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Title: Highland Ballad

Author: Christopher Leadem

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                          HIGHLAND BALLAD

                       by Christopher Leadem




                            For Natasha




                             Part One:
                        A Lingering Flame



One


The red sun rose slowly, achingly across the high Scottish moor,
touching with melancholy gold the patching hoar frost and purple
heath. For this was a land of pain, and stark beauty, and restless
dream. Here the spirits of the dead walked by night through grim
castles of shadow and dust, their glory long past. Here the spirits of
the living grieved by day for a proud and chivalrous time forever
lost.

For now the English ruled the land. The battle of Culloden was three
years lost and Bonnie Prince Charles, the drunken fool in whom they
had placed such hope, was living in exile in France. For what then had
the pride of Highland manhood shed their blood, leaving behind them
the heart-broken wives, aging fathers, and uncomprehending child
sisters? Was it to see the Lord Purceville establish his thieving
court at the ancestral home of the MacPhersons? Was it to pay hard
tribute in grain and goods which could not be spared, to an Empire
already bloated and corrupt?

None felt the pangs of lost promise more deeply than young Mary Scott,
aged sixteen years, with a future as uncertain as the fretting October
wind. Her father had died before she could say his name, leaving their
estate in the keeping of guardians until Michael came of age. Now it
was completely lost, their legacy ruined. Now she lived with her
mother and aging aunt in the fading cottage that had once belonged to
the chief steward, all that remained of the family property. It was
neither beautiful nor poetic; but it was warm, and for the time at
least, safe from the hungry eyes of soldiers. The dangers to a young
girl in an occupied land need hardly be detailed.

And there were other dangers as well.

On this morning, as on many others, she walked slowly down the narrow,
winding path to the gravesite of her clan. Bordered by scrub oak and
maple, alone in its silent dell, it was a place removed from time,
hallowed, and to her, sacred. For here, among the stones of four
hundred years of Stuart knights, lay the body of her beloved, her
soul. Her brother. Brushing back a long lock of raven hair, she
stepped furtively towards the mound of earth that was like an iron
door between them.

                        Michael James Scott
                           1719 --- 1746
                       He died a man's death,
                       fighting for his home.

The words on the small tombstone had always seemed to her a blasphemy,
the hurried cutters finding it more important to speak of patriotism
than to give the date of his birth. These trite, inadequate words were
all that future generations would ever know of him. They could never
see him as he had been in life---the shock of curling, golden hair,
the fierce and penetrating sapphire eyes. He had been strong and
stubborn like all his blood, but with a sudden tenderness that had
long ago stolen her heart. Her friend, brother and father. And in the
most secret depths of her heart, her lover as well.

One image of him remained indelibly carved in her memory.

He stood silhouetted against the open door of the shepherd's hut, in
which they had taken shelter from a sudden, violent downpour. The play
of lightnings beyond flashed his tall, muscular form into brilliant
lines out of the grey. He stood defiant, legs spread, crying out to
the storm that lashed him. Aye! It'll take more than that to kill a
Scott!
And he had laughed his fearless laugh.

"Michael don't, I'm scared," she said aloud. And he closed and barred
the door, and came to her with the gentle smile which he gave to her
alone.....

She fell to her knees on the cold ground, unable to stop the flow of
bitter and blessed memories. She wrapped the shawl tighter,
remembering, feeling as deeply and surely as if it were not a thing of
the past, but happening now, this moment:

He came to her, and put his cloak about her. Then feeling her shiver
in his arms, changed his mind. "No. We'll have to get you out of your
wet things. I'm an ugly brute, but you'll catch your death."

He built a warming blaze in the fireplace, then took the heavy woolen
blanket from the bed and brought it to her. "Come on now. No time for
being shy; I'll turn away." And he carefully tended the fire as she
shed her dripping garments, and wrapped herself in the blanket.

Perhaps an hour later he lay sprawled on his back, stripped to the
waist on the broad, solid bed. She stood watching him, his dried
riding cloak about her. Her own clothes were nearly dry, and the rain
was less; yet for reasons she did not understand, her one desire was
to remain with him there, as they were, forever. He stretched his arms
behind him and let out a yawn, and looked at her with laughing, sleepy
eyes.

"I'm all done in, my little Mary, riding and running about with you
after the long day's work. Better let me have a bit of sleep, then
we'll take ourselves home. Wake me in a bit, won't you?" And he rolled
over on his side, leaving her flushed and agitated, not understanding
the feelings that stirred inside her. The early night was hushed, her
brother lay long and beautiful in the firelight, and she was thirteen
years old.

After a short time that seemed like an eternity, during which she
never once took her eyes from him, she heard the soft, steady
breathing of his slumber. All her love and confused desire suddenly
took hold of her. She loosed the cloak about her bare shoulders, and
came closer. Quietly, timidly, her heart pounding, she lay down next
to him, drawing the broad cloak about them both. She rested her face
against his arm, while her hand mysteriously sought out the scraggly
down of his chest. He stirred.

"What's all this?" he whispered dreamily. "You're not still afraid?"

"No
," she nearly shouted. "It's not that at all." And then, as if afraid
the moment was lost, she drew in her arms and snuggled closer to him
still. "You're not shamed for me, are you, Michael? I've done nothing
wrong."

"Ah, hush girl. You love your Michael and he loves you. Where's the
sin?" And his strong arm enveloped her back, as he gently kissed her
forehead.....

Oh, to feel his arms around her, his skin against hers! She sobbed
aloud at the thought of it, and flung herself to the ground. How
gladly she would have died, then as now, to be with him forever. But
still her life went on, still the feelings and images would not stop:

They lay quiet for a time, her breasts touching his, their faces so
close, breath intermingling. Then all at once, with a voice hardly her
own, she said the words that had sealed her fate.

"Kiss me, Michael. If you don't kiss me I swear I'll die." And though
she could not see them, she felt the laughter of his eyes. But he did
as she asked, slowly bringing his lips to hers. They touched, ever so
gently.

Then with a sudden passion which surprised them both, he gave a deep,
despairing sigh and crushed her to him, his hungry mouth devouring
hers. "My Mary," he said. "My beautiful Mary."

Then just as suddenly he broke away and stood up from the bed. He
began to pace back and forth, cursing himself, so afraid he had in
some way wounded her. She lay still, feeling the loss of his flesh
like the loss of a limb. And two months later. . .he was no more.

She found herself hopelessly, hatefully back in the present. Alone.
Convulsive sobs shook her as she lay across the mound of uncaring
earth. Her tears wet the rough grass beneath her, flowing like blood
from a mortal wound. One word, one thought only existed in the whole
of her being.

"Michael!"

A fresh burst of wind whistled through the heath and fretted the
fallen leaves around her, carrying with it, or so it seemed, a faint
strain of bagpipes. She turned her face to listen. Was it possible:
that soul-stirring sound, so terrible in battle that the English had
since outlawed it?

Was it there, or was she truly mad? She strained all her senses.....
No. The sound was gone. She buried her face and wept once more,
defeated.

Again a breeze stirred, this time more gentle, this time much nearer.
She felt a large hand caress the crown of her head, and brush the side
of her face as she turned again, bewildered. Half blind with tears she
saw the wavering outline of a man, and heard a voice whisper,

"My Mary."

She knew no more.


Two

She was found there by her aunt, pale and shivering. And as
consciousness and memory returned to her, a light of wild hope and
fear widened the deep emerald of her eyes.

"Aunt Margaret, I saw him! He called me by name, I swear it!"

But whether because the wisdom of age had taught her the wishful
fancies of the young, or for some other reason, the hale, grey-haired
woman elucidated no surprise. She helped the frightened girl to her
feet, and without a word, started her on the path to home.

But once Mary had gone the old woman turned, and made her way back to
the grave. Reaching inside a goat-skin pouch that hung from her side
she produced something cold and pale, and kneeling, laid it upon the
heart of the mound. Then rose and looked about her with a narrowing
eye. Clasping a withered hand about the amulet that hung from her neck
she set off, leaving the bit of melancholy white behind.

A human finger.

The amulet about her neck was a raven's foot, clutching in frozen
death a dark opal.


Many hours later the old woman had still not returned to the cottage.
Mary sat with her elbows upon the sill of the loft window, the rage of
thoughts and questions inside her gradually slowing to the one emotion
possible in one who had seen and known such endless disappointment:
disbelief.

But try as she might to resolve herself to it, to accept that it had
not happened, still the phantom touch lingered inside her, denying all
peace. "My Mary." How differently the voice had said those words, than
on the day of her brother's passion! And yet how similar, how full of
the same love and care. And the only thought that would take solid
hold in her mind was that the two feelings, gentle love and hard
desire, were one in a man, inseparable, and that even as a child she
had inspired both in him. My
Mary. Mine. She wanted to fall on her knees then and there, and pray
to be taken to him, in death or in life. But the sound of her mother's
voice stayed her, rising angrily from below.

"Mary! What are you about? Come down here at once."

Obediently, though without affection she submitted, descending the
wooden ladder-stair from the loft that served as her bedroom. Her
mother's face and whole bearing spoke of the cold composure, the
loveless discipline which always followed such an outburst. It was an
expression she had come to know all too well. Wherein lay the mystery
of this woman? She did not know, only that there was no commiseration,
no sense of shared loss between them, and that she was hardly what the
younger woman imagined a mother should be.

But on this day there was especial agitation among her classic, though
faded Scot features---round, sturdy face and steady, full blue
eyes---and a greater visible effort to control herself. Of late this
usually meant that she had quarreled with Margaret. And these
arguments, Mary knew, somehow centered on herself.

"Where is she?" the mother burst all at once. Like Michael she often
kept her deepest feelings under lock and key, revealing to the world
only a lesser parody of herself. But now something had happened---

"Go and find her!" she cried, at long last giving in. "And if she has
gone to that witch's hole of hers, then. . .tell her she may just as
well stay there, and the Devil take her! I've had enough of it, do you
hear? Let them burn her at the stake; I'll not have her bring shame
upon this house. It's all the same to me!" And she ran to the armchair
by the fireplace, hiding her face in her hands.

The daughter followed, more confused and forlorn than ever. She loved
her aunt, though she also feared her, and could not understand the
vindictive nature of the words spoken against her.

"Mother, what are you saying? What are you thinking of?"

The hands came down to reveal a tired, careworn face no longer able to
think of pity. "So, you never knew she was a witch? How blind a woman
can be, when she wants to. Why, you don't even know, still haven't
guessed---" She faltered, then cried out. "Dear God, I cannot bear
this cross any longer! You have taken my husband, my beloved son, and
left me with his temptress." Then turning to Mary. "Go to her! Get
out, I tell you! She will tell you everything, everything now. Make
your home with her if you like. Leave me to my wretched memories." And
physical sorrow bent her nearly double in the chair.

The girl took a step to console her, but the hateful, flashing eyes
turned on her erased any such notion. She hesitated, then ran to the
door in dismay, and out into the bracing, October wild. It seemed the
last vestiges of solace and sanctuary were crumbling around her,
leaving a world too terrible, too full of dark meaning to endure. She
ran.


But her steps were not blind. Instinctively she stayed on the western
side of the rise, which hid her from sight of the road. And though she
had rarely seen it, the back of her mind knew where her aunt's strange
and secret abode lay: beyond the ravine, in land too wild and rocky to
grow or graze.

It was growing dark when she finally reached the high pass in which it
lay, and in place of the wind a cold stillness reigned. The rocky
culvert did not benefit from the failing light. It was a harsh and
cheerless place, all thorn and sloe, with here and there a gnarled,
leafless tree.

The faraway cry of a wolf froze her to the marrow: she was alone, and
could not find what she sought. Why had she come in such haste,
without horse or cloak? Her body ached and the sense of youthful
despair, never far from her, returned with the added force of cold,
helpless exposure.

An owl swooped, and half fearfully she followed the line of its
flight. As it rose again against the near horizon, she saw there at
the meeting of stone and sky a trail of black smoke, barely
distinguishable in the darkening gloom. She followed it downward. And
there, half buried in the hard earth which bounded it on three sides,
she saw her aunt's sometime residence, the `witch's hole' as her
mother had called it. And though she loved her aunt, and had nowhere
else to go, she could not help feeling a moment of doubt.

A wedge of stone wall---one door, one window---was all the face it
showed, the short chimney rising further to the sunken right. It was
in fact a hole, dug and lined with stone perhaps a thousand years
before by some wandering Pict, with a living roof of roots and turf.
Her aunt had merely dug it out again and repaired the chimney. The
window and door, framed in ready openings, were new, along with stout
ceiling beams. Nothing more. It was a place that perhaps ten people
knew of, and nine avoided.

She stood unresolved, chafing the arms of her dress, unable to keep
warm. But at that moment a solitary figure came up the path towards
her, and she recognized the shawl and bound hair of her aunt, stooped
beneath a large bundle of sticks.

"Inside with you, lass," said the woman evenly, again not evincing the
least surprise. "You'll catch your death."

"Let me help you with your load," the girl offered.

"I can quite carry my own burden, Mary. Just open the door for me;
I'll walk through it." Mary did as she asked. They went inside.

The single room was dark and low-ceilinged, with no light but the
hearth fire, which played strange shadows across the rough stones and
wooden bracings. Herbs, tools and utensils, bizarre talismans hung
from the walls. The floor was of solid earth. A wooden table and
chair, two frameless beds, an ancient rocking chair---there were no
other furnishings.

"Sit by the fire, child, and wrap a blanket around you. I'll have the
tea....." But studying her face more closely, the old woman put a hand
to her forehead, and could not entirely suppress a look of concern.
"Into bed with you, Mary, you're burning with fever." And she quickly
arranged warm coverings for the thin, down mattress, which lay on a
jutting shelf of stone covered with straw, and threw more wood on the
fire.

Soon the room was warm, and in its primitive way, quite comfortable.
Mary lay in the bed, her shivering stopped, and the herb tea that her
aunt had given her calming her nerves. But still there were the
questions that would not rest.

"Aunt Margaret," she began pensively, eyes glittering. "You quarreled
with mother, and now she can bear her cross no longer, and she says
you must tell me everything." Though the sentence was hardly coherent,
the old woman nodded her understanding. She came and sat on the bed,
taking the young girl's hand in her own.

"I'll tell you this much now, and then you must sleep. There'll be
worlds of time in the morning. Will you promise me you'll sleep, and
trust

me till the sunrise?" The daughter nodded.

"She's not your mother, Mary. I am."
Three

That night, her subconscious stirred by fever, and by the maelstrom of
unsettling events, Mary dreamed more deeply and vividly than she had
since childhood. The fire burned brightly before her as the old woman,
ever mindful, rocked slowly back and forth, beside her.


She stood atop a high hill, looking down into a broad expanse of green
valley. To the left she heard the stirring sound of bagpipes, to the
right, the ominous drums and steady tramp of the English. Two armies
advanced upon each other, making for some indefinable object in the
center of the field, which for some reason both sides wanted. To the
left the plaid kilts and mixed uniforms of the Highlanders, to the
right a rigid, regimented sea of Red. She watched them draw together
with the uncomprehending horror that every woman feels for war,
unmoved by words of glory and patriotism, understanding only that men,
men dear to herself and others, are about to die.

It seemed that the Scots would reach the object first, being the
swifter and on their own ground; but suddenly they stopped. At their
head she saw two men on horseback: a rugged, wizened general, and a
handsome young prince with long plumes in his hat, seated on a
brilliant white charger. The general was arguing and gesticulating
sharply that they must advance and attack. But the Prince, with an air
of supreme confidence and divine understanding, only made a sign of
the cross and remained where he was, content.

The British halted and formed ranks, expecting a charge. But not
receiving it, and perceiving their opponent's hesitation, they quickly
brought their artillery to the fore. Unlimbering the cannon, they
loaded and took aim, and began to shower the unmoving Highlanders with
grapeshot and thundering shells.

The young girl gasped in terror, and shouted for them to fight back,
or run away. The general waved his arms more violently than before.
But still the Prince gave no order, and only looked about him as if
puzzled, unable to fathom what was happening to his men.

And at length the English charged, mowing down the decimated Scottish
lines like so much rye after a hailstorm. While the Prince slipped
away with his escort.

But all of this, gruesome and sinister as it was. . .this was not what
froze her heart. In a smaller scene that somehow stood out sharp and
clear, two red-coated foot soldiers were dragging by the arms a tall
Scot with a bloodied shock of golden hair. He was dazed and plainly
wounded, but still they pulled at him fiercely, as if to throw him to
the ground and run him through. They carried him out of sight, into a
copse of death-black trees.

"Michael!" she cried frantically, trying to follow. But her legs would
not move, and she sank slowly into quicksand, her skirts
billowing.....

Then the dream shifted and she was back at the grave, lying in the
rough grass. Again she felt the gentle touch on her hair and startled
cheek, again the reassuring voice:

"My Mary." And then. . .was it real or imagined? "I'll come back for
you." From the bottom of a well. "I've come back for you." Farther,
and fainter, then suddenly sharp and near. "My Mary. Mary....."

"Mary!"


"Mary, wake up. You've put yourself in a frenzy." And her guardian
steadily, though not without emotion, replaced the thrown and
disheveled blankets. "You've got to keep yourself---"

"I. . .I saw him again," she stammered. "He called to me. He said he'd
come back for me." She tried to rise. "I've got to go to him, I've got
to find him!"

"No."
For the first time her mother (the claim was true) spoke forbiddingly,
taking her by the shoulders and forcing her back down. "He's dead and
in the grave, and that's where he's going to stay. And unless you want
to join him there---"

"But I do!" cried the girl. "I do. Why doesn't anyone understand?" And
she turned away and fell to weeping. Her mother was silent.


Perhaps an hour later the girl was asleep again, or appeared to be.
Troubled, her mother rose and went to an ancient chest that lay hidden
beneath a musty stretch of carpet, in a niche carved out of the cold
ground beneath. Kneeling over it, she unfastened the broad belt that
secured the lid, which she lifted and leaned carefully back against
the wall. Then with a quick glance at her daughter, she reached inside
and lifted out from among its shadowy contents a withered branch of
hemlock.

Moving to the fire, which glowed and hissed sullenly at her approach,
she thrust its head into the flames, holding the root in a stubborn
fist. Quietly and solemnly, she chanted some words in a language that
her daughter could not understand, and at length the dead leaves and
smoking stalk caught solid fire. Standing once more, she drew a slow
circle with it in the center of the room, then went to the door. As
soon as she opened it a cold wind pushed past and blew out the
trembling torch, but this seemed no more than she expected.

Stepping outside and closing the door behind her, the witch took a few
paces forward, turned again to face the hut. She waved the branch in
strange patterns, moving from side to side and repeating the same
chant, so that the smoke which still seethed from it drew wisping
traces about the door, the window, the whole of the house. Then turned
again, and cast it to the ground before her. She opened her eyes wide,
oblivious to the stinging smoke, and whispered harshly.

"You leave us be!"

She went inside.
Four

As if a troubled thought that had slowly worked its way through her
second sleep, with the first light of dawn Mary sat bolt upright in
the bed, and said aloud.

"He's not my brother."

The old woman, who had apparently not slept at all, turned to her from
her place by the fire, now lowered to glowering coals for cooking. She
thought to reply harshly, then checked herself. Like a skilled surgeon
or a patient general (or a bitter woman gnawed by hate), she knew that
the matter of her daughter's lost love must be handled with extreme
care.

"Not your brother. Your cousin."

"Then---" The realization scalded her. "We could have married! There
was no sin, no shame in what I felt for him."

Again, though it ran counter to all her designs for the girl, the old
woman knew this was not the time to speak against the hopeless romance
that she still carried like a torch in the Night. And also (the
darkness had not yet swallowed her completely), she felt that her
daughter deserved this much.

"There was no sin. Naivety perhaps."

With this her daughter broke into wretched tears, and it was some time
before the woman could calm her enough to speak. She moved to sit
beside her on the bed; and so helpless and forlorn did Mary then
appear, that for a moment her mother forgot all else and slowly
brought to her breast the face that had suckled there so long ago.

"What is it child?" she said gently, stroking the soft hair that had
once been her own. "What is it hurting you so?"

"All this time..... I thought it was because..... After he was killed,
I went to my confessor. I told him everything, and he said---"

There was no need for her to finish. Too well did the other understand
the vindictive nature of men.

"He said that Michael was taken because you had committed incest: that
it was God's punishment for a grievous sin, and that it's your fault
he died." The pitiful nod and freshened weeping told her she was
right. "Nay, lass. It was not the hand of God that killed him, and
many other good men besides. It is not the Creator who so brutalizes
lives and emotions. It is men.
"

And with this all her maternal softness faded, as her eyes stared hard
and dry into some galling distance of thought and memory. Her arms
fell away from her daughter's shoulders, and she unconsciously ground
her teeth.

Mary, who had seen none of this, raised her head and wiped the tears
from her eyes, feeling something like a pang of conscience. "I'm
sorry. . . Mother." She could not help blushing at the word. "I've
been selfish, thinking only of my own sorrow. Won't you tell me
something of yourself? It must have been hard for you, surely."

The woman's gaze returned.

"Ah, life is hard, girl. Someday I'll speak of the roads that brought
me here, but not now." She rose as if to say no more, then turned to
the girl, so young, with the only words of comfort she could find. But
at that they were not gentle, were not the words of hope.

"You must learn from the trees, Mary. A lightning bolt, a cruel axe,
cleaves a trunk nearly to the root, and the oak writhes in agony. But
it does not die. It continues. And though the hard and knotted scars
of healing are not pleasant to look upon, they are stronger, many
times stronger, than the virgin wood. You must learn from the trees,"
she repeated. "It is among their boughs and earthward tracings that
the true gods are found."

"You're not a Christian, then?" This simple non-belief seemed to her
incomprehensible.

"Nay, Mary, I'm not. The gentle Jesus may comfort the meek, but he is
of little use when it comes to vengeance." The woman stopped, knowing
she had said more than she intended. But perhaps this much of the
truth was for the best. She would have to know soon enough, anyway.
"There are other powers, closer to hand, that give the strong a reason
to go on living."

The younger woman studied her in silence, and all the awe and fear of
her that she had felt since childhood returned. She remembered the
chant, the flaming branch. And now the callous determination.....
Toward what end? She recalled the words that had seemed so innocent
the day before:

Just open the door for me; I'll walk through it.
But what door was she to open? What vengeance?

But first there was one more question, which rose in sudden fullness
before her.

"My God. Margaret. Who was my father?"

"The Lord Purceville, though it was not willingly I took him to my
bed."

There was no need to say more. Her mother went back to the hearth, and
after a cheerless meal, told her to remain in bed until the fever
broke. Then went out on some errand of her own.

Five

Mary remained in the bed as she was told until, between her natural
vigor and childlike curiosity, she began to feel better, and then,
quite restless. Putting more wood on the fire and dressing warmly (she
was not incautious), she began to look around her for something to do,
or perhaps, something to read. It was impossible yet to think through
all that had happened in just these twenty-four hours, or to know what
she must do in answer. She felt like a shipwrecked swimmer, far from
shore on a dark night: that the water around her was much too deep,
that she must rest, and wait for some beacon to lead her again to
solid ground.

But for all this, she could not help feeling drawn to the ancient
chest from which her mother had taken the hemlock. She told herself to
forget it, but could not.

That her mother practiced in the black arts was apparent; and a vague
feeling that perhaps through witchcraft she might reach the troubled
spirit of her beloved, drove her in the end to hard courage,
overriding all other considerations.

She went to the window and peered out, then moved to the door.
Stepping beyond it furtively, like a young rabbit outside the den, she
looked about her. The sun hung motionless almost exactly at the noon,
and the chill of night had passed. There was no sign of her mother,
nor any other creature save a solitary hawk, which soared watchful
high above.

She went inside again and rolled back the corner of the carpet, as in
quick glances she had seen her mother do. The chest lay beneath. The
thick belt was easily undone, and there was no other lock or latch. It
occurred to her briefly that this was what the old woman wanted, and
at the same time that she would be furious, and fly into a terrible
rage. But this did not matter. Nothing mattered except that Michael
had come to her, and touched her, and called out to her in living
dream. She lifted the wide lid, and set it back against the wall.

Somewhere outside a raven spoke, and a sudden blast of wind shook the
door. She started, and whirled about, but did not waver in her
resolve.

Inside the trunk were many grim and grotesque articles which appalled
her, and which she would not touch. But to the extreme left, pushed
together with their bindings upward, were four large manuscript books,
bound in leather. Her eyes, and seeking spirit, were drawn to these.

They were alike untitled and unadorned, yet to one she was
unmistakably drawn. Her hand moved toward it almost without conscious
thought: the smallest, burnished black. It was thinner than the others
as well. And so, growing wary of the witch's return, she lifted it
quickly and moved to the bed. There she slid it beneath her mattress,
then returned to the chest, which she closed and bound as before. She
had only just rolled back the carpet when she heard, muffled but
distinct, the cry of the hawk high above. And she knew, somehow she
knew, that her mother was coming back up the path.

She undressed again quickly, down to the slip, and was careful to set
the dress back on the chair as it had lain before. Climbing back into
the bed she was acutely aware of two sensations: the lump at the small
of her back made by the book, and the pounding of her heart.

The door-latch was lifted, the hinges creaked, and her mother stepped
into the room. She looked exhausted and grim, and seemed to take no
notice as her daughter sat up in the bed and addressed her.

"I'm feeling much better," she said, trying to sound bright and happy.
She could not quite pull it off, but thankfully, the old woman's mind
was elsewhere.

"It is done," she mumbled in reply, as much to herself as to the girl.
Laying her things absently on the table, she pulled loose the comb
which bound the iron-grey locks behind her head, and shook them free
about her shoulders. At this simple act Mary drew a startled breath,
and it was all she could do to suppress a gasp of fright. For here,
truly, was the classic apparition of a witch: the ragged, wind-blown
dress and shawl, the long, wild hair and intent, burning eyes. This,
the woman noticed.

"Not much to look at, am I?" At first she glared as she said this,
then turned away, remembering to whom she spoke. "There was a time,
Mary, and perhaps not so long ago as you might imagine, when men said
I was still quite fair. But time. . .and poison. . .have done their
work." She grew silent, and bitter, once more. But something inside
the girl urged her now to draw the woman out, not leave her alone in
this darkness.

She got down from the bed and stepped timidly towards her. Placing one
hand on her shoulder, with the other she lifted a stray lock of her
mother's hair and tucked it gently behind her ear. The witch pulled
forward and away, but Mary persisted. She came close again, and this
time put her arms around her full, and kissed her lightly on the
temple.

"Mother," she said, the word arresting the other's anger. "Won't you
tell me how it was for you, all these years, and what you're feeling
now?"

"What does it matter, girl? The wine is drawn and must be drunk." But
ominous as these words sounded, her daughter brushed them aside.
Because now, her eyes clouding with tears, she understood what was
taking place in her own heart: an orphan's awkward and tremulous love
for her true parent.

"But it does matter," she insisted, "to you. And to me."

Their eyes met. For a moment Mary thought the woman would weep, and
embrace her, and all would be well. But the aged eyes knew no more
tears. She turned away.

"All right, Mary, I'll tell you, though I've little doubt you will
stop me halfway. But just now I'm exhausted. If you really want to
help me, put on the kettle for tea, and bring me a rye cake. The
weather is turning," she went on, rubbing her arthritic shoulder.
"We'll have no visitors tonight, at least. There'll be hours of time
for talk."

"Promise me, then. Tonight you'll open your heart?" Her mother gave a
queer sort of laugh.

"What little is left of it. Yes, yes, child, I promise. Now bring me
the tea and give me a moment's peace." Mary did as she asked.
Six

That same afternoon a single rider approached the steward's cottage,
in which now only Michael's mother remained. Hearing hoofbeats, she
went quickly to the window and pulled back the heavy curtains. Though
this woman had little left to lose, she was concerned almost in spite
of herself for the safety of her niece. And in her darkened frame of
mind, she could not help but fear the worst.

A British officer, seated on a majestic bay stallion, slowed his horse
to a loose trot and drew rein just beyond the porch. This in itself
did not seem such a threat. It could mean anything: some kind of
summons, a requisition for cavalry horses and supplies (which they did
not have), or simply a saddle-weary officer wanting a drink to soothe
his parched throat.

But when she opened the door at his ringing, impatient knock, she took
a step back in astonishment, and it was only with difficulty that she
preserved a veneer of resignation and indifference.

She saw before her Mary's face. It was broader, and infinitely
masculine---framed in strong and curling black hair, the green eyes
fierce beneath scowling brows. But it was the same green, the hair the
same shimmering black. Identical too was the fair, unmarked
complexion, the smooth and finely chiseled nose and chin. Something in
the shape was dissimilar, yet still.....

She could not at first read the riddle, until with an arrogance that
could never have come from her niece, he threw back the door and
advanced upon her, driving her back into the passage.

"So, my good widow Scott. You recognize the son of your esteemed
overlord, and perhaps were expecting him as well?"

"No, truly sir. I don't know what you mean." It was not necessary to
feign surprise. She could not imagine what the son of the Lord
Purceville could want of her.

"I don't have time for games!" he shouted, pushing past her and
searching the adjacent rooms before returning to stand before her.
"And what of that hag sister of yours. . .and your daughter?" At these
words he perceived genuine alarm in the face of the other.

And alarmed she truly was. For since the day of that terrible battle,
which had occurred but a few days' ride from the cottage, the two
women had done everything possible to hide their adolescent charge,
whose beauty and innocence made her a natural target for marauding
troops.

"I have no daughter, sir, you are mistaken. No one lives here but
myself and my aged sister-in-law. If you would be so kind---" The back
of his hand crashed across her face, starting a trickle of blood at
the corner of her mouth. He raised the hand again threateningly, then
for some reason, smiled.

"You're not too old, you know. I might have a bit of sport on you
myself." But remembering his purpose, he grew cold and severe again.
"Pray do not think me an idiot. We too have spies, loyal folk among
the hills. I spoke to one such gentleman scarcely an hour ago..... But
that would be telling. You have
a daughter, Mrs. Scott: Mary by name, a charming creature by all
accounts. If you wish her to remain so, you had best tell me what I
want to know."

"Please, sir, I beg you. Just tell me what it is you want. I'll give
you anything I have, but please, spare the girl. She's a poor,
helpless creature, alone but for the two of us. We've done nothing
wrong, I swear it."

"Well," he replied more calmly. "At least you have a bit of sense."

But if she had meant to turn aside his interest in the girl by calling
her helpless, and alone in the world, her understanding of men (at
least that kind of man) had failed her badly. He began to pace
eagerly, his hands behind his back, speaking with the aggressive
assurance of one accustomed to having his own way. And for all her
fear and agitation, she could not help but notice that he was also
terribly handsome.

"This is what I want from you, for now. A small group of war prisoners
(in truth it was closer to a hundred) have escaped from the hold at
Edinburgh, the last, effectively speaking, of your would-be prince's
Highland rabble. Our information is that they have since split up into
smaller bands, each heading for their respective homeland. There, no
doubt, they will attempt to stir sympathy for your deluded cause.

"Fools!" he continued, as if possessed of the truths of the Universe.
"Scotland's day is done. Henceforth her destiny shall be irrevocably
tied to that of England. We are trying to be magnanimous, and make
reforms. But we will not tolerate, we will crush utterly, any attempt
at further rebellion."

"Magnanimous?" she mocked, her pride returning. "Is that why you
struck me? Is that why you threaten three lonely, bereft women, who
have already lost to you all that they loved and held dear?"

"I did what I had to do!" he cried hotly. "And will do more besides,
if you don't hold your tongue. These traitors will be found, and
punished---drawn and quartered, or hanged from the nearest tree. And
anyone who aids them, or does not send word of them to me at once,
will receive much the same. Though in the case of three lonely, bereft
women, the punishment might be slower, more amusing."

Again she was driven to fearful silence. She hoped that this would be
the end of it, but apparently he had not yet received what he came
for, a motive, perhaps, not entirely official.

"And now, good widow Scott, I would very much like you to tell me
where I might catch a glimpse of your charming daughter. Oh, do stop
the theatrics," he said irritably, as she clasped her hands to her
bosom and made as if to fall on her knees before him. "If I wanted the
services of a whore I have the whole countryside to choose from. It is
just that your daughter. . . interests me. For unless I am much
mistaken, I have seen her once before."

"I must beg you this last time," she pleaded. "Ask of me anything but
this. Take me if you like, kill me if you must; but I cannot---" He
had raised his pistol to arm's length as she spoke, and now fired it
with a crack at a portrait of the child Mary that hung in the adjacent
room. The ball found its mark at her throat, leaving a dark hole
through the canvas of the shadow behind, and the frightened woman
turned paler still. She tried to speak but he cut her short, his voice
low and menacing.

"I swear to you, my Highland whore, you will tell me where she is to
be found. Because if you don't, this very moment, I will find her
myself, and with this same pistol put a hole in the real
Mary Scott, and leave her to die in the dirt!"

"My sister has a second home," she stammered, hardly knowing how she
found the words. "On Kilkenny ridge, beyond the ravine. A small path
winds up to it from the Standing Stone, one branch left, then two to
the right. We quarreled, and the girl has gone off to live with her.
It is the whole truth, I swear it. God have mercy on us!"

"I believe you speak the truth at that," he said coolly. And reaching
inside his unbuttoned officer's coat, he drew out a felt purse.
Loosing the strand with his fingers, he reached inside and removed
several gold coins, which he placed gently on a table beside her.
"Thank you, Mrs. Scott. I will take that as permission to pay court
upon your daughter. I fancy I may even marry her, if she is the girl
I'm thinking of. Good day to you."

He stepped past her, out through the open door, and remounted his
beautiful bay.
Seven

Towards evening the weather did in fact turn foul, with heavy clouds
blowing in from the sea. Laden with rain, and stirred to inner
violence by the turbulent upland airs, they discharged their burden
with a vengeance among deep cracks of thunder. Bolts of white fire
stabbed the earth as the deluge broke, turning good roads to bad, and
bad to treacherous and impassible quagmire. So forbidding had the
mountain paths become that even the young Lord Purceville, the most
stubborn and heedless of men, was forced to turn back and seek
shelter, postponing, for one day at least, his desired meeting

with young Mary Scott, of whom he had heard such glowing reports.

So deeply, in fact, had the old man's words affected him, that he
fancied (though this was unlikely) he truly had seen her once before,
gathering wildflowers on a green hillside in Spring. And whether of
human or otherworldly origins, the spell, to which he was particularly
susceptible, had done its work on him.

He wanted her.

* * *

The man staggered wearily down the high embankment, until he came to
the final, near-vertical stretch of cliff. The cold rain lashed him;
the need to reach shelter and the warmth of a fire had become all
consuming. He had not eaten, or slept, for days. But for all of this,
and for the pride that had once been his, he knew that he must now be
supremely cautious. One half-hearted grip on the dripping rock, one
misplaced footing, would send him crashing to the ground below. And
while at this height such a fall might not mean death, it surely would
mean broken bones, which in his present plight, hunted and desperate,
amounted to one and the same thing.

The stretch of sand was now only a few yards beneath him. The agitated
sea roared and pounded just beyond. Weak and trembling, chilled to his
very bones, the prisoner at last set foot on level ground. Struggling
on in the wet, giving sand, he searched for the entrance of the
walled-in hiding place. Even in daylight it would be difficult to
find. In the murky dusk it was next to impossible. So far as he knew,
no one but himself and his childhood companions had ever found it. Of
these all but one had been killed in the war. And as for the girl.....
He doubted that she would remember.

At last he found the slight ravine, which led back into the
sea-cliffs. A short distance further was the place where the granite
had split, and one huge shingle buckled and slid forward. Climbing the
slanting crack it formed, he came to the narrow fissure, which in
daylight appeared as little more than a deeper shadow among the
darkened wedge of the seam. He twisted his shoulders, and crawled
forward until he reached the ledge on the other side, within the
enclosure. And though he stood hunched in a blackness complete as the
hole of Hell, still his spirit rejoiced as if it had fought and clawed
its way to Heaven.

He had beaten them. He was free.

With a surge of fierce courage such as he had not felt for many
months, he leapt down blind, trusting that the place had remained as
he remembered it. His feet landed easily in the soft, giving sand, as
his body fell forward in a weary ecstasy of surrender. He embraced its
sheltering softness like a lover, then found to his bewilderment that
he was crying. This was something he had not done since childhood. He
tried to check the tears but could not, as all the pain and fear of
the last three years, and of that terrible day, poured out of him.

He thought of the girl and he knew, even then, that though danger
still surrounded him, he must see her again as soon as it was safely
possible. For he had held her image before him like an icon and a
guiding light through the years of brutal captivity, placing his hope,
and all his heart, in the belief that she remained, alive and free.
That she did not love him in return, but loved another, did not seem
to matter now. Nothing mattered except that he must see her, and speak
to her, and tell her what she meant to him. Then he would be content,
and gladly lay down his life.

With tears still wounding him, he searched the niche in the adjacent
wall, until he found the tinderbox that he had left there. Against all
odds its contents were intact. The rotting straw beneath it was dry,
as was the piled driftwood he had gathered and stored so long ago.
Clearing a level space in the sand, he built a waiting bed of straw
and thin slivers, then struck flint to steel, shooting tiny sparks
into the heart of it. Again and again, until with the aid of his
living breath a single tongue appeared, and began to spread. Then with
the knowledge acquired of a lifetime, he fed the fire slowly, nurtured
it, until at last it grew and swelled into a living, warming blaze.

He hung his head and wept outright. The lingering flame of his life
and his love still remained. He groaned, and in a torment of joy and
suffering, said her name.

"Mary!"

He stripped off his soaking clothes and draped them across driftwood
stands to dry. Lying naked now in the growing warmth of the chamber,
he said a defiant prayer of thanks, and with her image before him
still, drifted at last into sleep.


Eight

The rain beat against the single window; the door trembled beneath the
force of the wind. But for the dry heat that emanated from the blazing
hearth fire, Mary would have thought herself in a dank and dripping
cave. The night aura of the place had returned as well, with strange
shadows playing once more across everything she saw. Half fearfully
now she asked her mother to keep her promise, and speak of the hard
life which had led her to the present. She herself sat in the rocker,
warmly wrapped and with the steaming kettle close at hand, while true
to her nature, the old woman sat stiffly and without comforts in the
plain unmoving wooden chair.

"All right, Mary, I'll tell you. And you've a bit of salt, no denying,
to parry with an old she-wolf in the den. But if the words I speak
begin to feel too harsh, like sack-cloth against your delicate skin,
I'll understand if you stop me. It's hardly a tale for a lady."

"I won't stop you," said Mary stubbornly, beginning to see that every
inch of this woman's bitter fortress would be yielded grudgingly, and
that pain and courage were the only measure she respected. "You must
tell me everything, from the beginning."

"That would take many days, child, and even then you would not know
the half of it. I will tell you now only those events which concern
yourself, along with such glimpses of my youth which you will
understand, and are needful."

"I'm listening," said the girl.

"Very well." And the old woman began her tale.

"When I was scarcely older than you are now, and no less naive, I fell
in love with a man twice my age. He was a fisherman, whose wife had
died in giving birth to their only child, a strapping son, now five
years old.

"John was a lonely man, and beginning to feel the weight of his years.
I was a lonely girl, and to his mind innocent, full with the first
bloom of untainted womanhood. I was to be the empty page that he would
write upon, the flowering stream beside which he would rebuild his
life. He saw nothing but the good in me, and my one desire was to
please him, and to give him all that he needed.

"But my parents, being blind with wealth and comfort, could not see
him as I did, could never know the honest depth of his soul, or the
gentle touch of his big, calloused hands as he held me. The need and
loving warmth he showered over me quite stole my heart..... They saw
only that such a match was beneath me, as the only daughter of a
respected landowner, a man of solid means and family background.

"So we eloped, John and I, and were married in a chapel by the sea.
When my father learned of it he was furious, and disowned me. It was
the last time he ever spoke to me, as this will be the very last, I
warn you, that I will ever say of him. Child-lusting bastard! Had me
in his bed more than once, when we were alone and I could not escape
him.

"Don't look so shocked. It is always within the most staid,
aristocratic families that the heart is most deeply rotted. So don't
feel yourself cheated, girl, that you never knew your father---the man
you most want to love, but in the end must despise more than any.

"But never mind all that. It hardly matters. Good, decent John MacCain
and I were married, and lived happily enough for two years. I still
bear his name, though it is seldom remembered. But if there is one
thing the cruel Christian God will not tolerate---he, too, is called
the Father---it is those who find meaning and bounty without him. We
had little enough in the world's eyes, and never more than we needed
to live day by day. But what of that? We had each other, and the boy,
who had come to think of me as his mother. We had the sun and the sea,
and the land behind. Our Scotland.

"Then one day he took the boy and went out in his boat, as ever, to
earn our daily bread. It was as fine an April morning as you could
ask, and I saw them off under a gentle sky, with softly lapping waves
to put a woman's heart at ease. It need hardly be said that the skies
soon darkened, and a gale blew in like thunder---

"Nay, girl, back to your chair; I don't want pity. That was the way of
it, and nothing to be said or done now.

"He did not return that night. And after three days' fruitless vigil,
there was no use hoping further. A priest came to our small cottage,
and said some words as empty as the promise of afterlife. My brother
and I held candles in our hands, and I think he was truly shocked that
I shed not a single tear. He could not know that my nights for many
years had been filled with them, and that those last, worry-sick three
had drained the well to its dregs, and beyond. That was the end of it.
My first love was gone, leaving me a widow at nineteen, wholly without
means.

"My brother did what he could for me, I'll give him that. And he would
have played the father well enough for you, if the Fever* hadn't got
him first. They're not all bad; I do know it. But the good ones with
hearts that feel, are forever and always at the mercy of them that
don't---the aggressive lot who just take, and trample, without
thinking.


*Typhus.

"But here, I'm ahead of myself, and you look near done-in. Into bed
with you now, and enough of my sad stories."

"No!" said her daughter at once. "You promised. I want to hear it
all!" Though she was in fact tired and morose, and beginning to feel
again the ache of her affliction, Mary sensed that now or never would
she learn the whole truth. She must show this woman that she too could
be strong, and was not afraid of dark reality.

The widow MacCain looked hard at her, trying to gauge the depth, and
source, of her daughter's desire to know. But at the same time she
felt the slow stirrings of concerned motherhood, and at that not the
detached, objective instincts of a guardian, the role she had been
forced to assume, and grown accustomed to these many years. She turned
away, and wrung her hands as if deep in thought.

"All right," she said at last. "But we must get you into bed in any
case. I'll not have you seriously ill."

She rose, and took the tea-cup from Mary's hand. She turned down the
covers for her, and saw her securely tucked in. Then to her dismay as
she sat down on the bed beside her, felt such a surge of tenderness
for this innocent extension of her own flesh, that it was only with
difficulty she did not bend down and kiss her damp, flushed forehead.

"Go on," said Mary, who in her mother's eyes crossed that very hour
from adolescence into womanhood. There was no denying the soul inside
her.

"Are you very sure, lass? I do not say it in mockery, but truth be
told it's not a tale to make the young heart glad. I'll understand if
you've had enough."

"No, really, I'm all right now. Mother," and she took her hand. "I
want to know."

The woman gave a sigh, and shook her head. She found herself cornered,
and not by the hounds and hunters of treachery, but by honesty and
simple love. There was only one way out: forward, through memories and
emotions she had long banished. There was nothing else for it. She
continued.

"My father grew old and finally died, with my mother not far behind.
My brother became man of the house then, and one of the first things
he did was to send for me, though it was not straight away that I went
to him.

"I had been earning my modest keep as a teacher to the children of the
fishing village, and living alone in the spare, two-room schoolhouse
that they built for me. I'd had chance enough for suitors if I wanted
them. But I did not, could not think to put myself through such pain
again. And though I loved them well enough for the simple,
hard-working folk they were, but for my John I never met one as
stirred the embers of any true romantic feeling. Of course the men of
the distant gentry wanted no part of me, a dowerless widow who had
shamed her family and married beneath her class. They were not all so
heartless, and I kept a good deal to myself. But the truth remains
that none ever cared enough to overcome the obstacles, and learn what
lay hidden in my heart.

"So the years went by and I found myself at thirty. My mother had
died, and my brother taken Anne for a wife, who had borne him a child.
So at last I swallowed my pride, and thinking to be useful, went back
to the big house that still haunted my dreams. Both Bryan and your
aunt were kind enough in their awkward, Christian way, and did what
they could to make me feel welcome and at home. But as Michael
continued to grow---yes, child, who else would it be?---they naturally
began to feel a tight bond of family that did not include me.....

"But here the way becomes less clear. It is never a single incident,
nor even a closely knit series of events that makes us what we are,
but a lifetime of broken promises and shattered dreams. They say that
hope springs eternal, and I dare say that's true. More's the pity,
since it must always end in disillusion, and finally, in dark and
lonely death."

She felt her daughter's hand grasp her own, and saw that there were
standing tears in her eyes. As if a veil had been drawn aside between
them, she saw at last the terrible loss the girl had already suffered,
and was suffering still, in the form of an impossible love for a man
three years dead. Yes, thought the dark widow to herself, she deserves
to know the truth.

"I began to feel the need for solitude, and a place to dwell on the
long chains of thought that had taken root inside me. So I made this
place my own, and spent long hours, whole days and nights here,
learning. For I had been shown three books of Druid lore during the
first year of my mourning, by an old Welsh woman who lived in the
village, my only real companion. She taught me the ancient tongues,
and asked me to copy them out in English, along with other tales and
spells which she knew only in her mind, that they might not be lost at
her death. Yes, Mary, she was a witch, though that name need not mean
all that fear implies." She paused.

"A priest has a kind of power over men, because he appeals to the
angelic, or 'right' side of the soul---all filled with yearning for
the light, and the fear of God. The witch works through the left, no
less powerful, because its roots lie in corrupted instinct: vanity,
unclean desire, treachery and violence. And to the weak and abusive,
men such as my father, it is only that much harder to deny. The
daughters of Lug cast no darkness of their own, create no evil that
does not already exist in a man, but only turn that inner blackness to
his own undoing.

"Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord. These words are attributed to the
great God of Christian and Jew alike. But what men cannot see, because
their simplicity demands a single being to worship and fear, is that
the One God is divided into many facets, wholly separate beings, with
moods and purposes all their own. I have chosen the god Dagda, as He
has chosen me. His passion is for retribution against the
violent---the axe-wielders and plunderers, the outwardly strong. It is
He who spoke through the prophet long ago."

"Mother," said Mary. "Please don't be angry, but you're frightening
me. You know I don't pass judgment, and that I'm trying to understand.
. and love you. But this isn't what I want, what I need to know."

With this the old woman, whose eyes had lost their focus and begun to
stare off into space, came back to herself. "Aye, lass, I hear what it
is you're telling me. I was only trying to give you a glimpse of that
part of myself which cannot be shown in outward events. You'll be
wanting to know about the circumstances of your birth..... About your
father."

At this the cold eyes gleamed with unspeakable malice, and with a
shiver of stark insight Mary discovered the source, the burning heart
of her mother's hatred. It was as if all the bitter rage she felt for
the world of men, every grudge, even blame for the war itself, had
been focused upon this one man as the symbol, the living embodiment of
evil, and sole object of revenge. And with a second shock, and full
knowledge that had somehow eluded her, she realized that this him,
this monster her mother wished to destroy, using her as a vehicle, was
the first, the original Lord Purceville. Her father, who formed half
her living flesh.

And as much as she knew him for the man he was, as much as she
sympathized with her mother and abhorred his rape of her, yet again
she felt that sudden and all-inclusive pang: the orphan, who after
years in the lonely dark, discovers a natural parent, living still.

But now the old woman was speaking again, had in fact been speaking
all the while these thoughts raced through her, no longer aware, it
seemed, of any presence save her own, blindly reciting the words that
had become to her a litany of hate.

".....was just an officer then, in command of the Northern Garrison.
We were not yet in open rebellion, and after a fashion, were content
to be subjects of the British crown. But we were never equals. The
Purcevilles, outsiders that they were, still secured for themselves a
beautiful estate, with a magnificent home and many servants. And one
of them, by a strange twist of Fate, was I.

"Hard times and higher taxes were beginning to take their toll on
Bryan, and I felt useless enough in his house. So I determined to seek
employment, and a place of my own, wherever I might find them. For I
had not yet learned that my place was here, and that the world of men
held nothing for me. Stubbornly I hoped, and stubbornly I fell into
the trap.

"As much as perhaps I should have known better, I solicited for, and
was given the job of governess to young Stephen Purceville, aged then
seven years. He was a hard and abrasive lad, his mother dead and gone
years past. Yes, Mary, you begin to see how life repeats, and how I
was laid bare for the final sting. I loved the boy, hard as it was
sometimes. There was something in him, a brooding hunger of the eyes,
which endeared him to me for all his excesses and bursts of temper.
And if the truth be told, I saw the same hunger and restless need in
the aggressive coldness, the outward ferocity of his father.

"Fool, fool, fool!" she cursed herself. "We women find a strong,
demanding master, and we think that because of his strength there must
be goodness and nobility within, that if nurtured..... But it does not
exist. Takers and users, they plunder our hearts and our bodies, then
throw us to the dogs."

"Then," asked Mary gently, trying hard not to upset her. "He didn't
actually rape you?"

"Aye, rape he did, though not in the sense that fear casts the
word---alone in some barren place, far from help. But I said it was
not willingly I took him to my bed, and it's the god's truth. He would
come to my room of an evening, and letting himself in---he held keys
to every room in the house, and none were spared---he would.....

"This is a hard thing for me to tell you, girl. He forced himself on
me, and at times I struggled, or even cried out, until a cuff or sharp
threat silenced me. And yet, strange to say. . .after the incestuous
horrors of my father's house, it was a kind of cleansing, purging
pleasure to be so used, so long as I believed that somewhere, in the
depths of his heart, he loved and cared for me.

"Dear God, how blind we can be! It was not love he felt, nor secret
tenderness. It was not even clean desire, but the novelty of a woman
my

age---thirty-three---who was still fair, and of violating by night the
woman who coddled his son by day.

"But it was more than even that. In his meanness and baseness he knew,
in some measure, what it was I felt for him, and it gave him a twisted
satisfaction to be admired and cherished by a native lass, who meant
to him less than nothing." Again she paused, as if herself overwhelmed
by the memory.

"In time I became pregnant," she said, in a voice almost sad. "And all
my confused, forlorn affection became the more profound. For he had
stirred inside me what even John could not: a child of my own.

"So on the last night that he came to me, as we lay panting side by
side---for I had not resisted him..... I looked over at him in the
gentle candlelight, and with the trembling emotions of a lifetime,
told him that I loved him, loved his son, and now would bear his
child. To think that in that moment I half fancied he would take me in
his arms, and ask me to marry him.

"He laughed
at me! So utterly cold and cruel. Then as he came back to himself he
seized me by the wrists, and swore that no child of his would be born
to a scheming slut---his very words---the likes of me. And he beat me,
as if trying to snuff out the lives of both of us. I honestly believe
he would have done it, if fear of losing his position had not
intervened.

"Then he dragged me by the hair, down the long hallway, and threw me
out into the cold Winter night, with only the torn nightdress wrapped
about my battered limbs. The last words he said as I ran from the
house in tears, were that if anyone ever learned the child was his, he
would kill us both. And he meant it."

Mary was crying now for both of them, feeling as if she, too, had been
beaten and raped. "How could he?" was all she could manage.

"How?" asked the old woman, half mocking, half in earnest. "For a man
like that it was as easy as breathing.
`The shark will strike

and the spider spin,

The mad dog kill, and kill again
Until he is killed in his turn.'

Remember that, Mary. It is the way of things."

"But why....." It seemed almost cruel to ask, but she had to. "Why the
charade of my being Anne's child? Why couldn't you and I have had each
other, at least?"

"Aye, that. Well." And for the first time that night, through all the
gruesome details, the woman found herself at a loss, as if this alone
still caused in her something akin to remorse. "At first it was the
family honor. It was as easy to cloister the two of us, as one. And
then.

"I tried to poison myself a short time after you were born, as only
your life inside me had prevented my doing before. As much as I wanted
to love and care for you, as the innocent babe you were.....

"It all became too much for me, Mary, and my brother's death was the
final blow. I just wanted it to end. They say I went quite mad for a
time, if endless loss, and a death-like sense of oppression be
madness.

"The surviving family, the Talberts, then considered me an unfit
guardian. And with the coming of dark times it was difficult to blame
them, or disagree..... And so I gave you up---"

She had to stop, because the girl had risen beside her in the bed, and
this time in deepest earnest, wrapped her arms about the withered
neck, weeping as if there were nothing left in all the world. The old
woman (old and haggard at fifty) felt a moment of weakness. She wanted
to cry herself, to give, and receive comfort in return. But the tears
would not come.

Then she remembered the man, and was silent.

And more than anything else Mary had heard or experienced that night,
this simple non-action, and the three words the witch finally uttered.
. brought home to her the full brutality, and continuing tragedy of
her mother's life.

"He will pay."

As the rain beat relentlessly, and the wind howled through the barren
pass.

Nine

Stephen Purceville rose early the next morning. He had slept alone
that night, something of a rarity, and woke feeling both cleansed and
restless. Cleansed because, like all men who give and take love too
freely, he knew in his heart how meaningless the endless procession of
women had become. Restless because he fancied, and simultaneously
feared it was not true, that he had at last found the woman who would
make it all real, and still the inner turmoil which had haunted him
time out of mind.

He got up and stretched his lean, hard-muscled frame, calling for his
valet, who came at once and began helping him dress. This act was by
now such a matter of ritual that it left his mind soft and dreamlike,
free to think again of that mystical creature of beauty and innocence,
so unlike the others, that he would woo, and take as his wife.

That he had done nothing to earn, and therefore to deserve such a
blessing, that real love could not possibly find him until he stopped
using and hurting all who came within his reach---these were thoughts
which could never occur to him. Rather, it seemed unlikely that he
would ever wake from the dream of dominance and superiority in which
he had been raised. For he had been born into wealth, and taught
(though not by his father, who in fact had taken little hand in his
upbringing) that his noble birth entitled him to both material
satisfaction, and the subservient respect of all around him. And
because the world could not possibly live up to this contrived and
irrational viewpoint, he was forever angry, feeling cheated, though by
whom he could not say, of the peace and happiness that were rightfully
his.

Sending the servant from him, he splashed cold water across his face
and neck, brushed and pomaded his strong, raven locks, then set about
to shaving with especial care. Toweling away the remaining lather he
finished dressing, buckled on his sword and walked briskly down the
corridor, roughly pushing aside the butler, who in the semi-darkness
had failed to descry his young master's approaching form, and
deferentially stand aside.

Entering at length the high, majestic dining room, he was oblivious to
the opulent splendor all around him. His one thought, as he seated
himself brusquely, was a mild gratitude that his father, whom he
despised, had not yet risen. For in the aging baron he saw what he
considered an unfair reflection of himself---what he was, and would
become---and he judged most harshly in his father those shortcomings
which he himself possessed.

But on a more human level, and in the open book to which all save
murderers (and he was not yet that) are entitled, the `brooding hunger
of the eyes' which the old woman had described in him as a child, was
in fact a true window into his innermost self---his deep-seated need
for womanly care and affection. His only memories of his mother, who
had died so young, were of an angelic being in a long white gown, who
stood in the twilit doorway of his bedroom. . .then entered softly,
and kissed and petted him good-night. And without realizing it, he
longed with all his soul for that gentle, reassuring touch, so
suddenly and irrevocably lost.

He remembered more distinctly his first governess, the widow MacCain,
whose patient affection he had begun to return when his father, for
reasons he would never make clear, had sent her away in disgrace. In
later life he had solved the bitter puzzle for himself, after his own
fashion and understanding, and hated them both for it.

Back to the present, he set to his breakfast with a will. He ate not
because he was hungry---genuine, limb-weakening hunger was something
he had never known---but because he had a long ride ahead of him, and
wished to retain a good measure of strength at the end of it, when he
saw, and would meet.....

Her.

He abruptly pushed away his plate. And for perhaps the second time in
his adult life (the first being the morning of the Battle, in which he
had served as an adjutant) he felt a kind of fear and nervous awe of
what lay ahead. Wiping his mouth mechanically, he threw aside the
napkin, strode down the long hallway, and made his way out toward the
stables, buttoning his crimson officer's coat against the early
morning chill.

The great irony of his existence, and of his current fixation on a
woman he had never met, was that the same restless hunger which drove
him to her, and which was so transparent in his eyes, had acted as
both a heart-throb and aphrodisiac on a score of beautiful women,
English and Scottish alike, and he could have picked from their number
anyone he wished. Servant girls, ladies, wives and mistresses of other
men, all were quite helpless before his sharp and demanding emerald
gaze, enhanced as it was by his high position and rakish good looks.
At any moment there were always two or three jewel-like creatures who
considered themselves deeply in love with him, and would gladly have
forsaken all others to be his wife. But of these he wanted none.
Beyond the plunder of their willing bodies (and this very willingness
made him look upon them with contempt), he thought of them, and cared
for them, not at all.

The groom, who had been warned of his master's mood and early
approach, stood ready, holding the reins of the saddled stallion.
Again the young man took no particular notice of his good
fortune---that here was arguably the finest horse in the countryside,
sleek and tireless, worth more in stud alone than many of the country
folk could hope to earn in a lifetime. He knew only that it was his,
and that this, at least, was as it should be. In a rare show of
affection, he went so far as to pat its beautiful neck before
mounting. But this did not keep him from upbraiding the groom for a
loose strand on the saddle-blanket. And no sooner had he mounted the
animal than it ceased to be for him a living creature, and became
instead a vehicle, existing merely to carry him to a desired end. He
rode off, leaving the groom to shake his head, and spit disparagingly
in the dirt.

Such was the love he inspired in men.


Mary sat at the bare table, drinking tea and chewing a hard biscuit,
while her mother peered narrowly out of the window. Both had been
silent since waking---there seemed little left to say---but at last
her mother broke the stillness.

"Mary. What will you do if Stephen Purceville comes to call on you
today?" Mary knew better than to ask why he would. So far as her
mother was concerned, there was no such thing as coincidence. She
thought for a moment, then replied honestly.

"I don't know. He is, after all, my brother."

"Half-brother," the old woman hissed. "And not the better half,
remember that." The girl did not like, and could not understand, her
mother's tone.

"Margaret," she said flatly. "If you did not want us to meet, you
would not have arranged his coming here. You show me one path, then
chastise me for taking it. At least tell me what it is you want, so I
can make an intelligent choice."

"What I want," she repeated thoughtfully, as if regretting her earlier
outburst. "For now all I want is that you should meet, and let nature
take it's course."

Again Mary felt hostility rising inside her. She wanted to love this
woman, and help her if she could. But not as a puppet, and not
in that way. "Nature's course! Are you suggesting that I---"

"Easy, lass. I'm suggesting no such thing." Her voice was cool and
soothing. "Just get to know him. Do what you feel. Nay, child, that's
not what I mean. I think you'll find he has a certain charm. You may
even like him."

Mary rested her chin on her fists, and let out a deep breath,
bewildered. Of all the strange fates and traps: to be given a set of
natural parents after feeling she had none, only to find that one was
detestable, and the other wanted him dead.

But the son, her half-brother. . .here was a mystery. What was his
guilt, or innocence, and what would he feel towards her? Whereas
Michael had known all along that she was not his sister, Stephen would
have no notion that she was.

Of one thing only was she certain: she had had enough of violence and
hatred. She decided she would judge this man by himself alone. And if
he turned out to be a friend, so much the better. Whatever the case,
she would not take part in any scheme to hurt him. And perhaps..... As
if divining the thought, the old woman broke in upon her reverie.

"Just remember this. You must not tell him that he is your brother,
and you must not use my name."

"But why?"

"Why? Because if his father learns of it he will kill us both."

"I'm sorry, but I don't believe that."

"Believe it!" Again the harsh voice was edged in steel. "By the god,
girl, haven't you been listening? Don't you know yet what kind of man
he is?"

"But to kill two women without pretext? Even a Governor---"

"Oh, he would find a pretext. Harboring a fugitive, spying..... Witch
craft."

Mary was silent. And though she reproached herself for it, her one
desire in that moment was to get as far away from the hate-filled old
woman as possible. She longed to escape from the smouldering darkness
of that place, to find some quiet hillside where she could think it
all through, and decide what must be done. What must be done..... But
at the same time she felt the need, far stronger than she cared to
admit, for some strong and reassuring male presence.

At that moment she heard hoofbeats outside the door. Not waiting to
ask, or consider whether it was right or wrong, she rose from her
place and went to the door. The old woman did not try to stop her. She
went outside.


Stephen Purceville stopped short in the saddle, and for the space of
several seconds, did not move or breathe. Then with an effort to
remain calm he dismounted, for that brief instant losing sight of her,
and telling himself it had not happened.

But when he moved forward around the horse, holding tight the reins as
if trying to keep a dream from fading, he felt again the strange and
forbidding shock of her presence.

The girl was beautiful, yes, but it was far more than that. There was
a depth to her, a genuine suffering..... But that was not the whole of
it, either. What did it mean? What did it mean?

He could not know that part of what he was feeling was an instinctive
sense of kin, the primal recognition of blood and family, a feeling
which jarred against, and at the same time increased, his awed
physical desire, for her.

And alongside this, no less tangible, was an almost spiritual
softening, and unconditional love. . .yes, love, for the beautiful and
innocent child before him. Everything about her, from the gentle eyes
and supple figure, to the long and simple dress she wore, seemed to
him more becoming and picturesque than anything he had ever seen. At
the back of his mind flashed a vision: an angelic being all in
white.....

For her own part, Mary also felt a shock. From the first glimpse there
could be no doubt that he was in fact her brother. She knew this not
by any cold comparison of features, but by the sudden love and pity
that welled up in her own heart. Love because, whatever his faults and
follies (these too she sensed), he was her brother, a fellow orphan
and lonely, wayward soul. Her womanly instinct recognized this at
once. Pity, because she saw in his eyes the rising of a passion that
could never be fulfilled. He was in love with her. This she knew with
equal certainty.

Still holding tightly to the reins, he came forward. Remembering his
pretext for coming, he began to speak stiffly of escaped prisoners and
official duties. She listened, hearing not so much the content of his
words, as reading in his voice and manner the confirmation of what she
had intuitively sensed. And she could not help but feel a certain
thrill that this powerful, aggressive man should find himself groping
for speech, shy and self-conscious before her.

And indeed, the young captain soon felt the emptiness of his words,
which were like banners raised without wind to support them. He
stopped, flushing with anger and embarrassment, and looked at her. As
clearly as if she had spoken, her eyes said to him. "It doesn't
matter. I know why you're here, and it's all right."

She stepped closer, and without fear or hesitation, began to stroke
the white muzzle of the bay, which to his surprise, did not pull away.

"He's never let anyone do that," he said honestly. "A perfect
stranger." He unconsciously stepped back, allowing her greater
freedom. "Have you been around horses all your life?"

"When I was younger, before....." Her face flushed. "But that's not
why. We understand each other."

"Before the war?"

"Yes," she said defensively. She could not understand his persistence,
into a matter that was clearly painful to her.

"Do you hate us all, then?"

Her eyes flashed, then became quiet again. "No. I've seen too much of
hate, and death. I lost..... I lost everything."

And suddenly it came to her. She was standing and talking with a man,
her own flesh, who had been on the other side of the firing, and might
well have given the order to kill---

Her face went pale as an intolerable pain rose in the hollow of her
chest, and the full horror of war loomed before her. She stepped back,
senses failing, and would have fallen if he had not rushed forward and
caught her up.

Horrified at his own actions, which could have caused in her such
pain, he carried her back to a flat stone before the hut, which served
as a bench. She sat woozily for a moment, not knowing where she was,
until she became aware of his voice, and of his strong arm about her
shoulders, supporting her.

"Mary, it's all right," he said. "Please, please forgive me. We won't
speak of it again." And looking up at his troubled countenance, so
full of concern and self-reproach, she could not help but forgive him.

He continued, hardly knowing what he said, trying to mend the breach
that he had caused between them. "I, too, know what it is to lose: my
mother, when I was very young." And in that moment it did not seem
strange to him to speak of this, his greatest secret and
vulnerability, which he hid so tenaciously from others.

"Stephen." She spoke plainly, though she was not sure herself what she
felt, sitting there so close beside him. "You came in the hope of
becoming in some way intimate with me. That has already happened; I
ask you to think of me as your friend. And as a friend, I have
something to ask of you."

"You know that I would do anything." And he colored to hear himself
speak.

"Thank you for saying that just now." She laid her hand lightly on
his, feeling the shiver it caused in him. Half against her will she
left it there, and felt his grateful fingers close around hers. "Would
you take me riding today?" she asked. "Without expecting anything in
return? More than anything right now I want to go somewhere wide open
and free, where I can think, and feel alive. I need someone I can be
alone, with. Do you understand?"

"I think so."

But even as he said this, he realized that in the confusion he had
lost his grip on the stallion. With a catch at his throat he looked
out, and saw that it had moved off, grazing now on a sparse patch of
green perhaps forty yards away. As if sensing his eyes upon it, the
horse looked back at them alertly.

"I've got to catch him!" said the man. And he leapt to his feet. But
at his first running strides toward it, the beast raised its head and
galloped easily out of his reach, a short distance further up the
path. Again the young officer made as if to charge.

"Stephen, wait." Slowly she walked over to him, as to a child who had
not understood his lessons.

"But I've got to---" She shook her head.

"No. What you've got to do is stop grabbing so hard at life, and learn
to caress it---stop trying to make everything your slave. Haven't you
ever just let life come to you?"

"But the horse---"

"Has probably not experienced a moment of true freedom since you've
owned him."

"Mary." His face betrayed deep conflict, and she knew that she had
been right, and struck upon the roots of his character. "That animal
is worth a fortune," he continued desperately. "If he escapes, or is
stolen....."

"He won't escape," she said firmly. "This pass leads nowhere: a
dead-end of stone. But that's not what this is about. What you're
showing me now is that you're afraid, terribly afraid to let go. You
think that if you don't go out and take, by force if necessary, then
life will give you nothing, nothing at all. That is a lie which is
cruel to both yourself and others. And if you want anything to do with
me it must stop, here and now."

"How do you know this?" he demanded. "You're only guessing." But he
realized that by his very vehemence he was admitting the truth of what
she said. Already she knew him. Somehow, she knew. He let out a
breath, and said to her simply. "How would you retrieve my horse?"

"By giving him what he needs. By kindness rather than the noose. No,"
she insisted. "I am not speaking of ideals. I will do it, like this."

Without haste she returned to the door of the hut, and went inside.
Her mother sat staring blankly at the fire, though Mary had little
doubt that she had moved there but recently, and had heard, if not
seen, all that had taken place.

"Mother, may I take some apples?"

"They are in the basket, as you know for yourself."

"Thank you." There was no time to wonder what her mother was feeling,
if anything. She

strode up and kissed her quickly, then took two of the apples and went
outside.

There both man and beast looked back at her. With neither haste nor
hesitation, she took a bite of the first apple, and, as if the man did
not exist, walked directly toward the stallion. It craned its neck at
this, and looked cautiously back at its master. But as he made no
move, it turned its large, animal eyes back to the girl.

She did not hold the apple out enticingly, or make the cooing sounds
of entreaty which she knew it would instinctively mistrust. She simply
advanced, acting as if the reins did not exist, paused, came closer,
then stopped carelessly perhaps ten feet away. She took another bite
of the apple, then laughed as the creature snorted impatiently, and at
last came up to her. She reached below its head with one hand, and fed
it the apples with the other.

The reins were in her hand, and the animal ate greedily. Then all at
once she burst into tears, and hid her face against its long and
beautiful neck.


Together they rode across the wide and wild moors, past stark mountain
ridges, and lochs many thousand feet deep. All beneath a warming sun
and mild, caressing wind. They spoke quietly or not at all, taking in
the broad magnificence around them, each thinking their own thoughts,
alone, and yet in the deepest sense, together.

At least that is how the girl perceived their long ride through
Nature. For her it was poetry and roses, a spiritual as well as
physical reunion with the brother she had never known, and who so
obviously needed her love and softening influence. And to one so
young, knowing so little of men, it was easy to imagine that a sort of
romantic friendship was also possible, had in fact already been
established, and that all of this was understood between them.

Having been so long without the company of men, and in her life being
close to only one---a man of exceptional virtue and character---she
could not help but think the best of her new-found brother, and to
believe, with her heart rather than her mind, that whatever injustices
he may have committed, were over and in the past. Further, she
reasoned, the world had need of such aggressive leaders: men who got
things done.

She could not know that in following this naive and wishful train of
thought she was making a classic mistake, indeed, the same mistake her
mother had made before her. She was yielding to a woman's instinctive
attraction and submission to raw strength, which clouds the
conscience, and hampers honest judgment.

Michael had been strong and good; Stephen was merely strong. She was
too young, and too needful, to see the difference.

So riding back with the setting sun, feeling fatigued but at the same
time warm and secure in his presence, it did not seem out of place for
her to rest her head on his shoulder and let her arms, which were
wrapped about his waist for support, squeeze him affectionately. And
if she felt inclined to add, "Thank you, Stephen, I feel wonderful,"
where was the harm?

And as they reached the steep and narrow final passage, his actions
seemed to confirm all the noble, underlying qualities which she had
begun to read into his character. Sensing that his horse was tired he
dismounted, and taking hold of the bridle, led it the rest of the way
on foot, displaying both a firm, sure tread, and surprising physical
stamina. Of his virility, had she known the word, there could be no
question.

When they reached the hut, the sky seemed to hover in a peaceful and
many-hued twilight. Everything around them was hushed and still, with
no light showing from within. Stephen reached up to help her dismount,
and as her feet lightly touched ground, took her in his arms.

Her eyes looked up at him searchingly, his face so close to hers. Then
he was kissing her, and before she could turn away she felt his right
hand glide across her ribs.

She tried to pull away, but he only brought her body more firmly
against his. And she felt a part of herself yield as they kissed
again, her lips parting expectantly. Once more she felt the hand
kneading toward her breast.

But as it touched, and she felt the growing insistence of his
movements she came back to herself, and with a shock realized what she
was doing, and with whom.

"No!" she gasped, trying to break free. Still he held her, but she
persisted. "It's not right."

At last he released her. With this action he too seemed to remember
himself, and to refrain,

though his reasons were vastly different.

"I'm sorry," he said simply. "I'm afraid you quite carry me away." She
gazed back at him, his features half hidden in the gloom, trying to
understand the source and meaning of his words. It was impossible.

"Oh," she said in despair. "I didn't want it to end like this.
Couldn't you just embrace me, as you would a friend, and say
good-night?"

"As a friend
?" So sharp and demanding was his voice, his whole bearing, that she
found herself saying, quite against her will:

"Please, just give me a little more time. I'm not ready....."

And these words, like so many other innocent acts, seemed to achieve
an end of their own, altogether separate from what she had intended.
Stephen was strangely soothed, and gratified, as if hearing exactly
what he wanted to. She felt, as much as saw him smile. He came to her,
and embraced her gently.

"Oh, Mary," he whispered, as he kissed her cheek. "Thank you for this.
Thank you for not giving in. I've been waiting all my life for a
feeling, like this." And he kissed her again with heart-breaking
softness.

Then he stepped away and swiftly mounted. "I'll be back three days
hence. We will ride again, and make our love in the fields." And he
rode off, leaving her bewildered and unable to reply.

And all at once the last light of day was gone. The breeze which had
seemed so gentle, now fled before the cold and chilling airs of Night.
She retreated into the woeful shelter of the hut, and lay down on the
bed in confusion.

Ten

The prisoner had slept for nearly twenty hours, woken off and on by
the cold as his fire grew dim. At such times he would rise only long
enough to fuel it once more to a warm and yet (so far as this was
possible) a slow burning blaze. He knew the white smoke of the
driftwood would be difficult to see, dispersed as it was through the
cracks high above, and carried away by the steady breeze from the sea.
But still he took no chances, using only pieces that were cracked with
age, retaining not the slightest trace of moisture. Then trying to
forget his parched throat and empty stomach, he would lie yet again in
the sand, sleep remaining the single greatest need.

But as night fell again on the interceding day---even as Mary watched
the Englishman ride off---he woke for the last time, feeling troubled
and restless. So dry had his throat become that each involuntary
swallow brought with it a sharp and brittle pain. His mouth felt lined
with parchment, and he was dizzy and weak from hunger. He knew that
whatever the risks, he could no longer remain where he was, but must
find food and drink. And this meant people, of whom life had made him
so mistrustful.

His clothes were dry, nearly scorched. These he had stolen as he fled
across the countryside with his companion, who along with himself had
broken early from the rest. But the fit of them was bad, and their
look on him plainly suspicious.

As he dressed, then climbed carefully up to the narrow opening, he
felt a deep trepidation he could not suppress. Because somewhere
inside him a voice had said, "Enough. Enough running and hiding and
stealing. I must take myself openly to the first villager I see, and
ask for help." And while this ran counter to all the hard lessons he
had learned in the stockade---that a man must look out for himself,
trusting and needing no one else---yet a line had been crossed inside
him, from which there was no returning. He did not wish to die, but
neither could he live as some hunted and detestable beast. He climbed
down from the rock.

The twilit beach was empty and the waves had grown less. Here and
again came the sound of gulls, along with the high screech of a
sea-hawk somewhere above. He plodded on through the indifferent sand,
toward the small fishing village some two miles distant.

Upon leaving the hiding place he had formed no clear plan, and in his
bitterness told himself he did not want one. But as the cliffs that
walked with him began to diminish and pull back from the shore,
leaving the more level expanse and tiny harbor of the village, his
mind of necessity began to work again, trying to think of anyone he
might know there, who would have no love for the English, and be
willing to take him in.

In the midst of his reveries he looked up to see an old man sitting on
the porch of a low ancient cottage, separated from the rest of the
village, holding aloof as it were on this, the nearer and less
accessible side of the harbor. A steep stretch of sand led down from
it to the very edge of the horseshoe bay, broken here and there by
large projections of stone.

The old man looked back at him placidly, smoking a short pipe and
humming quietly but distinctly to himself. The prisoner felt fear, and
a deep hesitation, until almost in spite of himself he began to follow
the rise and fall of the simple tune. Then with a rush of warmth and
melancholy he recognized it: "The Walls of Inverness." It was a song
that had been sung at the camp fires of Highland soldiers for time out
of mind. The old man was a veteran, in this blessed, unmistakable way
telling him that he knew of his plight, and would help.

With relief but at the same time caution, the younger man approached
the cottage, and mounted the steps to the weather-beaten porch. The
two men regarded each other a moment in silence.

"You know, then?"

"Aye, lad," rejoined the fisherman in his clear baritone. "Three
red-coated cavalry were here yesterday, searching about and makin' a
fuss. Saw fit to post a threatening bill on the door of the church.
`Escaped traitors (traitors, mind) from Edinburgh. . .believed headed.
.fifty pounds reward

. .death to anyone aiding or abetting.' The usual stuff."

"The villagers will be on the watch for me, then?"

"Nay, lad. That bill was torn down before their horses were out of
sight. And you plainly don't know sea-folk if you have to ask." He
took a puff on his pipe, and continued without haste.

"We live with death every day of our lives, and would not last one
season if we grew afraid every time the word was spoken. That lady out
there." He moved his arm to indicate the sea. "She gives and takes
life as she pleases, with hardly a warning. God's mistress she is,
with moods and temper to match. If we'll not bow to her, then what
have we to fear from three young hoodlums, flashing their sabers as if
to wake the dead?"

"Meaning no offense," said the other, "and I'm sure you're right. But
aren't there some as might be tempted by the money? And might the
English not have spies?"

"Perhaps," said the fisherman thoughtfully. "The arm of the Devil is
long, and no denying. But you'll have naught to fear of that tonight.
I live quite alone, as you see, and in the morning there'll be a fog
to blot out the sun." He said this with confidence, as one who had
seen it a thousand times before.

Then extinguishing his pipe against the wooden arm of the chair, he
rose as if to go inside, with an open hand indicating the door. "Right
now I imagine you're hungry, and might do with a mug of stout?"

"Yes. Thank you." No other words would form, as he felt his throat
tighten with emotion. They walked through the painted doorway, and
into the shelter of stone.


In troubled dream Mary lay upon the bed, restlessly turning. Words and
pictures of the day would appear to her, soft and lovely---riding
through the magnificent countryside, feeling him close beside
her---till with a start she felt again the claw-like hand upon her
breast, and beheld the iron gaze which knew no entreaty. And shaking
her head in torment, she would drive the images away.

After some time of this she half woke, though her eyes remained closed
against the bitter truth of the waking world. She clutched the pillow
to her like a lover, and in a moaning, despairing voice said his name.

"Oh, Michael. Where are you?"

Where are you? Where are you?
The words resounded in her mind, growing fainter, spiralling through a
dark tunnel which became a deep well, leading to the heart of the
abyss. And like tiny pebbles they struck the water far below with the
faintest echo of sound.

Something stirred, as if woken from a fearful and everlasting sleep.

She saw clearly, now level with her eyes, a dark and shallow pool
among a copse of death-black trees, the whole of the scene shrouded by
mist and lit by seeping moonlight. And in its midst, lying face
downward with only his arched back protruding above the surface of
those terrible waters, the figure of a Scottish soldier.

As if sensing her presence the figure lifted its head, bewildered, and
stood up. A fearful, long-drawn wail split the night, whether from the
spirit or from herself she could not have said, only that the face was
that of her beloved, that he was in great pain, and had been struck
blind. He turned wildly from side to side, trying to penetrate the
blackness of his eyes. And the same words that she had sent to him now
became his own, endlessly, hopelessly repeated.

"Where are you? Where are you? Where are
you!"

She tried to answer but could not, as if between them they possessed
but a single voice. And as he finally stopped thrashing, and she felt
her tongue loosed, she became aware of the thing which had stilled
him, so utterly that she knew he had lost all hope, confronted by the
sinister, solitary figure which parted the mist and stood before him:
her hated half-brother, who had stolen and crushed his heart.

All was deathly still as they faced one another in silence. Purceville
drew a long pistol, and held it at arm's length. Michael was a statue,
head down, hands at his sides in resignation. There was the crack of a
shot, and again a frozen wail split the night, this time undeniably
her own.


Mary sat bolt upright in the bed. She was trembling, and her inner
garments clung to her in a cold sweat. Fully awake now, and with the
sudden insight brought by waking, she knew beyond a shadow of doubt
what she must do. Still fully clothed, she stepped down from the bed
and lifted up the mattress.

The manuscript book was there, had been there all the while she slept.
The feel of its widow-black cover was cold and forbidding, but there
was no longer time for fear or hesitation. She lit a thick tallow
candle, and moved with it to the hard, bare table and chair.

Her mother was still nowhere to be seen. She bolted the door from
within, then opened the book before her.


Eleven

The two men sat before the roaring fire, smoking contentedly. The
prisoner put a hand to his stomach, feeling nourished and filled as he
had not been for many months. The room was warm; he was safe for the
night, at least. And yet something was troubling him. Nothing to do
with the man, or the place. It did not even seem to concern himself.
But in some remote corner of his mind there was disquiet, as if
someone he cared about was in trouble or in danger. He took another
deep puff on the pipe that had been given him, unable to work the
thought through.

They had remained thus for some time when at last the old man spoke.
From his patient movements and steady gaze throughout, and still more
from his present silence, the younger man sensed a profound caution
and wisdom. So now that he chose to speak, the prisoner deemed it best
to leave his disquiet for a time, to listen or to speak as was asked
of him, and to learn from the seasoned veteran what was needful.

"I don't ask you to tell me your name," he began. "In truth I'd rather
not know it, since what I don't know I can't tell. But if there's some
name you would be called, near enough the mark to feel it yours, but
wide enough to leave safe your parentage, I'd be pleased to learn it."

The younger man smiled. "Call me Jamie."

"Well then, Jamie. For the sake of an old man's curiosity, if nothing
else, won't you tell me something of yourself? The escape and such,
and what your plans are now. Needless to say you'll sleep in a bed
tonight, much better than that old crack in the northern cliffs."

"How did you know about that?" His mind raced; perhaps the hiding
place was not as safe as he imagined. "Could you see the smoke, then?
Do you think others saw it as well?"

"Nay, lad. Fear not. What smoke there was could hardly be seen: a wisp
or two among the rocks, which I saw only when I brought my skiff close
in."

"Then how?" asked the prisoner anxiously.

"T'was the sea hawk that gave you away. She's got a roost up near the
top, and it seems you smoked her out proper. Wouldn't land all day,
just kept circlin' about and looking down. If there's one thing a
beast won't abide it's the smell of smoke. Puts `em in a God's fear,
and no mistake."

"But how did you know about the hiding place? I thought that just
myself and my childhood companions....."

"And of course you thought that I was never young. But truth to tell,
I was. Lost the virgin there, I did, and haven't seen her since." He
let out a grunt of laughter, and broke into a boyish grin. Then slowly
returned to the matter at hand. "All in all, I doubt there's half a
dozen as know of it, and none of them English. You're well enough
there, and in the morning I'll see you safely back." He paused, relit
his pipe. "But right now I'm in the mood for a story. A good one,
mind. And I'm obliging you to tell it to me."

So the man called Jamie began his tale, relating at first only the
barest facts of his capture and imprisonment, leading up to the mass
escape as they were being transferred from one hell-hole to another.

But as the memories and emotions rose up in their fullness before him,
he found that he could no more pass over them quickly than he could
forget them. The wounds were too deep, and too many, for that.

So gradually, without himself realizing the change, he spoke in
greater length and detail of the trials and fears of that time, and of
his desperate struggle not to be broken, or to lose sight of his
dreams and yearnings, no matter how black his world became. Even his
childhood, and his passionate
love for the girl, found their rightful place in his tale, so much so
that his throat often swelled or shut tight, and he was unable for a
time to go on.

But go on he did, far into the night, while the old man here and there
nodded his understanding, or gave a timely word of encouragement.
Until it had all come out, and he slumped back in the chair,
exhausted, his face wet with tears.

Then without further speech the old man rose. And taking down a candle
from the mantle he showed him to the bedroom, where he gave him his
own bed to sleep in. Then with the young man safely at rest, he
returned to the fire to think through all that he had heard, and
decide what he must do to help him.

Because this same weather-beaten mariner, who was never to be seen
making dramatic gestures at the church, or heard to raise his voice in
righteous patriotism at the tavern, who himself had so little in the
world, was then and there willing to risk it all to restore a single
life to fullness. Without being asked, or telling himself that he was
good or kind to do so, he felt the simple, organic stirrings of
compassion in his aged heart. And expecting no greater reward than the
warmth of the feeling itself, he determined to do all he could to
guide this lad back to safety and freedom.

Simply put, he had vision enough to see another human soul before him,
and courage enough not to turn away. For such was the spirit of his
kind.
Twelve

She had found what she sought: a chant to raise the spirits of the
dead. In terror at her own resolve, yet no more able to restrain
herself than to stop her heart from beating, she put the book beneath
her arm, wrapped a thick cloak about her, then lit and lifted the
torch that she had found.

The night was still and cold as she stole from the hut, with traces of
ghostly mist already forming in the hollows. The moon shone full and
hard, dimming the surrounding stars with its halo of pale white.

She made for the Standing Stone, as dry as bone, where the power was
strongest, older than the hills themselves. She felt that she moved
not of her own accord, but as a puppet upon the strings of some higher
(or lower) being. The reading of those dark, soul-splitting words had
done its work on her. She moved as if entranced---eyes wide, mind dark
and dulled. Only very deep, in the roots of her being, did the heart
remain intact; and she realized that no matter how strange the
vehicle, or how terrible the consequences, this was a thing which must
be done. She must reach out to him with living hands, and in death or
in life, calm the tortured spirit of her beloved.

The Standing Stone was just that, an uncarved granite tusk, thrusting
up from a high shelf which overlooked the ravine. She approached it
slowly, her senses returning. It did not need the reading of ancient
lore to make her stand in awe of it, or believe in its dark powers.
For this was a place known throughout the countryside, to be wondered
at by day, religiously avoided by night. It was said that the ghosts
of William Wallace and Mary Stuart could be summoned here by those
possessed of the black arts, as well as murdered warriors and
chieftains from the grim, violent times before memory.

She trembled at the sight of it, as everything beyond fell away,
shrouded by mist and distance. It was as if she stood at the edge of
the living world, opening upon the vague and endless sea of Death's
Kingdom. Her one desire was to turn and flee, back to the world of
daylight and living flesh. And yet she must not only force herself to
look upon it, but pass beyond, and standing in its far shadow, to call
upon the very darkness from which her spirit palled.

She stood motionless, her resolve wavering before the onslaught of
doubts and questions. Was she doing the right thing? Might her actions
not only do them both further injury? These thoughts interlaced with a
raw, gut-level fear for her own safety.

Yet strong as these forebodings were, there lived inside her something
stronger: the love of a single man. The thought of Michael alone and
in pain, was more than she could bear. She took the final steps, and
stood on the sloping ground just beyond..... It.

The ravine opened before her, its steep sides leading down to the
flatted heath below: a narrow vale of silvered grass, withered shrubs
and speckled stone, here and there marked by solitary trees which rose
up from the wreathing fog like pillars in a flood. The same fitful
breeze which had carried it from the sea beyond, moved the vapory
shroud across the scene in ghostly patterns: here and again clearing
an open stage, only to wrap it once more in its cloak of white
invisibility.

But this she took in with her eyes only. More acutely than any other
sense, she felt
the Stone behind her, a glowering menace, an evil force aware of her
presence. She steeled herself to turn and face it. Then braving its
deepest shadows, she wedged the torch between it and a smaller stone,
half crushed beneath.

And with this action, thrusting stubborn light into a place of
darkness, she found the courage needed to perform the grim task ahead.
Kneeling in the dank ground with her back against the Stone, she shook
off the cold shudder that ran through her at its touch, and opened the
book before her, turning to the ribbon-marked page.

Holding his image ever before her, she began to read aloud the chant.

The words came haltingly at first, unwilling, then stronger, slowly
taking hold of her until it seemed another, far older woman spoke
through her: that she did not need her eyes to recall the words or
sound their meaning. The voice rose and fell.

By the Standing Stone, as dry as bone
Through ancient tales to walk alone
By moonlight stark, to spirits dark
We call to You
Their way be shown.

Back from the land, of withered hand
To islands where the living stand

With arms apart, and naked heart
This spell to Thee
I do command.

Send spirit forth, by dark stream's course
If Hell itself should be the source
Let Cerberus' gate, not hold his fate
But shatter walls
With killing force.

All this she read, and more besides, until her arms seemed to open of
their own accord, in the final gesture of invocation. Then with the
trembling emotions of a lifetime, she said his name.....

Nothing happened.

A slight freshening of the breeze, nothing more. The spell had failed.
All her mother's arts were but seeming and superstition. Michael
remained on the other side of Death's iron door, unreachable. She fell
forward onto the bitter earth, overcome by unquenchable despair.....

She heard a sound.

Was it again the wind's mockery of bagpipes, the faintest strain
playing upon her mind alone? She listened again. The sound grew
stronger, undeniable, moving toward her from the west. Far away it
seemed, from the depths of the ravine, which led after many miles to
the sea. It played Scotland the Brave, a poignant sound in that dismal
place, as she heard in its every note a proud defiance of death and
darkness. She got to her feet, and moving to the very edge of the
shelf, peered intently into the wavering vale below.

The sound continued to come on, nearer and nearer, then suddenly
ceased, now surely no more than two hundred yards away. She strained
her every sense for sight or sound of him, in vain. She began to
despair once more, until it occurred to her that perhaps the
torchlight held his troubled spirit at bay. Quickly she returned to
the Stone, and forcing out the beacon, rolled its lighted knob against
the hissing turf until it sputtered and went out. Then moving back to
the ledge she rejoined her vigil, prepared to wait all night.

But she did not have to. Almost at once she perceived the figure of a
man, moving slowly through the fog. It came on steadily, down the
center of the vale. Now hidden by the mist, now clearly outlined: a
kilted Scottish soldier, pale and weary, wandering it seemed to her,
without direction or hope. Her heart leapt inside her, reaching out to
him with all that she was.

The curly head was raised at last, still vague with distance. The
figure stopped, as if sensing some presence. . .then turned and looked
up at her. A face once handsome and strong. His name was instantly
upon her lips, as in fear and ecstasy she made to cry out to him---

Suddenly from behind her came a whoosh and swell of blazing light, and
a harsh voice crying harsh words. She whirled to see her mother
outlined in fire and smoke against the blood-red backdrop of the
Stone. Then pushing past her, the witch hurled a flaming brand into
the abyss.

"In se nama Dagda!" she cried in anger. "Baek wealcan sawol, to
Helan!" A great billowing fog engulfed the place where the figure had
stood. And when it cleared again, he was gone.

Still her mother stood poised, waited expectantly, a blackened rib
held in her uplifted hand.

But when the apparition did not reappear, slowly she lowered it. .
and the look of wild fear passed from her eyes. She trembled, and
spat upon the ground. Then with a sharp look at the girl, she turned
to extinguish the swift bonfire she had made.

Then without a word, she took the sobbing girl by the wrist and led
her away. Utterly devastated, Mary did not resist.


Only when they were safely shut up inside the lair did the old woman
give vent to her fear and vexation.

"By all the gods, girl. . .you shall do no such thing again! Did you
want to lose your own soul as well?"

"I don't care!" cried her daughter sullenly. "I don't care."

And with the utterance of these words, rising as they did from her
long suppressed darker nature, something precious and fine collapsed
inside her: the will to live, and keep giving. She moved listlessly to
sit before the fire, not for warmth, but only to turn her back on the
endless pain and disillusion of this world.

All was lost, and darkness overwhelmed her.



Thirteen

The next morning she was just the same, sitting silently before the
fire, with unseeing eyes gazing into it, thinking not of light but of
darkness. Her mother, who had slept little and worried much, offered
her tea and breakfast, which she refused. She asked her then to build
up the fire, to which the girl consented, though not for any reason
that her mother might have hoped. And this solitary action, which she
repeated several times that day, was all the movement that the woman
could rouse from her.

When evening came, she asked her daughter why she stared into the
coals. Mary answered simply, without emotion. "I am watching the fire
die. Like a human life, no matter how many times it is built up, the
end is always the same. And when the will to feed it is gone, there is
death." With this she turned slowly towards her mother, adding with
grim satisfaction. "Yes. At least there is Death." Then she turned
away again, the faint smile dissolving into the stone coldness of her
face.

The witch spent the whole of that first day, and much of the second,
reading through her books of lore, trying to find some spell or charm
that would cure her daughter's malady. Because to her understanding,
she had been touched by some dark spirit of the Netherworld, or
perhaps possessed in some measure by the Stone itself.

But what ailed the girl was not the work of witchcraft, and there was
nothing in her mother's books or box of talismans that would move or
affect her in the least. What the old woman could not see, because it
was too close to her own experience, was that Mary had given herself
heart and soul to a man she could never have, the only man that she
would ever love; and without him all life seemed but a mockery of
hope. There was no longer any reason to live, nor did she wish to find
one. And so she had resolved to die, death being the only comfort she
could see on the black horizon of her ravaged world.

Her mother put her to bed on that second night, to which she consented
only because it was less troublesome than to refuse. And whether she
slept at all the woman could not have said, for in the morning she lay
exactly as she had before, hands at her sides, staring blankly at some
fixed point above her. Again she would not eat, and rising, drank a
little water only because her throat felt dry and uncomfortable.

But as the third morning wore on, the young girl began to show signs
of agitation, as it recalling some unpleasant fact that interfered
with her sullen wish to die. All at once she stood up from the chair,
pulling the hair at her temples and groaning angrily. The old woman,
glad for any sign of life, stepped closer.

"What is it, Mary?"

"The fool! The fool!" she raged, pacing back and forth like a caged
animal.

"Who?"

"Stephen Purceville! Today we are to, `Ride again, and make our love
in the fields.' Oh, if he only knew how I detest him now!"

As if some horrid music box which played always the same restless
dirge, the lid of it thus lifted, her mother's long obsession for
vengeance once more began to work inside her. Even then.

"You must be careful, lass. If you tell him as much there could be
trouble, and not the swift and easy death you seem to long for. If you
truly wish to hurt him---"

Mary cut her short with a swift, knifing motion of her arm. Upon
hearing these words an intolerable irritation had come over her at the
stupidity of these sorry puppets: her mother, and the Purcevilles both
young and old, playing out their little games of lust and hate, as if
they mattered at all in the end. How could they fail to see that
everything, everything ended in death and ruin? All their petty
desires were less than meaningless; they were absurd.

But this was not what lay at the heart of her unease. For at the
thought of her half-brother, and of the very real threat he posed, the
will to survive had once more begun to assert itself inside her. She
was afraid. And this simple, undeniable impulse---the desire to avoid
pain and danger---tormented her now because it would not be
suppressed. Death she did not fear. But thoughts of trying to fight
off her brother's oblivious, self-satisfied advances, the possibility
of rape or imprisonment if she refused him..... These she could not
face.

"I've got to get out of here!" she said suddenly, as if herself a
puppet whose strings had been violently jerked. And rushing to the
door before her mother could stop her, she broke from the hut and
began running wildly down the path, her one desire to reach its root
and turn aside before Stephen Purceville could arrive there, trapping
her in the narrow pass.

She did not know how narrowly she succeeded. For no sooner had she
reached and taken the track west, climbing a shallow hill and then
dropping again out of sight, than the expectant officer on his panting
steed arrived at the meeting of ways, and began climbing steadily the
final stretch to the hut, and the long-awaited rendezvous with his
imagined lover.

Fourteen

The man called Jamie spent the night, and the two days following, at
the cottage of the fisherman. This had in no way been planned. But he
had woken trembling and feverish, and with a deep cough that would not
be silenced. It was as if only now, when it had reached a safe haven,
that his body could tell him of its many ills and deprivations.

The old man insisted that he remain in bed, at least until the high
fever broke. As to thoughts of his own safety, he had none; and with
the heavy overcast and clinging fog he deemed it prudent, and a
necessary risk, to keep him from the cold and damp of out-of-doors.
The younger man at length agreed, not because it seemed wise, but
because it was inevitable. He had no choice. Once so healthy and
robust, he now felt a dull ache in the very marrow of his bones, and a
chill that would not be abated. So he remained in bed, and with forced
patience, passed the two hard days.

But on the succeeding morning---perhaps two hours before Mary fled in
panic from the hut---he felt again the deep restlessness which had
troubled him three days before. Something was wrong. Someone dear to
him was in danger. He could not have said how he knew this; but know
it he did, and resolved then and there to pay call upon those he
loved. Though he was still far from well, and fully realized the risk,
this instinctive sense would not be overruled. He now found it as
impossible to remain in the cottage as it had previously been to
leave.

He thanked the fisherman for all that he had done, and promised to
send word to him, or come himself, as soon as he knew that all was
well. And he promised to be careful. The veteran was concerned: his
experience had taught him the inadvisability of haste. But seeing the
intensity of the younger man's face he could only wish him well, and
after he had gone, say a silent prayer for him in his own fashion.

The wheels of fate were turning. Events were in God's hands now.

* * *


Mary wandered aimlessly across the high plateau toward the sea,
feeling lost and miserable. As she walked she watched the fog rise
slowly and evaporate, along with all faith in herself. Vaguely she
told herself that she would never again live with her mother in the
dark, dismal hut, where everything was smoke and confusion. But even
this seemed a wavering resolve. How could she promise herself
anything, when she had been so weak.....

A single tear broke from the stillness of her face, as she realized
that in all the haste of her flight she had nonetheless seized the
heavy cloak from its peg by the door, the same which she now wrapped
about her. She cried because this instinctive action showed her, more
even than the painful workings of her mind, that a part of her still
wanted to live. As much as she had loved Michael, and loathed the
thought of a world without him. . .still, she desired life. It was in
that moment an unbearable anguish.

She heard hoofbeats approaching from the west. This did not at first
seem to register, except perhaps for a dim realization that it could
not be the man she feared, who would have to approach from the
east---behind her.

The plateau had gradually sunk and narrowed, until now it was little
more than a rough gully between the two rocky shoulders which pressed
upon it. It occurred to her that the riders, still hidden by the rise
and fall of the track ahead, would soon be upon her, and that there
was nowhere to hide. But the same nightmare logic that says not to
fear, it is only a dream, told her now that this could not be what in
fact it was: a dangerous meeting in a place far from help. It all
seemed so inevitable. And she was tired of fighting.

Two horsemen appeared on the track below her as she reached the crown
of the rise, which occurred at the very point where the opposing walls
were highest, rising in serrated levels to a height of sixty feet,
several yards to either side of her.

The riders were dressed in red.

She looked quickly about her for a sheltering shadow or place to hide,
as all the warnings that she had been raised on began to torment her.
But the noon sun was hidden by a cloud, as if it had not the heart to
watch: there were no shadows. And they had seen her.

The two men rode easily, lazily in their fine English saddles. Young
cavalrymen, they had been sent to investigate reports that one of the
escaped prisoners believed to be in the area had been sighted.

But if their superiors placed a high importance on the capture of
these elusive wretches, clearly they did not. For them it was a
tedious duty; and without their captain to oversee them they were
merely pretending to search, killing time and half looking for
trouble. Like much of the English military of that time they were not
volunteers, but had been pressed into service as an alternative to
prison. They were neither dedicated nor high-minded, and had been
assigned to this remote desert (as they thought of it) because they
were fit for little else. In fact, they were hooligans, representing
not the best of their country, but the worst. As for compassion, they
had little enough for their own kind. For the kin of these stubborn
Highland fools, they had none.

So when they saw the girl it was not a question of what they wanted
from her, but only, would there be anyone to witness the act? Their
eyes searched ahead and behind, to either side, then fixed resolutely
on the girl.

Mary observed all of this, but stood rooted to the spot in fear and
disbelief. Surely they could not want her like this, pale and
distraught. Surely they had some conscience. The two riders stopped
just in front of her, addressing each other as if she did not exist.

"What d'ya think?" said the first in a heavy cockney. He was a
smallish, heavy-set man with a nondescript face and yellow teeth.
"Would be a fine catch, and no mistake." His companion, a lean,
dour-looking man with drooping red moustaches, did not at first reply,
but only continued to stare at the object in question.

"I think," he said at length, dismounting. "That I want you to hold my
horse." The smaller man laughed harshly, and spurred his own steed
forward to take hold of the reins.

"Just be sure ya save some for me," he said. "I don't fancy ridin' a
dead horse." The red-haired man began to advance, as Mary backed away
in rising horror.

"Please," she said in a pathetic voice. "Don't do this." But her words
had no effect. The man seized her by the arms, and after a moment's
indecision, threw her to the ground.

And then he was upon her, tearing at the buttons of her dress,
pressing her body hard against the stony track. Writhing in terror,
Mary let out a piercing scream. The man lifted his hand to strike her.
But the blow never fell.

A shadow flashed across her vision, as an indistinct shape flew down
from the rocks above. There was the thud of impact, as the man on top
of her was torn aside. Two men wrestled on the ground beside her. The
one, in rough clothes that fit him badly, quickly gained the upper
hand, pinning the other beneath him. He raised a long knife in his
hand, and with a savage cry, drove the blade home.

But an instant later there came a shot from behind, and the prisoner
fell forward across the man that he had stilled. The second
cavalryman, still mounted, had draw his pistol as soon as he regained
his senses, and waited only for a clear shot at the Highlander.

In the confusion he had lost his grip on the other's horse, which
bolted at the sound. And taking quick stock of the situation, the
cavalryman seemed to feel much the same panic. For he too rode away,
as if the Devil rode behind him. His hoofbeats died slowly in the
distance.

Recovering somewhat from the shock, Mary rose and went to the crumpled
form of her deliverer, to see if anything could be done. The ball had
pierced his back, but perhaps.....

Raising his upper body carefully, she drew him clear of the other.
Then kneeling, she slowly laid him down, causing the fair, curly head
to loll weakly into her lap. She let out a gasp as a familiar face
looked up at her, and said her name with a smile.

"My Mary."

It was James Talbert, her cousin, and companion of her youth. And
though he lay dying, there was yet a look of strained happiness on his
worn, still boyish face.

"James!" she choked through her tears. "You should have just let
them..... Oh. Don't die!"

"Hush, my girl. I don't mind." His words were quiet but distinct. "You
don't know it---" His face clouded with pain, and for a time he was
unable to speak.

"You've done me a kindness," he said finally. "You've given my death
meaning." With this he stiffened, and gave a convulsive shudder. She
feared he was already gone; but after a pause the blue eyes opened
again, and he spoke. "Will you do something for me?"

"Anything," she wept. "Anything."

"Kiss me, Mary." Brushing the tear-stained hair from her face, she did
as he asked.

"Thank you, love..... You're so very sweet..... Too bad you're in love
with that other one, eh?" He tried to wink at her, but his face was
suddenly changed, as crestfallen as the moment before it had been
triumphant. His muscles convulsed from the pain of his mortal wound.
"Kiss me, Mary. I'm gone to a better world."

Trembling, she bent once more to press her lips to his. And when she
rose again, he was gone.

"No
Dear God, please! It should have been me," she sobbed. "It should
have been me."

She rocked him slowly back and forth, for the second time in her young
life crying the bitter tears of a loved one lost. A heavy silence
reigned about her, and the birds in the heath would not sing.
Fifteen

So it was that Stephen Purceville found her. He had knocked twice on
the door of the hut, with growing impatience until, receiving no
answer to his summons, he kicked it in. There he had found her gone,
the place empty but for a filthy hag who hid her face and said
nothing.

Yet for all his indifference and haste, the momentary glimpse of her
eyes had struck a chord of memory inside him, though he was far too
angry to puzzle it out. His woman (he thought of everything he desired
as his) had betrayed him, gone off, when she knew that he wanted to
see her.

Riding off in a storm of emotion, he came across Sergeant Billings as
he rejoined the main track, who with a scared face spoke of ambush and
treachery, and pointed back along the way he had come. Angered still
further by the intrusion of duty (and reality) upon his romantic
dreams, he forced out of the man what information he could, then
bluntly ordered him to be silent, and follow.

So the two rode west together, and found her still in the same
attitude, holding the body as she would a sick child. She did not at
first seem to hear them approach, till with a vehemence which startled
them both, the young Purceville screamed at her:

"What is the meaning of this!"

Mary turned, as if not understanding what was wanted of her. Her eyes
focused on him with an effort, and she replied slowly, in a voice that
seemed to come from far away: from the bottom of a well.

"Two men are dead, who perhaps desired life. And one who desired death
still lives. What meaning would you have?"

The blankness of her face astonished him. For a brief instant he felt
something akin to genuine horror. What could have happened to
transform the lithe, innocent creature of so few days before? But the
thought could not penetrate deeply, for now the smaller man had begun
to speak.

"You see, Captain, it's just as I told you." He spoke rapidly, eyes
wide and shifting with the obvious lie. "She `ates us. Set a trap for
us she did, acting all seductive like. Then her man jumps down from
the rocks---"

"You shut your mouth!" cried Purceville bitterly. He had seen Mary's
torn dress, and knew how much faith to place in the character of these
men. "Get out of here," he said. "Back to the barracks. And God help
you when I return."

The small man rode off in haste, but did not go where he was sent. As
he struck the high road he turned to the south instead, and fled into
obscurity.

The Englishman dismounted and came closer. His face was a study of
inner conflict, as rage and compassion warred inside him. Mary had
little doubt (nor was she wrong) which side would win.

"Why?" he asked flatly, stopping a few feet away. "Why didn't you wait
for me? If you had. . .none of this would have happened."

The girl slowly lowered the body, then stood to face him. "In the name
of God, Stephen, is there any part of you that isn't utterly cruel? Do
you think I don't know that?" This was too much. Her patience expired,
and she no longer cared for the consequences.

"Am I supposed to feel worse because I also hurt your feelings?
Am I supposed to equate that with the death of two men, one of them my
cousin? Damn you! If you possessed the least sensitivity you'd have
known three days ago there could be nothing romantic between us. And
today. If I had thought for one moment that you would listen to
reason, and let me

explain---"

"What would you explain!" he cried hotly. "That you have been sleeping
with a traitor? That you prefer his filthy Scottish bed to mine? That
you are a whore, like all the others? Well? Why don't you speak!"

"I am very sorry for you," she said at last. "You are blind, as no man
I have ever known. You will never learn, and you will never change."
And with that she turned her back on him.

For a single moment he stood transfixed, loving, and at the same time
hating. . .her
She knew him as no one else, and had always spoken the truth. But
the words she spoke now were not soothing, were not the gentle words
of comfort he sought. Instead they burned, like salt on an open wound.

Pure, blind hatred rose up inside him, devouring all else. He seized
her by the shoulders, and with the heat of the primal hunger, turned
her towards him. If love would not be gratified, then he would at
least have lust. For the second time that day, Mary looked into the
unseeing eyes of rape. Terror was no longer possible. All she could
feel was despair, and pity. This would be the final, unbearable shame
for them both.

"Stephen, I beg you. In the name of what you once felt for me, and I
for you. Don't do this. Forgive my hard words. I do not hate you. But
this..... This can never be."

"Why not? Why can't it?" He pressed her hard against him. "You know
you want me." His mouth engulfed hers, then moved greedily to the skin
of her throat.

"Stephen, don't
It's not right!" She tried to pull away, but he held her fast. She
felt his left hand drag her downward, as his right hand worked to free
the remaining buttons.

"Stephen. . .no!" She was on the ground, and he had flung aside his
coat, looming on one knee beside her. Then with a swift movement of
both hands he tore open her slip, the widening V of her dress. Still
further, till the treasures of her body lay exposed. His mouth was
upon her breast, as his hand swept low to engulf her.

"Stephen! For God's sake. . .I'm your sister!"

He froze instantly, then lifted his head with a jerk. "You're lying."

"No," she said bitterly. "My mother is the widow MacCain. Your father
raped her, then sent her away when he found she was with child. Your
father. . .is my father, too." She sat up, pulling her knees to her
chest. And the pain in her eyes was more than he could face. Because
he knew that it was true.

Then for the first time he seemed to see the bodies, and to realize
that they had once been men. And he saw her, his gentle sister,
ravaged and distraught by the work of his own hands. He did not feel
remorse, which was beyond him. But sorrow he could feel, and even, in
that moment, a halting compassion.

"I'm sorry. Mary. I didn't know..... There's really nothing more I can
say." He rose, shifted uncomfortably, trying to reconcile himself to
his actions. It was impossible.

"Is there anything I can do now," he said stiffly. "To make it
better."

"No. Just go away."

He turned, and started to leave.

"Wait," she said, half against her will. She could not look at him.
"Help me to bury him. Both

of them."

He put on his jacket, pawed the ground with his boot. ".....I'll need
a shovel."

"Ride back to the hut. My mother will give you one." She finally
looked up at him, and the tears would not stop. "Please leave now. I'm
not that strong."

He remounted slowly, and with one last look at her, rode off. Mary was
left to prepare her cousin's body, and to seeping thoughts of death
and earth.


When Stephen returned, they buried James Talbert. And then the other,
placing stones over the mounds to keep the wolves off. There were no
other adornments to give them. And even as they worked, the clouds
thickened and turned to rain, as if Nature wept, to see the unending
tragedy of Man.
Sixteen

"May I take you back to the hut," Stephen said when they had laid the
last stone. "I have much on my conscience already. I would see you
safely home, at least." He could say no more, nor did she wish him to.
They rode back in silence, and in silence they parted.

With silence, too, did she greet her mother, who asked no questions,
but only welcomed her with a strange, apologetic smile. Hardly able to
notice, let alone dissect the mysterious change in her, Mary shed her
wet and tattered garments, then hung her cloak by the fire to dry. As
she put on the nightgown the old woman provided she said blankly, and
bitterly.

"James Talbert is dead. I must go and tell Anne this evening. Please
don't wake me until then." She lay listlessly in the bed, and after a
long, empty passage of time, fell asleep. She did not dream.

Her mother returned to her place by the fire, and sat down in a
melancholy heap. She felt anxious and utterly lost, without place or
purpose in the world.

For a change had in fact taken place in her, with or without her
consent. In the troubled hours since her daughter's flight, it had
become impossible to think of killing and tearing down. Too clearly
did she see, and feel, and remember all the dark, destructive forces
that pull the living back to earth, wholly without a woman's schemes.
And she felt this to the core of her being, because she knew that she,
too, would soon return to dust.

Because her body was at long last giving out. Beside the painful
angina which had plagued her since the night of the Stone, she felt in
these bitter, infinite hours a dizziness and blurring of vision which
she knew to be the forerunner of stroke.

Her daughter had not yet realized her condition, and for this, at
least, she was grateful. As her own life inexorably diminished, she
found she thought less and less of herself---of the past---and more
and more of her daughter's future. This was both painful and sad,
because she saw the tragedy of her own life mingling, and becoming
one, with Mary's. How similar. Her love for John MacCain---clean,
strong, yet ended by untimely death. Then the desperate, animal
attraction to a handsome, brutal man who had broken her heart, and
crushed the last of her dreams. He was his father's son..... Then the
emptiness, and finally the horrid, burning hatred of all that still
lived, loved, and desired happiness.

Her one hope now, strange as it might have seemed but a few days
before, was that the girl might still be young enough to heal, and
wise enough to seek that healing in the light of life, rather than the
darkness of revenge, which had so fruitlessly swallowed the remnant of
her years.


Mary woke to find a fresh dress and undergarments waiting at the foot
of the bed. After she had dressed, her mother gave her tea and
porridge, and to her surprise, did not try to dissuade her from the
long journey to the faded cottage. Both of them knew it to be a
dreary, and possibly dangerous task. But both, for different reasons,
also knew it to be essential. Wrapping the cloak about her Mary went
to the door, determined not to look back. Still, something made her
turn.

"I may not be coming back for a time," she said. "You understand
that?"

"Yes," replied the old woman, in a voice wholly lacking its former
strength. "Will you make me one promise before you go? Only make it,
and I will rest easier."

"What is it?"

"Promise me. . .that you won't try to take your own life. That you
will not let the bitterness fester inside you like an unclean wound,
turning slowly to the poison of hate. Will you give me your word?"

Mary looked back at her, confused.

"You have nothing to fear, I'm sure. I should have thought my weak
character well known to you by now, and to have removed any such
concern. Twice I have set a hard resolve, and twice failed. I doubt if
I should ever find the courage."

"Listen to me, Mary." Her mother spoke now so earnestly, and with a
desperate entreaty so unlike her, that despite the numb lethargy into
which her heart had sunk, Mary felt a qualm of fear on her behalf.

"It is not weakness," said the woman, "to desire life, and to respect
it enough...." Tears gathered in the pale, aged eyes that had lost
their hard luster. "I fear I have done you a grievous ill. Forgive
me!" And she hid her face, ashamed.

And for all the pain this woman had caused her, all the mother's love
withheld for so many years, Mary found herself unable to return the
injury, now that the chance had come. She went to the old woman
slowly, took down the trembling hands, and kissed her on the forehead.

"You are what your life has made you. Of course I forgive you. And
I'll make your promise, if you'll make me one in return." Her mother
nodded helplessly. "Will you promise to rest, and be gentle with
yourself, until I can send a doctor back to check on you?"

.. "Yes."

"All right, then. Let me help you to bed, then I'll build up the fire
one last time." Her mother was unable to reply. And having done what
she said, Mary left her with those words.

Margaret MacCain died three hours later, as a black curtain descended
slowly across the field of her vision. A single tear escaped her. She
said a silent prayer for her daughter.

And then she, too, was gone.


Mary walked on through the bitter night, the faltering torch she held
like a fretted candle in the depths of the dark. The rain had stopped,
and the ground frozen solid. Each footstep clumped painfully against
the hard, unyielding earth. Her mind was so numbed with pain and loss
that she found she could not even think. Time seemed to stop dead in
its tracks just to mock her.

She continued.

Passing without fear the Standing Stone, she regarded it now in blank
wonder, that she could ever have thought it more than a broken and
projecting bone of the lifeless earth. It fell behind her plodding
footsteps, an impotent slab of nothingness.

A wolf cried out in the distance, and she did not even care. Right
foot, left foot, followed one another in mindless, meaningless rhythm.
All was dead for her. Nothing lived, nothing moved, nothing breathed.
There was only this one last task to perform, and then oblivion.

At long, impossible length her weary footsteps took her along a
familiar path, past a silent dell wreathed in scrub oak and maple.
White crosses of stone shone dully in the moonlight, in a hollow she
had once held sacred. A name was spoken in her mind, and in distant
memory a hand caressed her face. She felt a moment of profound
sadness, for a love that had died. But even that lost sorrow faded,
till she knew that it was truly over.

Up the shallow hill to the cottage. She turned the knob of the
thrice-familiar back door, and entered. Through the kitchen, into the
passage to the main room, where a fire was burning brightly. Her aunt
looked up as she entered, from the same armchair in which she had left
her. A man stood beside her, with eyes so deep and piercing.....

She collapsed to the floor. Michael James Scott lifted her in his
trembling arms, and carried her to his mother's bed.




Part Two:
The Fortress

Seventeen

Mary felt something cool being pressed against her forehead, and at
the same time a warmth and lightness of being for which she could in
no way account. Remembering the vision she had seen of him---was it
days, hours, moments before?---she opened her eyes slowly, afraid of
waking from the blissful dream of his return, which could not possibly
be real.

Yet the first thing she saw as they focused in the gentle candlelight,
was the same beloved face, neither shrouded nor ghostly nor pale. It
had aged, become more serious. But it was still of living flesh, still
shared the same world as her own. He sat leaning across her on the
bed, with softened, loving eyes taking in her every movement. His arms
were spread to either side of her, within reach of her hands. And
feeling again the swoon of emotion and disbelief, she caught at them
quickly. Her fingers encircled his wrists, and he did not fade away.

Again he pressed the cloth lightly to her forehead. Then with a
tenderness and swelling of the heart that erased in one moment the
imprisoned hell of the past three years, he bent down and kissed her
gently.

"Stay, Mary. It's your Michael, in the flesh, and he'll not leave you
again." Her eyes closed hard, and the tears that flowed from them were
an anguish and an ecstasy for which no words exist.

"Hold me," was all she could say. "Just hold me." He raised her up and
crushed her to him, his face as wet as hers.

"Dear God, I love you." And again he kissed her, long and full. But
then he drew back, and a dark shadow clouded his features, as if
recalling some barrier which stood between them still.

"What is it?" she asked, terrified.

"Forgive me," he said. "I know you're glad to see me. . .and I have no
right to ask." Their eyes met, and there was such astonished pain in
her gaze..... "Do you still love him?" he whispered.

"Do I still love who?"

"The Englishman."

"Michael! Whoever said that I did?"

".....but your letter, the day I left to join our troops. The one you
put in my pack, explaining---"

"Michael, look at me." He did, as bewildered as she. "I have never
loved anyone but you. I never could. And I wrote you no such letter,
then or otherwise. The only Englishman I know is my half-brother, and
if in the whole of my lifetime I can learn not to hate him, I will
deem it a blessing from Heaven."

He fell back further still, as if it was she who had returned from the
dead. The question of who, then, had written the letter, hardly
occurred to him. Only one thing mattered. Against all hope. . .she
loved him too. A tortured groan escaped him, and his face so convulsed
with emotion that he could only hide it in shame against the coverlet.

But slowly the paroxysm passed, and he felt loving fingers caressing
his hair, and whispering words of comfort. "Michael," she said, as he
drew himself up, exhausted. "It must have been my mother who gave you
the letter, part of a long, bitter plot against Lord Purceville. She
needed my help, and wanted you out of the way. Please forgive her. She
harbored such hatred against him, that it made her blind to all
else..... But that is in the past." She tried to smile, as he nodded
his understanding. "You know," she said. "I have a few questions for
you, too."

He put a finger to her lips. "Soon, but not now. Let us have what
remains of this night, at least, free from sorrow and danger. Let us
have each other."

At that moment there came a light knocking at the door, and Anne Scott
entered the room. Her face was so softened, and beaming with such
reborn faith that Mary hardly recognized it. Her unbound hair formed a
loop of pale gold upon the shoulder of the nightdress, and she looked
years younger than either could remember seeing her.

"Is everything all right?" she asked, as if this were not her home,
but theirs. "If my son will give a doting mother one last embrace, I
will leave the two of you in peace. I fancy I'll sleep in Mary's room
tonight, and give up my chambers to you."

"Truly, Anne? Would it be all right?"

"Listen to me, Mary. God married the two of you long ago. And in this
moment I'm so happy, so grateful....." She faltered, and her eyes
glistened. "My son is given back to me, whom I thought to be dead. Do
you think I can't share him, this one night, with the woman he loves,
and the girl I raised up from a child? Please, Michael, before I make
a fool of myself. Kiss me, then send me off to bed."

He rose, but not more quickly than she. Mary embraced her first, like
a schoolgirl, then stood aside as mother and son said their
affectionate good-night.

"In the morning hard choices await us," said the woman, addressing
them both. "But for now, let us thank God. Let us thank Him." She was
blinded by tears, and turned away. Michael watched her go, then closed
the door softly behind her.

"In the morning I shall have to give her sad news," said the girl,
remembering her purpose. "And perhaps it will grieve you as well."

"What is it, Mary?" And despite his own assurances, he felt that he
must know. "Tell me now, and let us have done with dark surprises."

.. "Michael. Your friend and mine. James Talbert is dead."

He was silent for a time, then asked simply.

"How?"

"Two men attacked me on the road west of my mother's hut." She thought
it best not to add that they were English. As it was he came forward
and took her by the shoulders, with a look of sudden anger and
concern.

"Attacked
you? Are you all right? They didn't---" She shook her head quickly,
emphatically.

"No. James saw to that. He killed the one. . .then was shot in the
back by the other, who rode away." She looked at him imploringly. "I'm
so terribly sorry. I feel as if it's my fault....." He held her close
to him, and closed his eyes.

"No, my girl," he said at length. "It's not your fault, and no more
than I expected. I don't know if I can explain this to you. Here. Sit
you down, and let me wrap the coverlet about me. I'm afraid I'm not
quite well."

She did as he asked, and studied this new Michael as he spoke. He had
changed both physically and spiritually, though there had always been
another side of him, seeming at times so serious and worn that she
could find no trace of the hardy, boisterous youth she had once known.

And even as he spoke of the hardship and sorrow of another, her
woman's instinct read his own tale between the lines. And seeing his
pain, she determined to learn fully of the scars and afflictions he
bore, that she might nurse him again to health and ease of mind.

"James had a rough go of it in prison, as did we all. But for him the
more so, because he could never master his pride and fierce temper. He
didn't know when to back down, and just survive. Because of this he
was often singled out for punishment, as an example to the rest.
Punishment in that place. . .took various forms. But it always ended
with the Cellar, a cold and solitary cell in the ancient dungeon that
lay beneath our castle prison.

"For weeks on end. . .he was caged there without light or hope, like
an animal. Each return to the light of day saw him more ill, and more
distracted. But it never once brought him closer to submission.
Towards the end, his feverish mental state had become so acute that
our captors thought of sending him to an asylum. This, until it was
learned that he had contracted the shakes*, which would sooner or
later carry him off of their own accord.


*Ague.


"It is a wonder that he lived to see the escape, let alone survived
our long flight across the countryside. What a bloody hell that was.
Stealing food, horses when we could get them, riding or walking the
endless miles by night, hiding out like thieves and murderers by day.
All in the land of our birth, and the home that we had fought for.
After what we had already been through, I don't know how he endured
it. I, at least, had thoughts of you, though I had lost all hope of
your love. He had nothing but fever and chills, and a strength that
grew less each day."

"My God. Michael. Did he know about the letter, the one you thought I
wrote?"

"Yes, love. We'd been together through so much, and were now thrown
into such a desperate pass..... There could be no secrets between us.
But he loved you, as cousin and friend, and never held it against
you."

"Then he died thinking. . .that I was in love with those who did this
to you. Oh, it is horrible."

"Easy, lass. His pain is over." Again they embraced, taking that last
human comfort against young and tragic death. Then Michael began to
pace again, both to warm himself, and to finish what he must say. For
he, too, carried a burden of guilt and remorse.

"As I said, it is a wonder that he survived it. But some last
obsession drove him: whether hope or madness, I could never say. He
was determined to return to the home of his fathers, and perform some
last act of heroism." He paused. "There is something else I haven't
told you. Something very painful to me."

"What is it, Michael?"

He could not face her, as if she were some part of himself which he
had shamed. And the look of self-reproach that she had long known in
him, returned with a force she had not yet seen.

"It was a horror for me to watch his decline, his hopeless battle in
the stockade. Because we are so much alike, and because I felt..... I
often felt that he made my mistakes for me. That I learned, and
survived, only because of him. Many is the time that my own temper was
about to explode, to my injury, and possible undoing.... But it was
always James who struck the guard first, or raised his voice in anger
at the outrage we all felt, but lacked the courage to act upon.

"It is a terrible thing to think that he died for that courage, and
that because of my cowardice I live. Seeing the black end to which we
must all come, still I shunned the fight. After the first year..... I
only turned the other cheek, again and again. I told myself that I had
to survive, just keep trying and hoping. But survival becomes a poor
excuse, when pride is lost.

"It will be many years," he concluded, "before I can look myself in
the face when I think of James Talbert."

"Why?" she asked, in deepest earnest. "Because you desired life
instead of death? Because you saw the futility of resistance, and
chose not to follow him into the grave? For I tell you now, and from
the bottom of my heart, that if you had not lived, and come back to
me. . .my own sorry tale could not have gone much further.

"And what of your mother? Do you have any idea what her life has been
like, without you? I will never understand. Why do men call it a
virtue to die, to leave bereft the ones they love, and a weakness to
return to them, and give meaning and substance to their lives?

"Perhaps that is unfair," she continued. "I have seen in the years of
your absence just how bitter, how unanswerable sorrow can be. And I
know that nothing is ever that simple. I only want you to know that
this
pain, this scar, I understand as well as you. I have felt the same
remorse, the same bludgeoning sense of guilt. Until tonight.

"Do you know what he said to me, as he lay dying in my arms? `You have
given my death meaning.' He performed that last act of heroism,
Michael. He may have saved my life." Her voice faltered. "And if what
you say is true, then he also helped deliver my love from the depths
of the darkness. And to me, his name shall always be thrice blessed.

"Hold me, Michael, please. Don't ever let me go. Dear God!"

"My only love, I promise you that. With all my soul, I promise you
that."

They put aside all further talk until the morning, and made their bed
together for the first time. Michael was too ill, and she herself too
weary, to make love. And without any words this was understood between
them. They found joy and solace instead in the slow, gentle caress
many lovers never feel, because they do not first feel love. Their
passion would come when the skies above them were less dark, and when
the fruit was ripe on the tree. Not before.

They slept far into the overcast morning. And when they rose a further
bond had been established between them, that no earthly trial could
ever put asunder.

He was a man, and she was his woman.



Eighteen

The Lord Henry Purceville, Governor of MacPherson Castle and the
Northern Garrison, awoke in the worst possible humor. He had quarreled
bitterly with his son the night before, after being informed that one
of his cavalrymen had died in disgrace, and another deserted rank in
consequence. His head throbbed from the excesses of food and drink
that had become habitual with him; the whore that lay sleeping beside
him (his mistress) stank of his own corruption; and the prisoners he
had been charged to find, in the most demanding terms, still eluded
him. In the chill of early morning, he felt every day of the
fifty-three years he bore.

Of all these circumstances, the quarrel with his son troubled him most
deeply. It was not so much the fact of a dispute, all too common
between them, as the disturbing revelation which had come from it.

Because no man, no matter how far he has strayed from the path of
wisdom, wants to appear low and cowardly in the eyes of his son. And
no man, retaining from childhood the slightest memory of loving female
attention, can wantonly desecrate the altar of motherhood without a
latent stab of conscience. Yet both these things had now risen up to
haunt him, in the form of a daughter he had never seen.

If the bastard child had been a boy (as he had vaguely imagined, when
he thought of it at all), the problem might have been more easily
reconciled and acted upon, one way or the other. But a young woman,
and still more, a young woman who had evidently sparked some feeling
of affection in his son---the only person he cared for in the
world---this was far more complicated.

Sending his mistress to the floor with a savage kick, he bellowed for
his servants, ordered her dismissed, then sent for his son to learn
the particulars of the MacCain girl. He was a man of action, and
action would be taken.

One way or the other.


It was the widow Scott who woke them. A premonition of danger had come
to her, and whether real or imagined, she would take no chances so
long as her son remained a wanted man. She knocked on their door as
the mantle clock struck eleven, and asked them to dress quickly and
come out, that they might formulate precautions in the event that
mounted soldiers, or other unwanted strangers appeared at the house.

When the two emerged and sat down to breakfast, and again as they
moved to sit by the fire to hold counsel, the woman was struck by the
seriousness of both faces. Caution and determination she expected from
her son, who had spoken to her the day before of the hardships and
dangers he had already faced, and must face again, until he won his
way to true freedom.

But Mary seemed to understand as well as he the risks and perils of
their position, and acted not at all the happy, naive bride-to-be. And
now, as Michael built up the fire and drew the curtains tight, she
found that the girl would not even look at her, would not return her
questioning gaze.

"Mary? What is it, girl, what's wrong?" Michael, who now returned to
stand before her, intervened.

"Mother," he said gently, putting a hand on her shoulder. "My fears
for James Talbert have been realized. He died yesterday, defending
those he loved. He has been given Christian burial, and as soon as may
be, we will place a stone over the grave. I'm sorry."

The woman looked searchingly into his face, then lowered her head and
wept silently. But when she raised it again, though her eyes still
glistened, their look was firm and determined.

"I will notify my brother tonight. It will be hard for him, and for
his wife, because he meant as much to them..... Nay, do not try to
comfort me. I am a proud Scottish woman, and not rendered helpless in
my grief. The times are hard, and the living must look to their own
devices.

"That is why we are here," she went on. "Painful as it may be, we must
now turn our attention to our own precaution. We must be prepared for
the worst. We must vow to protect your union to the last. And if it
comes to it, you must be willing to sacrifice my safety for your own.
Do not argue with me, Michael! I have had a full life, thank God, for
all its latter hardship. I am determined that you shall have the same.
The blood of Scott and Talbert, our family, must endure."

Having said this, she put one hand to the other, and slowly removed
her wedding ring. She then placed it solemnly in her son's hand. No
further explanation was needed.

"Thank you, Mother. It means a great deal to me."

Michael returned to stand by his betrothed, who looked up at him in
awe and astonishment, feeling for the first time the full import of
what was happening between them. They were to be man and wife, as
surely, and unalterably, as he now stood before her.

"Give me your hand, Mary." She did. "With this ring, on the day of
November 2, 1749, I pledge to you my life, in the eyes of God and man.
Mary. Will you have me as your husband?"

She nodded fiercely, then all at once burst into tears.

"You remember then," he added gently, "that this is your seventeenth
birthday as well? I have not forgotten. It is the date I set long ago,
when you were but a child, to speak openly of my love for you. I tell
you now, if you did not already know it, that you have been my beacon
and guiding star, the hope which I held fast to my heart, when all
others deserted me. I love you, Mary, with every drop of my mortal
blood. I'll love you in this world, and if there is a God, then surely
I will love you in the next."

He kissed her, long and full. Then began to pace, as if to master his
own emotions.

"All right then," he said, moving still. "Our safety.

"The immediate danger---that of a sudden search---has already been
addressed by my mother and myself. Our good steward, as the times grew
dark, had the foresight to install a trap door with a small,
stone-lined cellar beneath it. It has been checked, and with minor
repairs, put in good working order. The cellar itself has been
furnished with blankets, food and water. This occupied the better part
of yesterday afternoon, the first of my return. I had determined to go
in search of you this morning, when fortunately for both of us (I am
still far from well, and had risked the daylight once already), you
came to me first.

"So far, until we've heard your story, I remain the principal danger
to us all. If trouble does come, I can be hidden away in thirty
seconds time. The door is here." He rolled back the threadbare carpet.
"And the latch, here." He bent down and lifted the square trap on its
hinges. When he let it down again, except by close scrutiny the wooden
floor seemed of a piece, the door itself invisible. He replaced the
carpet and came towards her, seeming calmer.

"You see, my girl, Anne and I have already had a chance to talk. From
what she told me of her meeting with young Purceville---and I expect
that for my sake she did not tell all---I wonder if you are not in
danger as well. We need to know fully who our enemies are, or are
likely to be, and who can be trusted to come to our aid. I have one
ally, a fisherman from the village of Kroe, and the beginnings of a
plan, though it is still far from ripe. The first step, as it must
always be, is survival. Can you tell us then, in as much detail as
possible, what has happened in the time since you left the cottage?"

"Will you tell me one thing first?" she asked. "Forgive me, Michael,
but after all I've been through, as you will soon hear..... It would
put my mind very much at rest, if you would tell me....." Her face
betrayed a deep, lingering fear of the Night. "Who, if not yourself,
lies in the grave beneath your stone?"

"It is you who must forgive me. I should have told you sooner." He

took her hand, and held it firmly. "It is no wraith who stands before
you, and no one has raised me from the dead.

"I can't be certain, but I believe it to be a man of my regiment. He
was about the same height and build as myself, with roughly similar
features. Poor beggar. The only name I ever heard him called was Jack.
He was one of the younger lads, and shivering so dreadfully on the
morning of the Battle ---from cold and fear alike---that I gave him my
coat, his being tattered, and far too light to serve. It's hard to
believe to look at me now, wrapped up as for a winter storm, and
pacing like an animal just to warm myself. But I was never cold in
those days, as you'll recall." He gave a bitter laugh, then shook his
head, as if to drive away the feeling.

"Looking back, I guess I was luckier than some. A ball grazed my head
very early in the fighting, and I knew nothing more, until I found
myself being dragged away by two English infantry..... What is it,
Mary? What have I said to upset you?"

"They dragged you to a grove of dark trees! You were dazed and pale,
but still they pulled at you fiercely, as if to throw you to the
ground and run you through."

"How on earth did you know that?"

"I saw it in my dream! I thought I was witnessing your death. Oh,
Michael, I've been so afraid!" It was some time before he could calm
her enough to give voice to his own bewilderment.

"It's all right, now. It's over. But the strange truth is....." He
hesitated, not wanting to upset her further. "I
thought it was the end for me as well, though they only took me to
stand with the other prisoners. That day, and especially those first
moments when I regained consciousness, have woven themselves in and
out of my nightmares ever since. I don't understand. How could you
have known?"

Surprisingly, it was the widow Scott who shed light on this first part
of the mystery. "I've heard it said that twins, or merely siblings who
have been close since childhood, can be miles apart, after a
separations of years, and suddenly know when the other is ill or in
danger. The two of you, growing up as brother and sister, were every
bit as close. And in some ways you shared a bond that was closer
still, because you were in love.

"I once heard you, Mary, cry out `Wolf!' in your sleep, only to learn
the next day that Michael had had a terrible dream, in which he was
being torn apart by wolves. I thought it unnatural, and an ill omen,
at the time. Now I do not. There is obviously a deep spiritual link
between you, such as I felt at times with my own husband. It is not
for us to question God's gifts," she concluded, "but only to use them
as well and honestly as we can."

"That is why I came when I did," the man confirmed. "I knew that you
were hurting and afraid. Somehow I knew."

"But the man in your grave," Mary persisted. "You gave another man
your coat. . .I remember they would not let me see the body. But
surely that was not enough, of itself, to mistake him for you."

"I'm afraid I must take the blame for that," said the woman sadly.
"The body, when it was brought to me for identification, was so
mangled by grapeshot. . .the face nothing but a bloody pulp. . .that
I'm ashamed to say I lost my self-control. Knowing that Michael's
papers had been found on him, I went into such a swoon of grief.....
Our poor countrymen who brought him could only assume that he was, in
fact, my son. The coffin was brought and sealed, and the next day we
buried him, along with all my hopes.

"I was trying to protect you, Mary, and was far too devastated to
think clearly, or to search for further proofs. His hair and features,
what could still be seen of them, were enough to complete the
illusion. I suppose that in after times some doubt of it crept back to
me. But as the months turned into years, and brought no word, I
despaired. The only defense I can make, is that the pain of not
knowing was greater still..... I could not ask myself, or those around
me, to bear it any longer."

There was silence. And then, without prompting, the young woman knew
that the time had come to tell her tale. The spirits of the Night, and
the shadows of Fear, must not be allowed to dwell inside her, but must
be held forth in the hard light of day. She was afraid, and many times
in the telling felt the pain of it too great to bear. But as Michael
had done in the hearing of a wise man of the sea, so Mary now poured
out the cup of her grief, not asking for pity, or answers, but only
speaking the words that would not lie still.

And when she had finished, Michael was there beside her, and her own
flesh still lived. Her eyes, which had misted and looked into places
dark and unfathomable, focused again on that which was real: stone,
fire, and flesh. And in this return to daylight senses she no longer
felt an all-conquering fear of the strange evens through which she had
passed, but only a restless curiosity, and reborn questioning of the
sinister forces which had then seemed so strong and undeniable.

"Can you tell me, Michael, what these things portend? Do you believe
in the powers that my mother worshipped and feared?"

"No, love. I do not believe in that kind of magic, nor have I any use
for miracles, outside the one great miracle of Life. Still less do I
believe in demons and sorcery now, for having heard your tale. It only
shows me, more clearly than ever, the power of superstition to
deceive. Would you like me to show you the key to the mystery, the
weak link which shatters the entire chain of seeming?"

"Yes," she replied. "More than anything."

"The answer is simple," he said. "It is music: a magic that is real,
disproving a magic that is not."

"I don't understand."

"Bagpipes,
Mary. Bagpipes. Twice you heard them, and twice after saw the
`spirits' which gave credence to all else, the foundation on which the
whole illusion was built. Here is what must have happened.

"The first spirit I can answer for plainly, for it was myself. James
and I had at last crossed the high road, and returned to land we could
think of as our own. He had been given the pipes by a crippled
soldier, one of our own, who took us in along the way. And now James
would be silent no longer. He insisted that we return as proud
veterans, and not skulking thieves. So as we parted ways at the last,
and when he deemed me safely hidden by the rise that shields the
cottage, he began to play, and marched off in defiant glory.

"Shortly afterward I found you in tears, lying across a grave that
bore my name. It broke my heart to leave you there, even with the
spoken promise---you did not imagine it---that I would come back to
you. But I was determined to bring no danger upon you, or upon this
house, until the pursuit had cooled, and the chance of discovery grown
less. Looking back, it was a cruel mistake. But I was obsessed. I was
going
to escape, and bring no danger upon you. I hope you can understand,
and forgive me."

"Of course," said his mother, for both of them.

"Thank you," he said quietly. Mary nodded gently, and asked him to
continue.

"All right.... And yet again, by the Standing Stone, you heard
bagpipes. Did they play Scotland the Brave?"

"Yes," she answered, understanding at last.

"It is the only song James knew, or ever wanted to learn. It was he
you saw: pale with affliction, kilted as a sign of defiance, as he
could not be by day. He must have been half dead by then.....

"For he, too, was determined to bring no harm upon his family. Like
myself he would not go to them, though he was too proud, and too far
gone, to conceal himself as I did. I could not convince him to follow
me to the hiding place, and I could not force him. I believe now that
he must have spent those last nights in wandering and delirium,
waiting for the chance to perform his final deed. But unstable as his
mind had become, the heart beneath remained intact. And there were
moments of perfect lucidity, as when he looked up from the ravine, and
saw you.

"He fled from your mother not in fear, but to protect her, and
yourself." He released a deep breath. "The Stone, and the words of the
spell, were impotent but for the power you gave them. The mind creates
worlds of its own, every bit as tangible, and every bit as dangerous,
as the physical reality we all share. Give up your common sense, your
right to question, and you become a helpless lamb among the wolves of
this world."

"Yes," said Mary. "Now it all seems so clear. The trunk filled with
charms, the talismans to drive away your spirit, the spell my mother
believes she cast over Stephen Purceville: all but the fabric of
illusion, given substance by the wholly independent actions of men. I,
too, have no more need of such miracles."

"But," said Michael firmly. "Though the shadows of evil fade in the
light of day, the evil itself does not. The Purcevilles, both young
            and old, are still very much to be feared."








Nineteen

As if in answer to his words, the thunder of hoofbeats came suddenly
to their ears, approaching unexpectedly (for the British fortress lay
in the opposite direction) from the west. The widow Scott, who had
felt the danger growing as the day wore on, was the first to react.
She was up and out of her chair, and pulling back on the carpet before
her son had a chance to stand clear.

"Michael, quickly!" And she forced her trembling hands to find the
latch, and pull open the trap door.

"Michael, quickly!" And she forced her trembling hands to find the
latch, and pull open the trap door.

Michael moved toward the opening, then turned to say a last word to
his betrothed. But by chance his eyes lighted on her portrait, and for
the first time he saw the bullet-hole at her throat. In horror he
thought of Stephen Purceville, and in a flash read between the lines
of what the women had (and had not) told him. And even as his mother
tried to urge him down the steps, he reached out and took his lover by
the wrist.

"Mary, too! Until we're sure!" She nodded gratefully, not wanting to
be parted from him, and the two descended.

"Remember my words," the widow whispered through the crack, before
sealing them in darkness. "You must be willing to sacrifice me. No
arguments!"

She closed the trap and pulled the rug to, even as the snorting of
hard-driven animals mingled with men's voices and the sounds of
dismounting. Heavy boots rattled the front steps, followed by a
thumping fist upon the door.

"Open," came a heavy voice. "In the name of the King, and on peril of
your life. Open!"

Anne Scott looked quickly about her for any tell-tale signs of
company. There were none, and gratefully she recalled the other
precautions she had taken: both bedrooms had been straightened, the
dishes cleaned and put away. But for Mary's cloak, which she could
pass as her own, the two still wore all the clothing they had brought.

Mastering her fright as best she could, fiercely determined to protect
her young, she went to the door. . .and opened it.

But for all her resolve, her eyes were unprepared for the spectacle
which greeted them. The Lord Henry Purceville himself stood before
her. And beyond his hulking form, she saw the bodies of two men slung
across spare horses, one of which, dressed in ill-fitting clothes,
pale and stained with earth..... It was only by supreme exertion that
she kept herself from swooning. There were twenty riders at least, all
tainted with the smell of smoke.

"Where is she?" bellowed Lord Purceville, pushing her aside with such
force that she really did stagger. Then to her bewilderment his son,
who had followed him in, caught her up, and in the moment it took to
steady her, whispered in her ear:

"Tell him nothing. I'll do what I can to protect you." The older man
whirled angrily.

"I tell you I want
her. Ballard! Tear the place apart. Stubb! Take the rest of the men
and search the surrounding countryside. Meet me back at the barracks
with your report; and if you value your hide, don't come back empty!"

With this all but two of the men---the one called Ballard, and another
he detained by seizing his collar and shoving him forward---rode off.
These entered quickly, and began going through the rooms, opening
drawers and overturning furniture.

Of the two only Ballard, a large, swarthy man whose hands and face
were darkened with soot, seemed to enjoy the work. The other, a lad of
sixteen or thereabouts, only followed with a scared look, doing what
his Lieutenant commanded. As for Lord Purceville, he sat himself in
the chair that Mary had occupied, and stared at the woman icily,
beckoning (ordering) his son to sit across from him. The widow Scott
could only look back at him in dismay, and try not to notice his thick
black boots, resting at the very edge of the carpet.

He was heavier, and grayer than she remembered, those many long years
ago. But her first impression of him then---that of a bull about to
charge---still held true. He was a big man, both taller and more
thickly muscled than his son. Their faces were much alike, except that
the father's was fuller: more rudely carved, more deeply lined, more
savage.

But if harsh features were a mark of lesser intelligence, then the
rule was broken here. His mind was more than a match for his son's, or
even Mary's. The truly frightening thing about him, as she would soon
learn, was that this glowering beast, this physical brute, was also
sharper and shrewder than any man she had ever known. She could not
feel brave in his presence, only vulnerable and afraid.

But as the two men returned from the loft, reporting, "No sign that
anyone's been here but herself, though the upper room is undoubtedly a
young lady's," she remembered the dangerous nearness of those she had
sworn to protect, and the injuries they had already suffered at the
hands of such men. Her pride returned, along with the instinctive
cunning of a woman cornered.

"Of course," she said, feigning indignation against the search alone,
and total ignorance of what they could want from her. "It is my
niece's room, to return to if and when she chooses."

"And where is she now?" demanded the tyrant.

"She has gone to live with her mother, as I told your son not a
fortnight since. I suggest you look for her there." It occurred to her
only after she had said this that it might endanger her sister-in-law.

"It may please you to know," he said calmly, taking a sharpened
letter-knife from his coat and twirling it carelessly between his
fingers, "that we have already been to see the widow MacCain. She,
too, had the insolence to speak to me in such a manner. Would you like
to know what we did to her?
Tell her, Ballard."

"Burned her for a witch, we did---tied to a tree, right up on her own
roof." The man smiled, as if he found this detail particularly
satisfying. "My one regret, Lord, is that you hit her so hard in the
questioning, she never regained her senses to enjoy it. One would have
thought she was dead already."

"That will be all, Lieutenant. Take the bodies back to the Castle. But
first, check the neighborhood. See if you can't flush out a kilt and
jacket for our amorous red-haired friend, if you follow my meaning."

"I do at that, sir. And I don't suppose it would hurt to brand him for
a prisoner as well?"

"Number 406. Good day, Ballard." The Lieutenant pushed the younger man
forward, then followed him out, closing the door behind.

"As you see," continued Purceville, "I have ways of arranging
circumstances to meet my own ends. And I have no qualms at all about
eliminating women who oppose me. I can think of at least a dozen
pretexts to end your
life right now. Would you like to hear them?"

"I have told you already," said the woman, vainly trying to suppress
the image of her sister engulfed in flames. "I have told you that my
niece is not here, that she left me a week ago. Your son himself can
attest to that..... I do not know where she is."

"That is the second time today you have referred me to my son. The
truth is, dead woman
, that I have no strong inclination to believe him. I don't know what
it is about the MacCain girl that causes those around her to feel so
protective---the illusion of innocence, no doubt---but it seems I must
accept the fact. My own son has lied to me about the `cousin' who
saved her from assault, neglecting to mention that the man was also a
Jacobite, and one of the fugitives we sought. Fortunately, as you saw,
I take nothing for granted. I found it out for myself, and now have
the evidence I need to hang her, if I so desire."

"On what charge?"

"Harboring a fugitive!" he bellowed. "And conspiracy to murder
soldiers of the crown! One of my men was killed in this alleged
`assault', and another has disappeared entirely. All serious crimes,
punishable by death." He paused, letting this new threat sink in. "Now
do you have anything to say to me, to save the girl's life, as well as
your own?"

The widow glanced quickly at the son, wondering when, if not now, he
intended to come to her aid. But he only turned away, and she
surrendered all hope of it. Looking back at the father, who had
stopped twirling the knife, and only stared back at her with cold
murder in his eyes, she could not help but feel that the end had truly
come.

She had been prepared for the worst, and ready to sacrifice all.
Because of this, and because of the skilled aggression of the Lord
Purceville, everything she saw and heard only worked to confirm her
darkest imaginings. Her heart went cold inside her as he rose to his
feet, the knife clenched firmly in his hand. Her eyes misted and her
limbs trembled; but she never once thought of betraying her son. She
hung her head and was silent, waiting for death.

She waited in vain.

Stephen Purceville did not intervene, among other considerations,
because he knew that his father was bluffing. Even a Governor could
not kill a woman without cause, and Stephen was astute enough to know
it. The political winds, to which his father was not immune, were
shifting. A move toward reconciliation had begun, and such acts of
wanton violence, as well as the men who employed them, were rapidly
losing favor in the eyes of the Court. Also, his father had made many
enemies in his rise to power, men who would use such a thing against
him, as they had tried to use the escaped prisoners. To burn a corpse
as a scare tactic was one thing. To murder a woman in cold blood was
quite another. Not that the younger man put it to himself in this way.
He did not have to. He knew the realities, and he knew the man. His
father was bluffing.

The woman was startled out of her black study by the last sound on
earth she expected. Rather than the slow, sinister footsteps she had
tried to anticipate, she was called back instead by the sound,
infinitely more mocking than laughter, of strong male hands striking
together. She looked up, and he was clapping!

"Madame," he said, "I salute you. You have withstood the first
assault. I can afford to be magnanimous, for you will not survive
the second." And again the face turned deadly serious, though the look
of restless violence was gone. It was impossible to believe that it
had been feigned. It had not. But neither had it brought the desired
result; and he was wise enough, now, to adopt a different course.

For he had no doubt that the woman was hiding something. The hard edge
of his foil remained, but the strokes became finer, more mincing.

"A lesson for you, Stephen. Most women, indeed, almost all, can either
be bought, or threatened into giving up what is wanted. Why? Because
they lack the simple courage---to face life in the first case, and
death in the second. They use money, and men, as a shield against
life; and nothing on this earth can induce them to face death, or even
the thought of death.

"I have heard it said that if women ruled the world, there would be no
war. That is true, but hardly a compliment. The reason
there would be no war is that none of them would have the courage to
fight it. At the first shot they would all throw down their arms and
run away. Deceit, manipulation, love. These are the weapons they
employ.

"But as witnessed here, there are a few scattered instances of honest
character, of a woman standing up to death. But almost always it is
done in the defense of her immediate family: her husband, her child.
That is what puzzles me here. Having threatened her own life
unsuccessfully, I took the next step, as I taught you long ago:
threaten the thing she is trying to protect, and mean it. But even
this brought no result. Why? At such times one must draw back, look
beneath the surface, examine motive

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