scores of songs i will never play

       in these nights of forlorn horror
       of stampeding ghosts
       and heckling monotonies
       there lies only wicked prostitutes of time by my side
       selling me short
       selling me....


                       peter j. tolman
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               --------------------
               Ruffage For Ruffians
               --------------------

       Whore mold creeps soft like flu fingers,
       picking ear-wax, slave to sleep, while onward it comes,
       somnambulant -- hungry for the earlobe, the drum -- and blunders
       an awkward chicken-motion, clucking this noise:

       our charters, our hooks, our redundancy sunders
       the waffle-irons of suburbia, out there
       gleaming, twittering like nerves before the numb.
       Skulls satiate on raw beans and these words are the bean curd
       clusters of the middle-man, supply and demand.

       Throw thrift to the dogs, brackish clog of my love there
       sitting, there sleeping, there pissing on the cushion
       And you were house-broken, trained to beg for coffee grounds
                       in s. america
       before the whip rode miles of thigh,
       Forced you to cry.

       Door slam, I'm fucked. I'm outta here. I'm not writing poetry
       for you,
       for approval, for me -- even amounts of discourteousness: I
                       frown on the
       artform and the hyphen --
       but you've crawled this far, you've sucked my spoo and here
                       we meet at
       last: toothy plumage blooming in the sweaty hole-mind of hate.

       Whatever this means.


                       b-rev.john
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               Go Figure
               ---------

       Ten tuna tins with fifteen fins.
       Zero zebras and twenty twins.
       Thirty ponies pull three red wagons.
       Six sneaky snakes chase four dumb dragons.
       Seventeen seagulls in the sky.
       Eleven hippopotami.
       Eighteen red headed boys named Willy.
       Don't story problems drive you silly?

                       Grandpa Tucker
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