If you get up at that time - and the little demons get dark and
  creepy at that point of the day (it's like a daily "drug crash"
  that everybody experiences) - try hard to retain the 'observer"
  character in your mind - the one watching yourself go through
  this. The Narrator Voice has to be the strongest - the one you
  have most control of. "Oh look. Those brain chemicals are at
  work. Stupid brain... chemicals. This will pass. This will pass.
  Let's see, what do I have to look forward to today? Nothing? No
  no - that's the chems talking. yes, yes, the crappy stuff - i
  acknowledge you guys too - but what about the good things? Hmm -
  maybe I should look in the mirror for a few minutes. maybe i'll
  draw a warm bath.... No No - what I'm doing is NOT useless -
  IT'S not a waste of time. Yes, I AM worthy. I'm NOT faking it.
  I'm not a fraud that they'll see... "

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