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Stardate: 20200218.0836 | |
Location: SBUX | |
Input Device: Gemini PDA | |
Audio: Brainwave app set to Morning Meditation | |
Visual: Shared SBUX table, baristas, fellow coffee consumers | |
Energy: 60% | |
Mental: 50% +getting there with morning coffee | |
Emotional: meh, need moar downtime | |
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I decided to level up my self-care and take a mental health day to | |
chill the fuck out. I would have preferred to have slept in but I | |
still had to transport the child processes to their centers of | |
learning and conditioning. Oh well. Perhaps I will take a nap later | |
or do some meditation to reclaim some mind space. | |
It puzzles me how at this point in my life, time seems to have warped | |
or distorted...well, at least my perception of it. There seems to be | |
too much going on and not enough time to process it all. With the | |
way I spend my time exposing myself to different things, consuming | |
various distactions, being bombarded by so much information even un- | |
intentionally, it is no wonder why I have gotten to this point. | |
Wouldn't it be interesting if humans could have some kind of | |
distributed mental resource sharing, kind of like how the nodes | |
on a cluster share resources to process the data? Become moar human | |
than human...become ubermensch. A collective mind. A hive | |
mentality. Sounds like the Borg. OK, I don't think I need that. | |
It would be fun to interface with Seven of Nine, though. | |
Well, I think I just need to take a more active role in my exposure | |
to things. Lately, I have just been going along for the ride and | |
taking things as they come, just being swept up in the currents of | |
life. I think I need to go ashore, fix up my boat, recalibrate the | |
navigation system, and change course to calmer waters. | |
There is a pattern developing here. I think I saw this before when | |
I started spending more time in gopherspace. When things were | |
getting a bit much and I needed to throttle my downloads. When | |
life was becoming unmanageable. There is not too much unmanageabi- | |
lity these days, as far as meatspace goes, but my wetware desires | |
for moar signal, less noise...and moar buffer and moar time for | |
processing. | |
So I am taking today to regroup. Cut the fat and refocus. Refine | |
my modus operandi and discard the non-essentials. More importantly, | |
I need to get it out of my head and put it on paper. I seem to work | |
better when my thoughts are not free-floating in the wetware. I am | |
tasking myself with 15 minutes of analog mind mapping and see where | |
it goes from there. I know that with me, I just need to make a | |
small, simple start to get this going. Oh, and I will also just sit. | |
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