Going through my own past knowledges (as I go in and out of
  'phases' where I get a deep interest in something for a time,
  then move to another phase learning deeply about something else)
  - to figure out "What is it" that I have to give to the world in
  terms of knowledge, so that someday someone will say to your
  question: "I'm reading _________ by Kenneth Udut which is about
  _________"