2019-10-08 - Coming back around
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Hi, gopher-friends,
Its been a little while since I posted, I kind of find it hard to
believe that I didn't post at all in the month of September.
Sometimes, life gets in the way, for us that was the kids starting
back in school. This was a big year for us, as one of our kids is
on-spectrum, and this was his start into secondary school (equiv of
middle school in the US, I believe). There have been tantrums,
there have been tears, but we've come through it all pretty okay, I
guess.
Of course, we've had the ongoing difficulties with our daughter,
things have improved dramatically since the last time I wrote about
it, but they're still not easy, or settled. Not by a long stretch.
In the middle of all of this, of course, I had to go and make it
more difficult for myself. I'd been playing, off and on, on a
minecraft server for the best part four years. I (thought) I'd made
friends there, it was a place I liked to hang out. Then, this
summer past, a new applicant who was both on-spectrum and very open
about it, was rejected by the veteran server members. These people
thought that he `wouldn't fit` in their little clubhouse.
Added to that, they made changes on how the server was operated,
which led to a serious dimunition in the quality of play-life. I
aired my grievances about this, and, naturally, i was kicked off
the server by the same people who'd already excluded the autistic
person. A couple of those `veterans` were older people, some with
links to law enforcement, and they'd been loudly complaining about
my pro-drug comments in chat, some to my `face`, mostly by whining
to the admins.
I don't think I have any complaints about it, not really. Things
just came to a point where their mindset and mine were no longer
compatible. It would have been nice to be able to say goodbye to
some people - I've no way to contact them IRL.
Its easy to say that now, of course, weeks after the fact. Truth
is, it hurt a lot to be so rejected by people, a rejection that
naturally fed into my existing psychological issues. It's been a
tough month.
I've been playing since on the Unofficial Tildeverse Minecraft
Server, and I'm quite enjoying myself. Sure, the crowd seems
younger than I'm used to, but that's okay too. I do get a little
lonely there though, it would be nice to have more people to play
along with.
I think I'm going to try to post more, to be more present here in
the 'verse. I have been keeping in touch, now and then, and I have
a lot of new reading to do.
