My thought of the day, jotted down this Saturday while it's too
cold to make me want to go out and work on the Jag, and I'm too
tired of researching political parties over the last few late
evenings to do more of that. I have lots of hobbies, people look
for friends who share hobbies, yet I barely have any friends and
they don't share my hobbies. Most of this is lack of desire on my
part, but can I think of a hobby where I would like to be involved
with others? Perhaps it's a hobby bordering on a lifestyle, but I
would like to group around people trying to use old computers
efficiently in the modern environment. I'm writing now from a
mid-90s PC, and it could be interesting to pool resources around
circumventing hardware obsolescence. Yet the closest existing group
to this would be the Permacomputing crowd, and they seem all too
theoretical rather than practical to me. Or is that lack of
flexibility on my part what stops me?
Somehow I can imagine getting along with people with a common
interest like that, but those people I imagine are far detached
from any real people I interact much with. I'm probably just not
willing to make the consessions for friendship, except with women,
and not nearly enough with them anyway. But like intelligent life
on other planets, there's an idea that perhaps it could be there,
even if there's no direct evidence of it. Still, not really enough
evidence to look hard. I'm much more motivated to look for a
relationship with a woman, but then that'd require looking much,
much, harder too.
As always I just conclude that I'm probably best satisfied alone
without the pain of trying. For every moment when I'd like company,
there are more when I'm probably most happy by myself.
