________ ________ ________
2018-08-03 / \/ \/ / \
/ __/ /_ _/
There's this sensation when you take / _/ / /
codeine and it starts to settle in, although \_______/_\___/____/\___/____/_
maybe it's just me, I can't speak for anyone / \/ \/ / \
else. It's like a slow-motion shiver that / _/ /_ _/
starts between your shoulder blades and /- / _/ /
curls along your arms to your fingertips. It \________/\________/\___/____/
rolls down your back, bubbles in your
stomach, fills your hips and then runs down your legs until your feet feel
miles away.
It's tender and gentle and beautiful and I've missed it so much.
I finally caved and bought some pills from the creepy corners of the
Internet, so I'm back on my bullshit and I'm not even ashamed. I held out for
probably a good five months without but my mental health has been in such a
state at the moment that I feel like denying myself simple, relatively
harmless pleasures is just compounding depression and anxiety with no purpose.
Yes you can argue that it's not good for your body, but my body is strong
and my head and heart are not so if I don't start picking my battles then I am
absolutely going to lose this fight.
