I have been still looking for some nice research perspective.
Many popular perspectives feel inadequate for me, so I keep looking for something that is satisfying.
I have found writings of Eugene Matusov, actually it is a friend of mine that recommended them to me.
Dialogic perspective manages to reconciliate subjects of truth, perception, reality, that were bothering me.
I am usually careful with thought shortcuts and this approach is precise enough for me, though for sure I do a lot of other shortcuts that feel alright to me.
I am also trying to progress on searching for how tilde.town community "articulates" around its settlement.
It feels quite dead-end, for lack of precision of what I am actually seeking.
I have started reading through web interface. It surprisingly seems like a central piece where tilde.town philosophy and dynamics are placed.
It surprises me, as it is somehow external part of the server. I wonder if there could be a place inside the server where we could get all that info.
Hmmm... I imagine "man tilde.town" !
Also, I have uploaded some writings/assignments to my gopher.
If you are interested, you can check there what are my specific research goals and mindset.
## Kafka would be proud of the University
As you might know, I studied in France before, and now I am doing master degree in Spain.
My idea was to do a phd afterwards.
Unfortunately, I realised that I would have to do yet another master, as I am missing still 60ects points.
My first master was in a private school, so it does not count, so to get to phd I would need to do a third one!
This seems so absurd.
I remember that when I was deciding for the master I am doing now, I spent quite a while searching for compatibility/requirements info on the University site.
As I found nothing suspicious, I inferred that all was fine.
It was not.
Trying to find some solution, as I cannot pay yet-another-master, I have found that there are online and free of charge master degrees in Sweden.
I am enrolling for one.
And - what a difference - on their website there is full and explicit information on all the requirements, graphs on their education model.
I wrote to Master's coordinator and got an answer in few hours.
I want things to be organised and settled to feel comfortable.
Probably I should leave Spain.
## feels
I am a bit better now, I realised that if I do not get my shit back and going, nobody will do it for me.
So I decided to be tough again, fight away guilt thoughts I have.
I still have to figure out how to deal with my sensation of being a total social inadept.
And I realise that an important part of my feeling totally out is the inability to get decent job.
Actually I stopped hoping that I can ever get anything else then heavy exploitation and this makes that I even do not try.
So I scheduled on my ToDo list sending some CVs.
