I often feel the urge of writing a couple of lines, and
now I've did it many times in many different places.
If I happen to read again what I wrote in the past,
e.g. this phlog, the picture i get is that I keep
saying the same things, over and over, like I'm
obsessed with it. Which is probably just the reality.
I'd like to have some things done. I've got some sort
of wish-list that grows over time, as I notice that
people around me get to have something beautiful I
desire. We can say I'm gelous: not of what they own,
but of what they achieve! My achievements feel so poor
lately!
I'm very aware of the fact that I can reach
enlightenment only gradually, and only one step at the
time.
To begin with, I'd like to get back into the habit of
writing guides and article on things I figure out.
For example, because of my day job I often end up
writing shell scripts, and I got pretty good ad it.
It is quite difficult to get it right!
But then, what if I wrote a guide with some best
practices I figured out? I spoke about this idea with
some fellows on #meta, and I was encouraged to write my
guide.
Yet another thing on my todo list then? But there's
more: I feel motivated when my stuff is actually
appreciated by someone, and this might be the leverage
I need.
There's a fact, however, that I should take in account.
Or several facts.
1- my need for perfection kills my efforts! I can't get
something done because I keep making it perfect! Fuck I
hate this trait of mine!
2- I should really tidy up my things. Get my shit
together, as the title says. Which is son of the first
probelm, in a sense.
If I start by tidying it up, I might never end, as I
will strive for perfection. I'll try to follow some
small goals, as I know it's the only way to get
something done.
