I shall. I believe nothing is impossible, so long as you're
willing to change the context you are working from within.
Some shifts of context are almost painful at first, because
you're accustomed to doing things a certain way.
I used to say "I don't care what other people think" but that
was a lie.
I *do* care what other people think, but I only care about the
things they think about that are related to something I care
about.
Thankfully, knowing that I seem to fit the trope / archetype of
the Doc Brown / Doctor Who / Nutty Professor, I allow that to be
my persona, which affords me some freedoms in being more
emotionally expressive than I might otherwise be, had I thought
of "what people see" as "me".
Since I'm in the continual process of discovery of 'me' - and
since people generally view others based on stereotyped patterns
of "what this or that 'group' of people are like" that they
learned when they were young, AND they base a lot of their ideas
about "people groupings" based on movies, tv shows, even more
than tropes/stereotypes they find in their real lives...
...I knew that the appearance of "nutty professor guy who might
be crazy but might be onto something" would be socially
acceptable in its own way, hence appearances tongue emoticon -
and that person is and is not me simultaneously.
...which is why I go forward bravely, without shame smile
emoticon Thanks grin emoticon I love validation.
