hello tilde it has been a while i guess

i had an intake appt for adhd testing yesterday but it sounds like it's gonna be a drawn-out complicated and probably expensive
process which sucks

on one level i don't care about diagnoses bc i am what i am, you know? this is my life. this is how i've always been

but on the other hand it'd sure help with treatment if i knew what the actual problem was

still applying to jobs but after my initial random streak of luck with two interviews in a row it seems to be back to dead silence
from the people i apply to

which is depressing. hire me, dammit