Did you order them with your head, with the culmination of
  society's will over you, accumulating within your over your
  lifespan and resulting in a set of confusing logical choices
  that were contradictory and self-defeating and leaving you a
  tangled mess of potential choices, some internal and some coming
  from sources so deep in your personal history that you can't
  possible untangle them within a single lifetime, or with your
  heart or with your stomach?   Well, that is, unless you believe
  in a pre-determined purely mathematically derived universe in
  which case all four choices (or was it three?) are really none
  choice.

  But I hate none choice.